Deranged Writer's Afterword

49 What Is The Truth ? (1)

Thrust

Slash

Pierce

These were the three basic moves that were included in the basic manual for the spear which was titled " Learning how to use a spear, for dummies".

I'm not making this up.. nobody can make this shit up. All the moves stayed true to their name.

Thrust was basically me just thrusting the spear.

Slash was just thrust from a different position.

Pierce was just a very quick thrust.

... It really is spearsmanship for dummies..

For the past two months I've been doing all the three of them consecutively till I couldn't move.

Seeing all my hard work paying off felt good.

Okay.

'That's enough feeling good for one day.', thinking this I force myself to get up.

It's time for a prison break... or is it a heist... or a rescue mission.

Well whatever it was... it's time to change the plot... again.

Last Sunday, after burying a body in our backyard, I discussed my plan to break out the princess.

The plan is to come up with a plan.

That's right. We have no plan.

But I'm not worried... I mean what are the demons going to do, kill me or something ?

...

I better think of a plan soon.

I mean, I do have a basic plan on how it's was going to work.. I just had to iron out the details.

Yeah everything's going to be fine... probably.

~~~~

I'm in my room, standing in front of Eric and Lecia.

Lecia's started coming back to school by the way.

.... and I'm not ignoring her, I just have a lot of things on my plate.

" So, you still have no plan ?", Eric asks with a tone that sounded tired.

Oh I want to see this mf make a plan in 5 months... now that I think about it, that sounded very possible.

Why couldn't I think of a plan yet ?

Am I dumb ?

I shake my head to get all these negative thoughts away from my head and say to the crowd in my room.

" I have a plan, I just need a little more time."

Hearing my answer Eric scoffs a little and goes to his bed and lies down.. like a little bitch if I say so myself.

Lecia doesn't move from my bed and continues to stare at me. I try to ignore her gaze and go into my training room but she stops me and says,

" When will you stop ignoring me ?"

I look at her innocently and say,

" I'm not ignoring you."

A frown starts forming in her face as she asks me,

" Is that why you've been ignoring all my calls ?"

" I was just busy... lay off me okay ?"

Lecia seems to be hesitating but she manages to say,

" Look.. I know you're angry.. I- "

I cut her off and say,

" I already told you that I wasn't angry, so just l-"

This time she cuts me off and shouts,

" STOP LYING!"

Is she yelling at me ?

Oh really... I'm the person who should stop lying..huh ?

I feel anger rising within me.

I'm probably going to regret this but I start to shout at Lecia,

" YOU KNOW WHAT ?... I AM ANGRY.... YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO QUESTION ME!''

I haven't raised my voice against Lecia ever before..... but I'm just too... I don't know.

'' I'm sorr-'', she tries to apologize again but I cut her off and continue my rant.

'' I don't care about who my mother is or where she is... I've always thought of you as family... now you're telling me that the reason you 'took care' of me was because some random woman told you to.. Without her telling you, would you have even noticed me in that stupid orphanage.... Oh and that big speech on the park that day about 'family' and shit, I can't believe I fell for that shit.... it was so obvious all this time... I should have notic-''

I stop speaking as I see tears falling down from Lecia's face.

Oh she's crying... so what ?

I'm not the bad guy here.

I'm not some stupid simp who forgives a woman just because she cries a little.

I am an advocate of true gender equality.

'' Don't cry, Lecia. I'm sorry.'', I say with my hand on her shoulder.

….

Let's just not talk about it.

'' I'm sowwy... I didn't mean to lie to you... everything thawt I said to you on that park was the truth..''. she says while sobbing.

I can feel Eric's judgmental gaze on my back.

This has gotten awkward and I suppose that it's kind of my fault.

I let out a sigh and sit beside Lecia.

" Look I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said that to you.... I was just a little angry... I'm sorry."

I shouldn't have shouted at Lecia, her mental state isn't that great right now. With all that's happened I should have known better than to shout at her.

'Sigh'

This is a mess, but it's my mess so I'm going to have to clean it up.

" Why don't we go for a walk ?", I ask her

She nods her head and wipes away her tears quickly to stand up.

~~~~

We're sitting on the bench.

The park was strangely empty, must be because it was almost night time.

We sit silently for about ten minutes untill I start speaking,

" I know that you didn't lie that day on the park.... I was just caught off guard by your lie.... I known you since forever you know ?.... maybe that's why it hurts a little more....But I also lied to you... a lot so... let's forgive each other just this once ?"

She clears her thought and says,

" Okay and I'm so-", she stops speaking once she sees the glare on my face, a small smile blooms on her face.

" So, how's school been ?"

We talk about everything that's changed over the last few months and then some more as well.

I think I needed that...just as much as Lecia.

After an hour of talking, I walk her to her dorm room and bid her goodnight and return to my room.

~~~~

Eric was still up reading some book.

He acknowledges my presence with a nod and goes back to reading his book.

I get on my bed and pull my blanket up to my face, I stare blankly at the ceiling with several thoughts running around my mind.

" Is she okay ?", Eric asks from the other side.

I snap out of my trance and ask,