Doomsday Wonderland

From March to more than half of April, the doomsday updates basically consisted of three days of fishing and two days of drying the net. The pauses lasted for a long time, and the updates were also very short.

Although no one talks or urges me, I am more aware than anyone else of this slowness in updating, and I know it is very irresponsible.

In addition to the reason for digging through old articles to find pitfalls, there is actually another reason that I have been unwilling to say... But I have been looking at my own updates on Shushu Lingling in the past two days, and I feel that you may be the most qualified to know I am a group of people, so even though it is very difficult for me to open my mouth, I am still ready to tell the truth.

There is so much foreshadowing, but to put it bluntly, there is only one sentence. In March, I experienced my first depression episode in my life. I was completely caught off guard and was sunk. I had no power to resist. It probably lasted for two or three weeks. I don’t even know what happened to me, because I have never experienced it before and I don’t understand.

It’s not that it’s particularly hard and heartbreaking, although there are moments like this, but most of the time, all my energy seems to have been sucked dry; the second batch of Shanghai greens all died as soon as they sprouted, and both potted ferns turned yellow. , because there is no way I can get up from the sofa to water it. If you don’t want to eat, you won’t sleep for a day or two in a row, and then sleep for a day or two in a row. Too lazy to open my mouth to speak, unable to concentrate, unable to read more than two lines, as if everything in my brain has been turned into pieces, my brain is a chaos of constant noise, tearing and confrontation, even the minimum daily care for myself, such as washing my face and hair. , food and water are difficult to guarantee.

What is that feeling? My skin is my prison. Even if I am suffocated, I can’t break out. (Does this sentence sound familiar?) Everyone’s life is a hell tailor-made for them. I am in this custom-made hell. In hell.

I don’t even know how I wrote the updates during this period, because any attempt to focus on something would be torn apart by a storm of chaotic thoughts. I am no longer myself at all. I am like a piece of grass being beaten by distracting thoughts and darkness. If I am not careful, I will be uprooted.

I don’t know what the trigger is. It may be the epidemic and subsequent effects.

In fact, it seems that some readers discovered it, but I didn’t say anything at the time. I'm very reluctant to talk about it because I would feel a little ashamed, as if I had done something wrong...I also know that this kind of thinking itself is not healthy.

I may be unhappy now, but this is not my intention - writers who write entertainment articles make readers frustrated. Isn't this a shame in the industry?

I have contacted the doctor several times, but since the business has not yet reopened, I have no choice but to help myself at home. I have tried many methods. It seems that it has begun to have some effect recently, and the storm in my head is starting to calm down.

What I find most helpful is meditation. Don’t laugh. I used to think that the difference between meditation and sleeping is that one has music and the other does not...

But I started with MindfulnessPractice, and I felt that after five minutes of practice my mind seemed clearer. Then I looked at it again and realized that this is meditation, right? And the meditation is getting longer and longer, from five minutes at the beginning to thirty minutes a day now. After finishing it, I still feel that I am still unsatisfied and want to have another bowl... In the long run, I feel that it helps a lot.

So don’t worry about me. If anyone has similar problems, please feel free to message me privately and let’s work together. I also hope to be able to restore myself to a state where I can write updates as soon as possible.

Next I want to talk about meditation.

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I am very interested in the field of human beings changing their mental states, especially those involving Psychedelics, so I read the popular HowtoChangeYourMind immediately. When I was reading it, I noticed that there was a piece of information that said that the brain activities and areas of monks who are good at meditation are highly similar to the brain activities and areas of people who use Psychedelics. They are both daily. A place in the human brain that is not activated.

Of course I hadn't started practicing meditation at that time, but I had experience using Psychedelics (I'm using it legally, I won't report anything illegal); now that I've tried both, I have to say that the user experience is It's really close.

There is a StoneApe theory, which holds that this group of apes, the ancestors of humans, was essentially no different from other apes. So why did this group of apes begin to evolve into humans? It was because during the great migration, they The discovery of mushrooms... After eating mushrooms, brain circuits that could not be activated normally were activated, and the possibility of human evolution began to arise. UU Reading www.ukanshu.net (I am particularly fascinated by this theory, so I think it is true, and nothing other people say will work)

Of course, I'm not advising everyone to eat mushrooms, nor can I buy mushrooms. What I mean is, isn't there something healthier and better for the mind, which is meditation practice. (Yes, I am selling Amway. Nowadays, who can you find who can buy the goods without spending money other than me?)

After meditating, my personal experience is that the entire spirit and brain become particularly clear and sharp, and even the field of vision seems to be sharply sharpened, similar to the brain version of wearing glasses for the first time with myopia. Concentration has become much easier, and understanding the meaning of words has become faster and easier, as if the computer was wound up (figuratively speaking).

Not only for people with depression, long-term meditation has a positive effect. I think it is worth a try for people who are stressed, tired, or simply just want to have a better experience.

Although Doomsday is an entertainment novel, we all know each other because we are destined (not to mention that we spent money), so I also hope that I can share more things with you in the literary world that is not updated well, so that we can see different worlds together and experience more. Good life experience.

(So ​​can you forgive me for my incompetence in updating?)