Confession

Xu Sui went out to buy an ice cream and wandered around aimlessly for a while. Behind him, he felt bored and sat on a bench in the square. He quietly finished the sea salt ice cream in his hands. After passing the time, he took the ride back to the school.

All night, Zhou Jingze did not send another message.

The next day, Xu Sui woke up earlier, went to the Lily Library after washing, came back to class at 10 o'clock, and returned to the dorm to take a lunch break after eating at noon.

She lay on the bed, took out her mobile phone and flicked casually, tapped her finger into the social software subconsciously, and searched Emily's social homepage, which showed that Yesenin had updated a vlog.

No, the term did not appear in that era. It should be said that she shared a short video daily. Xu Suidian took a look at it. It was her daily collection of nearly a week, which took about eight minutes in total.

The video shared Ye Saining’s daily life of shooting magazines, the exhibitions she had seen, the cut shots, and the various gatherings she attended. Xu Sui saw a boy appearing in the five minutes and 30 seconds of the video, just a three-second one. In profile shots, he sat on a chair and laughed lazily, lowered his head to light a cigarette, and held out his hands to gather the orange flames. The sparkling swimming pool behind him cut him into a sloppy, unruly Zhou Jingze.

The camera flickered, and then Yesenin's daily life of painting oil paintings. She was wearing blue overalls, a small yellow hat, and a little colorful paint on the tip of her nose. She was brilliant and beautiful.

In the last few minutes, the text in the video was marked: I drank too much, went to the hospital, and fortunately I had friends. Xu Sui glanced at the date. It was last night, and Zhou Jingze should have sent her there.

The camera switched, in the early morning, the outside of the hospital was foggy, and a layer of milky white shrouded the trees. Yesenin was soon discharged from the hospital the next day. She patted the road ahead, and there seemed to be a person following, but did not enter the country.

Yesenin said to the camera: "I saw siu mai selling in front of me. It's so fragrant. I haven't eaten it in a long time."

After she finished speaking, she held her mobile phone and walked towards the breakfast shop, bought two siu mai and a cup of soy milk, and shouted next to her when she paid the money: "Hey, borrow your mobile phone, I want to make a video."

The other party handed him his mobile phone, with a wide palm, clear knuckles, and a thin callus on the belly of his thumb.

Xu Suide gave a cruel heart. If she doesn't know how good these hands are.

Just a few days ago, this well-knotted hand was repeatedly pressing her ribs, and the sweat of the two dripped together, lingering in death.

Yesenin held the phone in his hand, his sleeves moved up, and his slender wrist revealed a silver watch. Then the payment was smoothly made, and the camera showed the code.

This watch was still worn by Zhou Jingze some time ago. When the two were sleeping together, she looked at it twice, and he took it off and played with her.

Xu Sui was afraid of seeing something again, and hurriedly turned off the video. Tears dripped on the phone screen, and his vision was blurred. She felt acid in her stomach and felt like vomiting.

She had already lost before she met Yesenin.

Liang Shuang watched the movie in the bedroom, heard a slight sob, turned off the ipad, and looked shocked: "Follow, what's the matter with you?"

"No," Xu Sui smiled and shed tears, his eyes flushed, and said softly, "The lunch I had was too spicy."

As a result, she felt pain in her heart after realizing it later.

In the afternoon, Xu Sui went to an off-campus convenience store to buy oden after finishing class. As he passed the basketball court, there was a sudden burst of applause.

Xu Sui couldn't help but stop and look at it. In summer, the shadows of the trees fell and there were a lot of people on the basketball court. The boys were waving their arms and running on the court, while the girls were biting a mung bean ice cream and saw their favorite boys score a goal. The back of his eyes flashed brightly.

She suddenly remembered that Zhou Jingze scored a goal for the game, and it was already last summer that she fainted and gave up the game.

Thinking of this, Xu Sui continued to walk outside and walked to a Widley on the corner. With a sound of "dingdong", the automatic sensor door of the convenience store opened, Xu Sui came in, and the cashier ordered Hua Zhi Wan, chicken roll, lotus root roast, chicken wings, bean foam, etc., and also a box of milk.

She often comes to this store to eat oden. The cashier knows her and naturally knows her taste. He smiles and asks, "Medium spicy?"

Xu Sui shook his head and said, "It's more spicy, the one that makes your stomach hurt to the point of burning."

She likes this kind of self-abuse to vent, otherwise, according to her character, she doesn't know when to hold back.

Xu Sui took the tall cardboard box, and when he was about to pay the bill with his mobile phone, he heard a "dingdong", the door of the convenience store opened, and a smiling voice came:

"Your school is really big."

"Yeah, how about it? Seeing the future pilot's eyes popped." Sheng Nanzhou answered.

The girl's voice is very nice, with a smoky voice, clear and clear. Xu Sui turned his head and saw a girl in mid-air.

This is the first time Xu Sui has seen Ye Saining. She is very beautiful. She is wearing an oversise boyfriend's loose shirt, revealing two thin clavicles loosely, hip-length shorts, and her hair is tall and thin like black satin. White is the kind of beauty that is ten times better than the picture.

Ye Saining also saw Xu Sui, and was stunned. Sheng Nanzhou stood behind and looked down and saw the QQ group news. He twisted his brows and asked: "I'm rubbing, it's emergency training again."

"It's okay, you go to train first." Ye Sening looked back at him.

Sheng Nanzhou nodded, put the phone in his pocket, and hurriedly threw a sentence: "Walk around by yourself. I and Lao Zhou will invite you to dinner later."

"Row."

Sheng Nanzhou walked too quickly and didn't see Xu Sui standing beside the snack shelf.

Xu Sui turned her head to pay, and then took the food and milk to go to the table outside the convenience store. When she passed by Ye Saining, her sleeves brushed Xu Sui's arm, passing very lightly, and the material was very soft.

She smelled the faint perfume of Yesenin.

The pine girl of Sergelutens, the cold fragrance that is not easy to approach.

Xu Sui walked to the outside table and sat down. The air was sultry and hot. Even at 5 o'clock in the afternoon, the cicadas kept screaming, and the burning clouds in the evening were so thick that they were about to be suppressed.

She had just taken apart her chopsticks and was about to eat, and a shadow fell aside. The first thing she put on the table was a whole wheat bread and a box of yellow peach yogurt.

"Hello, can I sit here?" Yesening took the initiative to say hello.

Xu Sui nodded, and Yesenin opened the stool, and her long legs came in sideways. She rolled the sleeves of her shirt and began to tear the bread: "Zhou told me you several times, a very good girl."

Xu followed his movements for a while, lowered his head and put a Huazhiwan into his mouth, nodded and said nothing.

"I have chased Zhou before. He is the hardest boy I have ever seen." Ye Saining changed the conversation, and the topic was frank and bold.

Xu Sui remembered that time when he confessed in a muddle-headed manner, and pulled out a smile at the corner of his mouth: "Then I have good luck."

Yesenin thought that Xu Suihui was unhappy or emotionally abnormal when saying such straightforward words that brought out purpose, but she didn't, and she was still eating her own food quietly.

It's hard to guess.

Yesenin dragged his cheeks and smiled, and the spoon he was holding in his hand stirred the yogurt in the box unconsciously: "Do you know why he rejected me? He said he didn't want to lose me."

Xu Sui used chopsticks to clamp another Huazhiwan, and after hearing the words, the ball fell to the ground along the table, and she had no desire to eat it.

Desperate like Zhou Jingze, a person who doesn't care about anything, can say such a thing, proves that Yesenin is a very important person to him.

Xu Sui took out a paper towel, squatted down, picked up the **** on the ground and threw them into the trash can, and then said to Yesenin, "Miss Ye, thank you."

Yesenin was taken aback, his amber eyes were filled with doubts: "Thank me? Don't you hate me?"

Xu Sui packed up his own things and laughed when he heard these words, and said frankly: "A little bit, but I hate myself even more."

I hate myself for being like a slut. I like Zhou Jingze unconditionally like moths to the fire. In the end, I am fragmented and even forget my self-esteem.

She didn't want to walk towards him anymore.

After speaking, Xu Sui turned and left. Yesenin thought that she would be very happy if she won, but she was not. She was so good, quiet and not aggressive, which made Yesenin wonder if she played the wrong vicious woman.

"Of course, you can stay by his side for so long, it's amazing." Ye Saining said, looking at the thin back in front of him.

Xu Sui stopped for a while, and then continued to move forward.

When he met Ye Sening, Xu Sui didn't tell anyone that she went to class to eat as usual, and was occasionally pulled by roommates to participate in club activities.

In these two days of free time, she herself thought a lot.

On June 21, the summer solstice, the hottest time of the year, Zhou Jingze's birthday arrived as scheduled. Sheng Nanzhou booked a big box for Zhou Jingze in the prosperous age.

But that night, the two protagonists were long overdue. Zhou Jingze sent a message to Sheng Nanzhou that something happened on the road and let them play first.

At seven o’clock in the evening, Zhou Jingze was standing at the Vidri next to the Medical University waiting for Xu Sui. He was tall and straight, leaning lazily on the edge of the green bus stop, with broad and stiff shoulders. He was holding a cigarette in one hand, and the other Holding a mobile phone in one hand, typing on the screen with his thumb: [Sheng Nanzhou has booked a box, shall we say hello and go to Grandpa’s house, or just go around? 】

After sending the message to Xu Sui, Zhou Jingze inadvertently raised his eyes and pulled the corner of his lips when he saw the visitor clearly. He actually saw the person he least wanted to see on his birthday.

Shi Yuejie, wearing a white shirt, walked up to Zhou Jingze with a bicycle. He hesitated and pushed his glasses: "Jingze, today is your birthday. Dad will let you go home for dinner."

Zhou Jingze sneered with the tip of his tongue pressed against his chin, glanced at him slightly, and said in a mocking tone: "Then do you think I should go back? Brother, brother."

Shi Yuejie lowered his eyes and tried his best to keep himself calm: "In fact, we don't need to be like this. The last time was a misunderstanding. I really didn't know beforehand..."

As soon as he heard the words "misunderstanding", Zhou Jingze held back with a silly smile on his face, looked at him, and said slowly: "Is it cool to get something that doesn't belong to you?"

With a "bang", Shi Yuejie let go, and the white bicycle hit the ground. He grabbed Zhou Jingze's collar and cracked with a gentle appearance: "What about you! What happened to the share transfer agreement that he transferred to Dad some time ago? ?on purpose?"

Last month, Zhou Zhengyan's company received an express package. He opened the kraft paper bag and took a look. It turned out to be the share transfer agreement sent by Zhou Jingze, and the person who instigated the equity transfer was Shi Yuejie.

Zhou Jingze still inherited this share from his mother. If he transfers the shares to Shi Yuejie, it means that he has no relationship with the Zhou family at all.

He is taking the initiative to separate from this family.

Zhou Zhengyan immediately called Shi Yuejie to ask him what it meant. After receiving the document, Shi Yuejie's expression changed and his tone was a little flustered: "Dad, I didn't know that this happened. Maybe Jingze made a mistake. Yes, I'll go to school and ask him..."

Zhou Zhengyan got up from the sofa and walked over, patted him on the shoulder, his tone seemed intimate but meaningful: "Dad still prefers to see your brothers in harmony."

"A family still has to consider harmony as the most important thing."

After that, Zhou Zhengyan often quarreled with Zhu Ling at home. The sound of throwing things was often heard in the room. Shi Yuejie often saw his mother running out with red eyes. He hated his incompetence and his passive position in this house. .

Shi Yuejie grabbed Zhou Jingze by the collar and stared at him, but he held his chin open, chewing gum one after another, and his eyelids couldn't be lifted. Looking at Shi Yuejie, it gave people a condescending feeling. .

Shi Yuejie only felt underestimated, and he felt a fire in his heart. He tugged at his collar and asked, "Where is Xu Sui? Did you deliberately retaliate against me for being with her because I like her?"

It is rare for Zhou Jingze to look at him directly. Shi Yuejie will always look like a gentle, good-natured old man. Today, it is strange to see him in a hurry and desperately jumping over the wall.

He watched Shi Yuejie slowly remember something, and since Zhu Ling led Shi Yuejie to marry in, everything in the family changed.

Zhou Jingze had a surly temperament and didn't care about everything. He could divide the things that belonged to him in half to Shi Yuejie.

Unexpectedly, they are not satisfied with this.

Every year on April 3rd, Zhou Jingze prepares a lot for his mother's day. After buying flowers, he writes a letter to her in advance. But just when he was looking forward to going with Zhou Zhengyan.

Shi Yuejie had a fever at this time.

Zhou Zhengyan hurriedly took Shi Yuejie to see a doctor and took care of him for a day. But Zhou Jingze sat alone in front of Yanning's tomb for a day.

At first, Zhou Jingze really thought Shi Yuejie was ill, but later he discovered that Zhou Zhengyan had been absent from some important occasions about him.

For example, Zhou Jingze’s birthday, parent meeting, graduation ceremony.

The reason is that Zhou Zhengyan wanted to take care of Zhu Ling to deal with Shi Yuejie.

He seems to be the superfluous person in this family.

Zhou Jingze understood Shi Yuejie's ambition.

"Answer me!" Shi Yuejie shouted.

Shi Yuejie's roar pulled Zhou Jingze's thoughts back. He raised his eyes, and his eyes flashed across the stepbrother's face. He squinted his eyes, and quickly admitted:

"Yes, it's pretty cool, she delivered it to the door."

After a word fell to the ground, Zhou Jingze received a swift punch on the face. He turned his face away and touched the corner of his mouth. His slender fingertips gently twisted, and the bright red liquid leaked between the fingers.

He sneered, then punched it. The two quickly scrambled together, and the people who stopped by saw that the two were fighting too fiercely and did not dare to persuade them to fight.

A row of bicycles on the bus stop sign connected to the ground, making a banging sound.

Xu Sui didn't know how long she stood there and watched. Seeing Zhou Jingze fell to the ground with a punch, he backhanded Shi Yuejie's collar again, and she finally said, "Don't fight."

She stepped forward and used a lot of effort to reluctantly separate the two. With a glance of her eyes, both of them were in a tragic situation. Shi Yuejie looked embarrassed, wiped the blood on his forehead, and said: "Junior sister, when did you come, listen to my persuasion——"

Xu Sui lowered his head and took out a pack of tissues from his bag and handed it to him with a soft voice: "Thank you, brother, first wipe the wounds on your body. I have something to ask him. Can you avoid it?"

Shi Yuejie looked hesitant, he took the tissue: "Well, if you have anything, you can find me."

People walked by, Xu Sui walked forward, helped Zhou Jingze to sit down in front of the bus stop, and said in a warm voice: "Wait for me first."

After speaking, she turned and walked into a drugstore. Not long after, Xu Sui walked towards Zhou Jingze with a small bag of medicine, a thin layer of sweat on her forehead.

Xu Sui sat next to Zhou Jingze. She opened a pack of cotton swabs, dipped it with iodophor, and looked at him, "Hold your head down a bit."

Zhou Jingze lowered her head, she was carefully cleaning his brow bones with her face upright, and the wound at the corner of her mouth was blood-red. The more he saw Xu Sui's calm and calm face, the more he panicked.

To be honest, he wasn't sure when Xu Sui came, how many he listened to, and whether he heard his angry words, he had no idea in his heart.

The summer breeze blew on her face, it was hot and sticky, and it messed up Xu Sui's hair. There was a strand of hair sticking to her cheek. Zhou Jingze raised his hand to touch her face, Xu Sui ducked sideways.

After Xu Sui treated Zhou Jingze's wounds, he twisted the bottle cap, tapped the bottle with his fingers unconsciously, and looked at him with an extremely calm tone:

"Zhou Jingze, let's break up."

She said this sentence as if she had practiced it for a long time.

At this moment, the sound of the wind stopped, Zhou Jingze raised his eyelids in disbelief, and the freshly crusted blood on the brow bone instantly burst into dark red blood, his tone was a bit hostile:

"What did you say?"

Xu Sui knew that Zhou Jingze heard it, but she didn't repeat it. She stuffed the medicine into a plastic bag and left it for him. She got up and left. Unexpectedly, she was caught by a violent force, pulling her back, and she couldn't move a bit.

Zhou Jingze's speech speed is very slow, word by word:

"say clearly."

Xu Sui lowered his eyes and let him hold her tightly without making noise or making trouble. A red mark gradually appeared on his wrist. Zhou Jingze relaxed a little, still holding her, his tone slowed down:

"If it's because of Shi Yuejie, it's my fault. I have been deceiving you and decided to be with you in the first place--"

"I saw her wearing your watch on Yesenin's social homepage." Xu Sui shook his head and suddenly said the name.

Zhou Jingze frowned and recalled: "It was the last time I had a party. She looked at my watch and said she would buy the same model... She is my friend. I told you before."

It is rare for him to say such long words.

Xu Sui looked at him, his eyes getting redder and red: "What about the payment password, I never seem to know the payment password of your mobile phone."

Zhou Jingze fell silent and spoke slowly for a while: "That was before—"

"I'll ask you directly, did you have a good impression of her before?" Xu Sui's voice trembled, and his nails slid into his palms.

Zhou Jingze was silent for a while and admitted, "Part of it."

One sentence is enough.

But Xu Sui still refused to let him go, looking at him like a self-abuse, "What about now?"

"Now—" Zhou Jingze was about to answer seriously.

"It doesn't matter anymore." Xu Sui interrupted him, his voice was very soft, and a crystal clear tear dropped to the ground.

The conversation with Ye Sening and his answer, Xu Sui might be able to piece together a story. A beautiful, cool girl with good taste like Ye Saining pursued him, but Zhou Jingze refused.

There is only one reason. He cherishes her and prefers to be friends with her.

What is the status of the other party in his heart? A person like Zhou Jingze knows how to cherish people.

Yesenin is different from them.

She tried to break away from his shackles, but Zhou Jingze did not let go with a calm face. She pulled Xu Sui into his arms and forced her shoulders against his chest. The familiar peppermint mixed with the smell of tobacco once again permeated the tip of her nose. She couldn't get away anyhow, Zhou Jingze stuck to her like a hot soldering iron.

Xu Sui's emotions finally collapsed. Every time she said a word, her tears fell down, her nose and her eyes flushed: "You are with me because of Shi Yuejie. I don't blame you, because I understand you. Knowing that you usually have a bad relationship with him, I guessed it. It’s just a bit uncomfortable to hear what you said just now—"

Xu Sui seemed a bit oversaid, a hot tear dripped on his neck, forcing himself to say that sentence: "Indeed... I took the initiative to send it to the door."

"I'm sorry." Zhou Jingze's voice was hoarse.

"Zhou Jingze, do you know why my nickname is eleven? Because my father used to be a firefighter, and when my mother gave birth to me, he looked at me temporarily and hurried away because he was going to give birth to me. The only thing she could do was grandma. She was not very literate. When she went to the office, she saw a red banner on the wall, just like a lottery, and asked the staff what the third character of the banner was called. It's called Xu Sui."

Dad came back after the mission and disagreed: "How can my baby girl choose a name? Her birth is the happiest thing in my life. It is the most precious gift God gave me. She is unique and the only one. ."

"So my nickname is Yiyi," Xu Sui looked at him, sniffed, and the tattooed wound on the ribs felt a little pain every time she said something, and it hurt that she subconsciously held it there. "I hope the other person only has I can love me wholeheartedly. Even when you went to pick up Yesenin that day, I believe I will be there waiting for you next time. You are always indifferent and you have reservations about liking someone. You are fine, but We are not suitable."

Xu Sui wiped away his tears and left his arms: "Let's stop here."

Zhou Jingze, the proud son of heaven, never lacks love. The lover has seven points and keeps three points. Maybe Xu Sui hasn't even experienced the seven points. When I like you, it is vigorous, as if he is only for you, but when you calm down, you will find that it is yourself that is flammable, so you feel warm.

He even loves you carelessly.

What can you do? It seems that he can only do this.

A brake sounded, and the last bus of the school night returned. Some people got off the bus one after another, some people got off the bus with a large bag of things, some students wearing T-shirts and shorts got off the bus and went straight to the school's watermelon stand.

Zhou Jingze's heart seemed to be bitten by a bug, and there was dense pain around him, and emotions of regret and panic were multiplied. He wanted to reach out and catch Xu Sui who had left.

Unexpectedly, a group of people kept getting off the bus and flocking to the green bus stop. During the period, someone hit him, and the crowds kept coming, and then they lay between the two.

The two were actually scattered among the crowds.

Xu Sui took the opportunity to leave, Zhou Jingze stared at her back, slender and weak, but his steps were firm without stopping.

She did not look back.

Not once.