Conan: Eternal Darkness

I was bored and wandered around with Belmod in every possible way. Gin was a little sleepy. There was nothing he could do. He was too familiar with this place. He knew every mechanism and every machine. He stood nearby and watched. Belmod and Kurosawa Gin were making a fuss there, as well as those who knew and didn't know, and... Akai Shuichi.

This is not the first time Gin sees the appearance of Shuichi Akai after his death, but it is the first close encounter. I have to say, it's a bit...weird. After all, Shuichi Akai has always been a little autistic in his memory. Leng Jun, the current appearance, gentle, harmless to people and animals, is a little uncomfortable.

Resisting his desire to smoke, he stuffed a green tea mint into his mouth, the refreshing and cold taste lingering on the tip of his tongue, so that his mood would not be so bad.

"You should all be aware of your physical condition, especially the psychological one, don't move your hands, no one knows what you will do when you lose control of your emotions, it may make you regret it for the rest of your life, just like Loki In the same way, maybe, you need someone who can calm you down even more now, especially Z, it’s not good to be too ruthless and ruthless, after all, everyone has feelings, what you need is heart.”

The poison doctor's words echoed in his ears, Jinjiu narrowed his eyes, and skillfully concealed the complexities in his eyes. After experiencing too much darkness for too long, he was likely to be assimilated by the darkness. Loki did not know why his behavior was out of control and killed himself. After Luojia, when he calmed down and regained his senses, the body was already cold. The pain, remorse and self-blame made Loki commit suicide not long after Luojia died. When they knew it was too late, they could only sigh to themselves.

Gin also knows why the poison doctor specially mentions him. He has always been mysterious, solitary, withdrawn, hiding in the dark like a shadow, out of tune with the world. To be precise, he is unwilling to enter. In this world, he just wanders off the edge of the world and refuses to step into it. As the poison doctor said, he lacks a person to pull him into the world, but he doesn't care, he's used to it anyway.

"Gin, what are you thinking?" Belmod came over at some point and grabbed Gin's arm, with a hidden worry in his eyes. Just now, Gin felt like a hazy phantom. It will disappear at any time, and there will be no trace. She grabs him without thinking at all, and doesn't want to let the previous feeling reappear.

"It's nothing." Gin smiled lightly, and stopped talking, but Belmod's eyes lit up, Gin's mood itself was light to the extreme, plus some unknown things, seldom laughed, most All are sneer, disdain smile and other habitual actions.

"Gin, you laughed." Belmod couldn't help pinching Gin's face. He could only say that a handsome man looks good in everything. Gin paused his gaze in doubt, his eyes were filled with blankness, and he smiled. ? he?

"Okay, don't think too much, isn't it normal to laugh?" Belmodra walked forward with Gin, Gin stared blankly at the slender fingers holding his wrist, and then focused on the woman in front of him body, laugh?

Kurosawa Silver suddenly came over and patted Belmod on the shoulder, blinked, not knowing what he was implying, although Belmod turned his back to Gin, Gin could still feel the other party's joy, and a flash of light flashed in his eyes. Doubt, but didn't ask anything, silently letting Belmodra run him around.

"I'm so tired." Belmod yawned and rubbed his head against Gin's neck, "Go back?" Gin tilted his head, it was getting late, it was time to go back.

"Stop, stop, stop," Kurosawa Yin was talking to Conan and the others. He grabbed Conan's ears and didn't know what they were discussing. Hearing Jinjiu's words, he rushed over immediately, "Agree to go to my house for dinner."

"What to eat?" Gin looked at Kurosawa Yin with a blank expression, Belmod could not wait to sleep with him directly, and it was impossible to go back to cook. Kurosawa Yin made the meal, forget it.

"Don't worry." Kurosawa Yin pushed the gin and walked towards the parking lot, "It's a big deal, the two of you are sleeping at my house today."

Gin "..."

Glancing at Kurosawa Silver, he looked a little helpless, what are these two guys planning?

After wandering outside for an hour, he slowly came to the villa of Black Zeyin. A look of anticipation flashed in Belmod's eyes. Black Zeyin was eager to try. The two walked quickly in front of the door, and Gin followed. I glanced at the villa from the back, why are there so many people in it?

The two people in front quickly entered the villa, Jinjiu paused, and then slowly stepped into this place. I always felt that there was a bad premonition. I hope it was an illusion. However, after entering the villa, I really gave it to him. took a surprise.

"Gin, happy birthday!"

"Birthday?" Jin Jiu froze in place, uncontrollably recalling that blood-red birthday, the fact that he had to face countless times to escape, the painful experience that pierced his heart. , No one knows, Jin Jiu's hand in his pocket shrank into a fist in an instant, trembling slightly, no one knows, the moment when Jin Jiu lowered his head slightly, what kind of darkness, silence, pain and depression in his eyes, he raised his head again. At the beginning, it was still light and cloudless, and only the crushed candy box in the pocket witnessed all this.

All the negative emotions were hidden, and only doubts remained in Jinjiu's eyes. Kurosawa Yin smiled and popped out to explain, "Isn't it your birthday today? Happy birthday to you."

"...Thank you." Jin Jiu was silent for a second, his expression was a little careless and quite casual, and Kurosawa Yin came up, "How is it, are you surprised, are you surprised?"

Gin shrugged and didn't say a word, the birthday cake was reflected in the pine green pupils, but no one noticed the silence hidden in the depths.

Although today is not my birthday, although I hate birthdays, and although birthdays bring me the most painful memories, I still didn't say anything.

I don't know when, Gin quietly left the living room, let Heze Yin and the others make a fuss, leaning on the balcony guardrail, sparks faintly flickering in the lingering smoke, and the memories that he had deliberately forgotten came back. mind.

His birthday seems to be accompanied by pain.

He was hospitalized with serious injuries on his first birthday, was kidnapped on his second birthday, witnessed a murder scene on his third birthday, his parents died on his fourth birthday, and entered purgatory on his fifth birthday to undergo a survival test. Not as good as that.

Sections of **** memories, heart-wrenching losses one by one, and bruised and bruised experiences time and time again...

happy Birthday? nonexistent!

"Gin?" Keenly caught the footsteps, Gin restrained his dark aura, it was Belmod, "Are you unhappy?"

"No." He didn't even know what happiness was, so how could he be unhappy? Belmod sighed, took the cigarette in his hand, took a sip, raised his eyebrows and glanced at the burning out in his hand. Cigarettes, "You're not fit to lie."

"Why? Don't like people?" Belmod threw away the cigarette **** and looked back at Gin. "Or am I busy with Xiaoyin?"

"No." Gin denied it quite bluntly, not looking into Belmod's eyes, turning his head, his eyes falling on the endless night sky, pretending not to know about someone standing behind the door eavesdropping, "I just don't like it. It's just a birthday."

"Don't like birthdays?" Belmod froze for a moment, apparently not expecting such an answer.

"My birthdays are all red." Gin lit a cigarette again, and was silent for a long time before slowly speaking, his voice was very low and faint, as if it would disappear in the next second, "Blood is everywhere, Severed limbs and arms were everywhere, everyone died, and the ensuing fire burned everything. I was the only survivor. It was my last birthday. On my first birthday, I was poisoned and seriously injured and hospitalized. He was kidnapped and exposed to **** on the second birthday, witnessed the inhuman darkness on the third birthday, and the tragic death of his parents on the fourth birthday..." Jin Jiu thought he had forgotten everything, but that was just self-deception, he remembered everything, even if it was Where there is blood, I remember all the scenes that day clearly, as if it was just a while ago.

Gin looked at the night sky, and the pine green pupils were full of indifference, as if he was not the one who experienced all this, just like a bystander, looking at himself, who was once bruised and bruised, indifferently. In fact, he should have gotten used to it long ago. Forcing him to appear, tearing the scars in his heart time and time again, and then mercilessly pouring a handful of salt, he was in pain and exhaustion, but there was nothing he could do. Exposure to these darkness, to make his mind so horribly mature, can you slaughter a family with a blank face at the age of seven? He can, and, more than once, big or small, he has no good fruit to eat. He is used to being alone, and he is more used to standing in the dark without being noticed by anyone. He has long been familiar with hiding his emotions. , to cover up the damage becomes commonplace.

It's like he never thought that someone would fall in love with him, let alone have a son who is somewhat related by blood. He can't handle interpersonal relationships, and he's too lazy to deal with it. Anyway, people look at him with either flattering or fearful eyes, and he's too lazy to go. deal with them.

Belmod was an accident.

Kurosawa Silver is an accident within an accident.

"Don't talk about it." Belmod hugged Gin, his heart throbbing, it was really hard to imagine Gin going through all this, no wonder his character was so cold, Belmod remembered the evil and cold Gin before, and his heart was full. torn apart.

"Bermode, do you think I'll enjoy birthdays like this?" Gin restrained his thoughts and raised Bermode's head. I was shocked, there was no emotion in those extremely beautiful eyes, it was quiet and dark, as if it could swallow up all the luster.

"Ginjiu, don't think about it." Heze Yin rushed over and grabbed Jinjiu's arm, his hands trembling slightly. Although Ginjiu only said a few words, the tragic scene can be imagined. How old was Ginjiu at that time. ? ! !

Jin Jiu turned his head and closed his eyes. After a while, he opened them again. The dead silence just now was long gone, "I'm going to sleep."

Gin left, Kurosawa Silver and Belmod looked at the indifferent back as if nothing had happened, what had they experienced to hide their emotions so perfectly? If it weren't for this accidental accident, wouldn't Gin never show his heart?

"Gin," Belmod suddenly took Gin's arm, Gin didn't look back and stood there, "no matter what you've been through before, I'll be there in the future, I'll accompany you."

"That's right, you're not alone! Mom and I are both at home," Kurosawa Yin followed, and then whispered, "Father..."

Gin didn't care about Kurosawa Silver's name, and he didn't have the mood to care now, because he turned his back to them, so Kurosawa Gin and Belmod didn't see the turbulence in Gin's eyes for a moment, didn't say anything, broke free Belmod's hand, the pace unchanged.

After returning to the room, closing the door and leaning against the window to blow the cold air, he was still a little out of control. The impact of the previous scene was so great that he could hardly distinguish between memory and reality, as if the time was chaotic and he was back to the same time.

Those calm and deadly eyes fell outside the window without saying a word.

Do you know the feeling of despair? He felt it more than once, and each time it was enough to tear his heart out, but no one could share it, he could only bear it alone in the dark, and in the end... he got used to it.

The lingering smoke filled the air, and Gin's eyes were misty.

"Gin, be my man." This was Belmod's words as he shrank in his arms.

"I refuse." At that time, he was stunned for a few seconds and refused.

In fact, if he hadn't had that experience fifteen years ago, he wouldn't have rejected Belmod. He almost never rejected her, but what should have happened still happened, he was already riddled with holes... After that, he Sealed his memory and used hypnosis.

If he forgets everything, he won't be assimilated in the dark, and he won't make himself the kind of person he hates the most. However, an accident also happened, the organization changed hands, and his memory was disrupted twice, which is the depth Hypnotized, coupled with brainwashing, his memory was completely fragmented, and it wasn't until a few years ago that he slowly woke up.

However, it's still quite confusing, and it's unclear whether it's true or not. Sometimes Jin Jiu doesn't know whether the picture in his mind was transplanted or whether he experienced it himself.

"Gin?" Hearing the voice, Gin turned around, it was Belmod, "They're gone."

"Yeah." Naturally, he hugged Belmod, who was leaning on him, and stood for a while, realizing that Belmod was sleepy, Gin put him on the bed, and wrapped the quilt for her, silently Leave.

"Gin?" As soon as he entered the living room, he saw Kurosawa Yin holding a water glass to fill himself with water, his head was messy, and there were a few clumps of straight hair. It was obvious that the other party was sleepy, and there was a confused expression on his face. Confused, seeing the gin, blinked, and there was a trace of confusion in his eyes.

"Go to bed after drinking." He glanced at Heze Yin lightly, Gin didn't stop there, he simply took out his mobile phone from the windbreaker hanging in the closet, turned and returned to the bedroom.

Kurosawa was stunned for a few seconds, and then came back to his senses. Gin was just caring about him, right?

Well, definitely it is.

PS This chapter has 4122 words, which is hundreds more than before, so let’s take it as compensation for not updating last week.