Crazy Psychologist

"Then what?"

"Nothing, then it's just counting all the things in the house over and over again."

Li Nan smiled. His hair was still not cleaned, but his face and hands looked much neater than the first time he came to the hospital.

"Have you started washing your face?"

Muchun asked.

"Well, let's start washing your face."

Li Nan's voice was very low. It was really unreasonable for such a big man to not wash his face and still be conscious.

"Sometimes I really hope that I am possessed by evil spirits. I once went to a forum where there were many people in my situation, but everyone's situation seemed to be different. I saw some people walking in a figure 7 shape. Yes, if you make a mistake, you have to go through it again.”

When Chu Sisi heard what Li Nan said, her heart suddenly beat wildly. She reached out to cover her face, fearing that the expression on her face would reveal some terrible message.

"What's wrong with Dr. Chu? Are you feeling unwell? Li Nan is your patient."

"Oh, no, I'm fine."

"As long as it's okay, I'll go downstairs to the nurse's desk first to see what new patients can be expected. I'll bother Dr. Chu first."

Before leaving the house, Muchun did not forget to smile at Chu Sisi. There was no hint of kindness in this smile.

"So you're talking about that forum?"

Chu Sisi didn't know where to start, so she simply continued from what Li Nan said just now.

"Well, the server suddenly crashed a few months ago and I can no longer access it. I only saw this forum at the beginning of the year."

"Have you tried posting some of your situation on the forum and asking everyone what caused your situation?"

"No, I haven't had the habit of posting on the forum for a long time. This matter is difficult for me."

The voice of the last sentence was so soft that Chu Sisi couldn't hear it clearly.

She stood up, walked to the window sill and closed all the windows tightly. The sound outside the window interfered with her ability to hear what Li Nan said clearly.

"You didn't post anything, so you just read what others say on the forum?"

"Yes, that's pretty much it. I read almost all the posts and comments on the forum. For a while, I almost relied on these posts to survive."

"Survive?" Chu Sisi bit her lips and firmly squeezed the corner of her white coat with her right hand placed under the table.

My hands were sweating, and eventually my forehead began to sweat.

Li Nan is an observant person. He saw Chu Sisi's nervousness, so he comforted her: "It's okay. I'm fine. I'm used to it."

"But it's impossible to get used to it, right? A life that was almost destroyed."

Li Nan was a little surprised, how could Dr. Chu suddenly become emotional and say such words.

Doctors, aren't they supposed to be cold and cold?

I didn't have much hope at first, I just thought that maybe there might be a chance, so I almost tried my best to go out. Whether I can go out next time, whether I can still come to the hospital, I'm afraid it depends on God's will.

I felt a little sorry for a patient like me who couldn't find the cause of his illness in any book, so much trouble for a young doctor.

Compared to Muchun, who was sitting at ease and at ease in his seat, this Dr. Chu was actually more nervous than the patient.

"Yeah, it's impossible to get used to it, keep repeating it, and those things will change. During this period, you have to lift the quilt and put it down 21 times a day before you can get out of bed. In a few days, it will become a requirement to open your eyes before getting up every day. Open and close your eyes 21 times. It is easy to count wrongly when you open and close your eyes. If you make a mistake, you have to count again. Sometimes it feels like there are ants biting you in your whole body, but you can't resist and dare not not do it.

Why on earth do people become so timid? "

"I don't know either."

Chu Sisi said to herself.

"What? Doctor Chu, I'm sorry I didn't hear clearly."

"I said, I don't know either."

I don't know how to help Li Nan, I don't know how to respond to what Li Nan said, I don't know anything, my head is blank, Chu Sisi feels that it is too difficult, treating patients, it is really difficult to sit on this chair At that time, everything became too difficult and completely different from what was imagined.

Why could Muchun be so relaxed and comfortable in this chair, as if everything was in order.

"Yeah, but I feel better if I talk to you. I don't know why."

"Really? Then come here often to chat."

Li Nan forced out a smile sheepishly.

Chu Sisi saw a handsome face through his disheveled hair. Before he got sick, he should have been a very dazzling boy.

But now, he is a person who is always nervous.

Li Nan has a particularly good description, “I am only free for the moment I wake up every morning. Half a minute later, when my consciousness is fully awake, my brain seems to have occupied 99% of the memory, and everything is free. It's stuck and struggling. There is only a moment of relaxation when you have just finished something, and soon these strange thoughts will come back again."

So his room is his prison, with obstacles everywhere. He is not free, not even for a moment. But he couldn't leave, so he locked himself in the room willingly and helplessly.

"It would be great if that forum was still there. I went to that forum again in the past few days and found that it still has not been restored. There must be hundreds of people posting on it. Everyone's situation is quite similar. I am studying chemistry. Yes, I don’t know much about many things, especially about words, and I don’t have a particularly strong sense of them.

To be honest with Dr. Chu, I looked for a lot of books and bought almost a dozen. I thought that since there were so many people on the forum with similar symptoms, there might be books about my situation.

Later, I found a book by teacher Chu Xiaofeng. He said that this kind of repetitive behavior can be treated with talk therapy, and that I should see a psychotherapist in the hospital to have a look.

So I came here because it is really close to where I live. "

"I want to know, what kind of fear do you feel? Do you think those things will really happen?"

Chu Sisi planned to talk to Li Nan about his concerns according to the method in her father's book. Maybe she could find some good entry points. As for what to do next, she hadn't thought about it yet. At least we could talk about it and maybe ask. teacher.

"No, I can't explain clearly. That state is very strange. I strongly feel that something terrible is reminding me in my mind."

Just after he finished speaking, Li Nan shook his hand and denied what he had just said, "I should say that there is a voice in my head that keeps pressing the alarm, just like a fire alarm, and keeps saying, terrifying. Things will happen."