Don't disturb me who is dying, I just want to leave quietly

Xue Min knocked lightly on Jiang Yuan's door.

Jiang Yuan appeared in front of Xue Min.

Xue Min looked at Jiang Yuan with some confusion and said, "Jiang Yuan, will you blame me in your heart, I really just don't want you to leave me for all this I did."

"I don't know how strong my feelings are for you, but I do know that my heart is broken at the thought that you will leave me in the future. As long as I can grab any straw, I will hold on to it desperately. It will definitely not let go easily, can you understand my feelings?"

Jiang Yuan nodded lightly.

Xue Min suddenly hugged Jiang Yuan tightly: "Jiang Yuan, let me give birth to a child for you, okay? Let me give birth to a child for you, I am willing, I am willing!"

Jiang Yuan was stunned by Xue Min.

Xue Min continued: "I have been thinking about this question for a long time, no matter whether your operation can be successful or not

, I am willing to give you a child, and I am also willing to raise our child!" "Of course, I believe that we can raise our child together and tell our child what a sincere relationship we have."

Jiang Yuan gently hugged Xue Min's shoulders: "Xue Min, I really thank you for being able to love me like this, my heart is very, very touched."

"But you can't be impulsive, there are some things we can do, and there are things we can't do anyway.

"Having a child is not a simple thing, and you will not know how hard it is to raise a child!" "

This will ruin your life, it will ruin everything in your future, it is very, very unfair to you, and I will never allow this to happen."

"I know your feelings for me, I know that, and I feel very fulfilled and happy.

"But other than that, I don't want much. I don't think I can be too selfish, I have to think about you, I can't let you think only for me, otherwise it won't be love. "

Xue Min, in fact, you don't have to feel any guilt about the things you did to me without it, you shouldn't feel like this. Actually, I'm very, very grateful to you.

"Do you know why? Because I know you're caring about me, I know you're doing for me silently, and it makes me feel very, very warm.

"I do have a tangle in my heart, I admit it, a tangle in my heart. It's just because some of my parents' past entanglements have nothing to do with you. "

Let me tell you something from my heart, I can't easily borrow money from our past affairs, when nothing has happened, to be honest, I can't do this yet!"

Xue Min didn't interrupt Jiang Yuan, just listened quietly, she knew that Jiang Yuan was talking to herself.

Jiang Yuan continued: "Actually, I am also an ordinary person, I also have my own joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and I forgive them for everything they did to me in the past like a saint, I can't do it for the time being!" "I

think you should also be able to understand my feelings. It's not so much that I don't care about the hurt they've done to me in the past. It's better to be more precise, it's already numb!" Xue

Min trembled slightly in Jiang Yuan's arms.

has long been numb, this sentence should be able to explain a lot of problems, numbness is not not not to care, but powerless to care.

Xue Min had never been hurt by anyone like this.

But this doesn't mean that she doesn't understand how painful this kind of injury will be?

It must be painful to the heart, to the bone marrow!

Xue Min hugged Jiang Yuan even harder.

Jiang Yuan let out a long breath: "Actually, when I was very young, I also fantasized that one day I could have the maternal or fatherly love that I could have like others.

"I did have this fantasy at first, but then it slowly began to disappear from my life, and I don't know when it started to disappear. But I know I never had any illusions about them since I was in junior high school!"

"I'm telling you this, I just want you to know how long I've been numb to them. How disappointed am I in them?"

"I can't refuse those words that Uncle Li Xiang said to me this time, you should know why I can't refuse. Because my relationship with Uncle Li Xiang is really, really close.

"We can't be said to be father and son, but it's definitely far more than my relationship with him. "

If I say this, you should be able

to understand it, right?" Xue Min nodded lightly in

Jiang Yuan's arms: "I can understand, I can empathize with you!" Jiang Yuan nodded: "Thank you very much for being able to understand me, in fact, my heart is very entangled now, it's not that I don't want to live!" "

It's that I think of having them in my body, but I feel that I can't accept my feelings." My heart would involuntarily reject me, and I felt that this kind of life was a pain.

"I don't want to feel like that, I don't want this kind of pain, but I can't be deceived by myself, I can't convince my own heart.

"I'd like to forget everything if I could, but my brain can't help but think of the scenes that happened in the past, and I can't forget them.

"There are many, many things that I can't really do, I don't know if others can do it, but I really can't do it.

"If I can convince myself to accept all of this without any psychological repulsion, I am willing to convince myself to do so. But that couldn't be done.

Xue Min listened to Jiang Yuan's heartfelt voice, looked at the tangled expression on his face, and suddenly felt very heartbroken, he knew Jiang Yuan's inner struggle, and knew Jiang Yuan's inner conflict.

But Xue Min felt a little powerless, and didn't know how to comfort

Jiang Yuan, she could only hug Jiang Yuan tightly and said: "Everything will pass, don't think about these problems first, time will let you see through all this, there may be no way to see through it now, but as time slowly passes, everything will become less important."

"I will always be with you, always with you, I will help you overcome all the struggles in your heart, all the pain in your heart. I will be your strongest point of support!" "

As long as you can accept the treatment with peace of mind now, you can think about other things in your heart, but don't refuse, agree to my request, okay?