First Player

Chapter 784 Chapter 783·【Save me once, okay? 】

"..."

Su Mingan tightened his grip on the sword.

All this time, he didn't know Lin Guang very well. Even the audience thinks that Lin Guang is just a paranoid villain.

But for Lin Guang, why did he become like this? Why was he able to become the agent in the 32nd year of the disaster? Where did he travel after losing the City of God? What kind of paintings did he paint and what kind of music did he compose? , how to take a pistol and fire at yourself, how to endure the pain and tie a bandage on yourself late at night, no one knows.

All his logical points are staggered and cannot be connected in a straight line. His words and deeds all seemed to go against the flow of time.

Even if he regrets, he never regrets his cruelty, but regrets not stopping Lovis from loving humans. Even he himself will not deny his ideas, his malice, and the harm he has done to others, but will openly admit it——

Yes, I am such a villain.

I am such a person.

I hate humans, their selfishness and fickleness disgust me. I feel close to you and I will protect you.

Like a very straightforward one-line line, what you put in comes out.

The hall was very quiet, only the colorful flowers were still blooming. Lin Guang stood quietly for a while and said, "Forget it."

never mind.

Even Su Mingan didn't know what he was "forgetting".

"If you could be normal, you wouldn't be like this." Su Mingan said slowly: "Maybe it's the long-term emotional resonance that makes you crazy. You shouldn't connect those hoses in the City of Gods."

Lin Guang's vision drifted, like a slowly rising smoke.

For a moment, Su Mingan felt that Lin Guang had met his gaze. They seemed to be looking at each other across a non-existent garden path. The steaming steam of the tea blurred the sight of each other, turning the figures in the field of vision into a patch of red and purple light and shadow.

Faintly, the moon can be seen in the tube. There is you without me, there is me without you.

"right."

Finally, Lin Guang spoke slowly.

"I'm crazy."

"I'm crazy...to wear this Hanfu today."

He himself admitted that he was crazy.

A sharp stabbing pain came from his heart.

"Thinking seems to be free, but it is restricted. Even if you emanate fantasy from reality, you will be trapped by experience, but is it a villain who just wants to control everyone? Or -"

Linguang said:

"Is the 'creator' the villain?"

"To what extent does a character have to have free will?"

"Am I free? Lewis, are you free again?"

Su Mingan's finger was on the trigger.

Lin Guang still stood there, his eyes like moist mist in the rain. The bright red blood light surrounded him, and the world seemed to be turned upside down, resonance vibrating from all directions.

Su Mingan had long been prepared to resist the resonance. But when the resonance came, he felt that the resonance was not painful, but made people feel strong contradictions and struggles, as if they were repeatedly trying to survive in the extremes of ice and fire.

The intensity of emotions and the contradictions of thoughts are unprecedented. Like a baby who has just come into contact with the human world.

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[First meeting, your name is Lin Guang now, right? ] He heard the voice of the gods.

[Yes, don’t worry, I will follow the pre-plot. 】This is Lin Guang's voice.

[Then wash your memory, it’s useless to keep it. 】The gods said.

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[God, I feel confused. What is the essence of life? 】Linguang's voice.

[The wind can blow up a leaf, but it cannot blow up a butterfly. Because life has its power and its faith. 】The voice of the gods.

【Am I a leaf or a butterfly? ] Linguang said.

[Of course you are a leaf. 】The gods said.

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[God, why do people always stare at me with hateful eyes? Am I doing something wrong? ] Linguang's voice: [Those who offend the gods should be punished. 】

【Of course that's right. ] The voice of the gods is persuasive: [This is for the stability of the world. The public needs a unified belief in order to save resources. 】

[Human beings really like to fight among themselves. ] Linguang said.

[That’s how humans are. 】The gods said.

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[God, I saw a man in the garden villa in District 11 today. His black hair and gray eyes looked very familiar to me. I want to keep him and be friends with him. 】Linguang's voice.

[Whatever you want, this is your freedom. ] God's voice was a little careless: [What's his name? 】

【Lovis. ] Linguang said.

[...] God said: [No. 】

【I want to be friends with him. ] Linguang said.

[No, only he can’t. 】The gods said.

[Didn’t you say that I can get everything I want? ] Linguang said.

[Let’s find someone else. 】The gods said.

[No, this is the only time I disobey you. ] Linguang said.

[This is your worst decision. 】The gods said.

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[God, he promised to take a walk with me today! ] Linguang's excited voice.

[…] The gods have no voice.

[A man named Qiu Li died, and he seemed a little sad. So tonight I played the flute for him and sent him back to the beacon gathering place. He's different from others, he's not afraid of me, he doesn't hate me, which is great. Linguang said: [I have never been so happy since I can remember. He and I will definitely become very good friends. 】

[…] The gods have no voice.

[God, God? ] Linguang said.

[Don't kill him by mistake. 】The gods said.

[If he doesn’t anger me, of course I won’t kill him. ] Linguang said.

[Didn’t you realize that this is not an equal ‘friendship’? 】The gods said.

【What is friendship? ] Lin Guang was at a loss.

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[God, I am very angry today. 】Linguang's voice.

[I said, people like you don’t deserve friendship. 】The voice of the gods.

[I just want to help him get rid of the obstacles around him! Those people have deficiency disease, which is contagious, but they don’t believe me. I can only force it. ] Lin Guang's voice was very angry: [But he was very angry and even chased him to the City of God. I made an appointment with him to help him kill a guy named Edward. 】

【Edward? Try to stay alive. 】The gods said.

【I don't. This is a promise between friends. ] Linguang said.

【You've been getting more and more out of control lately. ] God said: [Personal love and hate are unbearable emotions for the Savior, and they are shackles that cannot be shaken off. You will regret it sooner or later. 】

[But he still thinks that only the player is real, and I cannot be an equal person. As long as players are human beings, we are just tools - he never regarded me as a friend, he only made peace with me because I was valuable. 】Linguang said: 【I still don’t understand what the criminal has to protect. If you offend him, you should be killed. If you hide that you have a deficiency disease, you should be killed. But why did he want to save such an ugly human being? Why would someone sympathize with the criminal and blame the victim? 】

【Because this is human beings. 】The gods said.

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[God, I sneaked into District 11 today and made him tea. 】Linguang's voice.

【Um. 】The god's voice didn't sound concerned.

[But it turned out blood red when I soaked it, and he didn’t like it. ] Linguang said.

[Because you are using black tea leaves. 】The gods said.

[I tried bleaching with chlorine water, but it failed, and he didn’t seem to like drinking it. ] Linguang said.

【Who would like to drink chlorine water. 】The gods said.

[I will make further improvements and try using sulfuric acid next time...] Lin Guang said.

[Don’t poison him to death. 】The gods said.

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[God, I heard about it today. His birthday is December 31st. He usually likes to read psychology books and suspense stories. He can play tennis and the piano, and he likes mushroom soup. He likes chocolate as a snack, and strawberries as a fruit... He likes games. I don’t quite understand what a game is. It seems to be a very popular activity for people before the catastrophe of the century. 】Linguang's voice.

[He is indeed playing a very big game. 】The voice of the gods.

[Then what am I to him? ] Linguang said.

[The guardian devil in the level. 】The gods said.

【What is he? ] Linguang said.

【The brave man who wants to defeat the devil. 】The gods said.

[Can the Demon King and the Hero become good friends? ] Linguang said.

[According to orthodox games, it’s impossible. 】The gods said.

【OK. 】Linguang said: 【It must be possible. 】

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[God, today he established Doomsday City, and from now on he will be the city lord. People call him the city lord Akto. 】Linguang's voice.

【Um. 】The voice of the gods.

[I hate...this name. Lewis still sounds better. Lin Guang said: "When people call him, I always feel that it doesn't sound like they are calling him, but like calling another god." 】

【Um. 】The gods said.

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[God, he died suddenly today. 】Linguang's voice.

[He will appear again in a few years. 】The voice of the gods.

【I will wait. ] Linguang said.

[Why are you so obsessed with him? He was always wary of you. 】The gods said.

【But. Linguang said: "He is the only one who is willing to walk with me... Every time I see him, my chest is as happy as fireworks. I don't understand what this feels like. I have never experienced it." I couldn't understand why he smiled when he raised the corners of his mouth, or cried when he had water in his eyes, but I had these reactions when I saw him. My surroundings seemed to be black and white, but he had color. 】

[…] The gods have no voice.

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[God, I told him today, ‘Lu Shu has died a long time ago’. 】Linguang's voice.

【He must be sad. 】The gods said.

[I regret saying this. 】Linguang said: 【God, when I said this, I felt so sad. Why? 】

[Check to see if there are any wounds. 】The gods said.

[Is it because of the wound? 】Linguang said:

【Yeah? 】

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[God, I went to find him today. In the cave, I found him first. I am faster than Shan Tingting, Hongmao, Smiling Tiger, and anyone else. 】Linguang's voice.

[He is indeed an interesting person. 】The voice of the gods.

[The moonlight is beautiful today. 】Linguang said:

[But he still didn’t come with me. 】

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[God, I dreamed of many things today...I dreamed of Akto and the ginkgo tree. 】Linguang's voice.

【It’s just a dream. 】The voice of the gods.

[I... also broke his leg today. There is a saying that if a person makes the right choice at every point in time, he will achieve perfect happiness. Have I done many incorrect things so far? It seems like I hurt him too many times but I can't help it. ] Linguang said.

[You yourself are an incorrect existence, what else do you want? 】The gods said.

[I want to leave the city of God, God. ] Linguang said: [I want to... travel around. I want to know why I always do the wrong things subconsciously? 】

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[God, I have been to many places over the years. I quietly went to Doomsday City for a walk and bought a lot of painting supplies. I wanted to paint him one by one in the remaining decades. 】Linguang's voice.

[…] The gods have no voice.

[You seem to have stopped talking to me for a long time. Am I no longer of use? It doesn’t matter, I can talk to myself too. ] Linguang said.

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[God, I met Shan Tiantian today. He gave me a letter from Luvis, saying in the letter that he would invite me to dinner another day. I'm starting to look forward to that day. What day is ‘another day’? 】Linguang's voice.

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[God, several years have passed, and ‘another day’ has still not arrived. 】Linguang's voice.

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[God, I have taken in many children. They are noisy all day and all night, and I can't sleep. 】Linguang's voice.

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[God, he showed up at the dinner party today. He looked very tired. I followed him secretly and helped him kill some people who wanted to attack him, although he didn't know it. 】Linguang's voice.

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[God, I have started shooting myself in recent years, but I feel nothing but pain. Why? Apparently some humans smile so happily when they shoot themselves. 】

[It is difficult for me to perceive positive emotions. Twisted negative emotions are with me all the time. I don’t understand why you laugh when you’re happy, and I don’t understand why you cry when your companion dies. 】

[If I could have met him earlier, would he and I... be different? 】

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【……】

【It hurts. 】

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[God, Theredia died for him. 】

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[Su Xiaobi jumped for him. 】

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[I didn’t expect that Yao Wen was not a traitor. 】

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[Noah finally persisted for a long time. 】

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[Sen actually died in the church, which is quite ironic. 】

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【So cold. 】

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[The painting is gone. 】

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【I saw him. 】

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[He still hates me. 】

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[God, I listened to your words and saved so many people I hated, but no one saved me. 】

[I drew 1,200 pictures for him, but they were all burned. 】

[The more than 100 hours of video tapes I left of him live broadcast are gone. 】

[I planted strawberries, but now the flowerbed is not mine. I tried to find roses, but there were hardly any flowers in the world. 】

[I wanted to find painting supplies, but the last painting supplies were blown up. They called me a devil. 】

[If even he fears me and hates me, I will have nothing left. 】

[God, I don’t want to call you God anymore. To me, he is more like a new little God - the God who redeems me, the God who keeps me alive. 】

[Isn’t it painful to gain and lose again? 】

[But haven’t I never even “got”? 】

[I saved so many people, but no one came back to save me. 】

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【New God. 】

【I have never been rescued. 】

【...Save me once, okay? 】

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"Da da da."

The overlapping and confusing memory images made Su Mingan keep retreating, and he retreated to the edge of the window.

In the trance, there seemed to be a figure wearing Hanfu, with the white embroidery of pine cranes and bamboo leaves reflected on the cloth. The figure stood silently in the rain, holding an oil-paper umbrella.

One after another blood flowers spread in the water, and the figure in Hanfu moved slightly, turned his head and looked at Su Ming'an with a dull look.

Su Mingan saw this familiar look.

This made him feel,

He almost collapsed.

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