Dashan Makes a Living 1984

In the evening, at Wang Tianxiao's suggestion, everyone spread an oilcloth on the big stone at the door, and the oilcloth was filled with various fruits, dried fruits, snacks, moon cakes, wine, drinks and so on.

Everyone sat cross-legged on the stone, chatting around the food.

Talking and laughing, eating and drinking.

Everyone is gathered here in a round circle.

The moon tonight is also very face-saving, big and bright, and it seems that the surrounding stars are much thinner.

It's just that the Milky Way is still like a white chain, spanning the sky.

The starry sky in this era is very beautiful, densely packed with stars, like countless silver beans scattered in the blue sky.

The constellations that should appear this season are also clear at a glance.

After eight o'clock, the sky gradually turned cold, and the mountain wind began to blow over.

But everyone chatted very happily, just added a piece of clothing.

Wang Tianxiao was very happy, he rarely drank some wine, he didn't expect that his drinking capacity has declined quite a lot now, he didn't feel like he drank much, but he was still drunk in the end.

In the end, I didn't know how to get back to the room.

The next morning, when Wang Tianxiao was woken up by Li Yali, his head was still groggy. He opened his eyes and looked at his wife puzzled, not knowing why he was woken up.

Usually when this happens, his wife will kindly let him sleep until he wakes up naturally.

"What's the matter, Lili?"

Li Yali's expression was very complicated, she couldn't tell whether she was happy or sad, she hesitated before saying: "Tianyi came this morning, he said it was... that Hua'er came back."

"ah?"

Wang Tianxiao turned over and sat up, surprised to ask what happened.

"Let Tianyi tell you the details. I'll go out and call him in."

"good."

Wang Tianxiao rubbed his dizzy head, put on a coat and leaned against the Kang wall, seeing Wang Tianyi coming in hurriedly.

"Second brother."

Wang Tianyi took advantage of the situation and sat on the kang.

"What's going on, according to your sister-in-law, that child Hua'er is back?"

"Isn't it? Yesterday I slept until midnight, and suddenly heard a child crying outside. I was startled at the time, thinking that it might be haunted in the middle of the night. But when I ran out, it turned out to be a flower. My child was squatting at the door and crying, which frightened me at the time, and I thought... and what happened to that child."

It's no wonder that Wang Tianxiao thought about it. In the middle of the night, a child who had been missing for a long time suddenly squatted at the door and cried. Anyone who saw it would probably be scared.

"Then did you ask, what's going on, where has the child been for so many days, and her mother, didn't she come back with her?"

"I asked, but the child seems to have some brain problems. No matter what I ask, he doesn't say a word, or just sits and cries, or is in a daze. Look at this trouble, what should we do?"

"Where is the child now?"

"I just sent it to my mother. However, I saw that my mother didn't seem to pay any attention to her questions. It made my mother cry, and I don't know what happened to the child."

The child Hua'er flashed before Wang Tianxiao's eyes.

A little introverted, with a pair of dark and bright eyes.

She seemed to be more mature than her peers, at least much more mature than her aunt Wang Xiaozhu.

"I'll try it."

Wang Tianxiao got up, got dressed, brushed his teeth hastily, and then went to his mother's room.

Since the disaster, my mother has been living in the mountains, sharing a room with Xiaozhu and Hongwei.

Because Xiaozhu still had to go to school, Wang Tianxin sent her off every morning, but it was a bit difficult to come back in the afternoon.

However, this is also impossible.

Compared with many families who can only live in temporary tents, she is already very good.

When Wang Tianxiao came to his mother's place, Hongwei and Wang Fang were playing outside, only mother and Hua'er.

Mother sighed and sat on the side, looking at a loss.

Hua'er sat leaning against the railing with her knees hugged, her eyes dull, and a thin blanket was draped over her back.

She was like a wounded little animal, huddled in the cold wind.

Wang Tianxiao felt distressed for a while.

There is an old man in his soul, and he hates children suffering the most.

Although the relationship with Hua'er is only uncle and nephew, but there is already a feeling of being relatives from different generations in my heart.

Seeing such a small child become like this, it's really...

Angry and distressed.

The mother saw Wang Tianxiao come in, and looked at him with eyes asking for help.

Wang Tianxiao signaled his mother to go out and walk around, and he tried to talk to the child.

Mother nodded, got off the kang and went out.

The two of them didn't say a word the whole time, and the atmosphere was suffocated to the point of freezing.

It's like a room full of gunpowder, just waiting for a spark to come in, it may explode in an instant, and then everything is blown up and wiped out.

Eleven year old girl.

Already very sensible.

Girls have matured earlier than boys, and this poor age is especially prominent.

Wang Tianxiao clearly remembered what Hua'er was like before, and knew that although she was only a child, she already understood everything.

Including various complex relationships between adults.

She also personally asked about Wang Tianxiao and his parents.

Unexpectedly, in a short period of about a year, it has come to this point.

Really... things are different.

Wang Tianxiao looked at it for a while, sighed, picked up the comb from the window sill next to her, sat gently beside Hua'er, put her beside her, and untied her braid that was already messed up and out of shape.

People in this era all want to twist braids.

People have a lot of hair, and sometimes they can't twist one, but they will twist two.

Hua'er doesn't have a lot of hair, so I twisted one, but because it hasn't been re-tied for a long time, it is already a mess, and some hairs fall from the front, frizzy, and there is no such thing as a hairstyle.

"Hua'er, Erda comb your hair. Look, no matter what happens, we always want to make ourselves beautiful. We are girls, not like those silly boys."

"Look, this hair is already so long. It's good to grow. This hair is grown by people absorbing people's troubles. Look at why children's hair grows so fast. It's because children There are so many troubles, but why does she look carefree, isn't it all sucked away by her hair?"

"Let me tell you, don't look at Erda like this, but I comb my hair very well. I usually don't do it. I'm afraid that people will comb too well, and they won't want to wash their hair."

"How many twists for you, let me think about it, forget it, just two, two looks more energetic, if you just comb three, maybe your hair will be pulled uncomfortably..."

Wang Tianxiao was like an old lady, combing his hair in a rambling manner while talking nagging words to the child.

He was right.

He combs his hair well.

In his previous life, when he was not busy, he would comb Wang Fang's hair and his wife's hair.

His hands have always been dexterous.

Small enough to make buns, cut window grilles, big enough to do all kinds of carpentry, building walls and building houses, etc.

As long as he can see something, he will slowly try to make it.

A lot of time, it's just that he doesn't have time to do it.

Coaxing the little girl to talk, he also has the experience that he is very unwilling to have.

In her previous life, Wang Fang gradually developed depression and lost the courage to live several times.

Every time he struggled to pull the child out of the predicament.

Wang Fang once shared that helpless pain with him.

Countless times, thinking of the child's innocent eyes, he felt very sad.

People are different.

Faced with the same thing, some people can simply put aside the past and start over from scratch, but some people find it difficult, or even never get out of the predicament.

Without any outside intervention, they could be lost forever in a self-enclosed world.

Until a certain point, a complete breakdown.

He didn't know what happened to Hua'er during the few months of her disappearance.

So he couldn't directly persuade her to do something.

Been through the same thing and reacted differently.

What's more, he hasn't experienced it.

Many adults always like to use their psychological endurance to demand children.

When they grow from children to adults, they seem to forget the sadness and difficulties of being children, thus betraying the children.

They don't like being stereotyped by the world, and gradually become people who rigidly demand the world.

The hero who resisted became the dragon after all.

Wang Tianxiao's childhood, youth and youth were full of various pains.

He has not come out for a long time in his last life.

It may be the last few years, when all the dust settles in life, the children live a happy life, and he has a grandson and granddaughter again, the innocent and lively smiles of the grandson and granddaughter healed the scars deep in his heart.

Only slowly relieved.

Thinking, perhaps most of his life's misery and homelessness may be for the beautiful peace of his later years.

The children live and work in peace and contentment, the grandchildren are lively and lovely, and they have no worries about food and clothing...

If so, it would be even better if the wife was alive.

After rebirth, with the open-minded attitude of the elderly, he has some career pursuits, but he hopes that his relatives and those who care carefully will live well.

He is willing to help everyone, willing to be a devotee.

Just like his previous life, no matter what, he is willing to silently raise his hands to support the children's future.

If some people have to sacrifice in this world, then others can live a better life.

Then let him sacrifice.

Who told him to be the father?

When he brought his children into this world, he had to do his best to make them better.

The child needs to cross the river, he is the bridge.

If a child needs to reach the sky, then he is the step.

Perhaps, on the way of rushing for countless times, he would occasionally think about it, if he did everything for others, where would he be?

But it doesn't matter anymore.

Every generation has values, cultural awareness for every human being.

Maybe there will be fewer and fewer traditional fathers like him in the future, and people will gradually pay more attention to the expression of self-awareness, but that's the next thing.

He doesn't object, and he doesn't think it's wrong for others to do that.

He just has his own persistence.

When the spring silkworms die, the candles turn to ashes.

The afternoon sun shines in through the window lattice, reflecting in Hua'er's eyes.

A little dazzling, her eyes moved slightly.

She stretched out her hand to cover the sun, but she murmured, "It's so warm."

Wang Tianxiao's hands froze slightly, he suppressed the excitement in his heart, and said softly: "The sun rises earlier in the mountains, because there are no houses and trees to cover it. If it was in our house, we would not see it this time." Woolen cloth."

"Erda?"

"Well, I'm here."

"My dad is dead?"

Wang Tianxiao was slightly taken aback, and sighed softly: "Everyone will die, and your father is no exception."

"How did he die?"

"More than a month ago, there was a flood here. You saw it at home. The pit yard was completely flooded. At that time, your father was hiding in the house... Everyone didn't notice..."

"Oh, drowned."

Hua'er responded lightly.

He smiled lightly: "It's good to die."

Hearing what she said, Wang Tianxiao felt a little nervous again.

Being able to say this lightly shows how much hatred she has in her heart at the moment.

Once this kind of hatred of children towards their parents is formed, it is often the most difficult poison in the world to resolve.

Hate born of love is the most hurtful.

"Hua'er, let's live here in Erda from now on. No matter what happened in the past, Erda is still Erda, just like I liked you when I was a child. In the future, your second aunt and I will love you and give you the best Life……"

"Will I still have the best life?" Hua'er smiled slightly.

"There will be. Every winter, we think that the cold is the limit. Everything in the world seems to be frozen, and there is no longer any vitality. But in spring, after the ice and snow melt, the warm sunshine will bring infinite vitality."

Wang Tianxiao finished the last bit of the braid, and tied butterfly flowers on the braid.

"Every dark night is not forever, the sky will always be bright. Each of us will survive through suffering again and again in our lives, just like we have to experience many dark nights..."

"And what if we die in the dark?"

"Oh, this way...of course it is the most painful, so we have to be brave and not let ourselves die in the dark."

Wang Tianxiao looked into his niece's eyes kindly, "Why, isn't it? Why should we die in the dark night? Even if we climb, we must climb under the sun."

Hua'er looked at Wang Tianxiao in a daze.

Perhaps it was her uncle's warmth that temporarily resolved the painful ice field in her heart.

"Hua'er, since I was a child, I knew that you were a sensible and strong child... It's a pity that this world will not be free from suffering just because we are sensible and strong. All we can do is to look down on them and not to let them Intimidate, defeat..."

"Erda, you said we all have to work hard to climb under the sun?" Hua'er asked suddenly.

"Yes, that's what I said."

"Then... what if we don't have the strength to climb?"

Wang Tianxiao looked at the deep tiredness in the eyes of children who did not belong to this age, and felt sad again.

He gently stroked the child's head, "Then there are still relatives."

"Dear ones?"

Hua'er's eyes were full of confusion, but also somewhat sad.

"Hua'er, although you don't have your father and... your mother, you still have us. Look at grandma, uncles, aunts, everyone cares about you very much. You don't know that you haven't come home these days , we are all in a hurry, and we don't know how much effort it took to find you again."

"And ah... now that you come back, we will take good care of you, we are all your closest relatives, no worse than your parents.

Besides, you still have a younger brother, isn't Hongwei's illness cured? You saw it just now, he has become alive again..."

"Erda..."

"Hua'er," Wang Tianxiao emphasized again softly: "If you are worried that no one will lead you in the dark, then let me do it. I promise I won't make you suffer any more in this life. All you need to do is just Just start over."

Hua'er's eyes brightened slightly.

But soon it went out again.

She turned her face slightly, not looking into Wang Tianxiao's eyes.

"Hua'er, I know you are very sad now, these things are not easy to happen to anyone, and it is impossible to resolve them easily.

So, let's take it slow. If there are two roads in front of you now, one is a wide but boundless abyss, and the other is a small path leading to the light, then you have to choose that path. Although it is a bit hard, it will lead to the light after all.

My child, you have to believe me, I understand your sadness deeply. The many sufferings I have experienced are actually almost the same as you, so I will not let you continue to be sad alone, because I was in such pain at that time, I actually hoped that someone could help me instead of letting me be a child , to bear everything silently.

As long as you want to move forward, then I will always be with you, and you will grow up beside me and your second aunt like Fangwa and Pengwa.

My child, life is a long way. One day, when you stand in the light and look back at the present suffering, you will find that the pain that you thought was boundless has been compressed into a small corner by happiness. It can't affect you in any way, the only function is to reflect how happy your life is. "

Maybe it was Wang Tianxiao's gentle tone, or maybe it was his caring words that finally broke through Hua'er's defense, and big tears fell from her eyes.

At first, she just sobbed softly, then suddenly buried her head in her arms, and started to cry.

Seeing her like this, Wang Tianxiao let out a long sigh of relief.

Finally... let it out.

The expressionless calm just now is the most dangerous state.

It's as if a thick film is wrapped around the heart, and I don't want to have any contact with the outside world for the time being. If I let it go, the film will become thicker and thicker, and finally it will completely become a shell, and there will be no more contact with the outside world. People can walk into her heart.

Wang Tianxiao was worried about this, so he kept talking to her.

It took a long time before the membrane was broken.

After all, he is a child, and his emotions are still very fragile, so it is not difficult to break it.

Children often need very little.

Many parents always feel that children seem to want a lot, but in fact, what most children need in the end is nothing more than the care and attention of their parents.

You just need to give them a little more genuine love and they will become very content.

Hua'er was born in such a family and had such superb parents, it was doomed that no matter how sensible and obedient she was, she still didn't get enough care and love.

And when she saw her parents abandoning her younger brother in the hospital, the blow to her heart was almost devastating.

Parents are patriarchal, and because of the money to see a doctor, they will just give up on their younger brother, and they don't even struggle much. If it was me, it would definitely end in the same way.

They have no love at all.

Some are just selfish, indifferent, and only vicious.

Therefore, when Hua'er heard Wang Tianxiao's warm words, she immediately lost her defense.

This was something she hadn't even thought about before.

She never thought that there would be such warm words.

If her parents could give her this before... even a few

If her parents could give her this before... even a few tender moments, that would at least give her the capital to remember.

It's a pity that until now, her father is gone and her mother is not around, so she still doesn't feel this.

It was the first time I felt it on Wang Tianxiao.

Only then did she know that there was such a warm family relationship in the world.

Hua'er's crying disturbed the people outside, Li Yali and Zhang Yufeng both stood outside the door and looked inside.

But seeing Wang Tianxiao smiled at them, he felt relieved.

Wang Tianxiao patted Hua'er's shoulder lightly, and said with a smile: "How about this, you see that the clothes on your body are all old, Erda will take you to buy some new clothes to change into. Girls, you must put yourself Dressed up beautifully, Hua'er is also a pretty little girl, isn't she?"

Hua'er raised her face, tears in her eyes.

"Er Da, why are you so nice, but my parents are like that, am I my mother's own child?"

"This..." Wang Tianxiao didn't know how to answer, Wei Wei thought for a while, and comforted him: "Parents are the mirrors of children, your parents didn't do a good job, so you have to learn a lesson and take it as a warning. Wait until you grow up You are married, you have a child, you must take good care of your child, and let your child have a happy and beautiful childhood from an early age."

"my child……"

"Yes, everyone will have children. When you grow up, you will have children. Since you know that your parents are wrong, don't you know what is right. You don't do wrong things. , just do the right thing."

Hua'er nodded.

Wang Tianxiao wiped away the tears from the child's face with the back of his hand.

She didn't know how long she hadn't washed her face, and there were two black marks washed out by tears.

"Erda, do people have to have children?"

"Um?"

"If they don't want to take good care of me, why did they give birth to me? Wouldn't it be better for me not to come into this world, so they don't worry, and I won't be so sad?"

Wang Tianxiao felt bitter in his heart.

He didn't know how to answer this kind of question.

In fact, this question was asked by a child in his previous life.

But it was Wang Peng who asked the question.

In his previous life, he lived in poverty, and his family had problems with food and clothing, and he had three children who had to go to school.

Sometimes it is inevitable to be biased.

For example, when his daughter Wang Fang took the high school entrance examination, because she was too poor in mathematics, she still needed more than 20 points to pass the exam.

When it came to his son Wang Peng, Wang Peng's studies were very good, but he felt that he could no longer train a high school student, so he asked Wang Peng not to go to high school, but to go to a technical secondary school.

Because the transfer is allocated.

In the end, Wang Peng secretly enrolled in high school instead of technical secondary school, and he was very angry for a while.

After Wang Peng was admitted to a key high school with high scores, he was still not very happy...

Mainly because of lack of money.

If he has money, of course he hopes that his children can go to a good high school and a good university.

But he really couldn't help it.