Confession

Romain Rolland said-there is only one true heroism in the world, which is to still love it after recognizing the truth of life.

What Xu Sui felt from Zhou Jingze was that he did not complain, did not compromise, was treated unfairly and did not resent each other.

Young people are not all years old.

He still retained a small part of his heart.

Zhou Jingze raised his hand to wipe her tears, pulled the person out of his arms, and opened the subject, with a slight smile in his raised eyes: "Can you still eat the hawthorn? The icing is about to melt."

"Yes." Xu Sui sniffed.

After Zhou Jingze took Xu Sui to eat, a winter fireworks lit up in Yajiang just across the square, and the two watched a firework together.

When he returned home in the evening, Zhou Jingze worried that something would happen to his girl if she was emotional that day, so she stayed.

As a result, after Xu Sui took a shower, it was probably because he cried loudly after get off work, consumed too much energy and fell asleep quickly.

On the contrary, Zhou Jingze did not sleep. He leaned against the wall to guard Xu Sui, and saw her turning over restlessly, the quilt slipped off, and a piece of white lotus-like arm was exposed.

The man put down the one-knee bent leg, walked over to help cover the quilt, leaned over and dropped a kiss on her forehead, and finally walked out.

On the balcony, the cold wind was sore, and the stars above my head withered.

Zhou Jingze leaned against the railing, shook a cigarette out of the cigarette case, lowered his head and bit it, and skillfully slapped the ignition, and wisps of gray smoke rolled out of his thin lips and floated into the air.

Zhou Jingze put his cigarette hand on the railing lazily, squinting his eyes and wondering what he was thinking.

When his cigarette **** was about to burn to the tips of his long slender fingers, Zhou Jingze threw the cigarette into the flowerpot, took out the phone from his trouser pocket, and dialed a series of numbers.

Not long after the call was connected, Zhou Jingze condensed the sloppy expression on his face, and said with a serious face: "Hello, Director Zhang from Puren Hospital..."

The next day, Xu Zuo got up from bed, because she had to sleep a while and had already vented, she felt much more relaxed when she got up.

When Xu Sui stayed in the hospital office until 11 o'clock in the morning, the nurse knocked on the door again and said that Director Zhang was looking for her. Xu Sui nodded, released the mouse he was holding, got up and walked towards the director's office.

When she came to the director's office, the teacher raised her hand to let her sit down. Xu Suidan made a face, thinking that the director would give her a big piece of advice and let her take the patient.

Unexpectedly, Teacher Zhang put down the pen in his hand and coughed slightly: "Xu, the teacher apologizes to you for what you said before...Your boyfriend told me all, but I didn’t expect that there is another hidden secret. , How much do we have to be aggrieved in this line of business.

"This patient, you can decide for yourself whether you accept it or not."

"But the teacher has only one request. You have to tell the patient about this. You have to face it yourself."

"Okay, thank you." Xu Sui said.

During the lunch break, Xu Sui sent a message to the person who was remarked as a breeder:

[What did you say to my teacher? His attitude today turned 180 degrees. 】

Not long after, Zhou Jingze replied: [Said my girlfriend is a faucet, and if you want you to cry again, he will shovel your unit. 】

Zhou Jingze replied rather insincerely. Xu Sui chuckled as she stared at the words above. She typed in the dialog box and replied: [If I refuse, if there are family members or the media who make a fuss about this, what if I lose my job? manage? 】

[Master raises you. ] Zhou Jingze returned decisively and quickly.

With very simple three words, Xu Sui's heart jumped quickly, his cheeks were a little hot, and he said, "Aren't you out of money?" "】

Seeing these words, Zhou Jingze arched his tongue and gave a low smile on his left cheek, saying: [I have a wife, and the assets of the family are at my disposal. 】

Xu Suipian was even more embarrassed. He changed the subject and talked about a few daily sentences with Zhou Jingze. Finally, Zhou Jingze jumped in front of the screen with an unfounded sentence and said:

—No matter what decision you make, I will be here to give you the bottom line.

Xu Sui's eyelashes trembled and replied: [Okay. 】

In fact, after Zhou Jingze said those things to her yesterday, Xu Sui had already made a decision in his heart.

Song Fangzhang has been hospitalized and treated in Puren Hospital for the past two days, but he has been waiting for Xu to reply. Xu Sui called up his case book again to view it.

I don't know if it's the theory of karma in Buddhism.

In the past few years, Song Fangzhang's body problems have continued to be large and small. He has been in hospital for treatment dozens of times, and his physical condition has gone from bad to worse. Xu Sui glanced at the dense diagnosis above and could confirm that he was dragging a crippled body to life.

Xu Sui remembered the harm and moral condemnation of Song Fangzhang's family in those years, which caused Xu's mother to constantly exert emotional pressure on her, so that she must not make mistakes, study hard, and get ahead when she grows up.

And grandma often cried secretly in the middle of the night. She lost her son, but she gave away white-haired people to black-haired people at a young age.

In those few years, Xu Sui's family growth environment was very depressing, and now she can't remember how she got through it at that time.

Xu Sui looked at the number in front of the computer screen, entered the number on the phone and dialed it. The call was quickly connected. He was a little flattered over there, his voice hoarse, and said, "Xu Sui..."

"I have an answer." Xu Sui said.

"Why don't you make an appointment with a coffee shop or something" on the other end of the phone, Xu Suishi interrupted her and said, "Just the garden downstairs of the hospital."

At three or four o'clock in the afternoon, the winter sun in the afternoon was warm, and the nurses or family members pushed the patients for a walk in the garden to take a breath of fresh air.

Xu Sui didn't expect Song Zhishu to push her father to appear in the garden. Her eyes tightened. Song Fangzhang was wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown. His whole body was skinny and his clothes were wide and empty. His body was full of moisture. Disappeared, the skin was piled up in folds and hung loosely on the face, like a piece of old tree bark about to die.

"Uncle Song, hello." Xu Sui put his hands in the pockets of his white coat, and his tone was calm.

Song Zhizhang raised muddy eyes and looked at her, obviously unable to recognize Xu Suilai.

At that moment, Xu Sui couldn't tell whether his hatred deepened or he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Dad, let the nurse take you there to enjoy the sun. I'll be here in a while." Song Zhishu's voice was gentle, just like coaxing a child.

Now no one can see that this gentle woman led a group of girls back then, openly threw Xu Sui’s schoolbag from the window on the fifth floor, pointed at her nose and yelled "Bitch", "Look, everyone, she still "Martyr's Daughter" and other humiliating words.

Song Fangzhang smiled and nodded, and smiled at her when he passed by Xu Sui.

After the person walked away, Xu Sui straightened his back and stood in front of Song Zhi's writing, and said, "I can't do your dad's surgery."

Song Zhishu's eyes reddened immediately, and he pointed to a direction not far away and said, "But look at my dad, he is like this—"

"So?" Xu Suiku interrupted and asked her sharply, "At least you still have dad. My dad is no longer there. I don't even have a chance to talk to him."

She wants to tell her father that she has a good job now, got a raise, fell in love, and met a good person.

But it's impossible.

"I tell you now, I will never pick up any patient in your family. This is my decision." Xu Sui looked at her with a calm voice, "but I can't represent our hospital, so your dad can still be in general. Ren receives treatment."

Song Zhishu did not expect that Xu Sui would still be worried about the past and was so angry that the hypocritical minions that had been gathered up were exposed and said, "Are you still worthy to be a doctor! Isn't life equal? ​​I have already apologized to you. What else do you want?"

Xu Sui was not irritated. She smiled, and then said in a serious tone: "You don't need to condemn me morally. Of course I am worthy to be a doctor, because I have been saving people from the past to the present, and from now on."

"I still believe that most of the world is good. I have my own set of values ​​in my heart. You can't influence me now."

Xu Sui was a bit taller than Song Zhishu. She leaned down with a faint sympathy in her eyes. What she said was gentle and cruel: "Song Zhishu, don't you think all this is the best arrangement from heaven? Thirteen years ago, we were born. In the same soil, what I planted is a tree, but what you planted is evil."

Song Zhishu was shocked, shocked by Xu Sui's words and aura. She never expected Xu Suihui to resist and refuse. There was a layer of sweat on her back, and everyone was embarrassed.

Is this karma?

Xu Sui retracted his gaze from her and left without looking back.

After the person left, Song Zhishu stayed where he was and wept bitterly.

After Xu Sui said these words, a big rock fell in his heart, making the whole person much easier. After so many years, she finally took off the shackles that others put on her.

After get off work, Zhou Jingze came to pick her up. Recently, he would come to pick up Xu Sui if he got off work early. Sometimes he would send a flower, sometimes a yellow balloon bought on the road, or some gadgets.

She was given different surprises every day.

"I will show you someone for dinner today." Zhou Jingze put his hands on the steering wheel, his tone idle.

Xu Sui was sitting in the co-pilot, raising her hand to pull off the seat belt, and was about to push down the hosel, but couldn't find the position, she was struggling to find it.

Zhou Jingze's tone was slow and he reported a name.

She lowered her head and moved for a while.

On the other side, at the Beijing North Airport, Sheng Nanzhou walked out of the exit pushing two large suitcases. Next to him stood a woman with short hair and a short stature. She was wearing blue denim overalls. Although her face was haggard, she smiled brightly. , The temperament is capable and beautiful.

Sheng Nanzhou pushed the luggage cart with one hand and held the woman's hand tightly with one hand. Hu Qianxi couldn't laugh or cry: "Brother Nanzhou, can you let me go, I won't run."

"No." Sheng Nanzhou gave out a word proudly.

Hu Qian couldn't help him, so she had to let him lead, and when she saw the toilet sign not far away, she said aggrieved: "I want to go to the toilet, this time I promise not to run, and the passport is not in your hand, I I can't run."

Only then did Sheng Nanzhou let her go.

After Hu Qianxi finished going to the toilet, she stood in front of the sink and looked at herself in the mirror. She still felt unreal. Stepping on the homeland of the motherland, she felt dizzy.

After washing her hands, Hu Qianxi was about to take a piece of paper to wipe her hands, but she was caught off-guard, and she was short of breath. She was leaning against the sink, her face pale, panting heavily, and her hands and feet could not move.

Sheng Nanzhou felt that something was wrong with his heart, and with a stern expression, he strode towards the women's bathroom, rushing into it, ignoring the strange eyes of others.

As soon as he entered, Sheng Nanzhou saw Hu Qianxi lying in front of the sink, her lips were pale, and her face was terribly pale. He walked over and hugged Hu Xixi's shoulder without even asking, took out the medicine from her right pocket and fed it into her mouth expertly.

Hu Qianxi swallowed with difficulty, but before she came over, she was beaten and hugged by the man.

In the car, Hu Xixi was sitting in the co-pilot, her eyes closed tightly, her rapid breathing gradually returned to stability, ten minutes later, when she opened her eyes again, her eyes regained a smile and said:

"Brother Nanzhou, can you promise me one thing."

"Well, you said."

"Don't tell Xu Sui about this in advance. I don't want her to worry about it. I'm still sick as a child. It's fine if you know it."

Sheng Nanzhou looked at her and sighed: "Okay."

"Sixi." Sheng Nanzhou called her suddenly.

Hu Qianxi looked back at him with a smile: "Huh?"

"Tell me if it hurts." Sheng Nanzhou looked down at her.

Don't let me do nothing.

…

"Sixi is back?! Then let's pick her up now." Xu Sui's eyes were pleasantly surprised, and a smile finally greeted the face that had been faint.

Zhou Jingze glanced at the message sent by Sheng Nanzhou on the phone, his eyes dimmed, and then raised his head, with a habitual lazy smile on his face, stopping her:

"Tsk, you are past now, Sheng Nanzhou can't rush you, let people stay for two more minutes."

"Yes." Xu Sui woke up.

Zhou Jingze started the car, raised his hand and rubbed her hair: "Go, let's go to the eating place and wait."

In the restaurant, Xu Sui and Zhou Jingze waited for more than half an hour. During this period, whenever someone pushed open the restaurant door and the wind chimes on it made a sound, Xu Sui turned his head frequently and subconsciously.

After a while, she saw a familiar and unfamiliar woman walk in with big eyes and a smile that made people feel warm and energetic. She also changed, how can't reduce it. #The chick who came from weight is now as thin as a bamboo pole and has her hair cut. The short, fair complexion has turned into a healthy wheatish color because of long hours of exposure to the wind and sun.

Xu Sui was afraid to call her.

I always feel that everything in front of me is like a dream.

Hu Qianxi leaped towards her like a koala, hugged Xu Sui tightly, and shouted, "Suibao, I miss you so much."

Xu Suiyi hugged her tightly, his eyes turned red when he heard these words, and asked, "Finally, are you willing to come back?"

"Hey, of course, you are my best friend," Hu Qianxi buried her face on her shoulders and said with a smile, "I have to witness your happiness personally when I say anything."