Daydream Me

After a long time, Lin Yujing thought of this day uncontrollably every time she thought of her high school career and Shen Wan.

In the winter, the coolness is pouring into the door along the crack of the window. The air conditioner is not turned on, and the room is cold.

Shen Wan's fingers and lips were cold, touching the skin to make people want to shiver, and the other hand pinched her comfortably at the back of her neck.

Lin Yujing was surrounded by tenderness.

She closed her eyes and adjusted her emotions quickly, feeling his fingers, his breath, his smell, mixed with disinfectant and tobacco, with a chaotic sense of cleanliness.

She opened her eyes, Shen Yan was looking at her, leaned back and pulled a little distance, moved her hands from the back of her neck, and rubbed her hair.

His condition is not very good, his eyes are light blue and black, his eyelids are slightly drooping, and he is a little tired.

She just didn't notice.

Lin Yu raised his hand in shock and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. It only took a few minutes, and the dazed, almost hopeless state just now was completely controlled.

She cleared her hoarse voice, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Have you been to the hospital? Uncle still..."

Halfway through, she paused.

Shen Lian raised his hand and touched the corners of her eyes that were still a little red: "It's not good, I actually couldn't think of how bad it could be, he's been lying down for a long time, and his immunity is lower than normal. The body itself wasn't doing too well, the lungs got infected and the heart started to fail."

Lin Yu sat on the spot stiffly in shock, opened his mouth and couldn't speak, his lips were white, and he didn't know what to say.

Shen Jian continued, "I met Nie Xinghe."

Lin Yu was shocked and the hairs on the back of her neck exploded. The existence of Nie Xinghe was completely beyond what she could accept. Even when she heard the name, she felt chills all over her body.

"Is he going to do something bad again? Did he tell you something?" She grabbed his hand nervously. "Don't listen to whatever he says, and don't be influenced."

"I won't be so easily influenced by anyone, don't worry about that," Shen Yan rubbed his forehead with one hand, his fingers slid down her soft hair, wrapped around the ends of her hair, pulled a lock of it over and circled it around her. Playing around with your fingertips, "I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I can tell you anything."

Lin Yu was stunned.

Shen Jian lowered his eyes, his voice was a little tired and hoarse: "You too, whatever makes you happy or unhappy, as long as you tell me, I will listen."

Lin Yu was shocked and did not speak.

It was impossible for her to tell Shen Yan.

Lin Yujing has been like this since she was a child. She is not good at talking, and she has long been used to it. It doesn't mean that she can change.

And after Shen Yan told her this, she couldn't speak.

He also has a lot of things himself, uncle's, Nie Xinghe's, one by one, pressing him one by one, she doesn't want to let him, plus one of her, her own affairs have to be handled by herself, and there is no reason to leave it to him.

What's more, the contradictions and problems between her and Lin Zhi were not just because of a tiredness.

He's got his stuff, and she's got it, like a little, scaled table, and everything's importance, at least so far, ahead of "their relationship."

No one can abandon life itself and live as he pleases.

At least not now.

Lin Yu took a deep breath and stood up: "I'm leaving."

Shen Jian didn't speak, and looked straight at her with dark eyes.

Lin Yu pursed her lips in shock and said in a low voice, "You go to bed early, you will go to bed when I leave, and you are not allowed to stay up late."

Shen Juan still didn't speak, he found the cigarette case from the coffee table, knocked out one, and bit it in his mouth.

The black eyelashes were pressed down, and the emotions could not be seen clearly.

Lin Yu gasped in surprise, turned around and walked out.

Shen Wan raised his head, watched her walk to the door, opened the door, gritted his teeth twice, then pulled it out and put it aside.

Shen Lian laughed out of anger.

He felt that he had exhausted his patience in this life, and penetrated into her world little by little, but he still couldn't crack her shell.

Every time, just when he thought he had succeeded, she backed away.

"Lin Yujing," he raised his eyes, leaned back, and leaned on the armrest of the sofa, "Are you going to push me out like this for the rest of your life?"

Lin Yu was startled, turned around, looked at him, and suddenly called out to him, "Shen Jian."

"I might be going home."

Shen Wan narrowed his eyes.

"I'm going home." Lin Yujing repeated.

Shen Lian finally realized something, raised his fingers unconsciously, sat up straight, stared at her deeply: "What do you mean?"

"Meaning, you may have to change the table, then talk about a long-distance relationship, and talk about graduation," Lin Yujing tried to make his voice sound lighter, "Actually, it's not too long, at most a year... and a half? ?"

Shen Wan understood.

She was abnormal at the school gate before, what happened today, and what she wanted to say.

In fact, he should have noticed it long ago.

Shen Yan closed his eyes: "I don't agree."

Lin Yu was startled and said softly, "Boyfriend, there are some things that you can't decide, and neither can I. Just treat me as having used up the opportunity you gave me in advance."

"I'm not very brave. I want to run away many times. I don't know if I will run away one day."

Lin Yu was startled and continued, "But I remember what you said."

Shen Juan looked at her, her eyes were a little muddy, and her voice was hoarse: "What are you talking about?"

"You can allow me to leave for a while, but you will pull me back," she blinked, holding back tears, "you can't abandon me, you won't let go."

Lin Yu was shocked when no one was there, Meng Weiguo and Guan Xiangmei were not there, Fu Mingxiu went back to school in the afternoon, she went upstairs and sat on the bed, her eyes blank.

The moment she saw Shen Juan, all Lin Yujing's lost sanity began to return, and she slowly calmed down.

She knows Lin Zhi's strength and stubbornness better than anyone else.

She couldn't hold her back.

Help her with a transfer, custody, and take her away, this kind of thing is easy for her.

What can a sixteen-year-old girl do? A hysterical revolt? Hunger? Playing truant and running away from home?

There is no way.

In fact, calm down and think, things are not so bad.

She is now in her second year of high school, transferred to another school, spent the next semester of her second year of high school, and passed her third year of high school.

It only takes a year and a half at most.

Lin Yujing couldn't provoke Lin Zhi now. Lin Zhi's objection now is only because she is young, and what she asks is that she must focus on nothing now, no matter what, as long as it may delay her grades, she will Prevent.

But once the quarrel with Lin Zhi continues, not only will there be no results, will Lin Zhi begin to oppose Shen Wan?

You can't get mad.

She has to take it easy for a while now.

It's only been a year and a half, it's no big deal, they have mobile phones, they can video, and they can meet on weekends and during winter and summer vacations.

These are not problems. The reason why Lin Yujing resisted so much was because she felt uneasy.

A year and a half, whether it is long or short, is simply too long for her.

She didn't have the confidence to maintain this fragile connection over a distance. She didn't know if Shen Yan could hold on, and she didn't even know what she would be like in a year and a half.

Lin Yu was startled, closed his eyes and picked up his phone from the bed, and searched aimlessly for a long time before finding Lin Zhi's phone number.

She dialed it, and Lin Zhi picked it up very quickly. She was quiet and there was no sound.

"I figured it out," Lin Yujing said softly, "I don't want to live with my dad either, I'll go back with you."

Lin Zhi sounded a little surprised: "I didn't expect you to figure it out so quickly."

"Do I have a choice?" Lin Yu asked calmly.

Lin Zhi was silent for a while, then whispered: "Xiaoyu, you may blame me now, or hate me, I admit that as a mother these years, I have not fulfilled my due responsibilities, but I am your mother after all. , I can't just sit back and watch."

"I was also young, and many things will fade away. Things that you think are vigorous now, you will find after a long time, there is nothing you can't forget, and when you meet a better boy in the future, you will find yourself young. How naive to insist at that time."

Lin Yu lay flat on the bed in shock and was silent for a moment.

"Well," she said, "I see."

Lin Yu was surprised that Lin Zhi's speed was so fast, as if she was afraid that she would go back on it.

She quickly explained her purpose to Meng Weiguo. Meng Weiguo had a big fight with her at first, but of course he did not refuse, so the matter was settled.

Lin Yu was startled like a ball, and was kicked over and over again.

When thinking of this metaphor, she even wanted to laugh a little, not even the desire to be sad.

I can't cry anymore.

The custody procedures didn't come down so quickly, so Lin Zhi first helped her go to school to go through a series of procedures for transferring.

And this whole process, Lin Yujing didn't show up.

Lin Zhi had a house in City A. Lin Zhi moved all her things there. The door was locked and her mobile phone was confiscated. She was locked at home for two days in isolation.

Lin Yu was shocked and did not make trouble. The next night, while Lin Zhi was taking a shower, she secretly took out her cell phone from the closet in her bedroom.

There is no internet at home, and the SIM card has been removed, but the contents of the phone are still there.

Lin Yujing first opened the chat record with Shen Yan. The two of them didn't chat much. They usually stayed together all day at school, and they had things to do on weekends. A few words before going to bed.

Lin Yu quickly ran back to the room in shock, pulled out the Polaroid, took pictures of their chat records one by one, and opened the photo album.

There are not many photos of her, the most recent ones are all eating.

Scrolling up, it was the day she and Shen Juan were called into the office by Liu Fujiang.

The teenager in the photo is standing in the corridor, wearing a white school uniform jacket, the zipper is not pulled, a little sloppy, with a sky blue cartoon bear band-aid on his chin, lazily drooping his eyelids, looking dazed and sleepy, slightly tilting his head looking at the screen.

The pupils are dark, the corners of the eyes are slightly raised, and even the curvature of the eyelashes is beautiful.

Lin Yujing finally collapsed when he saw this photo.

She squatted on the ground with her phone, her eyes were red little by little.

On the third day, Lin Yujing convinced Lin Zhi that she could go to No. 8 Middle School to sort out her things.

Lin Zhi took her to the gate of the school and got out of the car. Lin Yu was so shocked that she didn't think about anything else. She flew all the way from the gate of the school into the teaching building, and couldn't wait to run up to the fourth floor in three steps and two steps to the end of the corridor. .

want to see him.

Gotta see him one last time.

The classroom door was open, and few people were talking and chatting inside, and a small physics test was being conducted.

Lin Yujing stood beside the door wall, suddenly a little afraid.

She took a deep breath, took two steps forward, walked into the classroom, and knocked gently on the door.

Dinosaur Wang turned his head, looked at her, and nodded: "Go."

Lin Yu turned around in shock and looked over at his seat.

Shen Juan's place was empty, and it was the same as when he left on Friday, with two books and a pen on it.

Lin Yu was startled at him back then. He grabbed two papers, folded them and stuffed them into his schoolbag. He looked at her with his lips hooked. He smiled a little bit and asked her in a low voice, "Let's go home together?"

It's obviously very close, but it happened a few days ago, why is it suddenly different.

Lin Yu snorted in surprise, bit her lip, tried her best to control her desire to cry, walked to her seat, and slowly sorted her books one by one.

She dug out the previous book that he had taken in the dormitory to apply for a receipt.

Lin Yujing put the book on Shen Yan's table, and then secretly took his book.

She turned to the first page, and there were two big words on it - Shen Jian.

She still remembered how Shen Juan looked when she wrote the name, sitting lazily leaning against the wall, swishing her pen to write on the paper, her writing posture was not quite standard, her thumb would gently clasp her index finger fingertip.

Lin Yujing shoved his book into her schoolbag, and pulled out a lollipop that she had forgotten in the corner at the innermost corner of the table.

In order to coax Xu Ruyi, she bought a bunch of them and stuffed them all inside.

In the end, I don't know what happened, but one still fell.

White sticks, cellophane wrapped sugar balls, pink and tender color.

Peach flavor.

She had thought that there was no peach flavor.

She remembered that she only picked one of each, and she gave the one that tasted peach to Shen tired.

Lin Yu blinked in shock, tears suddenly followed, and smashed onto the table with a slap.

She pinched the lollipop and placed it on the tired table.

The classroom was quiet. On the morning of early winter, the sun was thin and bright, and it was almost impossible to feel the temperature on people.

It was September when she came.

The summer is long in the south, and Lin Yu stepped on the tail of the summer to come to this strange city. In the midst of anxiety and panic, he met a young man under the scorching sun.

Lazy and wanton, flamboyant and gentle proud boy.

When he sees a child running over on the road, he will subconsciously bend down slightly and raise his hand, naturally guarding it, gentle and delicate.

He would also stand in the brightly lit basketball hall and say to her with a smile, "Lord Tien is omnipotent", full of rebelliousness.

He always shines and is always invincible.

He has the most determined soul.

When Lin Zhi told Lin Yujing that she would meet better people in the future, Lin Yujing did not open her mouth to refute.

In fact, she knew what she was thinking, and Lin Zhi also understood.

In just a few months, Shen Jian made her feel like she had encountered the best scenery in her life.

She will never meet such a person again.

There can be no better than him.