Conan: I Am Not a Snake Spirit

Chi Feichi listened to Conan talk about some past events and realized that he really had this kind of "hot and cold" situation in his body. However, it was all because he knew something that others didn't know. For a few months, Afterwards, there are always days when I feel, 'Conan has been a big help, I have to be nicer to Conan.' There are also days when I feel, 'Conan, this unruly man, will kill me sooner or later.' The rest of the time, I am in a normal state of mind.

this……

It shouldn't be considered a problem with his nerves or personality, right?

His change of attitude was well-founded. He felt that he should be nicer to Conan. It was just a reward for Conan's help in certain incidents. It was normal for the reward to only last for a day and a half.

Isn’t it normal for him to choose ‘single bonus’ instead of ‘promotion and salary increase’ due to outstanding single performance but insufficient overall accumulated achievements?

As for the days when he felt that "Conan, this unruly man, will kill me sooner or later", his attitude was actually very good. Conan threw him off the cliff several times, and he never blamed Conan once. He just complained in his heart. Most of them Face Conan with a normal attitude all the time.

In short, he believed that his change was well-founded, saying that he was "hot and cold" was a bit forced, let alone neurotic.

It's just that he couldn't explain the reason for the change. He couldn't say, 'I know the original development of things this time. Originally, I wanted... But because of the interference of Conan, the god of plague, things became simpler/I got... "So I'm very grateful to you." That would be regarded as delusion. The more seriously and firmly he explains, the more likely it is that he will be regarded as having a seizure and be sent to Qingshan Fourth Hospital for review.

Since you can't explain it, try to get over it.

Chi Feichi looked back at Conan, with a gentle expression and calm eyes, "The times you mentioned it may be because I suddenly thought about whether I could be more patient with children, but that is a bit against my habits, so maybe I can’t hold on for more than one day.”

Everyone has a time when their thoughts suddenly change and they want to try to change themselves but finally give up, right?

Just because he has a diagnosed mental illness does not mean that his changes are due to recurring illness.

"Then..." Conan looked at Chi Feichi's expression. It was difficult to find fault with Chi Feichi's remarks, but he felt that something was still strange. "Brother Chi was trying to change those few times. , Did you give up in the end? Since you had this thought more than once, there must be some reason for you to have this thought again and again, right?”

I thought, "I need to be more patient with children." The first time I had such an idea, I tried it, but found that I couldn't adapt and gave up. Of course, that's no problem. The second time I had such an idea, after trying it, I found that I couldn't. It’s not incomprehensible to adapt to giving up again, but...it’s still the same for the third, fourth, and fifth time. Is this normal?

If this happens repeatedly, there must be some reason that prompted Brother Chi to have these thoughts, right?

Hui Yuan Ai pondered on the side.

If there is no reason... no, even if there is a reason, there is still a problem, that is - even if Brother Chi knows that this kind of change is something he cannot do and makes himself unbearable to the point of giving up, he still makes it again and again. The idea of ​​'doing it' can be said to be due to persistence, strong will, and unwillingness to give up. But if it is more serious, it may also be due to compulsive behavior in oneself, knowing that one thing is meaningless, but still doing it over and over again.

"The reason...maybe it's because I want to challenge myself. If I fail, I'll take a break and then I feel like I can do it again..."

Chi Feichi knew that his behavior might be judged as 'obsessive-compulsive disorder', but his attitude toward Conan occasionally changed. Such situations did exist, and he couldn't explain them clearly, so doubts were bound to arise. In this case, It's better to make yourself less sick.

When he said this, it was actually more like his personality was too persistent and strong. Even if it was inevitably regarded as a kind of obsessive behavior, it didn't matter. Everyone would have some compulsive behavior to a certain extent.

For example, some people will force themselves to think of some unpleasant things. When they see a faucet, they think of a water pipe bursting and floods flooding their carefully decorated room. When they see someone smoking, they think of a cigarette butt igniting something and causing a fire. , knowing clearly that those things may not happen or even have a small chance of happening, but they just can’t control themselves from thinking about something that makes them unhappy.

The emergence of obsessive thinking often leads to compulsive behavior.

People who are forced to think of bursting water pipes from water flow will repeatedly check the faucets and water pipes at home, and even start to worry about faucets and water pipes in the outside world, making themselves always anxious.

People who are forced to think of fires from smoking can't help but step forward to check whether the cigarette butts are completely extinguished when they see others throwing them, and gradually start to worry about other causes of fires, such as whether the lighter will suddenly explode or ignite something. Keep anything that could catch fire out of your sight.

In addition, when some people see something, they will be forced to think that it is covered with bacteria, which triggers compulsive cleaning behavior, that is, mysophobia. Others will be forced to question whether they have done a certain behavior well and will do it over and over again. Asking others, "Is this okay for me?" or "Is there something wrong with me here?" After getting approval from others, you can only feel at ease for a while. After a while, you want to repeat the question, or you want to ask others.

Everyone is likely to have compulsive behavior. As long as his compulsive behavior does not affect his normal life, it will not cause other people to worry too much, and it is far from the level that requires him to see a doctor or receive treatment.

"Then will you still do this in the future?" Conan continued to ask, "Suddenly you want to be better to children..."

"Of course," Chi Feichi responded confidently, "I have the idea of ​​​​being nice to others. This is a good thing, isn't it?"

Conan: "..."

It’s really hard to argue with.

He even felt that he had become great after enduring Chi Feichi's experience of being hot and cold these days.

"Does this bother you?" Chi Feichi looked at Conan and asked.

If Conan thinks that there is no need for the reward of 'be nicer to Conan' in the future, then he can consider not giving it. In that case, it is not that he is being mean, but that he has complied with Conan's request.

"No, no," Conan looked at Chi Feichi's calm eyes. He always felt an indescribable strange feeling. He quickly suppressed the unnatural feeling in his heart and said truthfully, "Try to treat others Okay, of course it’s a good thing, but I think you still need to pay attention to it, don’t go too far, and don’t make yourself feel anxious or painful.”

"Speaking of which, Brother Fei Chi seems to be very patient with everyone these past two days. Are you making a new round of attempts?" Haiyuan Ai asked.

"That's right," Chi Feichi said without changing his expression, "I lasted longer this time. Besides, it's not that I'm not in a good mood today. I helped light the magnesium tape before and didn't talk to you. It was because I didn't want to disturb your reasoning."

He said that he wanted to challenge "Be kind to everyone", so that others would not be surprised if he behaved abnormally during the sin of infidelity experience.

"Really?" Conan thought that Chi Feichi had the patience to explain and declare to him today, and felt that Chi Feichi was not so cold, so he smiled and encouraged, "Then, brother Chi, keep up the good work!"

"Don't be too nice," Hui Yuan Ai warned uneasily, "While you want to make others happy, you must not forget your own feelings and sacrifice your own happiness in exchange for others' approval. Such a relationship is not It will last in the long run, but for now, we all recognize you and are willing to see you get better, but we don’t want you to be unhappy.”

"I know," Chi Feichi felt that Hui Yuan Ai's words were a bit too mature. He felt that it was necessary to remind his sister to pay attention to disguise. He turned to look at Hai Yuan Ai and said, "Like a little adult."

Haiyuan Ai was stared at by Chi Feichi's calm eyes. Suddenly she thought of her identity as "Sherry" and that Chi Feichi was still a member of the organization. She was startled and quickly glanced away, putting on a proud and calm face. "It was Teacher Xiaolin who taught us. In the previous class meeting, she and Teacher Niushan from Class A next door discovered that some students had not revealed their true preferences in order to make their friends happy, so in the previous class meeting, Xiaolin The teacher specifically told us these things, and I thought they made sense, so I wrote them down..."

Conan laughed inwardly upon hearing this.

Teacher Kobayashi did say this in class before, but at that time Haibara must have been sitting between the seats with a bored look on his face and yawning constantly, right?

Because what Teacher Xiaolin said was too verbose and some of the examples were rather childish, he actually didn't listen very carefully. He couldn't remember whether Teacher Xiaolin specifically said this.

However, regardless of whether Teacher Xiaolin said so, they just tacitly said so.

"By the way, I almost forgot..." Haiyuan Ai said something about school, and suddenly remembered what he had almost forgotten. He turned to look at Chi Feichi and asked, "On the last activity day, we were asked to bring our own lunch boxes. In the past, you prepared the bento that Edogawa and I brought. Do you still remember it? It was the tiger bento made with seaweed slices and eggs... Some classmates saw it at the time and suggested the next dish in the cooking class. If you want to make a tiger bento, Teacher Xiaolin wants me to ask you if a child can make that kind of bento.”

Conan leaned forward between the seats and remembered Sumiko Kobayashi's commission. He added, "We feel that it is too difficult for children to make. Teacher Kobayashi also wants to know if it is difficult for children to make such a bento. Is there anything that can be done?" Substitute bento patterns, such as making simple flower patterns with seaweed slices and eggs... If you are free, Mr. Kobayashi would also like to invite you to be a special teacher in the cooking class. If you can't do the cooking class next time , it doesn’t matter in the future cooking classes, and you don’t need to give lectures, as long as you help to see if the cooking methods are correct.”

Chong Shi Subaru: "..."

It can be seen that these two people are very serious about attending elementary school.