After rebirth, the second generation of Buddhist star is a medical boss

Chapter 719 Second update

Ning Youguang analyzed with Shi Wangyue all the thoughts that had come up in his mind this day because of Liu Susu's incident.

"I can also advise you to treat her better. Even if you don't treat her better emotionally, you can at least be generous to her financially. This is a no-brainer for us, and I can do it too.

It would be easy to forgive her and even help her as I have helped so many others, but..."

She felt her heart was a little heavy, "But I asked myself seriously, will this hurt you? Will this force you to go against your original intention? If you go against yourself because of my request,

If you don’t have a heart, then I’m also cruel to you? Don’t persuade others to be kind if they haven’t suffered. I haven’t experienced anything you have experienced, and I haven’t suffered myself, so what qualifications do I have to ask you to forgive her?”

Shi Wangyue buried her head in Ning Youguang's neck and asked dully, "Is there any more?"

"Yes." Ning Youguang hugged Shi Wangyue and gently stroked the back of his head and back, "I know you haven't received any love from her since you were a child, and you still hate her, so I don't want to be with you.

As for your attitude towards her, what advice can I give you? No matter how you want to treat her, I will always stand with you unswervingly. But when it comes to dealing with your mother, I have a problem with you.

A little selfish hope."

"Say." Shi Wangyue said dumbly.

"Then I told you, don't feel uncomfortable hearing it." Ning Youguang vaccinated him in advance, "This is just my expectation for you, and I don't require you to do it."

"good."

"I hope that one day in the future you can not be resentful towards her, but remove the grudge in your heart and think about how to face the past. I am not asking you to choose to forgive her, but for yourself, you must

Face the difficulties head on. A person cannot keep a poisonous snake in his chest forever, nor can he get up every night and plant thorns in the yard of his soul."

Ning Youguang felt a little wet around his neck and his heart tightened slightly, but he said nothing more.

He just continued to stroke the back of Shi Wangyue's head and back again and again, giving him silent comfort.

After a long time, Shi Wangyue sniffed and said, "You know what? I'm actually a little scared."

"afraid of what?"

"I'm afraid that I won't be able to love." Shi Wangyue raised her head and took a deep breath. "I once read in a book that it was said that each of us is in the movement of big history, and we are just a part of this huge whirlpool.

'I must have all the qualities that I hate in my parents, but they are just covered up, denied and hidden by me. If I want to go through these, the most important thing is that I have to admit them and 'own' them, so it becomes

I can control them, not them controlling me. What's a little sad is that I have been looking at myself inwardly over the years. The more I observe, the more desolate I become. There are some things that I still can't seem to face, let alone any breakthroughs.

Already."

He smiled bitterly, "For example, when it comes to love, you said that the source of everyone's love is their mother, but the source of my love is a mess. It's so bad that I don't even dare to ask you to have a family dinner. Help me see if I can

Be connected to the source of love.”

He said, "I often see my own arrogance. You once said that arrogance is also a cover for inferiority. Confident people do not need the cloak of arrogance. When I see these things about myself, I start to be afraid. I am afraid of myself."

The source of love cannot be found.”

——"I'm afraid that I can't love you in the right way. I'm afraid that because I can't connect to the source of love and can't be love, I can only ask for love. I'm afraid that I don't have a sense of security, so I will become very possessive of you.

want."

So he has been restraining his heart. Sometimes even if his restrained heart hurts, he still has to tell himself that no matter what, he must not hurt his sister. This is the bottom line he has set for himself.

Ning Youguang hugged Shi Yue and said softly, "Don't blame yourself, love it and allow it. These are ourselves who were hurt because of our weakness."

"I don't seem to be able to fully accept myself like this."

Shi Wangyue thought about it and chose to face her heart honestly.

Because he desperately wanted to become a better version of himself and give her and their future family a better version of himself, so no matter how painful it was, he decided to choose to face himself bravely, his true self.

The self that had been injured and riddled with holes had become disgusting.

"I hated her so much before, but after being with you, I don't dare to hate her anymore. I'm afraid that my hatred for her will affect my love for you and our children."

So he chose to seal off all his feelings for Liu Susu.

In the second half of the sentence, Wang Yue did not say anything, but Ning Youguang also understood it.

"You don't believe that you can love others, and you don't believe that you get love from your parents?"

"yes."

"Then do you believe you will love me?"

Shi Wangyue did not answer.

Ning Youguang continued, "I believe you know that you love me. I am sure of it. The reason why you are silent is because you don't know whether you can love me with the most perfect and correct love."

"Yes." Shi Wangyue's eyes turned slightly red.

Ning Youguang gently stroked his slightly frowned eyebrows, "You will definitely believe me, right?"

"Yes." The corners of Shi Wangyue's eyes were moist, "Many times I doubt myself whether I have loved you in a better way. Although I have worked very hard to learn, I am not sure about this.

Is it right or not?”

Under the bright light, Ning Youguang looked at Wang Yue as he tore open his heart and exposed it to himself, "Do you think you are pretending to love me?"

"Of course not." This time, Shi Wangyue answered firmly.

"Do you think it's hypocritical for me to love you?" Ning Youguang asked again.

"No." Shi Wangyue answered firmly this time.

Ning Youguang also told him firmly, "Then don't doubt your love for me and the way you love me. There are thousands of theories about love, but in the end, we still have to see our own heart.

, everything you have given me, apart from your giving, is also my acceptance. You don’t believe in yourself, but believe in me. In this case, please continue to believe in me unswervingly, believe in me, even if you give me the wrong thing

The way of love, I can also interpret it into the correct way of love."

"I'm sorry." Shi Wangyue said, "Please continue to give me some time."

"The rest of my life is yours."

"Thank you." Shi Wangyue's throat was choked with sobs.

On the first day of the new year this year, he felt that he had become braver.

(End of chapter)