Back to the Years When My Father Was in School

Although she has signed a record company now, Jian Yao still likes to go to the bar to sing. She likes the relaxed and free atmosphere there. She likes the feeling that everyone is attracted by her singing, puts down everything in her hands, and concentrates on listening to her singing.

Lu Zhen often said that Jian Yao's free personality is not suitable for the entertainment industry.

Jian Yao only signed the company for only half a year. Counting it down, I don't know how many violations were committed.

The first one is to try not to show up and go out to sing easily. Jian Yao can't do it at all. She has many friends, and she often sings in bars with five drinks and six, making the place very hilarious.

It is also rare that her personality is a bit biased towards boys, and she is carefree and non-trivial, so it is easy to make friends.

Jian Yao's life seems to have never lacked excitement. Her personal style is too strong and she always has her own light, so the place where she stands must be the gathering place of people's eyes.

So even though her character is rebellious and unassuming, her company still insists on signing her, and always unconditionally tolerates her various bottom-line temptations and all her reckless behaviors.

They were sure that she would be able to fire, not only fire, but also explode, just like the brightest firework in the night sky.

She will be more beautiful than fireworks.

Jian Yao's first solo album was released in her junior year, and once it was released, it triggered a wave of hot sales.

The whole record has an unruly style. Even the photo of her on the cover of the record is an enlarged black and white face, only the lips are bright red, the wind dazzles the hair, and her jaw is slightly raised, with a bit of arrogance. Temperament, watching everyone.

At that time, the entertainment industry was still dominated by sweet, cute and playful style. Jian Yao's painting style was so unique that he attracted everyone's attention when he showed up.

Her voice is even more unique, with a faint smoky voice, and the song she sings is also a little lazy and rebellious.

That summer, Jian Yao was on fire.

Just as her company had expected, Jian Yao's jump to popularity was so rapid that it could almost be called a blockbuster.

However, Jian Yao, who became a star, did not become convergent and behave like everyone expected.

On the contrary, she is still me, still self-willed, doing what she likes, saying what she wants to say, living a real, lively life.

Lu Yan knew that his mother was a star and a superstar.

She was very naive when she was a child. She always took pictures of her mother to show off like the children around her, saying that my mother was a big star.

The children were so envious that Lu Yan had a star mother. Until one day, a female classmate in kindergarten said to Lu Yan: "Although you have a star mother, your mother is not by your side. You are a child without a mother. Don't envy you."

Lu Yan's hand holding her mother's photo suddenly tightened...

Although she is a star, she is no longer by her side, she left, and will never come back.

Lu Yan had forgotten many things in his childhood. Only that incident, she remembered clearly, even the different expressions on the faces of the children at that time, she can now recall clearly...

At that time, Jian Yao was really like fireworks, blooming enthusiastically in the night sky, then disappeared in a flash, and died silently...

In the past, his father never mentioned the cause of Jian Yao's death and never told Lu Yan the reason, but after all, his mother was a public figure, so there were many speculations and different opinions from the outside world.

Some people say that she committed suicide because of her extreme personality; others say that she fell ill and died in the hospital...

Sometimes the Internet is not well developed, and many news comes from entertainment tabloids. After the accident, Lu Zhen used all relations and forces to block news about the cause of Jian Yao’s death to prevent people from unwarranted speculation...

This was the only thing he could do for her in the end.

Lu Yan feels that neither of the two theories he heard when he was a child seems impossible. First of all, Jian Yao has always been in good health, without any diseases or hidden dangers;

As for the second argument, suicide seems even more impossible.

How could Jian Yao with such a clear temperament commit suicide? Besides, he left behind the wailing child, Lu Zhen, who was a father, and left this world...

Lu Yan rubbed her head, almost annoying!

Seeing the days go by, Jian Yao and Lu Zhen have gradually moved from dating to living together. Lu Zhen has graduated and started working, and has achieved little success. The two will soon discuss marriage.

She must find the cause of Jian Yao's death immediately.

As long as the reason is found, it is possible to eliminate and prevent it. Rebirth came back this time, no matter what, she must keep her mother's life.

During the junior winter vacation, Lu Yan and Shen Kuo returned to Beicheng.

Jian Yao is too busy at work, so she has no time to go home. For her now well-known, there are no winter and summer vacations, and her work schedule is already full.

In the evening, Lu Yan brought fruits and gifts to a small courtyard in the south of Beicheng near the suburbs.

This is Jian Yao's home.

She knocked on the door of Jian Yao's house, and soon, a middle-aged man who described as skinny and withered opened the door.

Lu Yan certainly recognizes him, he is her grandfather, Jian Hongliang.

Lu Yan only met Jian Hongliang a few times when she was very young, and Lu Zhen never let her meet her grandfather.

Because grandpa was a gambler, he was addicted to gambling, and he was also an alcoholic. He spent most of the day in drunken dreams...

Jian Yao said that her father treated her badly. He liked to drink, and when he was drunk, he would beat and scold her at every turn.

Therefore, Lu Zhen never had a good face toward this Yue Zhang, and it was even more impossible for him to come into contact with Lu Yan.

Suddenly seeing Jian Hongliang, Lu Yan felt very strange.

Jian Hongliang seemed to be awake at the moment, but as soon as the door was opened, a strong smell of alcohol came out.

"Who are you looking for?"

Lu Yan said to him politely: "I am a good friend of Jian Yao, she can't come back this summer, so ask me to come and see my uncle."

Jian Hongliang frowned: "She can be so kind, remember Lao Tzu?"

He looked down and saw the gift box and fruit in Lu Yan's hand, his expression lightened slightly.

It is impossible for Jian Hongliang to turn away the smiley people when they reach out their hands and don't hit the smiley people.

He rubbed his nose and said, "Come in."

Lu Yan and Shen Kuo walked into the room. The furnishings in the room were simple. The furniture and appliances were old styles many years ago. They have not been replaced. There are a few bottles of Erguotou on the coffee table, and some of the bottles are empty, lying sideways on the side of the table.

The window was closed tightly, and there was a strong smell of alcohol in the room. It could be seen that Jian Hongliang had just woke up from a hangover.

When he entered the kitchen to pour water, Shen Kuo grabbed Lu Yan's sleeve and asked in a low voice, "What are you doing?"

"Shhh, don't talk."

Before Shen Kuo had time to speak, Jian Hongliang walked out with two glasses filled with cold water, put it on the table, and said, "Sit down."

Lu Yan pulled at the corner of Shen Kuo's clothes and motioned him to stop talking, and the two sat on the chairs.

"My daughter long ago didn't recognize me as a father." Jian Hongliang sneered: "She is now a big star, and I don't put Lao Tzu in her eyes."

Lu Yan said, "Uncle, is your relationship with Jian Yao very bad?"

"Hmph, since her crazy mother left, she hasn't looked so good to Lao Tzu for a day. Now that she has grown up, her wings have grown stiff, and she has long denied my dad."

"You drink water."

Jian Hongliang handed the water glass to the two of them and insisted on letting them drink.

Shen Kuo picked up the cup, put it down immediately, and felt nauseous.

The water glass looks very old, I don't know how long it has not been used, and it is not clean to the naked eye.

Lu Yan picked up the water cup, and also paused, then drank the water in the cup.

Shen Kuo was stunned, and slowly swallowed his saliva, a little unbelievable.

Too hard.

Although Shen Kuo's family situation is not good, the house is kept clean and tidy anyway, and the cups and bowls are clean. He is a very clean boy, so when he enters the house, he can't stand the sloppy and dirty house.

Lu Yan knew that he thought the cup was dirty, it was really dirty, and Lu Yan didn't want to take a second look.

But since she is here, she must first obtain Jian Hongliang's trust and favor before she can ask for the information she wants to know.

"I'm so thirsty, you don't want to drink it for me." After saying that, she grabbed Shen Kuo's glass and drank it with her eyes closed and her head up.

Shen Kuo:...

Jian Hongliang finally had a smile on his face, and he was no longer so defensive, and relaxed to get together with Lu Yan: "Jian Yao is doing well at school, is there anyone bullying her?"

"Everything is fine, and she often misses you, uncle."

"She misses me? She misses me to die sooner."

Lu Yan smiled awkwardly: "Uncle, don't say such things."

"Hmph, since her mother died, she has not recognized me as a father."

Lu Yan asked smoothly, "Mother Jian Yao, when did she pass away?"

"When she is six or seven years old."

"At that time she was still very young."

"No, she's still a little yellow-haired girl. Her mother is crying at home every day, like weeping, and neighbors complain every day."

Lu Yan and Shen Kuo looked at each other without knowing what they meant.

"Auntie is sick?"

"To be sick is to think I am poor, I think I am poor, cry every day, saying that I can't live anymore...that day I took advantage of the fact that I went to work on the construction site, jumped off the building, and died."

Lu Yan covered her mouth and looked at Shen Kuo in amazement, who also frowned.

It seemed that Jian Hongliang hadn't spoken to anyone for a long time. Once the chatter box was opened, he couldn't close it, and continued: "This little girl was at home at the time. Here, stand there."

He pointed to the balcony opposite to the living room: "Standing there, holding her doll, watching her mother jump downstairs, she was so frightened, she didn't even cry. The neighbor behind called the police and called an ambulance. , It can be saved even if the brain is thrown out, it's not saved..."

Jian Hongliang talked about the suicide of his wife lightly, but Lu Yan was terrified.

"Uncle...why did she commit suicide? There must be a reason."

"Where did I know, she has a brain disease, she is really sick."

"What is the disease?"

Shen Kuo frowned. He didn't understand why Lu Yan had to break the sand jar and ask to the end. Speaking of it, it was quite abrupt for her to come here so rashly today.

Lu Yan didn't seem to be someone who would do such a thing, there must be a reason.

Although Shen Kuo had doubts, he did not interrupt her, but analyzed: "Could it be a mental illness?"

Jian Hongliang said casually: "When someone introduced her to get married, she didn't say that she had a brain problem. After giving birth to a baby, she cried every day, like a neurosis, saying that I was not good to her and that I would die and live."

"Did my aunt have these symptoms after giving birth?"

"Anyway, I didn't notice it when I got married. If I had known it earlier, I wouldn't have been taken advantage of it!"

…

When I came out of Jian Hongliang's house, the sky was gloomy and night fell.

Lu Yan seemed to have been thinking about Jian Hongliang's words, and muttered: "What kind of disease will happen after giving birth?"

"depression."

"what?"

He looked at Lu Yan and said calmly: "Crying every day, looking for life and death, these are all signs of depression, but the man doesn't understand this, it is because she has a brain problem and did not treat it in time."

"how do you know?"

"We used to live in a household across from the house. That aunt had depression and had symptoms similar to your grandmother's. I met several times. Once, the woman went crazy and ran out and hit the wall with her head and hit her head. Bloodshed, such a scene, once seen, I will never forget it in my life."

Shen Kuo said lightly: "This kind of severe depression is easy to commit suicide, and it is obviously familial."

"What, what do you mean?"

"It may be hereditary."

As soon as he finished speaking, Lu Yan stomped on the air. If Shen Kuo hadn't been so quick to hug her, she would have to roll straight down the narrow and steep corridor.

Shen Kuo frowned: "What's the matter, don't look at the road?"

Lu Yan murmured as if she lost her soul: "Severe depression... will inherit it, then Jian Yao and she..."

Depression too!

The truth seemed to slowly surface, revealing the tip of an iceberg.

As soon as Shen Kuo let go, the little girl's body fell down, as if all the strength of the whole body was exhausted.

He had to take off his schoolbag and put it on the ground, helped her sit on the side of the stairs, and asked, "What the **** is going on?"

"Shen Kuo, she has depression..." She clenched the corners of his clothes tightly, her whole body was shaking, and even the voice of her words trembled uncontrollably.

"She has depression!"

Her tears fell uncontrollably at all: "I never knew, no one told me, they didn't tell them all, hiding from me...my dad also hiding from me..."

Never said.

Everything about the mother, her illness, her death... they didn't mention a word.

Shen Kuo suddenly understood. He frowned slightly, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with his palms, hugged her distressedly, and calmed down in her ears: "Okay, don't cry."

Lu Yan hugged his neck and choked out of breath.

Everything is clear. The rumors of suicide are not groundless. Her mother passed away because of depression, so suicide was a matter of course...

Shen Kuo's heart was twisted into a ball, and he was extremely uncomfortable. The least he could see was Lu Yan's tears.

He held her and calmed her back silently.

The little girl cried enough and rubbed her tears on his shoulder.

Shen Kuo's hand rested on her thin shoulders, gently clinging: "In fact, there is no need to worry too much. Although depression is hereditary, it is also closely related to the surrounding environment. Your brother will love his girlfriend very much. It won't happen."

She knows that Lu Zhen loves Jian Yao very much. Jian Yao does not have any signs of depression, but... Lu Yan knows the future outcome, she can be sure that Jian Yao's future death must be related to this disease.

How can we save her, how can we save her!

Lu Yan's mind was confused.

Shen Kuo sent Lu Yan downstairs home, touched her head, and said, "It seems that you are in no mood to'say goodbye' to me today. Go home and take a hot bath, take a good rest, and stop thinking about these things."

"Um."

Lu Yan grabbed the corner of his clothes and kissed his lips on tiptoes.

Still have to "say goodbye".

Jian Yao gave birth to her only a few months before something went wrong. Jian Yao's mother also became ill after giving birth to depression after giving birth. Does this mean...

Shen Kuo's lower lip was suddenly bitten. He suffered a lot of pain and frowned, "What are you doing?"

Lu Yan widened his eyes and looked at the young boy close at hand, her eyes full of fear.

If so, as long as Jian Yao didn't have a baby, as long as Lu Yan didn't come to this world, would she just...

Won't die!