Confession

In the midsummer, Ye Saining finished filming one of the four major domestic female magazines during the day and attended a brand dinner in the evening.

The people in the dressing room were so busy that they were stumbling and rubbing shoulders. A dozen staff members were all around her, the big star. Miga tilted his head and held the phone between his shoulders to answer the call. While holding a Valentino's latest black dress, he whispered to Yesenin if he liked it?

The makeup artist accidentally pulled one of her hair, and the pain came, and Ye Saining frowned, like a crack in an oil painting beauty.

The makeup artist repeatedly said "sorry baby, didn't it hurt you".

Yesenin didn't care, just glanced at the backless black dress in Miga's hand, looked back, and pointed a finger at her.

Miga immediately understood, and immediately went to get her clothes again.

Changed more than a dozen sets in a row.

Yesenin finally took a fancy to a dark red velvet deep V dress.

After changing clothes and styling, Yesening attended the dinner with a skirt.

The banquet jacket was fragrant and shadowy, and the diamond chandelier was cast on the goblet, full of brilliance. Everyone put on the Chinese clothes, with a vain smile on his face, like a hundred ghosts walking at night.

Yesenin suddenly felt very tired.

So she voluntarily dropped the brand side's on-stage speech and slipped out.

Inside the touring car, Yesenin stepped off his crystal high heels of ten centimeters, exposing her slender ankles, leaning her head on the back seat, closing her eyes, crow-feather eyelashes hanging down, and the light from the car window sweeping half of her red lips.

The beauty is breathtaking.

The phone made a crisp ding-dong sound in the silent night.

Codan-colored nails touched the phone, turned off the screen, and a friend sent a message, a very brief sentence:

filone, he is married.

At that moment, the heart was strangled, and Yesenin felt the whole person being pushed into the water. There was only the sound of gurgling bubbles around, and the breath was taken away. He wanted to struggle, but couldn't.

"Stop." Yesenin said.

"You go first, I'll go down and stroll around." Ye Saining said.

Before the male assistant started talking, Ye Saining quickly got out of the car, with a "bang", the door closed loudly, and she even moved her **** backwards.

The dark red skirt swaying with suede disappeared into the night.

Yesenin walked aimlessly on the street, and as she walked, she actually swayed to an aquarium.

It's a pity that the lights have been turned off, and the shopkeeper has already closed.

Yesenin carried the skirt, walked up, and stubbornly knocked on the rolling gate.

The blue rolling shutter made a banging sound, and the dust fell and brushed on her delicate face.

Like a pearl covered in dust.

Yesenin simply sat on the steps in front of the aquarium, regardless of the rain and the wet ground in the evening.

The seven-figure skirt was ruined like this, without blinking her eyes.

Yesenin took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, with her red lips locked, the receiver made a "click" and lit, and the orange-red firework illuminated her profile.

The gray smoke slowly exhaled.

Beautiful and lazy.

I don't know if it was too quiet at night, or because she was sitting in front of the aquarium and received the news of his marriage in a quarter of an hour.

Yesenin suddenly remembered a lot of past events.

Who could have imagined that the hot female celebrity wore a big red dress and did not care about her image. At the moment, she was sitting on the dusty steps in front of the alley to miss someone.

Yesenin knew from an early age that he looked good, and he knew what he wanted.

She was born with a rotten down. Although the cards were not well drawn, she knew how to choose how to play loudly.

Beauty can be realized, but it is not a long-term solution.

So Yesenin has been working as a waiter and selling wine at Fengyue Place. She wants to save money to study abroad, escape from her father who drinks and gambling, and escapes from the original family that can't escape.

She wandered between the damp and cold attic and the neon bar at two o'clock all day long, with little hope.

Until she met Zhou Jingze.

Yesenin would help him not because of a whim, or the kindness in his bones.

The reason why she can stay in the bar for so long is because her personality is that the other party splashed blood on her face in public, and she just chose to wipe the blood clean and continue to work.

Having nothing to do with herself has always been her rule of survival.

Yesenin was willing to help Zhou Jingze entirely because of another matter.

Yesenin rented a place in the poor area. He walked sideways into the alley after get off work. The clothes rod above his head was dripping like shark teeth, and his back was wet.

Anytime someone gets drunk and sits on the edge of the wall, looking at you and whistling.

When Yesenin got off his evening shift on the weekend, her drunk neighbor kept slapping her door in the middle of the night, swearing dirty words.

Suddenly, there was no hot water coming out of the water pipe. After taking a cold shower, Yesenin shivered with the cold, and even his smoking hands were shaking.

The knocking on the door and cursing outside continued, and this kind of harassment did not happen once or twice.

The wooden door didn't last long, the door panel was opened by a huge gap, the night wind poured in, and the devil entered the room at any time.

Ye Sening was still afraid of the girl, she got up and took out a bottle of Wusu from the refrigerator, and blew half of it courageously.

With a "bang", the window was slammed open, a white hand stretched out, and the orange light struck down and stuck to the hand.

Yesenin stretched out an index finger and hooked up.

Silent temptation.

The drunk swallowed hard, and staggered towards the wall.

The hand just touched the tender fingertips, his head lowered, and he sniffed hard, and the fragrance of the girl floated over.

Before he could taste it, a green wine bottle smashed down.

With a "bang", the wine bottle shattered, and the blood on his forehead kept dripping.

Finally the drunkard ran away holding his head and shouting.

After the person left, Yesenin slowly slid down against the wall and sat on the ground.

A cold sweat came out from his back.

This place couldn't stay any longer, so Yesenin decided to move.

After moving away, Yesenin still felt uneasy and asked someone to inquire, but there was no definite news.

Some people said he had a few stitches in his head, some said he became a fool.

Yesening believed in karma, but she did not regret it. In order to offset a little guilt in her heart, she rescued Zhou Jingze.

Yesenin only wanted to save people by doing good things and offsetting the bad things he had done.

But Zhou Jingze came to the door to apologize and she didn't expect it.

After all, Zhou Jingze is a frequent visitor in the bar. He is very handsome, and he eats all men and women. He is a super rich second-generation. I heard that there is a background in the family.

But people are also muddled.

Mixed with people like Pengzi, there is no good one.

Obviously, Ye Saining accidentally ran into Zhou Jingze with a group of people fighting in the backstreet of the bar the night before.

At that time, Zhou Jingze was wearing a black sweater with sharp facial features and blood on his high brows. He stomped on the throat bone of the man on the ground, and the other party kept rolling his eyes and screamed hoarsely.

When the other party's voice reached the maximum pain, Zhou Jingze would lift his foot to relax, and when he thought he could be rescued, his foot kicked again.

Repeated torture.

He didn't blink his eyes at the wailing he heard, and he lighted a cigarette slowly.

The receiver made a "slap", and an orange-red fire burst out of the tiger's mouth. He lowered his head to ignite, and while spitting out the gray smoke, he inadvertently raised his eyelids and swept toward the intersection.

Yesenin just happened to look over.

Zhou Jingze was wearing a black hooded sweater. He happened to be wearing a hat. His stern face was half in the shadow, cut in half by the light from the dim street lamp. Only a pair of deep, dark eyes appeared, cold and broken.

Like an abyss.

She saw a brutal, self-struggling, deadly beast.

She did not expect such a person to apologize.

Yesenin didn't take it to heart, and was later resigned, and she didn't have any objections. After all, she broke the rules first.

But he didn't expect Peng Zi to find someone to beat her.

When Zhou Jingze came back again, she was serving dishes at the barbecue stall, and he apologized again and said something to make up.

Yesenin was a little annoyed at that time, and the wound was still aching, so she just rapped and said, "I want to apologize so much. Why don't you send me to study in the UK."

Zhou Jingze froze for a moment, and then said yes.

Ye Saining never dreamed that she would climb Zhou Jingze as the proud man of heaven.

He rescued her from the mud.

It will take a while to prepare to go abroad. Yesening spent the summer mingling with Zhou Jingze. He took her skiing, racing, and gambling in various sensual places.

Staying with him, Yesenin's eyes widened.

It turns out that life is more than just endless glasses and endless work.

It took a long time for Ye Saining to understand this person. He was sloppy on the surface and out of shape. He was just like a dude, but he was still different.

He leaned on the billiard table, with sharp eyes like eagles, "banging" a goal one by one, with warm-colored chandelier lingering on his eyelashes, sometimes with a lazy and stubborn smile on his face.

Or playing racing on Gongshan in the middle of the night, he took the first place. When thousands of people congratulated him, Zhou Jingze arrogantly compared the **** to the loser, his brows were flying and magnanimous.

Or Zhou Jingze picked up a stray cat and went home on a rainy day, fearing that it might get caught. He took off his coat and put it on the small animal, his narrow eyes overflowing with fleeting tenderness.

At that moment, she felt that the boy was really handsome, handsome in his bones.

But it is limited to good feelings.

Zhou Jingze is proud, and she is also proud, so Ye Saining will never surrender first and say her likes.

She has always been waiting for someone to come after her.

That summer vacation was so happy and free, that Yesenin forgot that there was a father who was staring at him.

Father Ye went everywhere saying that Ye Saining had climbed up to the Zhou family, and that he would live a prosperous life from now on, and would buy him a luxury car and a big house.

Yesenin returned two words indifferently: dreaming.

But she didn't expect that Father Ye would find Jingze last week for blackmail.

Father Ye showed an ugly face: "Her mother came out of the kiln? Hey, you can too—"

"and also…"

Ye Saining didn't know what else Ye's father had said, but by the time she knew it, it was too late.

When she went to see Zhou Jingze, he was in the billiard room, playing billiards with the same group of people.

Yesenin's father just left.

With too many friends, Zhou Jingze was afraid that their remarks would hurt Ye Sening, so he put down the club and came out.

Yesenin was watching fish in the aquarium next door. On both sides are square blue glass water tanks, many butterfly fish, hedgehog fish, fairy fish, swimming freely.

Until a shadow fell on his side.

"I'm sorry for letting you see me so embarrassing—" Ye Sening naturally quivered with upturned eyelashes, and smiled with self-deprecating laughter.

The sudden appearance of Father Ye pulled Yesenin out of his dream. It reminded her that she was born at the bottom and was dirty and swollen, and had a deformed but inextricable family, and her life was destined to be gloomy.

You can't get in touch with people like Zhou Jingze.

Zhou Jingze interrupted her, took the cigarette from her mouth, and asked her: "Will you be unconsciously influenced by your father when you do things or make decisions?"

"No." Ye Sening was taken aback for a moment, and then replied.

Children who grow up in a bad environment have been getting rid of their original family all their lives, but they have become people like them in a subtle way, such as being grumpy, interrupting others loudly, showing ugly faces, and mean.

As soon as these Yesenin found that she acted like her parents, she would take out a notebook and write it down, secretly reminding and correcting herself.

Don't be someone like them.

"That's not enough, you and him besides the name on the account book, other aspects can neither affect you nor hinder you." Zhou Jingze's tone was slow and logical.

"You are you, he is him." Zhou Jingze looked at her and said.

These two sentences seemed like someone pushed aside the dark clouds, and the light came in all of a sudden. Ye Saining's whole body was suddenly enlightened. She raised her head and smiled and said, "Thank you—"

Before saying a complete thank you, Zhou Jingze suddenly raised her hand to help her head and pushed her into the aquarium. At first she struggled hard, but he also buried his head in the aquarium.

Both of them know each other's wateriness.

"Close your eyes, ten seconds." Zhou Jingze said.

On this day, Ye Saining and Zhou Jingze buried their heads in the aquarium. The water kept pouring in, holding her breath, her brain couldn't think, and fish kept coming to kiss her cheek.

It's like entering another world.

There was only the sound of fish spitting bubbles around, and all the sad, suffocating, and painful things disappeared at that moment.

So that she has been stuck in the water, imagine a butterfly fish, staying in the aquarium

In the end, Zhou Jingze took her out of the aquarium, released her mouth and inhaled oxygen. Yesenin could not stand firmly and fell to the ground.

Zhou Jingze leaned down, trying to reach out and pull her up. The two of them met with a stunned look and smiled at each other. Because the two of them were wet and smelly of water, strands of hair stuck to their foreheads, which made them feel embarrassed and embarrassed.

The boy laughed loudly, lowered his head, his shoulders trembled with laughter, the kind of breath that couldn't be restrained.

At this time, the owner of the aquarium played an English song, the female voice was tired and hoarse, Ye Saining stared at the handsome boy in front of him, his heart beating fast. Sing in the song:

Can\'tyouhearmycall

Can you hear me calling?

Areyoucomingtogetmenow

Are you here to save me?

I\'vebeenwaitingfor

I've been waiting for

Youtocomerescueme

You come to rescue me

Ineedyoutohold

I need you hug

Every sentence of lyrics and beats was accurately stepped on her heart.

After laughing, Zhou Jingze sat beside her with his back against the wall, took out a new cigarette from the cigarette case, held it in his mouth, and lit it with a "pop".

The gray smoke gradually dissipated, and his face gradually became clear. Zhou Jingze looked at her with dark eyes: "Cool?"

He was actually asking if she was happy.

Yesenin looked up at him. At that moment, she wanted to accompany him to death.

She was moved.

She gave up.

Once you like it, the feeling of possession begins to grow wildly. I want to be the cat on him, I want to kiss him in the rain, I want to have **** with him naked in the open railroad track, I want to get a couple tattoo with him.

Want to be with him.

On his birthday, Yesenin wore a new dress and dressed up like a red rose blooming only for him. That night, Zhou Jingze jokingly asked her if she had made a wish.

"Yes, I want you to be my boyfriend." Ye Saining's eyes were naked and straightforward.

Zhou Jingze's smile was restrained, and he was silent for a long time. Finally, he said, "I don't want to lose your friend."

This is Zhou Jingze's original words.

There have been good feelings between men and women, but after getting along for a long time, they are more sympathetic. Because the two people are so alike.

Yesenin smiled relievedly, "I won't give up."

But Yesenin didn't expect that in less than a week, Zhou Jingze brought a girlfriend in front of her. The girl sat on the back seat of his motorcycle and waited for him at the finish line of the car, accompany him in and out of various venues.

Zhou Jingze was telling her in another way that they had no play.

Yesening thought that under the guise of a friend, he could slowly catch up to Zhou Jingze. At least she is different to him, isn't she?

She always thought it was like this.

So the two became friends again.

Until she went to study in the UK, one day Zhou Jingze suddenly transferred an account to her and asked her to buy a mobile phone again, so that he could save the number remarks.

Yesenin's instinct was wrong and asked him what's wrong.

Zhou Jingze's tone understatement: [A text message oolong, also annoyed a little girl, thinking she was you, if you continue to talk, she must know that I almost sucked fans. 】

This is to cherish it.

Yesenin felt a sense of crisis for the first time.

Until the end of the new semester, Yesenin knew that he was in love.

Zhou Jingze fell in love with Ye Saining never taken seriously, because he was always alone and wanted someone to accompany him, but he was never sincere.

But this time is different, unprecedented. For the first time, Zhou Jingze changed his social network profile picture to a girl. Yesening opened up and looked, only the girl's profile face, with buds stuck in her head, fine hair falling from her forehead, her profile curving well, she was writing the test paper with her head down.

It seems to be in the library.

This photo is obviously a snap.

So Yesening hurriedly came back before Zhou Jingze's birthday. The first thing Yesening did when he came back was to inquire about the girl, but Zhou Jingze seemed to intend to protect her, so he refused to disclose a word.

It doesn't matter, she finds it herself.

Yesening boarded the Tieba forum of Beihang University, and it took only half an hour to get to know the girl clearly. She saw in the post that Xu Sui would be in the library every afternoon, and Ye Saining wanted to meet her.

Want to see how gorgeous a girl is to make Zhou Jingze spoil her brazenly and unconditionally.

Yesening had just stepped onto the first floor steps of the library, and a few freshman girls hurried past her holding books, and the sound of discussion came over.

The girl with glasses asked: Don’t you always come to the library very often? Why are you here today?

The girl's tone was excited: I came to see Senior Sister Xu Sui.

Someone runs her: I don't know you yet, I want to see his boyfriend, right? Believe it or not, at half past five, the setting sun outside the window appeared on the senior sister's desk. Zhou Jingze—no, the senior sister’s boyfriend would appear in front of her on time with a white peach oolong milk tea and pineapple buns.

The girl didn't believe it: Not bad?

The other party replied: Not bad at all.

Yesenin stepped onto the third floor and found the girl in the innermost library. She was wearing a white T-shirt and blue high-waisted jeans. Because she was doing her homework with her head down, the butterfly bones on her back were obvious, and her skin was white and thin.

It looks quiet and well-behaved, and looks like a good student.

Unexpectedly, Zhou Jingze liked this taste.

She walked in and sat down at a hidden table. Not long after, there was a small discussion around her, and she said in an excited tone: "He's here, he's here!"

Yesening looked over. The boy was wearing a black T-shirt, a slender figure, a peaked cap, a pointed throat, one hand in his pocket, and a lazily expression at the door, just holding a cup of white peach oolong milk tea in his right hand. And two pineapple buns.

A lot of sunlight fell on his shoulders, and his temperament was cold and juicy with a sense of scorn.

"Look, these are these two things! Senior sister likes to eat the most."

Yesenin watched the boy she liked walk towards the other girl step by step. He put the food aside, leaned against the table, leaned over and took off one of her earphones.

The girl raised her eyes in a daze, and then smiled.

Then.

He squeezed the girl's chin, across a desk, in the dusk, leaned over and kissed her without being beside her, sliding his thumb across her skin, affectionate and warm.

The setting sun fell on the desk in a thick bee-brew color, and the girl's fingers gradually climbed onto his shoulders, and their shadows overlapped.

Yesenin raised his hand and glanced at the time, impartially, it happened to be half past five.

This scene was very dazzling, as if an inch of breath had been taken away. Yesenin didn't know how long he watched before leaving.

The growing environment taught Yesenin a truth, and what he wanted should be grasped in time and held firmly in his hand.

So she started organizing the game on the grounds of returning to China and called Zhou Jingze and some former friends. Partying, drinking, playing Truth or Dare, all of which she took a vlog.

Oh, by the way, Zhou Jingze lost the game and was called to pay the bill. She happened to sit next to him and saw his payment password.

He was half drunk, Ye Saining caught a glimpse of a bear pendant hanging from his mobile phone, and just wanted to reach out to touch it.

Zhou Jingze removed the phone, raised his eyelids and looked at her with warning in his eyes.

Yesenin had to pretend to be angry and smile with his chin: "Don't be so stingy, don't look at it, you can always tell me what brand of your watch is, it looks good, and I want to buy one."·

He didn't care about the watch, so Zhou Jingze whispered a brand name.

Ye Saining had met Xu Sui, and at a glance she could see that a girl like her was insecure and sensitive. So she uploaded the video to social networks, and she knew Xu Sui would definitely watch it.

The relationship between the two will surely create rifts.

She also came to the convenience store deliberately that time, and Yesenin didn't think it would be so vicious. It was in a convenience store. When she passed by Xu Sui, she caught a glimpse of the mobile bear pendant she was paying for.

It turned out to be a couple.

No wonder Zhou Jingze didn't let her touch him.

The screen of Xu Sui's phone lights up at the right time. She glanced at it and noted it as "boyfriend".

Her psychology began to twist, jealousy grew like weeds, so Yesenin began to lie, deliberately changing Zhou Jingze's "I don't want to lose your friend" to I don't want to lose you.

In the end, she succeeded.

But Yesenin didn't expect that this move pushed her farther away from Zhou Jingze, and she fell into a situation where she would never be loved again.

Later, I saw her again at the hospital where Xu Sui worked. Ye Saining finally explained to her, apologized, and finally heaved a sigh of relief. After Xu Sui walked out of the ward, Ye Saining lay on the bed and sent a message to Zhou Jingze.

She is not asking for credit, she really wants to confess to him.

Not long after, Zhou Jingze responded with a short speech:

You have admitted wrong, don't send any messages again in the future.

Every word is indifferent and unfeeling.

The last time I saw Zhou Jingze was on a busy street. There were so many people, he always took Xu Sui's hand unhurriedly, holding a bunch of flowers in her arms, and the two of them looked at each other and smiled from time to time.

Ye Saining saw Zhou Jingze's expression twitching, like yawning. She knew that he had a pollen allergy, but he had been enduring it all the time.

Halfway through, Xu opened the shoelace. Zhou Jingze naturally squatted down to tie her shoelace in the crowd, as if he was doing something normal.

He still looks like a jealous mess, but he is willing to bend over for a person.

Yesenin retracted his gaze from the two of them, turned around, and strode forward.

So far, unrequited love is over.