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Aize has always known Claudia's wish.

That is a very sad wish.

Aize glanced at Pan Dora in Claudia's arms.

Claudia's sad wish is all because of the existence of this thing.

Outsiders have no idea that Claudia, who has always had a decent and mature smile on her face, is actually already on the verge of destruction.

It has been more than a thousand days and nights since she got Pan Dora. Every night she is haunted by nightmares and every night she is tortured by the pain of death. This has long since made Claudia lose the idea of ​​continuing to live.

This is not to say that Claudia was tortured to the point of mental breakdown. She wanted to die because she couldn't bear the pain or despair.

If that was the case, as long as she gave up Pan Dora and gave up this dangerous pure star-style weapon, she would no longer have to suffer any more torture, and there would be no reason to seek death.

But Claudia did not give up on Pan Dora and still insisted on using it. This made people have to admire her will and strength, but at the same time, some problems inevitably occurred.

That is, after experiencing so many deaths, the most unacceptable and terrifying thing was that Claudia saw through it.

She gradually realized that no matter who she was, as long as she was a human being, she would eventually die.

No matter how happy you are in life or how much wealth you have in your hands, everything will turn into nothing when you die.

So, she began to think that instead of caring about how to live, it would be better to think about how to die.

Claudia, who had such an idea, finally came to a conclusion.

She wanted to die for others.

This is what Claudia considers to be the most valuable way to die.

It just so happens that in the nightmare weaved by Pan Dora, there is such an unforgettable death.

In that dream, Claudia died protecting Ayato Amagiri.

In Claudia's feeling, no matter how many nightmares she had, there was no death more satisfying than that time.

So she finally had a dangerous idea.

She wants to realize that dream in reality.

She will try her best to restore the scene she saw at that time, so as to be satisfied.

This is Claudia's wish, and the reason why she went to great lengths to recruit Ayato Amagiri to come to the Star Guide Hall.

Everything is to achieve a heroic death show.

"How stupid."

Aize couldn't help but spit out his truest evaluation of this wish.

"well?"

Claudia was stunned.

She saw Aize's expression, the seriousness she had never seen on his face, the indifference she had never seen before.

"Isn't it?" Ai Ze said indifferently: "Your idea, at best, is like seeing through life and death, but at worst, it's actually escaping reality, right?"

At this moment, Ai Ze was thinking of his own life.

My parents divorced, my grandparents passed away, and I lived alone, experiencing all kinds of hardships and bitterness.

At that time, he felt that his life was very hard and unsatisfactory.

But he never thought that he would give up living.

"It's easy to give up and survive, but it's difficult to survive."

"Even if a person takes nothing with him after death, the things he left behind during his lifetime do not cease to exist."

"Is it because you will die one day that you can't feel happiness while you are alive?"

"Is it because you will lose everything sooner or later, so you can't have it at the beginning?"

“What’s the point of a life like this if you don’t enjoy the process and go straight to achieve the result?”

Aize looked at Claudia and spoke word by word.

"Listen up, Claudia, the reason why people try hard to live is not only because of their survival instinct and fear of death, but also because they want to leave something in this world and have something to gain. something.”

“Death may have value, but living has more value.”

"A valuable death is valuable, but a valuable life is more worthy of admiration."

"If a person lives just to pursue death, then he or she has violated the meaning of existence of living things from the beginning, and it has violated the meaning of his own existence."

At least, that's what Aize thinks.

"So, please forgive me, your wish is stupid and your idea is wrong." Aize said bluntly without mercy: "I believe that this is not just my idea, everyone who knows you Anyone who wishes will think so."

This time, it was Claudia's turn to be silent.

"...It seems that Classmate Ai knows more than I thought."

The smile on Claudia's face became forced.

But this time, Aize did not deny it.

"I'm glad that you are confused now, because it means that you have doubts about your wishes and wavering in your actions." Ai Ze said this: "After experiencing true happiness, if you are still firm If you feel that life is meaningless and pursuing death is the truth, then you are really hopeless.”

Claudia now feels confused and doesn't know what to do, most likely because her nightmare has turned into a sweet dream.

The pain that once haunted her has now turned into happiness one after another under Aize's intervention. Claudia, who has never tasted this before, will naturally begin to wonder if her previous ideas were too extreme. .

Knowing what happiness is, she is naturally wavering on whether she should pursue death.

"This is a good thing. I hope you can face this matter, face your own heart, and think about what you really want."

After saying that, Aize said no more.

Claudia looked at him blankly, then withdrew her gaze after a while, lowered her head and looked at Pan Dora in her hand.

A silence suddenly filled the box.

Neither of them spoke anymore, falling into an unspeakable silence.

The ceremony outside the box was not affected at all and continued in an orderly manner.

After a long time, the drawing ceremony began.

"Then, I'll go over first."

Claudia suddenly stood up, with the same smile on her face again, as if nothing had happened, and spoke to Aize.

"Go ahead."

Ai Ze nodded, as if he had never said what he just said.

Claudia left the box and walked towards the stage while calming down the expression on her face.

"A valuable death is certainly valuable, but a valuable life is more worthy of admiration...?"

Claudia sighed self-deprecatingly.

"It's really...the first time someone has said something like this to me."

Her sad wish was not unknown to anyone.

Just like Aize said, they all thought Claudia's wish was stupid and pathetic.

But no one had ever told her why death was stupid and tragic.

Only Aize told her that it was because living was more valuable and meaningful.

"What I really want..."

Claudia stopped and looked at the box behind her.

In fact, she really wanted to tell Aize that she wanted him.

Yes, this is what Claudia wants most right now.

The reason is simple. In the dreams she has had recently, the other party has always been there.

Pan Dora once made her experience all kinds of death, and now he also made her experience all kinds of happiness.

This includes falling in love with others, getting married, having children, and growing old together without any regrets.

There has always been only one person who fell in love with Claudia, got married, had children, and grew old together without any regrets.

That's Aize.

"You did this on purpose, right?"

Claudia touched Pan Dora's engine, knowing very well that this was all the child's doing.

Perhaps she was frightened by Aize, or maybe she thought that being with that person was the greatest luck or happiness in the world. In all the dreams that Pan Dora weaved, the center was Aize.

Claudia didn't know what exactly Aize had done to make Pan Dora, who had an extremely bad personality, have such a level of awe for him.

But there was only one thing she knew.

These are all brought by Aize.

"hehe……"

Not knowing what she thought of, a heartfelt smile appeared on Claudia's lips.

Then, she continued to move forward with steps that became inexplicably brisk.