Crazy Psychologist

Closing the door, not wanting anyone to hear, feeling dazed and thirsty.

It's definitely not like Li Mu came to Mu Chun to chat about the blooming flowers in spring or which brand of coffee is more suitable for spring.

Muchun put the perfume bottle left by Liu Tiantian into the drawer, put several empty bottles back into the wooden tray and put them back on the window sill.

Later, Muchun picked up a cup and asked: "Coffee?"

"Thank you, I'd like some ice."

Li Mu really needs a cup of coffee, a cup of coffee that can clear his mind.

"So, you locked the door to tell me some secret?"

The coffee machine roared, and Muchun's voice accompanied the machine's operation, but Li Mu didn't even hear it.

He was immersed in his complicated thoughts, and because of what happened recently, he once again fell into the fear of being unable to sleep.

"Dr. Mu, I'm sorry, I don't know where to start."

Li Mu took the coffee that Muchun handed him, lowered his head, and his shoulders were slightly raised due to nervousness.

Muchun knew that Li Mu was a person with outstanding intellectual performance. He was good at thinking and could effectively control his emotions after thinking.

But today, his expression was very complicated, and Muchun could see suspicion and suspicion.

The result is that you can't believe anything and you can't be sure that nothing happened.

Once the brain cannot trust itself, people will fall into an unspeakable chaos.

If a person has been in this kind of chaos for a long time, it is very likely that there is no way to simply say the things he thinks he can say clearly.

"I love my wife very much, I love her very much." Li Mu's words seemed to be addressed to himself.

"Well, it's enviable."

Li Mu smiled bitterly, "Okay, I'm more relaxed now."

He leaned his upper body back until his back was leaning against the chair and let out a long sigh.

"Maybe I figured it all out, maybe there's something wrong with my brain." Li Mu pointed to his temple.

"Maybe, then tell me what you think of."

"It's too scary, I dare not say it, but I must say it, otherwise I will probably go crazy, or I have already gone crazy." Li Mu scratched his hair, turning his originally handsome hairstyle into a bird's nest built by a stupid bird. .

"The crazy imaginations probably include the following:

Imaginations related to illness - I am sick, I may die, even treatment will be useless;

I killed someone—was it me who killed that person? Did I see him when I was driving? Did I not see the red light? Why was there no violation reminder? Does the lack of violation reminder mean that I did not kill someone? No, I still killed someone. "

"Terrifying." Li Mu shook his head.

"Very good." Mu Chun raised his head happily and took a sip of coffee.

"What's good? Not good at all."

"So you are sick?"

"no."

"Did someone hit someone?"

"No, it's not a human thing. I don't know how to say it. It seems so stupid. I came here in the winter and sat on this chair. I told you at that time that I couldn't sleep well at night. , my life is in chaos because of my busy work.”

"Your mental state is in chaos, so now you are the same as in winter, you didn't sleep well? Stay up all night continuously?"

"No, I have been feeling better for a while. I have almost completely lost those chaotic emotions, and I no longer have the uncontrollable urge to hit people."

"You have no violent tendencies, so you don't need to think about it for the time being."

Muchun told Li Mu clearly.

Li Mu looked at Muchun gratefully and said, "Thank you, thank you for not suspecting that I have violent tendencies, thank you for believing in me."

"Patients believe in doctors, and doctors naturally have to believe in patients. There are not only human feelings but also scientific basis. You were under too much pressure at that time, but it seems not to be the case now."

"Since I found a leak in the bathroom and a dead person in the passage above the exhaust fan."

At this point, Li Mu's lips trembled and he looked at Mu Chun in horror.

He thought, "No, this is too scary, how could anyone believe such a thing."

Li Mu had thought about coming to see Muchun today many times, but when he actually opened his mouth, he found that it was even harder than climbing to the sky.

Because what happened recently is so unscientific, unimaginably unscientific.

"Cat." Muchun raised his hands, pretending to be paws, and put them in front of him.

Li Mu felt sick.

It wasn't because Mu Chun deliberately acted cute to make him feel uncomfortable, but because Mu Chun suddenly said the word that he couldn't say at all.

"So it still has something to do with cats."

Seeing Li Mu's distraught expression as if he had seen a ghost, Mu Chun also realized that this problem was a bit complicated.

No wonder he looked so flustered.

"If I remember correctly, a wild cat entered the exhaust passage of the building and died inside because it couldn't get out. This has been confirmed, right?"

"Yes, that's right." Li Mu suddenly tightened his eyes and raised his voice and said loudly, "Yes, yes, that's why I feel that I imagined it. Everything, everything was thought of by me, Mu Doctor, why don't you just tell me that I'm sick and there's something wrong with my brain."

"For example, tumors." After Mu Chun finished speaking, his hands became busy between the keyboard and mouse.

"What are you doing? Doctor Mu, you."

"NMR, have you had any headaches lately?"

"have."

"How long?"

"Two weeks."

"Only two weeks?" Upon hearing this, Muchun suddenly stopped typing on the keyboard and turned his attention from the monitor to Li Mu.

"Only two weeks?" Muchun repeated.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"Were you fine before?"

"After I went to the house upstairs to check for leaks on the floor, everything was fine. It wasn't until after the Chinese New Year that I..."

"So you didn't have any headaches two weeks ago?"

"No." Li Mu shook his head.

"Dizziness? Unsteady on your feet?" Muchun continued to ask.

"No, I'm fine. While I'm busy with the company, I have to record shows and resume fitness. Everything is fine, very fine."

"Yes, I heard that you are quite popular recently." Muchun smiled.

Seeing Muchun smiling, Li Mu also forced a smile.

"I also mentioned you on the show and said that a doctor gave me a lot of help. I am extremely grateful."

Muchun really wanted to complain, "Don't ever praise me on the show. I don't want to be famous at all. Really, I don't want to be famous at all."

"What's wrong?" Li Mu asked when he saw Muchun didn't speak.

"Let's continue to discuss your symptoms. Are there any particularly obvious ups and downs in your mood? For example, you are very impulsive and irritable when encountering the smallest things?"

Li Mu thought for a while and replied: "No, I was really good during that time, as if I had been reborn."

"This word is really well used." Muchun gave a thumbs up. "Have you ever encountered any memory problems, such as forgetfulness?"

"How is it possible? The company has a lot of data that needs to be interpreted and processed every day, and I never make mistakes."

"That being said, there is no need for a brain examination at the moment."

“What about other physical illnesses? Will they cause hallucinations?

"You have to tell me first what your hallucination is. Are you hurting others, or others are hurting you, or the harm has nothing to do with you and happens to other people. You are just a bystander, as if you are watching a movie. horror film."

"Are these three different?" Li Mu was a little confused, but he understood what Mu Chun meant, and he soon told Mu Chun that his condition was the third one.

"Bystander?" Muchun asked Li Mu again for confirmation.

"Yes, bystander." Li Mu frowned, and then he took a few deep breaths.

Muchun said nothing. He was sitting next to Li Mu, but seemed to have disappeared in the outpatient department of the mind and body department.

So transparent that it has no sense of existence.

"I'm sorry, I don't know how to speak, because these things seem so unreasonable during this time. I can't say it, it will make me look like a fool, and I probably am a fool."

Seeing Li Mu's frustrated and embarrassed look, Muchun did not comfort him. Instead, he burst into laughter and said, "Principles are defined by people. The world itself has no logic and is extremely complicated."

"That's right." Li Mu felt a little better after hearing Muchun's unclear and harsh words.

"The chair you are sitting on now has many, many people, men, women and children, who have said many, many illogical things, but these things are very important to each of them. They lose sleep and worry about these things. Drinking, giving up on yourself and even thinking of self-destruction.”

"So, there is nothing to be laughed at?" Li Mu relaxed a little.

Muchun shook his head.

"It's Cat. One night two weeks ago, I finished recording Weird Showdown, which is the most popular reality show recently. I drove home by myself. I am very sure that there is nothing wrong with my mental state, because since the last time I experienced After severe sleep deprivation, I changed my sleep schedule.

There will be a small nap time every afternoon. If I need to record a program that day, I will change my dinner to salad or light porridge, set aside some time to exercise in the gym downstairs of the company, and then go to record the program. Everything is fine. , there is no problem, I sleep well, my physical condition is also very good, and my mental calculations are very fast.

Therefore, when I returned to the same scene as before the New Year, I completely collapsed.

That day, I walked into the bathroom.”

Li Mu's voice suddenly disappeared, as if he was eaten by something in an instant.

After a while, Muchun asked, "What happened next?"

Li Mu seemed to be in a fugue for a moment and was pulled back to the clinic.

His eyes were red but unblinking.

"What happened next?" Muchun asked again.

"That day, I walked into the bathroom and smelled a strange smell. I thought it was the smell of hair removal cream."

"That's normal, bathroom and hair removal cream."

"No, this is not normal, not normal at all, because"

The volume suddenly increased again, then stopped abruptly.

"Okay, this is not normal, not normal at all, hair removal cream, bathroom, did you close the door?"

Muchun asked carefully.

"What?"

"Did you close the bathroom door?"

"Of course I closed the door, what do you mean?"

Li Mu looked at Muchun blankly, is the doctor doubting my memory?

"It didn't matter because the sound wasn't outside the door, it was in the bathroom, right there, out of my sight."

"That sound?" Muchun frowned, "Is it the sound of a cat?"

Li Mu suddenly trembled all over and crossed his arms.

Muchun stood up and walked to the window sill and closed the window.

"No, I'm not cold, I am, I am, I must be crazy."

Li Mu laughed stupidly, his laughter was miserable.

Muchun gave Li Mu a cup of hot water, and he took a few sips before his complexion recovered a little.

"I can't go on like this. It will ruin my life. Am I possessed by a demon?"

From Mu Chun's point of view, Li Mu began to behave incoherently, and he was considering whether to give him an evaluation. Schizophrenia or delusions of persecution could all be judged through evaluation.

Considering Li Mu's strong desire to talk, Muchun was still willing to wait a little longer.

He tried to keep the conversation going.

"The bathroom, the smell of hair removal cream, and the cat."

"That's right." Li Mu repeated, "Bathroom, hair removal cream, and damn cat."

"Damn cat? Was the cat in the bathroom or did you just hear a noise."

"The sound was the same as before, so I asked if I was sick. Guardrails have been installed in the passageway above the bathroom."

"Is it possible for a cat to get into the guardrail? Cats are 'liquid animals'."

"Stop joking." Even though he said this, Li Mu still smiled.

Muchun handed Li Mu a piece of paper and asked him to try to draw the guardrail.

"Drawing guardrails?" Li Mu was puzzled, but he still followed Muchun's instructions, took the paper and pen and started drawing slowly.

Three minutes later, Li Mu handed the paper to Muchun.

"Louvre structure?"

"Yes, unless the cat is really liquid, not crystal mud, otherwise it will definitely be impossible to run in."

Muchun put the drawing paper aside and asked: "So, the sound did not come from outside the bathroom door, nor from the original passage, so where did the sound come from?"

"Ah!!!!!!!!!!!! This is what scares me, and I suspect it comes from here."

Li Mu pointed to his temple again, then he shook his head with a wry smile, "This is the most reasonable explanation."

"Yes, if you are sick, some kind of brain pathology or psychotic symptoms could certainly explain the condition."

"Very good, very good." Li Mu's tone was a bit self-defeating.

"I will ask for a consultation with a neurosurgeon. In addition, we need to do a series of evaluations and you will need to come back two to three times within a week."

"I" Li Mu hesitated to speak.

"Or is there anything else you want to tell me? Take your time, we've already learned a lot about bathrooms, depilatory creams, cat sounds, and more."

"Qitong."

When he said this, Li Mu was in agony, like a man who had been tortured by life and had no power to fight back.