Daydream Me

Lin Yujing had read several books on this subject and related similar movies.

There are many examples of antisocial personality disorder as villains in movies and books, such as Moriarty in Sherlock Holmes, such as the famous Doctor Hannibal in The Silence of the Lambs.

Distorted emotions, behavior follows desire and instinct, no empathy, no guilt, lack of awareness of one's own personality flaws. Most of them start before the age of 14, and they appear at the beginning of childhood. They are influenced by genes and family.

Highly impulsive and aggressive, very good at manipulating other people's emotions with lies and pretense, and obtaining satisfaction in a way that normal people cannot understand.

In real life, there are people like this.

too terrifying.

Ordinary people may be subtly affected, what will happen when a neurologically sensitive and delicate depression patient gets along with such a person day and night.

It's nothing like a lunatic or something, a high-IQ sociopath who seems mild-mannered and who will make you like him, trust him, and then use your goodwill and trust to act recklessly without the slightest rebuke of conscience. He doesn't feel like what he's doing is wrong.

He may feel that killing someone, directly or indirectly, is as simple as smoking a cigarette.

Nie Xinghe is different from the typical anti-social personality. According to what Shen Juan said, he has no direct aggressive behavior.

Lin Yu was startled by the young man on the street. He didn't look taller than her, thin and light, and it was difficult to cause direct harm to others.

Other mental problems, or he is simply a pervert, he regards Shen Wan's uncle as his salvation, or his only support, he has never felt family affection, so Luo Qinghe can't have it.

He couldn't accept that his position in the other party's heart was unequal.

When watching the movie, I was attracted by the intense and exciting plots created by these villains, and I loved and hated them. In reality, when I met people who were suspected of having similar problems, Lin Yujing felt cold.

That kind of creepy feeling made the hairs all over the body explode in an instant, like a bucket of ice water splashing down in the snow in the cold winter and twelfth lunar month.

Nie Xinghe and Shen Juan were about the same age. When the incident happened, he was at most fourteen or fifteen years old, about the same age as she is now.

Shen tired is also so big.

After Shen Jian finished speaking, no one spoke, and the house was quiet. When Lin Yujing realized it, he realized that she didn't know when to stand up.

She stood in front of the sofa and didn't move for a long time, not knowing what her expression was now, her mind was full of various things, dazed and incomprehensible.

In fact, many of Shen Wan's words have been mentioned in one sentence. He didn't want to go into details. Even so, the amount of information was too huge. She had to sort it out bit by bit. She could feel her fingers shaking.

Shen Jian sat there motionless and looked at her. After a long while, he sighed and threw the remote control in his hand on the coffee table. He stood up, walked to her, raised his hand and patted her on the back lightly.

Lin Yu recovered from shock.

"Don't be afraid," Shen Juan moved very lightly, stroking her back one by one, lowered his eyes, and said in a low voice, "Don't be afraid, Lord Lian will protect you."

Lin Yu's eyes turned red in shock: "I'm not afraid, and you said the opposite."

Shen Fan made a "hmm" sound.

His attitude of being too calm the whole time was a little unnerving.

Lin Yu took a deep breath and tried her best to control the emotions in her voice: "Shen Juan, although it may be inappropriate for me to say these words, but you are not wrong about this matter," she raised her head, "it's not you. It's your fault, you didn't cause this result, you don't need to sacrifice anything for it, do you understand what I mean...?"

"Understood," Shen Yan lowered his hand, stepped back a little, and distanced himself, "I understand, I don't think it's my fault, and I don't have the habit of casually taking the blame, I just- think I'm responsible. "

"Luo Qinghe has been taking medicine since he came back from Hong Kong, but I never found out that he looks no different from a healthy person."

Shen Yan looked away and said slowly, "I can't understand why he did this, but sometimes I wonder, if I found out that he was taking medicine earlier and he went to receive treatment earlier, would he not have done it? This is going to happen.”

"The first time I told him to go to a sports school, when he told me to do whatever I wanted, if I found out that he wasn't really happy, Nie Xinghe wouldn't have a chance, and I regret it."

"When I was a kid, maybe I was in junior high school. He asked me, and he will give me this studio in the future. I agreed. He thinks I like it too." Shen Juan said.

Lin Yu's feet were a little weak, and she sat back on the sofa: "Then do you like it?"

"I don't know," Shen Juan came over and sat next to her, "I was used to it at the time, and I didn't like or dislike it."

He leaned into the cushions, raised his head against the wall, and stared at the paintings on the ceiling: "No one in our family supports him in doing this. The tattoo artist is too abstract. It's only me, and he thinks I also Like, I understand him, I can inherit him—"

Shen Wan smiled, raised his hand and patted the sofa cushion, "Inherit his ideal place."

"That's why," Lin Yujing slowly sorted out, "you left later, you regretted it, and he felt that you were perfidious."

Shen Jian paused, then turned his head: "Do you think the word perfidy is used a little too heavily?"

Lin Yu was shocked to hear that he wanted to make her laugh, so she smiled very much, although she couldn't laugh very much now.

There is a feeling that I will not be happy in a short time.

"But you were still a child at that time," Lin Yu said in shock, "what a junior high school student said, I still wanted to be an astronaut when I was young."

Shen Wan turned his head again and said in a low voice, "He may feel that even the only relative who understands him and supports him doesn't want him anymore."

Lin Yu recalled a news item she had read before. A single mother committed suicide because her daughter wanted to study abroad in college.

She has never felt such a strong and paranoid family, and she doesn't know the way of thinking of people with depression or depression. She is a little out of control now and can't help but blame Luo Qinghe.

Even if she understood that he was a victim, she was a little out of control.

He might as well stay in Hong Kong for the rest of his life and never come back.

Shen Juan is too innocent, he is completely a disaster, and it takes eight lifetimes of bad luck to encounter this kind of thing.

She could even imagine what he looked like at the time, a high-spirited, flamboyant and proud, such a dazzling young man.

How did he deal with this matter, how did he give up the choice at the time, how did he come back here, and then do things he didn't like or hate.

Shen Juan would never say it, and Lin Yujing didn't want to know at all.

She sat quietly on the sofa, didn't speak, didn't know what to say, and it was inappropriate to say anything now.

She regretted it a little, she shouldn't have asked this question.

What Bai Yueguang Hei Yueguang, she, the invincible and rational classmate Lin Yujing, would be disturbed by a few maliciously misleading words from a neurotic, it is a shame.

She sat slumped on the sofa and sighed deeply.

Shen Juan was beside him and sighed, "Lin Yu was shocked."

Lin Yu turned his head in shock.

Shen Jian looked at her: "This thing is over, what happened can't be reversed, and life can't be unchanged for a lifetime, whether I'm on the provincial team now, or come back to continue studying, for me, there's actually no change. too much impact."

She pursed her lips and looked at him, her eyes and eyebrows were drooping, and she looked like she was in no spirit: "You lie."

"I'm not lying," Shen Juan helplessly raised his hand, rubbed her head, and whispered, "I can do well no matter where I am, no matter what I do, don't be unhappy, don't be afraid, no one What can you do to me,"

He bent his index finger, tapped her forehead lightly, and said with a smile, "Master Tien is omnipotent."

Lin Yu was stunned.

Lin Yujing suddenly had a very strong urge to hug him.

When he calmly talked about those unacceptable things, when he looked at her a little weakly and blankly for a few minutes, Lin Yujing never had such a thought.

Until now, this person is leaning lazily on the sofa, smiling and saying this sentence now.

- I can do anything.

I can do my best in whatever I do.

No one can beat me.

No one, nothing can extinguish his light.

"Lord Tien," Lin Yujing tried his best to suppress the urge to do something, and called him, "You, every time you call yourself this, I think you are so good, can you be like a middle schooler? Like an adult, a little more mature?"

Shen Jian looked at her and was genuinely curious: "Why are you so daring? The last person who said I was a second grader is no longer in this world."

Lin Yujing turned a blind eye to his threat: "Everyone is from the elder brother generation, how come you are of the grandfather generation?"

"They all call it that, I'm used to it," Shen Juan thought for a while, "Maybe it's because Brother Juan is not very nice?"

Lin Yujing recited both titles silently, and found that it was indeed a smooth passage from the grandfather's generation.

"Okay." She was in a much better mood now, pulled the bag on the coffee table, took a beer from it, flipped through two more sandwiches, and handed one of them to him, one for each of them.

Shen Juan watched as she kicked off her shoes, sat cross-legged on the sofa and pulled open the can beer pull tab, took a few big mouthfuls, and then unwrapped the sandwich.

He knew that she could drink enough, so there should be no problem when he heard it, so he didn't stop: "Hungry?"

"A little," Lin Yu glanced at his watch in surprise, it was almost ten o'clock, "I didn't eat much for dinner, so I didn't have any appetite."

Shen Yan also glanced at his watch: "Are you still leaving today?"

Lin Yujing stopped chewing and turned to look at him.

Shen Jian looked at her straight, his eyes were dark, and the dim yellow light of the floor lamp was like a warm filter, which outlined the ambiguous tenderness.

She puffed out her cheeks, her expression a little blank, the sandwich was still stuck in her mouth, and her throat subconsciously swallowed.

Shen Lian raised the corners of his lips, leaned closer, and looked down at her: "Huh? Are you going?"

Lin Yu came back to his senses: "What are you, an invitation to commit a crime?"

"I'm asking politely," Shen Juan glanced at the bag she put on the coffee table and saw two dozen wines inside, "Come here to drink every day in the middle of the night, so you can trust me?"

Lin Yujing didn't know why the topic suddenly turned to this kind of unclear midnight theater, although it might not be appropriate to say this today.

But choosing a day is worse than hitting the sun.

It's been annoying to drag.

Break the jar.

She swallowed the food in her mouth, wrapped the sandwich in plastic wrap, put it on the coffee table, turned her head, and looked at him seriously: "Shen Jian."

"Huh?" Shen Yan casually responded.

"Do you want to be my boyfriend?" Lin Yu asked in surprise.

Shen Wan's languid expression froze, he was quiet for at least ten seconds, and asked, "What?"

"..."

Lin Yujing showed no expression: "If you don't want to, forget it."

As she said that, she leaned forward to grab a sandwich and eat it.

Shen Lian quickly sat up straight, raised his hand and pushed away the sandwich she placed on the coffee table: "Think."

Shen Juan stared at her and repeated, "I think, but I don't think so, you go on."

Lin Yujing wanted to laugh a little, she lowered her head and secretly curved the corners of her lips, then raised her head to look at him: "And then, if you are my boyfriend now, what are you going to do?"

Shen Lian: "..."

Shen Yan was at a loss for a moment.

He hadn't really thought about what to do next.

Shen Juan's purpose is very clear, his own mind is determined, and Lin Yujing's mind basically understands 70% to 80%, so he doesn't want to dawdle.

Very simple, want to engrave his name on this person.

his girl.

his, girlfriend.

And what about hugs?

Then kiss?

And then... what?

As soon as Lin Yujing asked this question, over 1,800 thoughts quickly floated through Shen Wan's mind.

Those unspeakable little movies that I watched with Jiang Han, He Songnan and the others in the past began to rush through my mind quickly.

Only then did he realize that his memory was so good.

When you watch it, you don't feel distracted, do you? How come you are so active when you need it.

Once this colored thought appeared, it began to grow like bacteria in a petri dish. The upright, youthful and restless 18-year-old classmate Shen Wan began to feel a little restless.

Just when he almost couldn't help glancing at his pants, Yu Guangsao saw Lin Yujing suddenly come over.

Shen Lian raised his eyes.

Lin Yu was still sitting cross-legged on the sofa, leaning over with one hand on the cushion, pressing his upper body, looking at him from the bottom up: "Have you forgotten, I'm only sixteen years old."

Shen Lian: "..."

Shen Wan felt as if someone was pressing his head and shoved him into the snowdrift, and he woke up instantly.

All these little movies are gone.

Not only is it gone, the movie starts to rewind, and the kiss is back, back to the hug.

Lin Yujing leaned forward, changed his posture, rested his elbows on the sofa, held his face, tilted his head and blinked at him, curling his lips: "Brother, what can you do at sixteen? ?"

……Hold.

Shen Yan's eyelids jumped.

He held his breath for two seconds, lowered his eyes and looked at her, his voice a little hoarse: "Lin Yujing, don't touch me with a sip of wine in the future."

Lin Yujing finally couldn't help it, she fell on the sofa and laughed.

Shen Jian watched her huddle together beside him, couldn't stop laughing, and couldn't help grinding his teeth.

He slumped into the sofa and looked at her solemnly, until she lost the slightest temper: "Is it fun to play with me?"

Lin Yujing finally stopped laughing and raised his head: "I'm not joking, I'm serious, I have to understand what you're thinking about," she paused, "Shen Jian, I don't want to fall in love, I I feel...a little bit of a delay."

Lin Yu raised his head in shock: "What if you don't like me in the future?"

"No," he whispered.

"Then I don't like you anymore?" Lin Yu said in shock, "Sixteen or seventeen years old, how long can I like you?"

Shen Jian did not speak, and looked at her silently.

These two questions directly caused the atmosphere to freeze a bit. There was silence between the two for a while, and Lin Yu was the first to move. She jumped off the sofa and stepped on her shoes: "I'm going home."

Shen Jian glanced at his watch, it was almost half past ten.

He took a deep breath, stood up, and grabbed the coat on the sofa: "I'll take it off for you."

"No," Lin Yujing just sat on the sofa for a long time, her hair was a little messy, she raised her hand to tie it again, "My home is very close, I can go back by myself."

Shen Wan turned around: "It's half past ten."

Lin Yu blinked at him in shock, and his long eyelashes fluttered: "I'll send you a message when I get home?"

Shen Jian pursed his lips and looked at her for two seconds, sighed, and compromised: "Send a voice."

"Okay, voice," she agreed readily, pushed the door to the iron gate, and turned around.

Shen Juan also followed and handed her the coat in his hand: "Wear it, it's cold."

Lin Yu took it in shock and slowly put it on.

Shen Juan copied his hand into his pocket and didn't say a word, just looked down at her wearing it.

The coat was oversized, with long sleeves, and she raised her arm and shook it, freeing her fingers from the cuffs.

Satisfied, the little girl raised her head.

The wind was quite strong, and Shen Juan helped her stand up the collar of her coat to cover her exposed neck: "Go."

Lin Yu was shocked and stood still for two seconds. She suddenly took a step forward, raised her hand, and put a small piece of white fingertips showing her cuff on his shoulder, and he leaned over.

Shen Yan didn't respond.

She felt that she was supporting his shoulders on tiptoes, and the height was still not high enough. She raised her hand and pulled his collar down and pulled it down, her head was close to his ear, and her voice was soft and soft: "Good night, boyfriend ."

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