Fantasy world

Just like Michelle said, she just got engaged to someone with great fanfare, but she lives next door but has not been in contact with each other for a long time. Even if others don't say anything, she feels sorry for herself.

It just so happened that we were at Professor Wu's place, and we had another little secret. Why not continue the secret between us and Professor Wu under the guise of being with Wu Wenyan? When I said this, Michelle didn't make any excuses.

When Wu Wenyan saw me bringing Michelle over, she also understood and showed extra liveliness and excitement. She always put Michelle at the center and coaxed Michelle into a state of confusion and happiness.

Professor Wu has learned a lot about racing and is full of knowledge. From ancient times to modern times, from history to reality, you can learn from classics and classics at your fingertips. Even though many places we heard sounded like scripture. But we still listened with gusto and without any fatigue.

When it was the three of us' turn to be together, Wu Wenyan would deliberately avoid our romantic relationship, but would always make fun of Michelle.

Michelle was not angry or shy about this, she seemed very happy and enjoyed the joke. In front of Wu Wenyan, she was not shy or shy at all. When she got the chance, she clung to me and got into my arms. She just wanted to keep reminding Wu Wenyan and I that the love relationship between us was only temporary and fake, and she and I were the real one and the final outcome.

Of course I can understand Michelle's caution. I think Wu Wenyan is even more perceptive. Wu Wenyan knew very well that what she had now and what she had today were all a gift from Michelle to her. Of course she could no longer argue with Michelle. Fortunately, Wu Wenyan has also finished high school. Even with Michelle following us, there are still many endless topics between us. Including the humanistic history her father told us.

Wu Wenyan also felt very complicated. Michelle was inseparable when I met her. For her, even this awkward date was hard-won and deeply cherished. Occasionally, she tried her best to express her gratitude to both of us. She seemed eager to explain her words and attitude to us clearly, but every time the words came to her lips, she would swallow them back vaguely, as if we were all in a dream, and everyone knew that this was a dream. No one wants to wake up from a dream easily.

However, such a date, which brings us happiness and happiness to each other, seems very reluctant and fragile. If we are not careful, we will fall into an inexplicable embarrassment. In this way, Professor Wu first lost his patience and would rather spend more time alone and immersed in his own world. I am not in the mood to accompany us in the vast sea and sky anymore. Without Professor Wu’s irrelevant scraps of humanities and history, the three of us were left together, and the space and content of the conversation were even more narrow and limited, and everyone had to be careful and walk on thin ice.

What's more, ninety percent of the time, I'm still unsettled, distracted, and preoccupied.

Every time in the dead of night, when the loneliness becomes unbearable, the first image that pops up in my mind is always no one else but Zhang Xiaolian.

I don’t know what the reason is. Zhang Xiaolian and I, in every aspect, do not have the slightest foundation, conditions, or qualifications for male and female emotions. But now, my thoughts and fantasies about her are getting stronger and stronger. When a man reaches a certain age, the first woman he will be fascinated by and yearn for day and night will definitely be in his dream, and the woman in his dream is the first woman in his life. The person I dream about every time now is Zhang Xiaolian, only Zhang Xiaolian. I cursed myself countless times and hated myself, but none of this could change the phantom in my dream.

I finally gave in to myself and admitted through gritted teeth that I was so disgusting and shameless and that I just fell in love with Zhang Xiaolian.

If Zhang Xiaolian didn't take the initiative to come to my uncle's house, I wouldn't be able to see her at all. I don’t know why, but since Wu Wenyan and I made our engagement public, she has never been here again. why? Is she angry about this thing or that thing? Does she not want to see me for the time being, or does she never want to talk to me again? In fact, all in all, it only lasted about ten days. Deep in my heart, I was thinking about these unanswerable questions all the time. The days seemed like ten or eight years. Now I just want to see her right away and get rid of all the doubts in my mind. I don't care whether she lives or dies, I am willing to do so.

However, if she doesn't come to my uncle's house, it will be meaningless whatever I think or do.

Besides, we haven't seen each other for more than ten days. I feel less and less confident about whether she will see me or talk to me now. This helpless longing is destroying my will like ants eating bones.

My moods became increasingly depressed and anxious, and my days became increasingly painful and torturous. Unknowingly, my emotions were almost written on my face. Gradually, everyone in the family saw that I was unhappy, and Michelle and Wu Wenyan saw it more clearly and clearly. But if anyone asked me why I was unhappy, I would not admit it. Naturally, no one knew why I was unhappy..

But of course Uncle Mi and Aunt Mi were anxious and worried when they saw me turning into such a ghostly state. They asked Michelle about it, but they didn't find out why. They always thought that I was bullied by the United States and humiliated by the brigade cadres, and they were still worried about it. And Michelle was even more self-righteous, thinking that she was always standing between me and Wu Wenyan, disturbing my relationship with Wu Wenyan, and that made me like this.

Thinking of this, Michelle's attitude towards me suddenly changed 180 degrees. She gritted her teeth, made up her mind, and decided to let me go, and there would never be any more conflicts between Wu Wenyan and me. From then on, whenever I asked her to visit Wu Wenyan's house again, she would resolutely refuse and refuse to comply. She didn't go with me, and I was too lazy to go alone, so I simply didn't go anywhere.

Now it's better, my life has really become"sunrise and sunset", and in addition to working, I fall asleep. He really became a breathing dead man.