After Dressing as a Male Cross-dresser

Li Qingyan was obviously flattered.

In the past, this position should have been Li Dazhuang.

It's not that Li's mother is partial, but that Li's mother is relatively simple, and Li Qingyan is very sensible. Then she would rather her brother eat more and grow taller, so she never mentions what she likes to eat.

Mother Li was also busy with her livelihood at the time, with limited energy, Li Dazhuang was smaller, and Li Qingyan was sensible and worry-free, so mother Li paid more attention to Li Dazhuang and neglected Li Qingyan.

For a long time, Li's mother even naively thought that Li Qingyan was just what Li Dazhuang liked to eat.

She also wondered that these two children are not twins, and their tastes are quite the same.

"Mom, why are you going to [Nuoxue] to buy strawberry cake? It's not anyone's birthday today."

Li Qingyan's tone of doubt grew stronger, interrupting Li's mother's memory.

"Nuoxue" is a well-known cake shop here. The strawberry cakes there are very famous. Not only are they expensive, but they are also limited daily. Even if you wait in a long queue for a few hours, you may not be able to buy them.

But Li Qingyan really likes it very much, and she likes it to the point that she has never eaten a bite.

Li Qingyan used to go through the "Nuoxue" before going to school, and would stand in front of the strawberry cake for a few minutes every time. This has been a habit for more than ten years.

But she never talked to Li's mother or Li Dazhuang.

In the early years, I didn’t have any money. At that time, the family was struggling to eat, and they also mentioned about buying cakes. Later, when I grew up, I didn’t think like that when I was a child. It was just a longing in my heart, so she still kept it. It's a habit to come and have a look when you have time.

Not wanting, but wanting to remember this moment, this moment belongs to Li Qingyan's own time.

After this moment, she was still the "little sun" Li Qingyan who made her mother and younger brother rest assured and dependent.

When Li Qingyan heard Li Qingyan's question, Li's mother twitched at the corner of her mouth.

"I just passed by today. Seeing no one is in line, I will buy it for you to try."

Seeing that Li Qingyan had no doubts, Li's mother's eyebrows trembled slightly.

The three of them ate this meal very happily.

Later, Li's mother proposed to take Li Qingyan out to play, and Li Qingyan naturally agreed.

The three chose the amusement park, but the roller coasters and bungee jumping proposed by Li Dazhuang were resolutely rejected by Li's mother. Instead, they chose the carousel that Li Qingyan liked very much when he was young.

Li Qingyan didn't doubt that he had him, only that Li's mother wanted to play something relaxed today, and besides what Li Dazhuang suggested, she also felt that it was not suitable for Li's mother to play.

night.

Li Qingyan hugged the oversized rabbit doll Li Dazhuang had won in the shooting game, and smiled happily.

In fact, Li Qingyan has passed the age of liking dolls, but this is a gift from her brother, which is naturally extraordinary.

When Li Qingyan was paying attention to the baby, she didn't pay attention to Li Qingyan's eyes when she saw Li Qingyan with such a brilliant smile.

At night, when Li Qingyan suggested that Li Qingyan should sleep with her, Li Qingyan finally found something was wrong.

She would hold the rabbit doll Li Dazhuang gave her, tilted her head and talked with Mama Li.

"Mom, what's wrong with this one? Spoil me so much?"

Li Qingyan finally discovered that everything that happened today seemed to revolve around her, whether it was eating or playing, she suddenly felt like she was holding her hand in her mother's heart.

Mother Li's expression stiffened a little, but she quickly laughed.

"It's okay, you are my daughter. Isn't it a matter of course that I treat you well?"

Li Dazhuang on the side heard the words and yelled jokingly.

"What about me, what about me? Do you want a son if you have a daughter?"

"Mom, you are really partial!"

This is the second time Li Dazhuang mentions "eccentricity", but Li Qingyan has been mingling with Li Dazhuang since he was a child, and naturally heard that he was just playing around, and was just about to reply with a smile.

But I don't know which nerve of Li Dazhuang's words touched on Li's mother.

On Mother Li's gentle and gentle face, her expression hardly sank.

"Eccentric, yes, I was really eccentric before."

As soon as the voice fell, there was a moment of stagnation in the air, and Li Dazhuang, who was the fuse, and Li Qingyan, who was holding the rabbit doll, were shocked.

In the impression, Mama Li seems to have never said anything hard.

Li Qingyan habitually took responsibility.

"Mom, don't be angry, and don't be angry with your brother. If you want to blame, I'm so cute today. Mom can't help but want to hurt me more."

Li Qingyan smiled and joked, in front of the peacemaker.

But suddenly he touched Mother Li's red eyes, and stared at her without blinking. There seemed to be deep nostalgia in her eyes that did not dare to blink and could not bear to blink.

Li Qingyan was taken aback, blurted out subconsciously.

"Mom, you..."

Mother Li interrupted her, and Li Dazhuang said.

"You go in and I will speak with your sister alone."

It's Li Dazhuang's innocence, and he can see that there is something wrong with Li's mother. Besides, he just provokes Li's mother to be upset. He dared not provoke Li's mother at this moment, so he went back to his room obediently.

After Li Dazhuang left, only Li Qingyan and Li's mother were left in the living room.

Li Qingyan was a little worried, and repeated it again.

"Mom, what's the matter with you?"

Mother Li pursed her lips and did not answer directly. After a while, she suddenly asked an irrelevant question.

"You... why didn't you go abroad to continue your graduate school?"

Li Qingyan blinked, maybe she didn't expect Li's mother to ask this suddenly, but she quickly answered.

"Didn’t I tell you that, your daughter is tired of studying, and doesn’t want to continue studying. Besides, what’s good abroad, the food is not good, and the people who are still unfamiliar with you, how can she stay with you and your brother? Be comfortable together."

While speaking, Li Qingyan smiled brightly as always, and in front of Li's mother, she didn't want to show any negative emotions.

But Li Qingyan was smiling, but Mother Li couldn't laugh at all. On the contrary, after Li Qingyan finished speaking, the movement of Li Qingyan's lips became more serious.

"Then why go to Qingshan Kindergarten to teach?"

Qingshan Kindergarten, a well-known aristocratic kindergarten in the city, is also the kindergarten closest to Li Qingyan's home. Although the salary is high, it is hard work and hard work overtime, and the work pressure is so high that the early hair loss.

Li Qingyan was still smiling.

"Isn't this taking advantage of my youth to exercise myself, and the work experience of Qingshan Kindergarten can be well plated with gold."

Li Qingyan also cooperated with her expression, and looked enthusiastic about working in the kindergarten.

But this kind of Li Qingyan looked in the eyes of Li's mother, but it was inexplicable--

Want to cry.

She lied.

She refused to go abroad for graduate school because she wanted to work early, support her family and make money, and share the burden for her.

Choosing Qingshan kindergarten to work is firstly the closest to home, which is convenient for taking care of the family, and secondly, it is the place with the highest salary among the “teachers” in this city.

What plating gold? That's all bullshit.

If there is no higher salary in this city than Qingshan Kindergarten, Li Qingyan will not quit even if he is exhausted.

And all the money she saved was given to the family.

Why, she has only now discovered what her daughter has on her back, and even... even lost herself.

Mother Li's fingers dangled on both sides, subconsciously tightening.

It's just like "Nuo Xue" strawberry cake.

"Nuo Xue" strawberry cake, there was a time when Li Qingyan left something. Li Qingyan went after her and found that Li Qingyan had stood in front of the strawberry cake for a few minutes but didn't move.

After that several times, I was met by Li's mother.

At the beginning, Mama Li didn't know the reason, but now Mama Li knows that it is a symbol for Li Qingyan to remind herself all the time.

She is the backbone of the family, and she is not qualified to be herself.

But when did this start?

Mother Li fell into the memory, but soon her eyebrows were slightly stagnant, and the gaze looking at Li Qingyan was so distressed that it began to blur.

Her youthful face, her daughter, are also her heart and liver, but she failed to take her seriously.

Mother Li remembered when Li Qingyan started to change.

That year Li Dazhuang was six years old and Li Qingyan was eleven years old. Li's mother finally had a fairly stable job. She was able to feed her family, but she needed a night watch. Mother Li was also eleven years old. Li Qingyan seriously ordered.

"Qingyan, you are a elder sister, you have to be sensible, you have to let your younger brother, take care of your younger brother, and take good care of this family, you know?"

At that time, Li Qingyan's big eyes were transparent and clear. She just reacted to what Li's mother said, and then her small face suddenly became serious, and she nodded solemnly and seriously with her mother.

At that time, Li Qingyan just wanted to let Li Qingyan take care of her home for a while. Unexpectedly, Xiao Li Qingyan took this to heart.

The "family" has since become Li Qingyan's top one, even ahead of her.

In addition to work, she has never been in a relationship. She has no time. She has to take care of her mother and younger brother, and even to reduce the burden on the family. Even the tuition and living expenses for college are obtained through scholarships and part-time jobs.

She did nothing wrong, but she did a great job.

Whether it is Li Dazhuang, her, or even their entire family, they are relying on Li Qingyan invisibly. Li Qingyan has become the pillar of the family. With Li Qingyan, she and Li Dazhuang will feel at ease.

This was the three months when Li Qingyan became a vegetative. Mother Li was shocked. Therefore, after Li Qingyan woke up, she would be so happy, as if the whole family suddenly had the backbone.

But she forgot to ask Li Qingyan, her daughter.

Is this the life she wants?

What about her ideals, her ambitions, and even her love?

Is she really happy?

She was supposed to be at an age when she needed to warm and caring and hug her, but she put a heavy burden on her shoulders. This pressure has lasted for more than ten years, and she still feels relieved.

Mother Li suddenly realized that she was cruel.

She folded her daughter's wings.

In the name of love, bound by a cage.

Mother Li could feel the blur in her eyes, but she dared not cry in front of Li Qingyan. She worried her daughter for more than ten years, and she didn't want to worry about her anymore.

Therefore, she quickly suffocated her tears, and then smiled.

"Yan Yan, let me braid you."

After speaking, he walked behind Li Qingyan.

Li Qingyan didn't keep up with Mother Li's jumping thinking, but she was also diverted. She touched her half-length hair.

"Now this length is not easy to edit."

At this moment, Li's mother had already lightly picked up a few strands of Li Qingyan's hair and started braiding.

The look in her eyes is as gentle as when Li Qingyan was young, before Li Dazhuang was born, and when their family was not so down, she patiently braided Xiao Li Qingyan.

Xiao Li Qingyan still had long hair at the time, she would always leaning on her lower abdomen unconsciously, shaking her little head, smiling innocently.

"Mom, the braids you braid for me are so beautiful. I will keep my hair long and let you braid me every day."

But Xiao Li Qingyan has cut short hair since she was eleven.

For no other reason, Li's mother didn't have time to braid Xiao Li Qingyan's hair, and Xiao Li Qingyan didn't have time to take care of her hair.

Her time should be spent taking care of her younger brother and taking care of the family.

Mother Li's eyes gradually dissipated, the memories ended, and the movements on her hands were completed. Two short braids were placed on Li Qingyan's collarbone, giving her a little girly feeling of her age.

Mother Li gently tugged Li Qingyan's pigtails, the action was exactly the same as when Li Qingyan was a child, every time she braided Li Qingyan's braids.

And every time at this time, Li's mother would ask a word.

Mother Li looked at the soft but already short hair in her hands. Her other hand was inserted straight into her palm, suppressing the itching in her nasal cavity, and her voice was as kind and gentle as ever.

"Yan Yan, are you happy?"

Li Qingyan was admiring herself as a rare girl in the mirror, and she didn't even want to answer.

"Well, happy."

The smile is exactly the same as Li Qingyan when she was a child.

In an instant, Mother Li turned her head quickly, tears that could no longer be suppressed in her eyes flowed down the corners of her eyes, silently.

That night, Li Qingyan slept next to Li's mother, sleeping peacefully.

And Mother Li just stared at her daughter's sleeping face so quietly, her face in the night, stiffened for a long time.

After a while, Li's mother gently traced Li Qingyan's eyebrows with her fingers.

Wanting to remember something in general, she took a deep look at Li Qingyan who was asleep.

After that, a trace of firmness and relief flashed in his gentle eyes.

Mother Li smiled.

Her face, her daughter.

It's time to live for yourself.

Live happily for yourself once.

The next moment, Mother Li gently hugged Li Qingyan and whispered softly in the ear of the sleeping Li Qingyan.

"Yan Yan, mother loves you."