First Player

Chapter 1331 Chapter 1325 · "Su Mingan is dead."

This is an ordinary gun, and players will always have a spare gun in their backpack. Lu Shu never thought that he would use a gun at this time - to help him stay awake.

In the intense pain, Lu Shu managed to find his soul amidst the ups and downs.

"Bang!" "Bang!" "Bang!"

It was like falling into a dark and boundless abyss, and no matter how hard I struggled, I couldn't see the light.

He just kept shooting instinctively.

Don't die.

Don't die, don't die, don't die.

The body surface temperature dropped, but quickly rose again. The senses fade away, but quickly rise again. He shot himself over and over again, and the godhead helped him quickly repair his body, while the sharp pain helped him stop the erosion of the godhead.

Finally, the endless laughter in my ears disappeared.

This was good, as it meant that he was temporarily immune to the influence of his godhead and away from hearing hallucinations.

——Instead, it was his own laughter.

"Haaaaah, ahaha, hahahahaha——"

His laughter was messy and trembling. His fingers gripped the chain tightly, his knuckles turned white, as if they were tightened by steel bars.

Every breath he took felt like he was pulling hard on a wound caught by an iron hook. The pain pierced his heart like a sharp knife, forcing his vision to go black and almost fainting.

The laughter slowly stopped.

He knew that his mental state was on the verge of collapse, so he laughed out loud for no reason. But in such crazy happiness, he actually felt a trace of joy like an illusion... This feeling was like the embrace of the mother's body, like the warmth he had lost long ago, like when he got up in the morning to practice swordsmanship when he was a child, he saw his grandfather. The first ray of morning light smeared on the tea table.

Warmth, peace, joy.

But maybe it should be called dopamine secretion.

It turns out that when you shoot yourself, you can really feel a little bit of happiness.

This happiness allowed me to temporarily forget the current situation and devote myself wholeheartedly to the subtle physical pleasure.

However, soon, a wave of pain came over again. This is not just from the body, but from... what happened today.

…

"——Get out of the way!"

After Lu Shu swallowed the divine power, the black knife glowed with colorful light. When it fell, the branches and leaves flew open.

He was like a burning fire, rushing forward without looking back.

"Lu Shu, I'll cover you!" Noel ran behind him.

The teammates stood outside the World Tree, anxiously looking forward to Lu Shu's success in rescuing Su Ming'an.

Looking at the nearby tree trunk, Lu Shu slashed it with his sword.

The colorful light exploded, like an invisible giant hand, violently tearing the bark of the tree.

Lu Shu gasped heavily and stepped in. The scene in front of him came into view——

The inner cavity, as slippery and soft as an animal, was full of pink and vermilion colors. A snow-white rabbit sat on the synapse, legs crossed, looking at Lu Shu with a little surprise: "Eh? You are such a kid. With good luck, I was able to pick up Kasadia's godhead, and you really broke in, but..."

Its body twisted and laughed wildly:

"——You're still one step late! Hahahaha! It's still one step late, one step too late!!!"

The harsh sarcasm penetrated Lu Shu's ears.

Lu Shu opened his eyes wide.

The purple-haired young man lay quietly between the soft cavities. The branches and leaves penetrated his shoulders, arms, legs and lower abdomen. The crystal-colored branches and leaves had turned bright red, as if they had absorbed enough blood.

The young man's face was pale, without a trace of blood, as if all his life force had been drained away. The pupils were sunken into the sockets, the golden eyes were hollow and lifeless, and even the fingers were bony.

——He is like a dry swallow.

"...Su Ming'an?" Lu Shu called softly, unable to believe it.

The young man did not reply, his eyes were still open and he had completely lost response to the outside world.

"...Su Ming'an!" Lu Shu raised his voice, and the laughter in his ears was torturing him almost crazy.

He still didn't get a reply.

Those eyes that had always been bright and clear were only empty and withered.

Where did that soul go?

The moment Lu Shu saw Boss Rabbit, he felt a strong panic in his heart. He knew that Boss Rabbit would not appear here out of nowhere. Every time it comes, nothing good comes of it. But he never thought that Boss Rabbit would be so shameless!

Didn't it mean "the first kissing player"?

Didn't he say "Tutu loves him very much" with an ambiguous attitude?

Is this what love is? Is this love? ? ——What the hell is this! ?

Lu Shu slashed with his knife, Boss Rabbit twisted his body, and the colorful light fell on the World Tree, making a big hole.

"Oops~ Why are you so angry? I just added a little bit of fuel to the flames~" Boss Rabbit twisted: "But even if you save him, it's useless! You don't think he can go home with you!" It’s impossible! It’s been impossible for a long time! Hahahaha——”

Lu Shu's pupils narrowed.

A thread that had been hanging in his heart a long time ago was broken silently.

He rubbed his chapped lips and uttered a sentence:

"……What do you mean?"

He could barely hear his own voice.

But Boss Rabbit’s answer with a playful smile was so clear.

"He asked you not to lie to him, but he himself is a super liar! He told you all lies and comforted you that you could go home together. In fact, he had already gambled himself away~" Boss Rabbit squirmed:

"If he loses the bet, he will fall into our hands. Even if he wins, he will come to us to save the trapped Zhai Xing!"

"There is no way he can go home!"

Lu Shu's ears are buzzing.

He opened his mouth and swallowed blood silently.

Boss Rabbit imitated the tone artificially:

"After returning, we will travel together, go to Lin Yin's hometown to see pandas, climb Taihua Mountain, go to Noel's hometown to see lavender, and go to see the aircraft carrier..."

"Ahahahaha——How ridiculous, he actually made a wish that he knew would never come true, and imagined with you a tomorrow that he could never set foot on!!!"

"He clearly knew this, but he still promised you these happiness that did not belong to him, deceiving you...!!"

"Enough." Lu Shu said solemnly.

"He is a big liar! Big liar! Big liar hahahaha——!" Boss Rabbit laughed wildly, and there was a bit of sadness in his laughter.

"Enough!" Lu Shu shouted.

"What was he thinking when he said these words? He must be looking forward to it willingly - Ahahaha!" Boss Rabbit laughed and danced.

"Enough!!!" Lu Shu raised his voice.

On his face - there was a look of confusion and thinness. The excessive impact made him forget his anger, and he didn't know how to respond, as if only instinct remained.

Liquid ran across his face, his eyes were red, and he didn't even know when he cried. Maybe it was just the pain brought by the impact of the godhood.

Liquid dripped into the mask and suffocated on his cheeks, as if as long as the mask blocked it, it would not be seen by others.

Between breaths... the senses were dull, humid, and blocked.

He panted quickly, put his hand on his chest, and took a heavy breath.

...Why did you lie to them?

...Why did you lie to them and imagine with them a tomorrow that you could never set foot on? Why would you rather be alone and force a smile?

Why can't you say it out?

Why do you have to walk into the abyss alone?

He suddenly remembered that before entering the eleventh world, he and Su Mingan had a quiet chat. Because he noticed that Su Mingan had been in a bad mood since returning from the auction.

That day, he gently knocked on the door of Su Mingan's room. Su Mingan was not catching up on his sleep, but sitting in front of the piano, his fingers pressing on the keys.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Su Mingan looked at him: "What's wrong?"

Lu Shu stood there and hesitated for a while.

"What bet did you make with the organizer?" Lu Shu said abruptly.

Su Mingan opened his eyes wide, not expecting Lu Shu to ask this at all, he obviously didn't mention the bet to anyone. He immediately covered up and said: "What bet? What are you talking about?"

Lu Shu confirmed: "You must have made a bet with the organizer."

He really didn't know what Su Mingan talked about with the organizer, but he could guess.

Su Mingan was used to using himself as a bargaining chip, and Lu Shu could keenly detect the organizer's prying at Su Mingan, so Lu Shu would guess.

"...If I say no now, will you go back to sleep peacefully?" Su Mingan said. He was shocked. Lu Shu was the first person to see that he had a bet with the organizer, and even Noel didn't mention it.

"I won't. I know you must have made a bet." Lu Shu said.

Su Mingan removed his fingers from the piano.

With a dull sound, he closed the piano cover.

The sound of rain pattered on the window glass, and the shadow was cast between them. One person sat on the left side of the window, and the other sat on the right side of the window. When the thunder flashed, the white lightning was like a descending white line, blocking them.

Half of the face of the white-haired young man was also hidden in the black and white flashes, and there was a shadow in his eyes:

"If it is destined to be a tragedy in the end, I would rather you stay in the copy, Su Mingan."

Su Mingan looked at him sideways, not understanding the meaning of Lu Shu's words.

"What do you mean?" Su Mingan said: "How can it be... a tragedy in the end? We will win."

"I mean, your tragedy." Lu Shu said.

Su Mingan narrowed his eyes.

Lu Shu was too perceptive.

For Su Mingan, it was indeed a tragedy no matter what. But for Zhai Xing and his teammates... this would most likely be a happy ending.

Outside the window, the wind was strong and the rain was heavy. The lilies planted by the mantis swayed in the rain, making a clacking sound.

The slanting rain fell on the piano keys, and Su Ming closed the window.

With a "click", it seemed that all the silence ended.

Another thunderclap, and the white lightning illuminated the two of them.

"You made a bet with the organizer, right? The bet was whether Zhai Xing would fall. If you win, the organizer will let Zhai Xing go. If you lose, you will be taken away..." Lu Shu whispered.

Su Mingan breathed a sigh of relief.

Lu Shu was very perceptive, but Lu Shu failed to guess the correct bet after all. The price... In fact, only Su Mingan needs to pay.

So Lu Shu still thought that as long as they won, everything would have a good result.

"Yeah." Su Mingan smiled: "You guessed it, Lu Shu."

He lied again.

...He became the little liar he despised the most.

The last bit of moonlight outside the window disappeared.

When the night fell, there was no light in the room.

The pair of dark eyes were like the faint stars in the night. There was not much light, but it was there.

"Su Ming'an, if you really can't win in the end, please don't let the ending come." Lu Shu seemed to have noticed something, and suddenly stood up, put his hands on the table, and raised his voice:

“If all your efforts go to waste and there is no gain in the end, then it shouldn’t exist in the first place!”

"If reaching the end is destined to be a tragedy and there is nothing at the end of the road, then don't go on!"

"Su Mingan, do you have a way to prevent the ending from coming?"

He moved over a little, his white hair fluttering, and his eyes fell on the empty space, as if there were a few butterflies flying there. His eyes were like pleading, and his bloodshot eyes were trembling, like a string on the verge of breaking.

Su Mingan didn't reply, his eyes looked far away.

So that the end doesn't come?

He can indeed rewind after death and stop time from moving forward, but so what?

Just confinement, just restraint.

It's just that he is stagnant towards civilization and refuses to let the river come to an end.

Close at hand, the white-haired young man's eyes were heavy, and his green eyes seemed to be speaking.

——We just don’t want you to die, Su Mingan.

In the quiet room, the only sound is the rain.

A swallow flew across the window, flying high in the rain.

"Do you want me to win or lose?" Su Ming looked at Lu Shu calmly and said suddenly.

"I hope you realize your wish and live." Lu Shu said firmly.

"Does that mean you want me to win?"

"I hope you live."

"Does that mean you want me to win?"

"Alive." Lu Shu repeated, as if this was the only word left and nothing else could be heard:

"...alive."

He wants everyone alive.

The rain was pouring outside the window, the moonlight was pale, and the distant sound of violins could be heard in the distance.

Raindrops pattered on the glass. Su Mingan's eyes trembled, and he patted Lu Shu's shoulder lightly but solemnly. The force was light, almost like a brush of dust on your shoulders.

It seemed like it took him a century before he slowly spoke:

"...Lu Shu, I will definitely win."

He didn't promise anything extra.

There was no more firm commitment that they would go home together.

He no longer confidently said that he would not leave.

He no longer said with a smile that he would survive.

He just said it softly.

——I will win.

But only he knows what winning in this bet means.

He knew that if he told the truth, Lu Shu and others would do something impulsive. So...please let him take advantage of the small language loopholes and let him be cunning.

Lu Shu seemed to have finally been forgiven and breathed a sigh of relief. In his eyes, winning the bet means everyone is happy, which is equivalent to Su Ming'an's promise that they will live together.

So he nodded happily and said solemnly:

"good."

Then we'll wait for you to go home together.

The rain was so heavy that he could not see clearly the shallow moonlight tonight.

——Naturally, he couldn't see the deep sorrow hidden in Su Mingan's eyes.

They looked up at the sky, as if they could see the deep starry sky through the rain.

The universe is so far-reaching and vast, the stars are connected in lines, and the beautiful blue-purple nebulae overlap and overlap, as if there is endless vastness.

The scale of the universe is so huge that human beings only occupy a millisecond in eternity, and the time passed by each generation is just a drop of rain in the long evolution.

But this drop of rain... spread from their feet to the whole world.

If the universe is a long and vast concerto, and human beings are just one short note, people will still play this note soft and beautiful, just like their fragile but precious essence.

They watched the rain quietly until there was a rapid knock on the door, and Lin Yin called them to eat.

"Come for supper, busy people! Luna is cooking today, a unique northern dish! There is also cream pudding made by Beiwang himself, and Aini also made grilled fish..."

The girl's voice broke through the night, like a warm light.

Su Mingan stood up and said with a smile:

"I won't go. I'll catch up on my sleep. You can go eat, Lu Shu."

From beginning to end, he only played the first note.

Lu Shu nodded and walked out. Downstairs were the people from Yamada Town. They were holding hot dishes, smiling and waving.

"Come for supper!" Isabella waved her hand, holding a mango cake made by Lu.

"If you don't come here to eat, I'll be sleepy to death..." Bei Wang yawned.

"Ani's grilled fish is very delicious, much better than his Fire Secret..." Yamada Machichi smiled quietly, holding a plate of strawberry pudding.

Aini heard it and immediately grabbed Yamada Machichi and asked him to quickly retract his words. The two hugged each other, the hall was full of cheerful laughter, everyone's eyes were shining, the fire was crackling, and the warmth was flowing.

Lu Shu nodded with a short smile on his lips. The moment he turned around and closed the door, Su Mingan's inaudible voice suddenly sounded in the room——

The voice was so soft that Lu Shu even thought it was an auditory hallucination. He almost had to cling to the door to hear clearly——

"Give me a little more time..."

Su Mingan's voice trembled, with a slight cry.

Speaking sporadic, broken and vague words:

"I will definitely."

"We will find a way to get the best of both worlds..."

"I want to win."

…

"I don't want to die either..."

…

In the second half of the night, it rained heavily.

When Lin Yin was cleaning, she found a dead black swallow in the yard.

The swallow was soaked in too much water and fell to its death in the mud. Its wings were broken, and its black eyes were full of dust and dirt, staring at the sky empty.

She buried it, built a small mound of earth, and transplanted a newly blooming lily for it.

On the small nameless grave, with the swallow's corpse as nutrients, a white and pure lily bloomed well.

…

- It swayed in the rain, like a spring that had not yet been touched but was particularly beautiful.

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