Dream Guide

April 2, Saturday, sunny

My mother took me to Yanma Street to buy candies. There were many candies there.

I asked my mother why it was called Yanma Street.

Then why is it still called Yanma Street and not Candy Street?

Mom picked out several kinds of candies for me. I said I only wanted to eat the Bolu flavor. My mother bought me Boluo flavor.

In fact, I like to eat, but I know my mother has no money.

There is a madman on Yanma Street. He looks so pitiful. I secretly gave him a candy.

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May 16, Monday, cloudy

Help mom kill chickens today.

I grabbed the chicken's two feet with one hand and its wings with the other. The mother took off a handful of feathers from the chicken's neck, then cut a knife on the hairless area, and used a bowl to catch the blood flowing from the chicken's neck.

The chicken must be in pain and struggling fiercely. I couldn't hold it anymore. As soon as I let go, the chicken ran away. While running, its neck was still bleeding. After a while, it stopped walking and fell to the ground. There was blood everywhere on the ground.

Although it was pathetic, I haven't eaten chicken in a long, long time and I was pathetic too.

But my mother wouldn't let me eat it.

Mom said this chicken was for Dad.

She cooked the chicken, took a bottle of wine, and placed it on her father's grave.

Mom said today is Dad’s day.

But dad is already dead, and dead people don’t know how to eat chicken.

But my mother said that my father would eat it. Mom is so superstitious!

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May 17, Tuesday, cloudy

Last night I secretly went to the cemetery.

I don’t believe dad would crawl out of his grave to eat chicken. If I don't go, the chicken will be eaten by wild dogs instead of Dad.

The chicken is delicious.

While eating chicken, I suddenly missed my dad.

I don't remember what he looked like.

When I was young, he loved me the most. He often carried me to play in Mangdian and took me to ride a wooden horse. After that, he rarely came back, and even when he came back, it was in the middle of the night.

Later he died.

Everyone said he was a bad guy,

I think what they say is true.

One time when my father came back he was covered in blood and my mother kept crying. Mom gave Dad an injection. After the injection, Dad pressed Mom hard on the bed, and Mom screamed loudly in pain.

They thought I was asleep, but I saw them all. I really want to drive dad away.

The cemetery is extremely dark at night, with only a little light from the stars coming in.

I was full and left half a chicken on the grave.

Dad, although you are a bad person, I miss you.

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May 31st, Tuesday, light rain

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Friday, June 3rd, sunny

Daowazi said I stole his eraser. I said I didn't steal it. He hit me and I hit him. He complained to Teacher Luo.

Teacher Luo asked me why I stole the eraser. I said I didn't steal it. Teacher Luo dumped my schoolbag on the ground, and the colored pencils that Grandpa Enkun bought for me broke. I was very sad.

Teacher Luo asked me to owe Daowazi. I owe nothing. I didn't steal anything, why should I owe it?

He said that if I hit someone, I would owe him a debt. But Daowazi hit me first. Why doesn't he pay his debt?

Teacher Luo scolded me and asked me to face Libijiao. Libijiao means standing in the corner of the classroom facing the wall and not moving.

My mother asked me if it hurt, and I said no.

I wanted to cry, but I didn't.

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Sunday, June 19, sunny

There are many scary strangers coming to the house, and they all have strange paintings drawn on their bodies.

My mother told me to hide in the back room and not go out.

I heard them chatting outside, but I couldn't understand a word.

Later they left and I heard my mother crying outside.

I walked out and asked my mother what happened? Mom didn't speak.

I saw some money on the table.

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Thursday, July 7, rain

Sure enough, my mother doesn’t smoke anymore. I guess it's because I've grown up. I can already pick tea leaves now. When I grow up, I can help my mother pick tea leaves.

But my mother seems to be ill. She went to Mengdian to get an injection. I saw many black spots on her arms from injections.

I don't want to go to school. Anyway, no one in school likes me. They all say that I am the descendant of bad people.

I want to help my mother cook, wash clothes and do farm work.

They all said the work was tiring, but I didn't feel tired at all. As long as I am with my mother, I am not afraid of anything.

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Tuesday, August 2nd, cloudy

Mom is getting thinner and thinner. She has become very strange recently, often saying that she is leaving and going to find her father.

They said my mother had a disease called AIDS.

Many people who took injections in Mengdian got this disease.

I think my mother is ill and my father is dead. Where can I find him?

I went to see Grandpa Enkun. I told him, "Grandpa, I want to find a new father so that my mother won't miss my father all the time."

Grandpa Enkun smoked a cigarette and said, "Okay."

Grandpa is getting older. I told him not to smoke. He always said, "Okay." But he kept smoking.

Grandpa gave me a fish and asked me to make soup for my mother to eat.

I happily went home to make fish soup for my mother.

I told my mother: "You will get better after eating fish soup. When you get better, Grandpa Enkun promises to find me a new father, so that you won't be sad."

Mom happily ate the fish soup. I think I will have a new dad soon.

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August 27, Saturday, cloudy

My mother kept coughing and vomited a lot of blood.

I went to find Grandpa Enkun, who found someone to send my mother to Mangdian. We took a bus in Mengdian to Ruihekou.

My first time riding in a car. The speed of the car is very fast, like flying. But my mother felt very sad. When I saw how uncomfortable she was, I was not in the mood to look at the scenery outside the window.

We arrived at the hospital at Ruihekou. The doctor gave my mother an injection. There is a long thin tube on the tail of the needle, which is connected to a bag of water. The water flowed into my mother's body drop by drop, and my mother's dry face became moist.

I washed my mother's face and she woke up.

My mother took my hand and said, "Beauty, I want to go home."

I asked her: "Why?"

She said: "It's not comfortable here, but it's comfortable at home."

We stayed in the hospital for two days. The doctor said: "You can go home." We went home.

Mom was lying on the bed, I helped her wash her hands, and she asked me to get Dad's photo.

I took dad's photo off the wall and gave it to her, then went to cook.

After the meal was cooked, I went to call my mother. My mother was already dead, holding my father's photo tightly in her arms.

Thanks to Column A, Thatisit, and Dreaming DR for the reward