Crazy Psychologist

The other part of her in her body was laughing, chuckling, and rejoicing.

This is an idea that cannot be accepted, let alone shared with others. It is an unkind and dark thought that lacks morality. It means distortion or even moral corruption.

So she couldn't say it, but she couldn't get rid of the thought.

"Doctor Muchun?" Bai Lu suddenly turned around and looked at Mu Chun.

"Eh? I'm here." Muchun replied.

"I think you are abnormal." Bai Lu said.

"Abnormal? I'm fine." Muchun looked at his left shoulder, then at his right shoulder, and finally at his shoes.

Bai Lu was amused by Mu Chun's cute and helpless look, "You used to be muddled and often spoke strangely. Why do you stop talking and become refined now?"

Muchun touched his head in embarrassment, "Isn't it that your husband is back? Shouldn't I be more restrained?"

"Ah? What nonsense." Bai Lu couldn't laugh or cry. She just thought that Dr. Muchun seemed to be serious and reliable, but why suddenly he became so serious and irrelevant.

While thinking secretly, Mu Chun seemed to have regressed on the road of elegance. Bai Lu only heard Mu Chun complaining, "Yes, why did Teacher Bai Lu get married? It's too much and too uncomfortable. What do you want me to say?" Ah, it would be great if Teacher Bai Lu was not married."

"Ah? Can a doctor say this?" Bai Lu asked.

"Then don't think of me as a doctor. We are not just doctors and patients, right? Besides, we are not at the Garden Bridge Community Health Center now. I still have to say my love, otherwise you will feel I'm different from before, I just suppressed it. Well, if I can express my true thoughts without being laughed at or looked down upon by others, I think my true thoughts are quite reasonable." Mu Chunyue said The happier he was, he patted his shoulder with his hand, as if he was talking nonsense.

"Then what is Doctor Mu's true thoughts?" Bai Lu asked cooperatively, not wanting to spoil Mu Chun's interest.

"Well, I'd better not say anything." Muchun suddenly flinched, shook his head and turned around, leaving only his back facing Bai Lu.

When Mu Chun made such a fuss, Bai Lu suddenly didn't know what to do. She hesitated for a long time. Mu Chun looked up and lamented, and then shook his head dejectedly.

"Dr. Muchun, what's wrong with you? Then I won't ask you what you really think." Bai Lu said.

Muchun suddenly turned around, with countless (crying and laughing) expressions on his ordinary face, and there was an embarrassment that he was about to shed tears at any time. Bai Lu was a little confused and quickly comforted her, "Doctor Mu, if you want to say it, just say it. If you don't want to say it, don't say it. Don't scare me."

"Teacher Bai Lu is really a good person. Why did he get married??????? I think that He Ping's incident is not necessarily all bad. If that's the case, right? Then it's okay for Teacher Bai Lu to like someone else. Life must be exchanged at equal value, and we must also pay attention to fairness, right? At most, it is even. If you see your husband doing such a thing, then don't you not have to worry about your own affairs? Everyone is wrong, it is even." Mu Haru sighed.

puff!

Bai Lu couldn't help but laugh. Isn't this exactly what she was thinking? How could someone say it so easily? In Bai Lu's heart, such thoughts were simply like a devil.

Obviously I was addicted to drinking, afraid of being alone, always felt that my husband was not around, and did all those stupid things. When I found out that He Ping had really cheated on me, I actually had those shameful thoughts in my heart. I did think of it - it was even.

This thought is so tempting, and it seems to erase my mistakes in an instant.

It's like a piece of eraser, erasing bit by bit the past that I don't want to recall.

No longer need to worry about how to face He Ping, because he also made mistakes, he was wrong too.

But can such words really be said? Can this kind of mushroom growing in a corner really be exposed to the sun?

How could this Muchun, this doctor, say it directly and in such a way that it makes people feel relaxed?

His thoughts came out of Muchun's mouth, and Bai Lu didn't know what to say for a moment.

"So now, let's take a look at He Ping's question. Now that everyone is even, what do you think? Do you want to believe him when you are a couple? Once you believe what he says, it means that he has not cheated or cheated. Did you commit those stupid things?" Muchun reminded kindly.

Bai Lu fell into deep thought. Five minutes later, Bai Lu said, "Did he find a lawyer? What did he say to you that day?"

Muchun told Bai Lu that He Ping denied having an intimate relationship with Xu Dan, and Bai Lu looked a little disappointed.

"Life has to move forward. Teacher Bai Lu, go see him. Maybe he has something he would like to tell you that he has not told me."

Mu Chun waited for Bai Lu to nod and left the ward. Five minutes later, Mu Chun saw Fang Ming, who looked ashen.

"Mu Chun, can you drive?" Fang Ming asked while taking off his white coat.

"Ah? I can." Muchun replied.

"Okay." Fang Ming said, taking out the keys to the Ford car from his pants pocket and handing them to Mu Chun.

Although it is cold winter, it is not cold at all in the surgical inpatient department with the heater on. It is considered to be a spring-like temperature all year round. But Fang Ming's hands were as cold as the bowl taken out of the refrigerator.

When Muchun touched Fang Ming's finger, he thought he had touched a key.

"Doctor Fang, what's wrong with you?" There were nurses and patients walking around in the corridor, Mu Chun's voice was very low.

Fang Ming shook his head, "Let's talk in the car."

He looked extremely tired, so tired that Muchun felt that he was struggling to even speak.

Muchun started the Ford car, Fang Ming checked the seat belt once, and then looked out the window.

It was extremely cold inside the car. Mu Chun hoped that the heater could heat up faster, but it was not that easy. Unlike air conditioning and refrigeration, in the heating system of car air conditioners, the heat was not generated by the air conditioning system, but by the air conditioning system. Produced by engine coolant. After the engine is started, it keeps running and doing work, generating a large amount of heat during the operation. This part of the heat is quickly absorbed by the engine's coolant to achieve the purpose of cooling the engine, and the air in the cabin continues to flow through the heat under the action of the blower. exchanger, thereby continuously exchanging heat with the coolant flowing through the heat exchanger, thereby achieving the purpose of heating.

This process cannot be rushed.

Muchun knew that it would be better for Fang Ming if it was warmer inside the car. No matter what happened to him, it would be better if it was warmer.

"I didn't expect you could drive." Fang Ming suddenly said.

What kind of logic is this? Do I look like someone who can’t drive?

"Ah, I learned it in college." Muchun replied.

"I also learned it when I was in college, and I was still taking his class that year." Fang Ming looked at Wutong who was retreating quickly outside the car window.

The phoenix trees surrounding the sea in winter, after dropping the last batch of dead leaves, are like giant dry old people, tired and lonely. The branches of uneven thickness are stubbornly pointing upward, but they are so quiet that you can't even see the wind blowing by. Half a shake.

"He? Is he the patient you just admitted?" Mu Chun asked.

Fang Ming didn't speak. He closed his eyes and put his hand on the air outlet of the air conditioner. He warmed his fingers while looking at the windshield blankly.

"Doctor's welfare time. The psychosomatic doctor will help you solve your problems for free. Is your friend sick?" Mu Chun asked mischievously.

Fang Ming took a deep breath and closed his eyes. Seeing Muchun acting cute like this, he had no choice but to nod.

"It's too difficult, it's really difficult. He just divorced two years ago and married his beloved girl. The girl is two times younger than him and can be his daughter. After getting married, he gave birth to a child. The younger daughter is only two years old now. Less than 10 years old.

Two years ago, everyone was envious that he was about to retire. He was truly a winner in life. He went to study abroad with a full scholarship. After returning to China, he first engaged in medical school teaching and focused on scientific research, and later joined an overseas pharmaceutical company. You know, the annual bonuses of biopharmaceutical companies over the years can be piled into a small hill on the bed. Although I haven't seen many special achievements, there is really a lot of hot money.

He has a colorful life and is a talented person. When he got divorced two years ago, he was already an executive of a pharmaceutical company. This life has been like a lifetime. I went to Los Angeles to attend his wedding two years ago. The bride and Lin Chiling was equally beautiful. The wedding was very fashionable and was attended by many business celebrities and people from the entertainment industry. At that time, he seemed to be in good health, still smart and capable, and had a gentle temperament when talking and laughing, which made people both enviable and respected.

Speaking of which, when I was studying, I had a headache studying the pharmacology course, and I wasn't interested at all. If the original professor hadn't been pregnant and was about to give birth, and he happened to come back to take over the pharmacology course, I might have had to retake it. "

When Fang Ming talked about his time in college, his gloomy mood seemed to be slightly better, and his face became somewhat energetic.

After driving two streets, there was finally some heat in the car.

Muchun listened carefully and at the same time drove seriously. He drove very slowly and had almost no irritability, but he could not tolerate any distraction.

Fang Ming shook his head and sighed, "You are more stable at driving than me. It would be a pity not to be a surgeon."

Muchun said with a smile: "Isn't there some pity in life? I'm quite used to it. Surgeons will also encounter a lot of confusion. For example, the patient's family does not understand the treatment plan, and the patient thinks that the doctor did not treat him well enough. treatment plan, or the patient feels that his idea is different from the doctor's, and the doctor does not know as much as the patient. I don't know. Speaking of general practice, I also practiced in the surgical ward for more than half a year, and it seems to be happening every day. There are many, many things, but not all of them can have a perfect ending, some will naturally disappear with time, and some will disappear with the replacement of new sheets."

"It's true. The hospital is such a place. Time is rushed. Every doctor can tell many stories, but for many stories we don't have enough time to stay. We are rushing to the next operation and admitting patients. Okay , Admit patient; bed No. 15, surgery in the afternoon. Remember not to eat anything in the morning. Have you eaten anything? Yes, very good.

Discharge summary, admission record, discharge summary Time in the hospital passes quickly. In fact, I really like the Huayuanqiao Community Health Center. Although the outpatient service is very hard, there are always many patients, there are many elderly people who cannot speak clearly, and there are also family members who always make trouble for you, but after leaving the ward, you are indeed away from the life, old age, illness and death of human beings. It will be a little further.

Sometimes I envy you, Muchun, I really envy you, a department without blood, a department without scalpels, no ICU, no respirator, no rescue, no struggle between life and death. "Fang Ming rolled down the car window slightly and let some cold air into the car.

"Why did he return to China for treatment?" Muchun asked.

Fang Ming seemed to have not thought about this question yet. He frowned and turned to look at Muchun. "I have not thought about this question and have not had time to ask the professor. I have been paying attention to his condition and am very nervous. I I don’t think I can handle it.”

"Yeah?"

"The values ​​of tumor markers increased across the board, especially CA-199, which was more than ten times higher than the normal value. CT showed that there was a space-occupying lesion in the middle of the pancreatic body, and the mass compressed the pancreatic duct. The bile duct was not involved on CT, so the professor looked at There was no obvious jaundice reaction when he woke up. He felt deep pain after meals. He studied medicine. Although he has been engaged in drug development since then, his body is still relatively sensitive, so he went for a checkup soon. Indeed, it looked like It's not yet late. To be optimistic, it can even be considered mid-term. The professor himself also knew that there were indications for surgery, so he booked a flight back to the sea after the examination. He arrived today and asked me to receive him by name. , Fortunately, I am indeed at Zhinan today."

Fang Ming tried to make a very serious illness as easy as possible, making it sound like it was not so desperate.

Muchun heard it clearly and understood why Fang Ming's hands were so cold in the hospital before.

"Pancreatic cancer?" Muchun said.

"Yes, pancreatic cancer, even if you are not a medical student, you should know that pancreatic cancer is a dangerous disease. With the severity of this disease and our current treatment technology, there is still no particularly effective method.

Although partial resection can be followed by radiotherapy depending on the specific condition, if you are lucky, it is possible to remove all the tumors; if the patient considers not undergoing surgery but first chemotherapy and radiotherapy to reduce the compounding, then surgical treatment is not a bad idea. a way. But. But”

Fang Ming, who was unusually calm, said several "buts" in succession, but in the end he was so choked up that he could not speak.

After sniffing, Fang Ming added, "Please listen to what I have to say. This is my job. It's quite troublesome for you to listen."

"Yes, it's quite troubling. Anyone who hears it will be worried. You are a doctor and a student of the professor. We have always had a good relationship. You must be even more worried." Mu Chun stepped on the brakes and waited for the red light.

"But I guess the professor himself is more worried. He is a very strong and decisive person. This time he came to go around the sea alone. I'm worried that he didn't even tell his newlywed wife about it, for fear that she would be worried. ." Fang Ming said.

"So he came to Zhinan Affiliated Hospital to find you. He also hopes that you can keep his secret, right? Don't tell his former colleagues or classmates. This will be easier for him. A very strong person will not Give up hope easily, he will cooperate with the treatment, Doctor Fang." Muchun slowly drove the car into the parking lot, closed the window, put on the handbrake, and after doing everything step by step, opened the door.

Fang Ming got out of the car with a smile, and seemed to have regained his usual coolness and poise, "Our inpatient department will also be completed. In the future, there will be more and more patients. Dr. Mu must work hard."

It was like he had put all the sorrow he had just now into his coat pocket. If he didn't pay attention, he wouldn't be able to find it at all.

"If you need anything from me, just tell me." After walking to the second floor, Muchun patted Fang Ming on the shoulder.

This scene happened to be seen by Liu Tiantian, who chased Mu Chun all the way to the fifth floor, "Eh? Teacher Muchun, Director Fang Ming is not a confused person like Dr. Zhang. Aren't you scared to be so close to him?" ?”

"Afraid? What are you afraid of? Fang Ming is an excellent doctor. Besides, he is now more and more understanding of the work of the Department of Psychosomatics. Why should I be afraid of him?" After Mu Chun finished speaking, he put on a white coat and soaked himself again. Had a cup of coffee.

Liu Tiantian spread his hands, "Okay, okay, Teacher Muchun can handle anyone, and now even Director Fang Ming has become your good friend. By the way, Lawyer Zhang Mei is here. It seems that he went to Jia Yuan first. Over there, go to Dr. Chu's office now, don't say I didn't warn you, she's not in a good mood, I guess things are not going well with Shen Fan."

After Liu Tiantian finished speaking, he took a bottle of yogurt from the refrigerator and tiptoed out of the clinic.

Muchun stretched, turned on the computer and printed some documents. He thought again about whether there was anything he had missed about Zhou Ming, and whether there was anything important that he had not thought of.

Hmm. There should be no important points missed. However, Muchun is not sure whether Zhou Ming will never have [pica] again in the future.

This is the mood of the psychosomatic doctor. How much effect can he achieve by trying his best? Sometimes you can't see it in the present moment.

Psychosomatic treatment is different from surgery and internal medicine. There are many parts of it that everyone can understand, but there are many times when psychosomatic doctors themselves may not be fully sure.

Just as the neuroscientist Damasio discussed the human mind, behavior and brain, consciousness, feelings and emotions in detail in his book "Feel What Happens", curiosity and exploration of such issues are human beings' A gift, when a person fully understands the relationship between emotions and the body, feels the occurrence of emotions and the problems being solved, and realizes that he is feeling emotions, maybe a person can really get better from the predicament.

Muchun closed his eyes, wanting to rest for a while, and then he seemed to hear a very soft voice.

That voice said, would the human world be free of mental illness?