After the villain gave up, the heroines came one after another

After Li Xinzhi finished speaking his uncontrollable voice, he lowered his head in silence, because he found that he wanted to enlighten Ji Qingjue, but it was his turn to confide in Ji Qingjue...

This is not good. Although the sympathy between patients can relieve their pain, it is just like anesthetics, which can only relieve the need for a while. If you indulge in it, it will make yourself and Ji Qingjue go down a bad path. As a person who has been through it and an adult, you must be strong!

However... the state just now is really a bit like the previous life. In the last few years, I gradually entered a state of destruction, because of retribution or crazy work that overdraws my life for many years.

My body can be said to be riddled with holes, and the accumulated old injuries are gradually flaring up. Even the doctor was surprised after the examination and asked, why don’t you go to the ICU?!

But that will supported me to continue to struggle forward, but I couldn’t fall asleep in pain every night without drinking too much strong alcohol and sleeping pills, even if I read the game myself.

He has returned to his young and healthy body, but the phantom pain in his mind still tortures him...

But... he probably won't dare drink alcohol in this life. Li Xinzhi still remembers the bitter taste of cyanide and wine at the end of his previous life, as well as the feeling of sweet blood rushing up his throat... Now when he smells alcohol, he feels nauseous.

""Xinzhi, you must be having a hard time." When he was struggling to free himself from the chaotic memory, a delicate hand rested on his shoulder. Ji Qingjue couldn't help but look at him worriedly.

Seeing this girl, whom he wanted to comfort, now worried about his condition, Li Xinzhi felt ashamed. Ji Qingjue was stronger than he thought.

"Well, after a very long... very long journey, I finally came to my senses.……"Li Xinzhi smiled bitterly and responded to Ji Qingjue in a very abstract way. It was indeed a long road, so long that he didn't even realize that he had been walking for such a long time.……

How many miles should a boy take to become a man? Maybe it's just a moment, maybe it's decades, but Li Xinzhi knows that when he killed the little boy in his previous life, he completely became a cruel and cold-blooded adult.……

"Then can you... tell me, Xinzhi, how you really feel?" Ji Qingjue listened to these heavy words, and while feeling pity, he looked at Li Xinzhi more firmly, as if he wanted to know the answer from him.

"……Is this my true feeling? If I could, I would like to be a good grandson, a good husband, and a good brother. Unfortunately, these are no longer possible, but people always have to look forward.……"

After Li Xinzhi calmed down, he slowly told Ji Qingjue his innermost thoughts. Since the hedgehogs had already exposed their bellies to each other, there was no need to hide from each other. Just as Ji Qingjue believed that he would keep the secret, he also believed that Ji Qingjue would keep the secret.

"I used to live in the library... like at home. At that time, my life was only about studying, eating, and sleeping. I abandoned all activities that prevented me from moving forward, until I saw that book... a novel. I really like what the dwarf duke said."

It was like finally finding a tree hole where he could tell everything. Li Xinzhi was like releasing a flood, talking about his past. He was afraid that he would forget it. Now it was still high school years, but he still talked about his dream in the vine tree.

At that time, his life was like a clockwork. As long as he had a breath, he would tighten it madly and force himself to move forward, until he saw that novel.

"Never forget what you are, the rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor and it can never be used to hurt you."

Li Xinzhi read out the original sentence skillfully. His spoken English was very good because in his previous life, this language almost became his second mother tongue.

"Never forget who you are and the world won't forget either. Use your name as armor so no one can ever use it to hurt you."

As a good student, Ji Qingjue quickly said the translation word by word. When she read it out, her mind suddenly became clear, and she instantly understood what Li Xinzhi wanted to convey to her.

Li Xinzhi nodded, feeling that he was a teachable child. He liked the novel very much, and his favorite characters were the illegitimate commander and the dwarf duke.

Their story was a comfort to him. Of course, he didn't like the bad ending of the TV series.

But after watching it, he was more open-minded, made friends again, and started to participate in social activities. For him, it was a story full of redemption.

So through this passage, he was telling Ji Qingjue not to care about his identity and just live his own life.

But Li Xinzhi didn't like long preaching, because he had thought so much, how could he be moved by a few words, what a joke?!

So he said this to Ji Qingjue, hoping that she would realize what he meant in an instant, and he should believe that Ji Qingjue was a smart girl.

"Xinzhi... you are really an amazing person. I understand why Grandma Zhiyun trusts you so much." Ji Qingjue said with sincere admiration. Li Xinzhi is indeed worthy of learning no matter where he is. This is what Grandma Zhiyun specifically asked him to do before she left.

"Qingjue, you too, if only I were as strong as you before...……"Li Xinzhi also said that he admired Ji Qingjue, and he underestimated Ji Qingjue's tenacity. He must have gone through countless trials and tribulations, and trained himself to have a heart of diamonds. He was completely different from the old self who was weak and had a temper like a young master!

‘"It's all the same, I feel like I can feel that I can be more straightforward in my life in the future, because I have a partner who pushes me forward!" Ji Qingjue smiled and stretched out his hand to Li Xinzhi. A handshake represents complete trust in Donglu. This is the highest etiquette of friendship. Now, he has great trust in the boy in front of him.

When Li Xinzhi also smiled and wanted to stretch out his hand to shake hands with Ji Qingjue, he suddenly froze. A sudden touch stopped him. A strange and familiar feeling appeared in his right hand, with phantom limb pain.

He subconsciously raised his right hand to observe. Just like his right hand in the past, the veins under the skin were flowing with blood. Suddenly, he felt all kinds of feelings in his hand.

The touch of pulling the trigger, the touch of throwing a dagger, the touch of stabbing into the human body with his own hands, the touch of blood.…………

Even if it was a handshake, it was just a false expedient. After taking advantage of the short time, he would immediately and mercilessly kill his opponent...

Ah, I remembered that my hands were stained with countless sins and blood. Could I really hold the jade hand of Ji Qingjue, who was an innocent person? Would I not bring disaster to her?! Thinking of this, Li Xinzhi trembled with cold sweat. That was a mark engraved on his soul, a sin that really happened and could never be forgotten. Would I really accept this trust and bond with peace of mind now? Would I not hurt the people around me again?

"Xinzhi?" Ji Qingjue looked at Li Xinzhi, who was just fine. His right hand froze as he stretched it out. He kept sweating and his eyes were wandering. Like a frightened hedgehog, he retracted his outstretched hand.……

""Ah!" Suddenly, Ji Qingjue clenched her right hand tightly, which was already soaked with cold sweat. When Li Xinzhi, the old hedgehog, wanted to retreat, Ji Qingjue, the little hedgehog, held her hand regardless of everything... For the first time in Li Xinzhi's life, he felt a sense of security of being selflessly tolerated, the kind of security that came from knowing his ugly and unbearable side, but still holding his hand tightly and firmly supporting him.

It was this girl in front of him who was equally uneasy and hurt. She was so weak and uneasy, but she still held her sin-stained hand tightly, as if she wanted to comfort herself.

"Although I don't know what you've been through, Xinzhi, I will be by your side and won't leave you alone. This is our partnership declaration, isn't it?" Ji Qingjue showed a Madonna-like expression, full of determination, and said the partnership declaration.

"So... I lost my composure." Under the gentle magic, Li Xinzhi's stiff right hand slowly relaxed, and he also held Ji Qingjue's hand tightly, instinctively wanting to rely on this warmth.

"It’s okay, everyone has sad moments... Xinzhi, when you’re upset, you can rely on me!" Ji Qingjue smiled and shook her head, tolerating Li Xinzhi's uneasiness, which made him feel a little embarrassed. He obviously wanted to persuade her, but was comforted by Ji Qingjue instead.

"Is that so? Thank you, Qingjue." Li Xinzhi was a little shy and expressed his gratitude to Ji Qingjue, because she had just made him feel for the first time that someone was supporting him unconditionally.

"It's okay, Xinzhi. I'm very happy today. This is the happiest summer vacation in my life. I hope I can have such memories next year.……"Ji Qingjue was reluctant to leave, looking out the window at the world that was about to enter the night. The natural curve on her face showed that this was her sincere mood.

Obviously, after going through such an incident, she could still say that she was very happy. Ji Qingjue was really a very strong girl. She wanted to make herself and bring her more happy memories.……

"Let's come together again next year to create more memories... By the way, Qingjue, this is the gift I want to give you today. It's not something expensive! This is a thank you gift for doing housework!" After giving Ji Qingjue his serious response, Li Xinzhi seemed to remember something and hurriedly took out a paper bag from his bag.

This was bought specifically according to Song Zhiyao's suggestion. It was a tape player. It was said that it was left to Ji Qingjue by her mother. It was an old WMD-DT1 player. He specially asked the owner of the audio-visual store to search the warehouse before finding a new one that was still in good condition.

"So, thank you, Xinzhi." Ji Qingjue stroked the familiar edges and corners of the player and was very moved. It turned out that he really wanted to make her happy and gave her a gift. Thinking about it carefully, this was the first time she received a gift from a boy...

But the pain of today has dissipated, leaving only endless touching and happiness. Ji Qingjue met a companion who is worthy of her dependence and who can move forward together.…………No, I suddenly had a desire, not just a companionship, maybe I wanted a deeper relationship.

Ji Qingjue tilted her head, blushing as she stared at Li Xinzhi outside the window. A feeling she had never felt before arose spontaneously, and the suppressed throbbing could no longer be controlled. In the green rain of love in her heart, it began to sprout...