Falling into the Abyss

Ethan first suspected Roland two months after the accident.

Excluding the time spent in the first month of hospitalization, life in the next month was like a dream for Ethan. When he got home, he could see Roland limping in the kitchen preparing dinner. Although they are all simple foods, they taste good, not to mention the handwriting of their sweetheart. Even dark dishes can be eaten with relish. In the evening, the two of them would watch a movie together. Roland would lie on his lap, and from his perspective, he could see each other's long eyelashes occasionally fluttering. He likes to gently stroke Roland's brown hair, which is slightly longer than the average man, like to touch Roland's rough jaw, like to listen to the steady snoring of the other person after falling asleep, and like all the small flaws on his body.

Ethan feels that such a life will never be bored for a lifetime.

Then one day, Ethan returned halfway because he forgot to bring a document. He did not send a text message to Roland, but directly opened the door and went home.

After opening the door, he didn't see Roland who was still drinking coffee downstairs and watching the news when he went out, so he shouted, "Roland?"

Roland's voice came from his study, "I am here."

Ethan frowned slightly. The door of my study is always closed, and there is a code lock. How did Roland get in after he left home for only half an hour?

When he walked to the entrance of the study, Roland just came out and saw him grinning, "Forgot something?"

Ethan asked, "Why are you here?"

Roland shrugged and said a little embarrassed, "I saw that you didn't lock the door of the study, so I wanted to go in and see what you hid in it so mysterious and locked it all day long. As a result, you got caught upright."

Ethan raised his eyebrows, "Am I not locked?"

"No, there is a gap."

Ethan saw his expression naturally, not as if he was lying.

Ethan nodded, went into the room to get the documents, and by the way carefully checked all the furnishings on his desk. He always put things in a fixed position, and put a piece of hair or a piece of confetti in some casual places. In this way, as long as someone moves his own things, he can know.

But everything was in place, and he didn't store any important confidential documents at home. The only time he took Project Zero home was also deleted in time. He thinks he's probably too concerned.

After that, he changed the password on the door and all the encrypted passwords in the computer. He is more careful, making sure that he locks the study door every day before going out and before going to bed.

After two months of being in this way, Roland had returned to the Energy Bureau and started working again, and Ethan gradually relaxed.

However, it didn't take long for the people placed in the Ophiuchus Alliance to contact the intelligence department of the Earth Alliance, saying that it was possible that someone in Ophiuchus would be placed in the Earth Alliance to investigate plans on Mars. It is not yet certain when this person came in and in which department. After receiving the news, the Intelligence Bureau immediately began an investigation of the staff of relevant government departments. The first to bear the brunt were those who had access to specific information on Project Zero, including Ethan.

When Ethan heard the sound of the wind, the whole person felt a chill leak from his heart and lungs, and he immediately remembered the time Roland came out of his room.

However, he didn't want to believe this speculation, wondering if he was over-concerned. After get off work, Roland still waited for him next to his aircraft, talking about an interesting fact about a strange researcher in the laboratory. Ethan kept watching Roland quietly when he couldn't notice him, watching him make coffee freely, washing dishes by the sink, and listening to him humming while taking a shower in the bathroom. He couldn't see anything, all he could see was a man he loved.

However, when two investigators from the Intelligence Bureau secretly summoned him to a separate room to check with him the number of times he logged on to the Project Zero intranet, he finally couldn't lie to himself anymore. He didn't know when Roland used any method to break the encryption of his identity information, nor did he know where he logged into the intranet. The IP address has obviously been modified and does not provide any information. He thought of his study, imagined that after he fell asleep, the man quietly got up, used a glass piece to extract fingerprints from his fingertips, and then entered the study and turned on his computer...

For so many days and nights, when he thought he was sleeping with his lover, the person next to him was always calculating. This thought made him fall into an ice cave. He looked at the time period when it was impossible for him to log in to the intranet, tried to control the expression on his face, smiled and nodded, "Yes, I did log in at these times."

On the way home, he didn't understand why he had to lie, why he was helping a spy, or why he didn't ask someone to arrest him immediately. What he understood, however, was that the lie he told just now was enough to ruin him.

Maybe I still hold the last hope, maybe I want to listen to that person's explanation and tell myself there is no malice in all this.

Roland was not at home, Ethan hurriedly ran to the apartment prepared by the Energy Bureau for the researchers of the Third Reich, and there was no sign of him. His colleagues said that he never came back. Ethan's heart was sinking, and the feeling of suffocation made him dizzy. But he couldn't stop at this moment, he must find Roland.

Even if he knew it, it was likely that Roland had heard the wind and evacuated from the Earth Alliance.

Unable to find it, he had to go home dejectedly. After opening the door, he suddenly found that Roland was sitting on the sofa in the dark room, looking at him silently.

Ethan walked a few steps forward and just wanted the smart housekeeper to turn on the lighting system, but he heard Roland say, "Don't turn on the lights."

The neon neon of the tall building outside the apartment slanted from the window, illuminating the profile of Alpha. His eyebrows are still handsome, but there is no smile. The blue eyes are now dyed deep purple by the light, and they are too deep, making people unable to see through anyway.

Ethan's Adam's apple slid up and down, he didn't know where to ask, and he was afraid to hear the answer.

"I'm leaving." Roland took the initiative to speak.

Ethan felt his heart twisted hard, and there was a pain in his chest. He asked in a trembling voice, "So... you approached me, it was all planned?"

Roland looked at him faintly and nodded slowly.

Ethan's teeth were clenched, and he asked word by word, "Why me!"

"Because you are the most suitable." Roland's voice is still so charming, but the most hurtful words are revealed. "You are dealing with important information from the Energy Bureau. This makes you my first choice for this operation. One of the goals. After a series of investigations, I found that you are the easiest one to break through."

"……easy?"

"First of all, although your family looks consummate, in fact, your mother focused on her own music theory research and the cause of peace, and sometimes ignored you. Your father was rigid and strict, but he was very respected by you. You grew up A series of important life decisions, including choosing a university and a job, follow the path your father set for you. Obviously, you are deliberately trying to please him and want his affirmation in exchange for the warmth you have lacked since childhood. And although you are serious and quick-minded, your relationship is very simple. Your first boyfriend was an Omega, but broke up in less than a year. The second is a Beta, which didn’t last long, and there was a gap in between. For several years. Neither of these two breakups seemed to be initiated by you, but your cold and passive attitude was the main reason for the other party to break up. In other words, you forced them to break up with you.

People of your age have so little emotional experience, and there are only no more than three one-night stands in the window of several years. Either you are indifferent, or Omega and Beta cannot satisfy you. You yearn for an Alpha as powerful as your father, but hope that the other party can give you the warmth that your father can't give you, but you are a Beta who can't attract that kind of Alpha. You are just glamorous on the surface, but in fact you have no sense of security and low self-esteem. As long as I give you what you want, your whole body will be flawed. "

Ethan felt sore in his eyes, but he resisted, but he did not shed tears. Those words were like knives that had been sharpened extremely sharply, poking them at his already numb chest.

He would rather Roland disappear, at least he can deceive himself, maybe the other party is a bit sincere.

Roland stood up and approached him step by step. Ethan retreated unconsciously, like a prey being approached by a hunter.

"Then what are you doing now?" He felt so stupid, why did he lie for him? Why didn't you send someone to investigate him when he noticed something strange?

It can be seen that the man said nothing wrong.

"Ethan, what I just said was just my first thought. But after getting along these days, I am not totally unfeeling for you. I told you that I like your eyes and like when you are nervous. The posture of the glasses, as well as the way you pretend to be calm when you are embarrassed. Those words are true." Roland's deep gaze wrapped around him like a heavy curtain of night, making him nowhere to escape. This time I want to take you away."

Ethan laughed, "How stupid are you when I am? Come with you? Are you trying to kill me?"

"No! Ethan, maybe I was calculating you at first. That was my duty. I must do what I should do. But now, I can't bear to keep you!" Roland's face at the moment was so focused, but Yin The uncertain light and shadow made Ethan even more unable to see through him, "If you don’t follow me, you will be considered my accomplice. Even if you find a way to prove that you don’t know, they will still deduct more than half of you. Moral value. At that time, do you think you can live a life? Even if you have not been deducted moral value and thrown into the forbidden city, from now on you can only do the most dirty and dangerous jobs. In such a Where there is no freedom to speak of, what do you still have nostalgia for? Come back to the Ophiuchus alliance with me, or even the Third Reich. I will take you to see the places of interest and scenery you want to see, and to those you always want Distant planet!"

Ethan knew that although Roland's words were terrible, they were all true. Even if he could find a way to distinguish his relationship with Roland, the lie he told today was enough to make him lose everything.

Seeing Ethan not speaking, Roland seemed to think that the other party had been moved. He stepped forward and hugged Ethan's body gently, but Ethan did not resist.

"I really like you, follow me..." He broke off before he finished speaking, his body was slightly stiff.

Ethan put a small hand/gun against his abdomen and lifted his cold and sad eyes in his arms.

"Hehehe, even if you think I'm easy, you shouldn't think I'm a stupid?" Ethan wanted to speak in a cold tone, but his voice was unstable, he didn't learn anything harshly, even a little pitiful. "Take me away? You're just afraid that I will tell you that you can't cross the border before you even out of the Earth Alliance?"

"Ethan, I really want to take you away! There is only one dead end for you to stay here!"

"Who caused that!!!" Ethan yelled, his eyes full of heartbreak. He finally likes a man so much, and finally waits until the two love each other, doing the dream of wanting to spend a lifetime with him, why are all scams? Why is it he? Ethan laughed again, a little distorted, a little desperate, "I recorded everything you just said in the portable capsule. I will kill you first, and then turn in the recording!"

He should pull the trigger at this time, but after all, there was a moment of hesitation. After all, he had never killed anyone, let alone the man he liked so much. Such a moment was completely enough for Roland. There was a sharp pain in Ethan's wrist, and the wrist bone was suddenly broken by the opponent. The losing finger was released and the hand/gun fell to the ground. Then he felt a kick in his stomach, then his temples. After two consecutive attacks, his whole body was limp, his eyes turned black, and his abdomen and wrists were painful when he moved. He endured the severe pain and turned over, but saw that Roland had picked up the small hand/gun and pointed it at him, and there was no temperature in his eyes looking down.

Look, it's another skill that doesn't belong to Roland he knew.

He suddenly had hallucinations, maybe there are two Roland in this world, and his Roland is not the ruthless man in front of him.

The warmth in Roland's eyes was gone, replaced by strange indifference. He sighed and said, "Obviously, you are given a chance to survive, but you don't want it."

Ethan stared at him stiffly, exhausting all his hatred, as if he hoped that his eyes could turn into a sword, slashing the man in front of him. He felt so illusory in front of the muzzle of the black hole, as if he was not facing death. The pain in his heart was colder than death, and he temporarily lost the sense of fear.

"Goodbye, dear." Roland said, raising the gun in his hand.

Ethan closed his eyes reflexively, waiting for the momentary pain of his mind being shot through. However, what he really felt was that the carotid artery was hit hard, and the darkness quickly swallowed him.

This was the last time he and Roland met.

The author has something to say:

My god, even hands/guns are sensitive words......_(:з)∠)_