Consumer male god

"I have been a child who lacked attention since I was a child."

Han Lie's voice was very deep, and he naturally expressed strong loneliness.

The method is very simple - lower the throat, use the chest cavity to resonate, and add a little bubbles, and what comes out is a very grainy bass.

Then pay attention to your expression, lower your head at 20 degrees, droop your eyelids to look for your toes, purse your lips slightly, and don't make any small movements with your hands when speaking, to give you a solid atmosphere.

OK, ready, let’s start the show now!

Gou Lie's atmosphere was created so well that Chen Yanfei couldn't help but pay attention and listen attentively.

"Other children will get candy when they cry and make trouble, so they cry and make trouble often, but it's useless no matter how much I cry - the conditions at home are too bad.

Moreover, my father has a very dull personality and seldom cares about me. My mother is busy all day long and is full of anxiety. If I affect her work, I will definitely scold her impatiently.

So at an early age I began to envy those kids who had people paying attention.

Originally I thought things would get better when I got older.

Unfortunately, no.

I still can't make friends, I can't get care, I can't find the meaning of existence - actually I'm not stupid, you know? When I was very young, I liked to read all kinds of leisure books, and I read quite a lot.

But what I long for is never praised in books.

They praise the greatness born from the pain of loneliness and advise people to adapt to loneliness and enjoy loneliness, but they forget that most ordinary people can only suffer in loneliness and never produce anything worthy of praise.

I used to firmly believe that I should look inward for peace, but it wasn’t until Pan Shaohang’s beating that I finally understood a truth—

Only the strong are qualified to talk about benevolence, morality, kindness, detachment, and tranquility.

All the friendliness that a weak person releases to the outside world is because he can only do so, rather than because he wants to do so from the bottom of his heart.

I wanted to fight back at that time, but I couldn't. Can you really understand that helplessness?

I didn’t want to let it go gently later, but what if I didn’t let it go at that time?

At that moment, I made up my mind - I wanted to break through the shell that bound me, I wanted to be a strong person, I wanted to face my inner desires, respond to the world's blows, and be a willful person.

Then, I started to achieve little by little success, and at the same time, I naturally began to admit that I just like the feeling of being surrounded by others, being noticed, and being held up by others.

You ask me how I view feelings. It's very simple. My need for feelings is very superficial and very greedy - I like the emotional value you provide me. It makes me feel alive, rather than a cold and calculating person. Probability machine.

I know you might be disappointed with me, but the thing is...

At my age and at this stage, I can only prioritize satisfying the impulses that are always surging deep within me.

You know, village beauty?

Actually you shouldn't ask this question. "

Actor Lie shook his head, his eyes disappointed and sad.

"You ask a child who has never felt love what love is, and I would like to try my best to give you an answer you like, but I'm sorry, I can't.

Because I am always doubting: Will anyone really love the person I was before?

But I can tell you what you are in my heart.

You are a light.

When I was at my most humble and confused, your bright smile, hearty greeting, and approachable attitude illuminated my dark world.

You may not have any impression, but I will always remember——

In the first semester of my freshman year of high school, I was bullied by my classmates and had to clean for them.

You passed me by, and I was angry and moved a lot. I accidentally stuffed the mop under your feet, and the dirty water stained the sides of your shoes.

It was a very beautiful pair of white Nikes.

I was very frightened at that time and felt as if the sky was falling.

As a result, you smiled brightly and said to me: I'm sorry, it's my fault and I didn't notice you cleaning. Hey, can you lend me that dry rag?

I was dumbfounded, feeling as if I was seeing an angel.

At that time, my mind went blank, and I couldn’t remember whether I had spoken, apologized to you, or said anything else.

After returning home, I lay on the bed and tried to remember, but there was only a vague smile and neat white teeth left in my mind.

Who are you?

I didn't dare to ask anyone, so I just started searching for you in the crowd.

Later, I remembered your name, your birthday, your preferences, and even your aspirations... and decided to go to SISU Humanities.

You can never imagine the ecstasy I felt when I found you sitting opposite me on the train.

Now you ask me what I think of you.

I don’t know what other people’s secret love looks like. Anyway, to me, you are a symbol, a sign, and a special existence.

Too special to touch.

What I fear the most is that when we are actually together, I suddenly realize that you are actually completely different from what I imagined you to be.

So don't blame me for being aloof, I'm just not ready yet.

And you?

Are you really sure you are ready? "

Chen Yanfei was confused by the question.

Am I ready?

Uh, I don’t know...

In fact, there is nothing that young people need to prepare for love. They can be together if they like it. However, Chen Yanfei was fooled by a doggy man and her mood was agitated. She subconsciously followed his guidance and began to doubt herself.

Gou Lie's operation was too lethal for a young girl.

Moreover, Chen Yanfei has a very good memory and almost instantly recalled the scene described by Han Lie.

"Oh it's you!"

She looked suddenly enlightened and very excited: "I remember! At that time, you were dejected, as if you were going to smash the marble floor with a mop. In fact, I had already hidden away, and I didn't expect to be touched by you. …”

Yo? Actually remember?

Han Lie was surprised. In fact, that scene was the most real touching point in his heart, but the "various memories" that followed were all nonsense.

Including signing up to study humanities abroad. In fact, there is no other good school that he can go to. Humanities is at least in Shanghai, which can broaden his horizons.

However, Chen Yanfei believed the preamble and naturally accepted all the lies behind it.

"I really didn't expect..."

She hesitated to speak, and suddenly she didn't know how to continue.

Thinking about it this way, Han Lie is actually really pitiful...

A child who has lacked love and attention since childhood is beaten to a black and blue face in front of his favorite girl. How desperate must that be?

Later, he darkened and became extreme, and he kept having sex under the influence of compensatory psychology. It is really understandable...

Chen Yanfei convinced herself naturally.

Men have a problem, that is, they like to persuade women who have fallen into trouble to look back.

Women also have a problem, that is, they like to influence scumbag men.

As long as you give them a suitable reason and tell them: I am not like this originally and I have my own reasons, they will passionately devote themselves to the great cause of saving the scumbag.

This piece of shit Han Lie is absolutely amazing.

"Okay, let's put the problem aside for now. I need to think about it carefully. I believe you also need time to recognize yourself now."

Chen Yanfei is a smart girl. She will not be eager to prove a result like many love-minded girls.

But she is also a young girl. Once she is touched, it is difficult not to feel pity for the suffering child Han Lie.

So, in order to avoid further hurting Han Lie, she took the initiative to change the topic.

"By the way, where is your class reunion scheduled?"

"I don't know." Han Lie shook his head and smiled bitterly, "I don't plan to go. You know, during the three years of high school, the so-called friendship between classmates didn't leave me any good memories..."

This bitch is addicted to acting, half-truth, half-false, and full of routines.

Chen Yanfei nodded in understanding.

"I know. But if you plan to stand in front of those who looked down on you and bullied you back then, I support it. Heart disease requires heart medicine. If you want to feel relieved, the best way is to see their faces now. "

Good guy, you are so proactive in coming up with ideas, are you really planning to save me?

Gou Lie thought it was so interesting, so he made a thoughtful gesture.

Upon seeing this, Chen Yanfei added: "If you need my help, tell me the time and place later, and I will be willing to accompany you."

It's not necessary. I really don't want to go and I can't do it.

With this thought in his mind, Han Lie said, "Okay, then I'll see if the time can match up. If so, I won't be polite to you!"

"That's right!"

Chen Yanfei grinned so brightly that her eyes dazzled.

Next, the atmosphere became more harmonious. Chen Yanfei tried her best to avoid irritating Han Lie and talked about everything in college.

After eating enough strawberries, the two of them simply did not go back to the small courtyard and went to the city instead. They had a simple meal of grilled fish and then watched a movie.

Overall, it was a great chat.

After close contact, Han Lie discovered that Chen Yanfei was a more attractive girl than expected.

He is thoughtful, attentive, and not pretentious. He is willing to talk to him about topics that only boys are interested in. He has no princess syndrome. When discussing things, he basically starts with "are we?"

It lacks a bit of cuteness, but it makes Han Lie, who is essentially an old man, extremely comfortable.

It's a pity that a man's growth is a straight upward ladder. Every time he takes a step forward, it is absolutely impossible to look back.

Han Lie can't go back.

I won’t do the multiple-choice questions.

…

On the night of the second grade of junior high school, as usual, many guests came to the house.

The people this time were quite mixed, including distant relatives, friends of parents, and even some inexplicable people.

For example, one of Han Yong's colleagues had a very bad relationship, but he shamelessly came to borrow money. He said that your family is so rich, how about helping?

This kind of people are very common in real society. If you give up your face, you will get an advantage. Why not do it?

His wife is even more weird. Looking at her posture, it seems that if we can't get along anymore, she will start to behave and wallow.

Han Yong and Ma Honglian really can't deal with such shameless people, they are too soft-hearted.

In the end, Han Lie had no choice but to take action himself.

When I went out, I took off the Patek Philippe Starry Sky that I had never used before and presented it to that person.

"Uncle Chen, my parents really don't have any money. Otherwise, why don't you take my watch and get rid of it?"

Lai Pi Chen subconsciously reached out to pick it up. Han Lie reminded: "You must be careful. If you fall, you will have to pay more than 40 million yuan. If you take him out of this house, you will be sentenced to life imprisonment 80% of the time..."

Lai Pi Chen retracted his hand as if it was burning.

Han Lie looked at him and sneered: "Although we are a society ruled by law, one-tenth of this watch can crush your whole family. Who gave you the courage to come to my house and cause trouble? I will I've just been a guest at Tianye, do you need me to invite him over to give you two a ride?"

Shameless Chen smiled and immediately raised his buttocks.

To deal with such scoundrels in the market, there is no point in being reasonable, just use the lowest means to hit them in the face.

"I've given you an example. Next time someone like this comes to your door, just scare them to death..."

Han Lie was giving a lesson to his parents, and Ma Honglian suddenly held her chest and said, "So, the price is real? Oh, my mother! You spend more than 40 million to buy such an iron plate?! "

I'm dizzy!

Han Lie didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so he had to comfort her: "I didn't buy it, my father-in-law gave it to me."

"What?!"

Ma Honglian suddenly became energetic, and then blurted out a series of questions.

"What does that girl look like? Is she a girl? How old is she? How many years younger than me? Her family is so rich, why on earth did she fall in love with you? Didn't you go for plastic surgery just to chase her? Okay, son, I didn't see it You can be quite ruthless when you come out..."

The dignified brother Lie fled in despair.

As a result, Ma Honglian chased her into the bedroom and continued to output. Finally, she had to call Pan Ge and play the loudspeaker to let my mother hear the sound, which was a temporary solution.

The two chatted for a while, and Pan Ge suddenly asked: "By the way, give me your home address. I have saved a lot of good things at home recently, but Lao Pan can't use them. I'll mail you half of them!"

"Good guy, your little cotton-padded jacket leaks air everywhere when you wear it on Lao Pan, but it's so warm when you wear it on me..."

Han Lie didn't have any defense at all and joked with her happily.

"Then look!"

Pan Ge smiled triumphantly: "Get ready to receive it, I guarantee you a surprise!"

Han Lie was still there, coaxing her to do something bigger: "Since you want to take action, then don't show mercy. Does Lao Pan have any good tea?

Let's give him the final say.

My dad couldn’t bear to drink that Longjing style, and now he uses Gu Jingzhou’s purple clay pot to make his eight-yuan-a-pound jasmine tea every day.

Yesterday, a knowledgeable bank manager came to the house. When he saw the pot, his eyes almost popped out of his head. As a result, he carefully drank a sip of tea into his mouth and sprayed it on the spot. He coughed for twenty minutes...

That expression, that look, I simply can’t describe it to you! "

"Cluck, cluck, cluck..."

Pan Ge smiled like an old hen nestling in a nest, tears almost falling out.

At the end, he said a meaningful sentence: "Don't worry, this time, the tea will be enough!"

After hanging up the phone, she strolled to the small hall on the second floor next to her parents who were packing their suitcases.

He passed by and went straight to Panzi's storage room.

When I came out, I had two extremely exquisite tea boxes in my hands, and I put them on the top shelf of my suitcase with a smile on my face.

Pan Zi was so anxious that his mouth dropped.

"Ouch! Little ancestor, I have brought four boxes of good tea, are you going to dig out all the roots for me?"

Pan Ge replied confidently: "Han Lie asked for it. He said that you drink flower wine more than tea. It would be a waste to leave it at home. Why not honor his father..."

One sentence immediately made Pan Zi start grinding his teeth.

Zhao Anni was also scratched. She glared at Pan Zi fiercely and directed Pan Ge with a sullen expression: "Go and get the two bottles of Jin Mao that your dad has hidden. Anyway, he has plenty of room to drink flower wine!"

Pan Zi's vision went dark and he reached out to cover his forehead.

Han Lie, you are so good!

We'll see!