Chasing Tides

Ning Lan didn't plan to answer. Sui Yang raised his hand for more than half a minute, his hands were stiff, and suddenly he heard the ringing of the phone. When he went to touch the wall, he didn't know which cell phone he was tucked into. Throw the clothes back into the basin, reach for the flower.

"My young master." As soon as the phone was answered, Wang Xu stretched his tone and shouted weakly. "Can't you keep a low profile? Your underpants are almost chopped up."

Sui Yan turned and walked to the corner, and asked, "What underpants?"

"Someone took a picture of you and Ning Lan and asked about it in an anonymous forum. In less than two hours, those fans took the two of you down, and the food blogger you liked might be Ning Lan. All of them were guessed. Fortunately, Mi Jie found it early, and I went to find someone to delete it, otherwise things were caught and fermented by the media, and you don't want to let go of the remaining half-month leave. "

Sui Yang is quite satisfied with the artist's job, not only professional counterparts, but also continue to play the piano. The only thing that is unbearable is that sometimes the masks and hats used when going out are not fully armed, and it feels that the private life is closely watched by the people across the country.

"Pick it," Sui Yue said, "I'm just ready to be public."

"What?" There was a muffled sound from Wang Xu's heavy object, "Master, are you crazy? Now publicly, do you want to be a fan? Do you want a future?"

Sui Sui said: "I thought my attitude was clear enough. The Weibo that spoke to him and the actions at the concert was a buffer time for the fans. I have never avoided mentioning that he was looking for him in these years. This matter has now been found, why can't it be made public? "

Wang Xu held his forehead and took a deep breath and said, "I know that sooner or later, there will be such a day, but you have decided so unilaterally. Have you ever asked Ning Lan what he meant? Did he hide for so long to live safely? Do you think what will happen to him once it is made public? "

Sui Yun said in a deep voice: "I will protect him."

He had thought about this problem for a long time. He wanted to give Ning Lan a stable life, but also to give him a frank reputation. The former was the source of Ning Lan's happiness, and the latter was the only sense of security he could give Ning Lan.

In addition to being an ace artist of Starlight Entertainment, Sui Yang is also a real family background. Master Xiao, Wang Xu can not screw him, fearing that he can really take the lead and retreat, so he has to back down: "Okay, publicly, Let's find a time to sit down with the public relations department and have a good time. Choose the most appropriate time to make it public and minimize the damage to the fans and the influence of public opinion. It is not good for anyone to release it regardless of it. "

Sui Yue was relieved: "Well, I know."

Wang Xu whispered a few more words, let him hide, carefully be photographed by paparazzi, Sui Yang responded one by one.

Hanging up the phone and turning back, Ning Lan had reached the last dress. The flower was fixed on the clothesline with a clip, and the petals fluttered in the wind. When he approached, he could smell the sweet fragrance of flowers.

Ning Lan bowed into the room, and Sui Yan followed him without asking, "Did you have breakfast?"

"have eaten."

Put the basin under the pool, and Ning Lan opened the faucet and washed her hands. Sui Yan glanced at the two remaining buns on the side of the kitchen stove, expressing his desire.

After washing her hands, Ning Lan returned to the room to take medicine, and Sui Yan followed; he went to the living room to sweep the floor, and Sui Yan followed; he went to the small vegetable garden in the front yard to pick onions, and Sui Yan continued to follow, and he was very curious: "Is this garlic? "

Ning Lan was defeated by him, and the two steamed buns were warmly given to him for compromise, hoping that he would leave immediately after eating, or let alone Zhang mother-in-law, he might not be able to resist the urge to call the police.

Just put the steamed bun into the steamer, and there was a sudden scream from Lu Binghua's heartbreaking outside: "Mother-in-law, mother-in-law, what's wrong with you? Ningning brother, come out soon, mother-in-law passed out!"

There is only one small clinic in Quanxi Street. Sui Yue is carrying Mother-in-law Zhang, and Ning Lan is running in the back. The young man walked fast. Within ten minutes, the old man was laid flat on the cot in the clinic.

The hot weather is a period of high incidence of heatstroke and hot cold. The clinic is full of people. The doctor came to listen to the heartbeat, take the temperature, and asked the patient if there were any abnormal symptoms recently. After receiving a negative answer from Ning Lan, he took a bottle of Huoxiangzhengqi water and took a blood test.

Ning Lan opened her mother-in-law's mouth and gave her some medicine. Her mother-in-law was very picky about eating, and now the smell of Huoxiangzhengqi water did not wake her up.

The test results were obtained by Sui Yang.

"The doctor said that her mother-in-law was old and her immunity was weak. She suggested to take her to a large hospital for a comprehensive examination." Sui Yue saw Ning Lan's expression was tense, raised her hand and patted his back to help him relax. Going right now."

After many years, Ning Lan once again got into Sui Yang's car. He sat in the back row with his mother-in-law, and reminded Sui Yang that he called Lu Binghua on the road to help him close the store.

Sui Yue brought them to a private hospital with leading medical conditions in the city. Ning Lan was hesitant at first. Later, when she thought that the public hospital was overcrowded, she might not be able to get to them, or she sent her mother-in-law to a stretcher.

As soon as the patient advanced, various examinations were arranged, accompanied by medical staff throughout the process.

Sui Yue placed Ning Lan in the waiting room, poured him a glass of water, and soothed him: "The medical equipment here is advanced, the medical staff is professional, rest assured, my mother-in-law will get the best treatment here."

Ning Lan nodded, and slowly sat down holding the cup.

At noon, her mother-in-law woke up and opened her eyes to see the high-end facilities in the ward. She had to leave the hospital to go home and listen to Ning Lan's statement that she had paid today's money before she reluctantly murmured, Go, I can't stand it tomorrow. "

In the afternoon, her mother-in-law slept again. Sui Yun brought Ning Lan for lunch. When Ning Lan saw that he did not have the test report in his hand, Ning Lan asked nervously: "What happened? Is there anything wrong?"

Sui Yan said: "You eat the food first, and then take a nap with your mother-in-law. I'll wait there and get the results to let you know the first time, OK?"

Ning Lan was soothed by his words. The temperature in the ward was moderate. He fell asleep on his stomach and woke up and found that he was covered with a blanket. Sui Yue was sitting in a chair next to him.

Ning Lan rarely saw Sui Yun's daze. The anxiety in her heart grew stronger, and her voice was a little trembling: "Wo ... what happened to mother-in-law?"

Sui Yan took his hand and took him to the aisle outside the ward. Ning Lan was a little afraid to listen to the next words, but he was the only relative of his mother-in-law, and he had to listen.

Sui Yue squeezed his palms and said, "Modern medicine is advanced. Don't scare yourself first."

Ning Lan swallowed a spit, and asked with a dumb voice, "What the **** is wrong?"

Sui Yun also did not intend to conceal him. He looked at him and said, "The tumor is not sure whether it has spread outside the organs. There are still several tests to be done today and tomorrow."

Maybe it was a relationship of mental preparation. Ning Lan just felt aching heartache, and then began to find excuses to question: "No ... impossible, mother-in-law is usually in good health, even with headache and brain heat, why ... how come……"

Sui Yue didn't want to comfort him with such vague words as "born, sick, dead, and impermanent," he only clenched his hand and said, "Everything can be solved after seeing the doctor."

I saw a doctor in the evening and a preliminary examination confirmed ovarian cancer.

"This cancer has a higher incidence in menopausal and infertile women, has few other symptoms early, and is easily confused with other conditions, so it is difficult to detect," said the doctor.

"Then ... can that be cured?" Ning Lan asked eagerly.

"By surgery and chemoradiation, you can maximize patient life."

The doctor's words have been reserved. The implication is that the disease cannot be eradicated. From now on, mother-in-law Zhang's life has entered the countdown phase.

Ning Lan lingered for a while, and thought that this question was really funny. How can a malignant tumor be cured?

In the evening, Ning Lan was going back home to get some daily necessities and change clothes. Although there is everything in the hospital, my mother-in-law still feels uncomfortable living, I ’m not used to blowing air conditioners, and I ’m not used to using humidifiers. The most frequently asked question is "when do we go back".

"Mother-in-law is not good." Ning Lan held down her idle hand. "I didn't want to see the doctor before. The mother-in-law always mocked me with the child next door for fear of getting an injection, but now it's your turn. Double label. "

Mother-in-law is mixed with young people all day, and also knows the meaning of "double standard", lying down neatly: "Let's go, you can let the doctor treat it quickly, prescribe some special medicine, I want to be discharged sooner."

Ning Lan responded with a smile.

As soon as he walked out of the hospital, the smile on his face disappeared. Ning Lan raised his head and looked at the night sky indifferently. Sui Yun knew that it was a kind of sadness and despair, but exhaustion that could only listen to heaven.

Sui Yun got off the bus and bought him a strawberry cake on the way back. Ning Lan didn't refuse, holding in his hands and staring all the way. When the red light stopped at the intersection, Sui Yue leaned over to help him open it, and put a small spoon in his hand, but he refused to eat, looked at himself, and did not move.

Back at home, Ning Lan took a bag and began to pack luggage inside.

He was arranging things far less than he used to, and when he was halfway there, he kept looking back to check what had been put in.

Sui Yue went up to help, Ning Lan didn't want to, Sui Yue wanted to feed him something, fork the strawberry on the cake and sent it to his mouth, he raised his hand impatiently and waved away, the force was a little strong, pushing Sui Yue One step later, the fork and strawberry fell to the ground.

The air was still for a few seconds, and Ning Lan took a deep breath and said, "Let's go. Thank you for your help today. I will ask Fang Yu to bring you the medical bill."

With that said, he turned to the room to take out the piano case, opened it and placed it in front of Sui Yun: "Your bow has been broken by me. If I still need it, I can compensate you for the exact same."

Sui Yang looked down at the broken bow, and the broken part was wrapped around with tape for a few times, which looked a little funny, just like the broken beads were forcibly fixed with metal, covering up something like a burglar.

"Exactly the same?" Sui Yue repeated the word, as if talking to herself, "how can there be two identical bows in the world?"

This bow is engraved with the love that Ning Lan never announced, which is unique and irreplaceable to him. Now that the bow is broken, does Ning Lan's love for him disappear?

Sui Yun couldn't control himself to think so. He had stagnation of breath and flustered in his heart.

Without waiting for him to calm down, Ning Lan asked quietly, "So, are there two identical people in the world?"

Sui Yang looked up and looked at him hesitantly.

"I'm Zhang Ning now, not Ning Lan." Ning Lan was calm as if he was telling someone else's story. He got closer to see the cracks in his eyes. "Why did I change my name and name? Why don't you know? ? "

"Lan Lan ..."

Sui Yue called him softly, and wanted to say something more, and was interrupted by Ning Lan: "Because anyone is good, I don't want to be Ning Lan. As long as it is not Ning Lan, you can cry if you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, no one They stepped on me indiscriminately, scolded me, and no one doubted me and drove me away. "

After asking and answering his question, his eyes gradually dissipated, as if in a dilemma of self-doubt, and said blankly: "... apart from what I shouldn't expect, what else have I done wrong? Tell me, I still do What was wrong? "

At the end, there was a weak choke in his voice.

In recent years, he has never complained or felt sorry for himself. His family doesn't like him, fans resist him, and people who like him treat him like a grass. He has come through.

People can die without drinking water, what can they do without the so-called love?

He acknowledged that he was selfish, and his goodness to her mother-in-law was mixed with other purposes. He was willing to give anything for that little reward. But why did God take it back cruelly after he finally got a little warmth?

Is he not getting enough retribution?

"You are wrong, you are indeed wrong." Sui Sui said suddenly, taking a deep breath, her voice was firm. "You gave your enthusiasm to people who are not worth it. You are wrong in loving others, but you do not love yourself. "

Ning Lan was stunned by his words and watched him step by step forward, except for his lips trembling, but he forgot other reactions.

Sui Yan raised his hand, and his warm palm lightly supported his neck, his gaze stared at him without any hindrance: "You are so **** yourself, why is n’t it **** the person who loves you? , Don't love others anymore, be nice to yourself. If you think it's not enough, it's not quite enough ... "

Having said that, Sui Yue held up a hand of Ning Lan and stuck it to her undulating left chest: "From now on, don't love me anymore, I love you enough. You take all my love Go, then revenge me severely, scold me, trample on me, and let me repay the pain you have suffered. "

The throbbing heart beat like a war drum in the palm of his hand. Ning Lan looked at the two little selves in Sui Yan's eyes and felt extremely scared. He shook his head and retracted his hand, and Sui Yan pressed it tightly on his chest, unable to move. .

"I don't, I don't ..."

He kept backing, but his shoulder was pressed by Sui Yue's other arm, and he pressed it into his arms.

Sui Yue almost gritted her teeth, and her fierce brows also brought some fierce evil spirits, her jaw was stretched into a hard line because she was too hard.

He didn't want Ning Lan to see him like this again. There was no soft underbelly in the past. Now the soft underbelly is in his arms and it will break when touched. He is afraid to scare him.

Sui Yun touched Ning Lan's soft hair and listened to his disordered breathing to make his voice as smooth as possible: "If you don't want to be Ning Lan, you don't want to be Ning Lan. You can do it if you don't love me, or you don't know me I can retaliate ... whatever I want. "

Feeling that Ning Lan's body slowly relaxed in his arms, giving out a soft sobbing sound like a kitten, Sui Yang also miraculously relaxed, the corner of his mouth was raised upwards, and he said softly: "Don't be afraid, no matter what happens, I will always be with you."