Crazy Psychologist

"Actually, they are all superstitions. You also know that these are just some ancient legends, which are called strange stories in other places."

"Yes, and there are endless weird stories, and every one of them can be offensive, so be very careful, very, very careful."

The man put his hands together gently. Because his nails were too long, he couldn't put them together, so they arched in the air like a bridge.

Muchun nodded. He did not object to the man's statement. From the beginning to now, he had not questioned it.

The atmosphere in the outpatient room changed from cold to gloomy. When the man first came in, there was a smell of dust, but now it gradually became like asphalt choking in the lungs.

"Am I the only one like this?"

The man asked, "Am I the only one chosen?"

"Chosen? A sense of fate? It seems that he is bearing some kind of pain, so that the people around him will avoid some disasters."

"Yeah, like in some story, you know, what I'm talking about."

"Are you sure of that? Convinced?"

"Sometimes, but I dare not go against them. What if these things are true? At least now, although my wife has left, she is living a good life. She just no longer lives with me. Compared with the death of a person, , this is already good."

"Yes, it's already very good. It must be very hard for you."

"Don't live like this."

The man paused for a moment, as if it was extremely difficult to speak again.

It was the man's silence at this moment that stuck in his throat.

"Otherwise"

The sound is always deep in the throat, unable to break out.

Muchun didn't grab the words, just waited quietly.

A few minutes seemed to Chu Sisi as long as a whole day.

It was like a knife was placed in front of his neck, unable to move.

Muchun's eyes were fixed on the computer and the desktop in front of the man. The man's eyes finally changed, sometimes looking at Mu Chun, sometimes looking out the window.

Originally, the sun was fair to everyone, and there was no need to pay a penny, nor would it give you any less warmth.

But there are some things that stand in front of the sun, which are both overbearing and helpless.

“If you don’t do that, if you don’t follow the established rules, it becomes unsafe.”

The man finally finished speaking, and Chu Sisi felt relaxed for a moment. Her hanging heart finally slowly relaxed, but she didn't know when she started to feel pain.

It feels so uncomfortable, such a familiar pain. Have you ever been like this before?

It's just that he is more serious. It's so serious that the nails that haven't been trimmed for two years have dried up and turned yellow due to lack of nutrition. Compared with the fallen branches in late autumn, the decay of the nails is more despairing.

It's hard to recall that it was once an active part of life.

"Why did you come to the hospital?"

Muchun asked.

"Suddenly I wondered if there would be any medicine that could change these conditions."

"Do you know that your behavior is unreasonable?"

The man nodded in frustration. He nodded 7 times in total, no more, no less.

"Yeah. I know. I don't want that."

"How's your sleep?"

"Sleep is the only good thing. There are more and more hours of sleep. If a person is locked in the house without going out, the best thing is to sleep. Nothing can make the world safer than sleeping."

"How safe is it? Do you no longer have to do strange things to block fear?"

"Well, I'm scared that something bad will happen."

"Have you never asked for help before?"

The man paused.

Chu Sisi looked at the patient in front of her. This person should be close to 190cm tall. Although his whole body is now slightly hunched due to lack of exercise for a long time, it can be seen that he once had a very enviable figure.

Even now, he tries his best to maintain a decent posture, and he really doesn't look like some men who take the initiative to stay at home and be lazy.

Just sick.

Chu Si thought of what that person once said to her, "I don't blame you, I'm just sick. Let's try to solve this problem together."

Those words are like the spring breeze and the sunshine outside the window.

"I don't blame you. I really don't blame you. It's not your fault."

An instant feeling of redemption and release.

Back then, if it hadn't been for that person, that man would have become a bit weird and selfish now.

Chu Sisi shook her head. It was different. This patient was still different from her. In some aspects, this patient looked much more serious than she did at the time.

"I have tried to talk to others about it before, and the first one was my wife."

"My wife can't understand your behavior, can you?"

"When I talked to my wife, I had been silently enduring it for nearly half a year. I couldn't get used to the sudden intrusion of a person into my life without saying hello. I don't know if the doctor would understand if I described it this way. I can no longer believe this. There are still people in the world who can understand. These things are so weird, like being possessed by an evil spirit. Even once when I passed by the entrance of the park, a fortune teller said that I was possessed by an evil spirit."

"My wife can't understand it at all."

The man grinned, and the skin on his face fell off like peanut crumbs on ice cream.

"Anyone who sees his husband holding a slipper and licking it at home will feel perverted."

Muchun nodded.

"Yes, I was by the shoe cabinet at that time, holding the black sneakers I wore out for the past few days, holding them in my hand, and licking them like this."

The man held up his hands and pretended to lick the thick tongue in the air.

Chu Sisi didn't feel any nausea, just distressed.

My heart hurt even more than when I heard his statement before.

"Because will something bad happen? If I don't do this?"

The man nodded suddenly, quickly and vigorously, like a child.

"Yes, because something bad will happen, a very strong uneasiness, very strong, and then there will be a voice in the body saying, 'Lick your shoes 21 times and you will avoid bad things.' That's it. I wanted to resist, but I couldn't. I had to turn off the lights 21 times, brush my teeth 21 times, and when I got out of the bathroom and put on clothes, I had to take them off and put them on again, 21 times. I can tolerate these. But the voice was not satisfied, its request was different every time, that day it was to lick shoes."

"Did you hesitate?"

"How could you not hesitate? No one would really believe that something terrible would happen if you don't lick your shoes. Right, doctor, you won't believe it either. If you don't eat ten steamed buns in the morning, something bad will happen. So I will eat ten steamed buns no matter what."

"How can you possibly eat it?"

Chu Sisi couldn't help but ask.

The man was silent, and in the silence there seemed to be tears falling to the ground.

"What are these terrible things?"