First Player

Chapter 528 Chapter 526 · "Save me, save me, save me."

This was not the first time for Siboer to participate in this hundred-man war.

In the very beginning of the first war, due to her status as a heretic, she was the only one among a hundred people who was not assigned to be an adventurer. She knew nothing about the true nature of the war.

She only knows the rules - if she wants to survive until the end, she has to win the war and kill everyone.

So, within fifteen days, she was alone, sacrificing her life force, mobilizing the power of Nine Gods, and killed ninety-nine pairs of other guides and adventurers, including her friends, playmates, and even her brother Feng Zhang.

But as soon as she killed the last person, she sacrificed too much life force and died of exhaustion, without having time to go to the outside world.

When she opened her eyes again, she found that she was back on the first day of the war.

-The cycle begins.

She discovered that whenever she died, she was transported back to the first day of the war.

She knew that this should be the ability given to her by Master Jiu Shen. Jiu Shen may want her to use this ability to find a way to become a god in these fifteen days, overthrow the black wall, and solve the curse that causes the slow death of the people in the sky.

She is also willing to take on this important task and save those who should not die.

She wants to save them.

At first, she tried not to sacrifice her life force to avoid eventual death from exhaustion.

...But without using the power of Nine Gods, she is almost powerless.

Sometimes, she falls into a trap and pierces her body with spikes and dies; sometimes, due to natural disasters and poisonous rain, her whole body festers and dies; sometimes, she is submerged in the mud and watches herself being melted and decomposed bit by bit.

She will be bitten to death by wild wolves, rotted to death by night mist, cursed to death by cursed creatures, beaten to death by other guides together, burned to ashes by Toiji's white flames, and decomposed by Megalo's time ability. Death, his internal organs were shattered by the great elder's palm, and he died of serious injuries...

The most desperate thing was every time she saw that person, the young patriarch.

He ignored her excuses, deprived her of the right to tell the truth, and killed her again and again.

The annihilation would penetrate her heart, melt her heart, penetrate from her forehead, and completely dissolve her entire face.

Every time she meets him, she dies and starts her reincarnation again.

She tried to avoid him, but as soon as she showed up, she would be caught and burned to death by the passionate Baishen believers.

She was more familiar with the feeling of being tied to a wooden frame and having her body engulfed by flames bit by bit than anyone else. It was a kind of pain that was impossible to live or die, as if all the cells in the body were wailing, and there was only burning pain in the eyes and throat.

"——I'm saving you! I'm saving you——"

She cried, but was ignored.

During her reincarnation, she was stabbed in the back numerous times.

When she was betrayed at the beginning, she would feel as if she had been stabbed in the heart, but as the number of times increased, she no longer felt anger or anger.

Being betrayed for the first time will make you sad and sad.

If you are betrayed for the second time, you will be angry and unwilling.

After being betrayed for the third time, he began to doubt himself.

Until the fourth, fifth, sixth time...

Gradually, she lost count of how many times she had been deceived and betrayed.

The priestess who was saved by her stabbed her decisively after knowing her identity.

The tribe she saved during the natural disaster period would not hesitate to place the source of the poisonous rain on her body.

If she saves a small settlement, she will take the initiative to hand her over to the first tribe in exchange for every penny of survival resources.

"——It's all your fault! I still need you to save me!"

"——If you, a believer in Nine Gods, died! We would not suffer disaster at all!"

Such voices abound.

She wanted to explain that nothing would be solved if she died because everything would just start over, but no one believed it. They just wanted to deprive her of the right to live.

At first, she would feel sorry for herself and want to take revenge like a wild wolf at all costs, but soon, as the number of times increased, her mentality became more and more peaceful.

Pain, scars, unhealed scars from the past, whether bleeding or scabbed, will only form a faint sentence when they see it happen again.

【I am used to it】.

…

The world is so big, but there is no place for her.

…

After that, she began to change her strategy. She no longer insisted on surviving until the end. She wanted to find the truth and try other ways to break the situation.

in death after death,

She once went deep into the basement of the First Tribe, read Zhao Weidong's family letters, and looked for the remains of the outside laboratory.

She had tried to wait near the black wall, waiting for an outsider to arrive.

She once wanted to persuade Teacher Fang, who was close to her, to believe her, but in the end she was just labeled as a madman and received Teacher Fang's pity and helpless eyes.

"Oh... this child is crazy." Teacher Fang would touch her head: "Don't be afraid, Sissy, I hope you will live a better life for the rest of your life, and you will stop mentioning these ridiculous things..."

In the end, no one believed her.

No one.

The death of a person will bring about the reincarnation of the world - how can anyone believe such a ridiculous thing.

…

In order to save the world, she went to many places.

She consulted books, visited settlements, and gradually learned about the source of gods—the three major elements: energy, faith, and authority.

She captured many tribesmen and used various execution methods to force them to reveal the secrets of various tribes.

She took advantage of the information gap in reincarnation to gain a handle on many people, and used ruthless threats and torture methods to force them into hiding and forcing them to tell the truth.

Her methods became more vicious and her character became colder and harsher. She grew from an autistic and introverted little girl who was exiled to an extremely ruthless hunter.

Like an alert hunter, a wild wolf.

Her torture and skinning methods matured little by little, and her killing techniques became more and more proficient. Gradually, even without using the power of Jiu Shen, she could kill some people who were far more powerful than her through the skills of hunters and traps. guide.

Because she is so familiar with these people, their personalities, fighting styles, weaknesses, families... she knows everything.

She could massacre an entire village for a little secret of the sky, or she could burn to death those devout believers of the gods who refused to obey in order to learn more about the truth about the gods.

——Anyway, everything can be repeated, and everyone will be resurrected anyway.

Then just let her do it.

As long as she doesn't hurt anyone in the reincarnation that finally succeeds, then the countless reincarnations ahead and the long detours will all be worth it.

These people hate her, insult her, don't understand her, and that's okay.

As long as she can finally break the reincarnation - then all the rumors will be self-defeating.

Just let them hate it.

Since the power obtained by sacrificing her life force could not keep her alive until the end, she could only find the last way - to become a god.

…

But soon, she discovered that this was not possible.

One of the three elements of becoming a god - "faith" - she could never obtain.

She went to the first tribe and used the knowledge she accumulated to help people open up fertile land, help people create machinery for farming, become a wise man, and wanted people to believe in her.

But she ignored the stubbornness of Baishen believers. People will only accept her knowledge and then regard her as a "monster", and no one will believe in her at all.

Her ending was either to be killed by the chief, or to be assassinated and poisoned by her fellow tribesmen.

Later, she started trying to do charity. She takes in those guides who have lost their minds and protects them.

She fed a tiger with her body and took the initiative to block the poisonous rain from natural disasters. She worked hard to protect her people and help them rebuild their sanctuary.

But she would still be considered a heretic, and no one would be grateful to her.

Her only end was to be killed by the people who came to exterminate the heretics.

People's ideas are extremely stubborn.

It is impossible for them to believe in a person who is full of Jiu Shen's aura.

If she doesn't use the power of God Nine, she will be killed by other guides. But once Jiu Shen's power is used, his life force will be exhausted and he will die, and the Jiu God's aura will become stronger in the next reincarnation.

——Infinite loop.

She simply couldn't break this situation.

"...It's impossible, I can't do it at all...I'm obviously trying to save them, but no one believes me..."

How many times she was near death, she cried and shouted these words, ushering in the next reincarnation.

Her identity as a pagan became the root of her inability to break the situation.

"—Infidels, die!"

"——Death and coming back again? Only a ghost will believe you. Even if you do, it's just your pagan's dirty ability!"

"——Sissi, if you know how to do it, find a place to die. Don't be an eyesore here. The aura of Jiu Shen on your body really makes me sick."

"..."

She has seen too many tragedies.

Every time she heard such words, she felt like she had been stabbed hard.

Everyone was expecting her to die.

But no one knew that her death would be of no use at all.

To prove what she said, the only way is for her to die, but once she dies, the meaning of proof will be gone.

How many times did she want to cry.

Why--

——Why did she lose so many lives, but only gained an unbreakable cycle?

——Why is she still alive and saved to this day, but she will always be despised and confused by people?

——Why, why can't everyone give her a little more opportunity and time to explain?

--Why……

Her memory became blurry as she died repeatedly.

Her sanity was repeatedly tortured by alienation and curses.

Reincarnation will not change her mental state. Her memory has been completely confused by her deaths.

All kinds of death, even alienation... made her become more and more crazy and confused.

Reincarnation is not her lucky right, but a curse and torture that prevents her from leaving behind her responsibilities.

Gradually, she will forget who she is, what she is living for, and what truth she is trying to uncover to survive.

She forgot her name and all the information she had been given. Her memory was blocked for self-protection, and the huge memory fragments of death were driving her crazy.

Twice, she thought, it would be better not to open her eyes or wake up, and just let her sleep in that wooden house on the first day.

Five times, she thought, just forget everything. She was Sissi, not Sibor, not the only disciple of the oldest god.

There were ten times when she would cry bitterly to those corpses and say I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

She was on the verge of collapse, looking crazy, like a frightened animal, a lonely and alert wolf.

As a person in the game, she was unable to break this deadlock.

"If only someone would save me," she thought.

As long as someone is willing to stand by her side, give her warmth, even if he just believes in her a little bit...

As long as someone can give her a hug when she is feeling cold all over, as long as someone can tell her that she can still see the sun and the sea...

She thought she wouldn't wait until that day.

But this time, someone who had never appeared before suddenly appeared beside her.

...He has black hair and black eyes.

... He has a bright mind and the wisdom to adapt to changes.

... He cares about the feelings of his companions, regardless of the loss of one or the other.

...He can tell stories and play musical instruments...

The words she wrote on the wall when she was a child, with the authority of her faith, actually came into effect.

When her memory was blurred and confused, the person she had always fantasized about suddenly came to her in this reincarnation.

He told her that he would always be with her.

He said that if he were a tourist who accidentally broke into the endless night, she would be his beacon.

He said she was the most important and unique.

He said,

He would let her see the flowers blossom.

…

In this realm of fabricated beliefs.

…They are the only pair of “sane” lambs.

…

[Under the sky, everything is reborn. The Forgotten take the form of 'monsters' and try to rival the gods. 】

[The adventurer in front of her suddenly seemed to be the most suitable person for her. 】

【This time,】

[Refuse to betray, prohibit abandonment. 】

[——She wants to become a ‘god’ among ‘monsters’. 】

…

【This time. 】

…

This time,

She fell into a hallucination midway, poison rain entered her body, and there was no way she could be saved. Chief Feng even chose to maintain the scam and did not believe her.

She failed again.

She pointed the gun at her heart.

"Bang!"

The gunshot rang out and her hand suddenly tilted.

When she opened her eyes, she saw the familiar figure again.

His dark eyes stared into hers as if tracing them, and there was a loneliness in them that was very similar to hers.

He held the barrel of the gun in his hand, and a white light of spatial displacement was emitting around him.

The moment he realized that Siboer was about to commit suicide, he moved over instantly and deflected her gun.

"...What are you going to do?" Su Mingan said.

Black tentacles emerged instantly, and she immediately tried to push him away, but it was as difficult as tearing flesh and blood.

His hands held her shoulders tightly, and the warmth of his hands made her whole body ache.

At this moment, she suddenly collapsed.

The thick wall in her heart was shattered in an instant, and he was the only one who didn't want her to die.

"Su Ming'an, I really want to die, I want to die - please kill me, please kill me, don't let me wake up again -!"

she wailed.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts.

The skin is melting, the blood is boiling, and the bones are melting.

The continuous rain curtain hit her scalp and tore her skin, she was like a withered bone connected to the skin and flesh.

Why do people regard her as evil - why do they despise her - why don't they give her the right to speak - why don't they even give her a chance to escape reincarnation?

She had good intentions at first, and she was kind to every nation around her, but what she always received was endless betrayal and cold death.

No one believed her, no one understood her, even if there was only one helping hand, she would not have reached the point where she is now living with madness.

She was tired and didn’t want to go on. She wanted to die, so badly. Why wasn’t she even given the right to die?

——What did she do wrong?

——What did she do wrong?

Just being "alive" made her feel doubly miserable.

"It hurts." She choked out a mouthful of blood.

"It hurts." Her fingers were broken into pieces.

"It hurts, it hurts, it hurts—"

"Su Ming'an! Help me - help me, save me, save me, save me -"

She cried, her whole body melting.

Su Mingan grabbed her hand that was rotten into bones.

She looked dirty, her wounds were dirty, her face was ugly, she was so embarrassed. The black rotten flesh was mixed with bright red blood, and the contrast was extremely shocking.

"...Sibur," he said.

She lay on his shoulder, tears and blood covering it.

"[I'm looking forward to meeting him. I've prepared fruits and candies, just waiting for him to come...]" He said: "[He can read stories. Although I know that fairy tales are all meant to deceive children, but I just like it, and I want him to read it to me...] - This is what you wrote on the wall repeatedly, and here I am."

"Sibel," he said, "I haven't read you a story yet."

Siboer's cry was choked with sobs.

When she spoke again, her corroded throat was tearing like a crow and screaming.

"—We can't win—we can't win—!"

"——Su Mingan, I really want to save them, but I can't save them, I can't save them——!"

…

It seems that as long as human beings move a step, they have to involve countless muscles and bones in the body.

It seems that as long as he struggles to take one more breath, he will endure endless pain in this world.

In front of Su Mingan's eyes, in addition to the gloomy gray, dark sky, and hot heavy rain,

——Only her face was as desperate and mournful as a fallen bird.

【I really want to save this world. 】

[But it's already rotten. 】

She wasn't crying for herself.

She is weeping about the future of the world and the ignorant people.

She cried for everyone who wanted to kill her, and for this hopeless world,

She wept for people's slow death and for the lack of room for freedom and light.

She is crying about this sad world.

What she once thought was eternal and beautiful turned out to be vulnerable.

…

…

【...this fate】

【Sucks. 】

[——"Jiu Shen·Reincarnation Notes\