Fist of Imagination

"More than a year later, she became pregnant.

“I’m really happy, our whole family is happy, everyone is happy for us.

"That was the first time I felt that even a person like me could achieve happiness. I could put aside all my doubts and live like this, never thinking about complicated issues about male morality and the world.

“I stopped thinking about who I could be, what I was qualified to do, the whys and whats should be no longer important.

"Just keep the status quo, I'm happy enough.

Having said this, he smiled at Liang De and Li Zhixian, as if he was mocking himself.

“I applied for two years of parental leave from the company. We attach great importance to companionship during pregnancy. Once the wife confirms her pregnancy, the husband can take leave immediately until the child is one year old.

"I walked with her on the boulevard near my home every day, read parenting books and attended maternity classes with her. Together we thought of many nice names, bought a lot of nice clothes, and made lots of travel plans for the family of three..."

Mu Yiqi always had a gentle smile when he spoke, and maintained moderate eye contact with Li Zhixian on the screen, but he mostly looked at the white wall in the distance, or looked down at the scarf around his neck.

“…the best time of my life ended in week seven.

"That day I drove to the 4S shop for maintenance, and my mother and mother-in-law accompanied her to do a Y chromosome gender test. It turned out that the baby was a boy.

"She called me and other elders to inform me of the results, and then asked the obstetrician and gynecologist to prescribe mifepristone... Oh, we don't need the male spouse to sign the consent form, she and her mother can sign it to detect the gender in advance. It's also legal. They didn't do anything illegal. Legally, I have no right to interfere.

“It was my parents who suggested it and everyone in the family agreed except me because they were doing the right thing.

"Inheriting my genes and hers, that child will definitely be very good-looking in the future, too good-looking... but he is a man.

“Mifepristone is a controlled drug and requires medical supervision when taking it and observation after taking it, so when I rushed to the hospital, she had already taken the first medicine.

"I'm crazy. I stand motionless and no one can pull me away."

Mu Yigui was silent for a while, then raised his head and said:

"My father dragged me back home. He grabbed my collar and asked me loudly, 'Do you want your child to grow up like you, like me, like your grandpa, like us? The mistakes we have made, Are you going to keep doing it?'

“I couldn’t say a word.

"Because he's right."

"On the third day, she went to the hospital to take the last medicine. My mother accompanied her to the temple and asked for a jade Guanyin to pick up the baby girl. It was placed at home, in our bedroom. I would see it when I went to sleep.

"Luckily I haven't needed much sleep since that day."

Li Zhixian didn't know what to say. She felt that there was another barrier in her heart. She wanted to get her biggest wine glass, but her hands were stuck on her knees and she couldn't lift them. She wanted to look into Mu Yiqi's eyes. He didn't dare to look into Mu Yiqi's eyes.

Liang De stared at the floor, smoking an endless cigarette butt.

"...The fetus in the seventh week has not yet fully developed. There is no fetal movement and no fetal heartbeat can be heard. In a sense, the child is not yet a complete life. But we have given so many names and made So many plans, I always feel that the child has already come to me, spent the best weeks of my life with me, and then he left. "

Mu Yigui took off his scarf in circles:

"Those doubts, those questions about male morality and the world came to me again.

“I finally realized that even if there was someone who loved me so much, even if we had overcome so many difficulties and received everyone’s blessings, I could never be on an equal footing with her, never.

"I am a second-class person among second-class people. I can't become anyone. My child is considered not to be born. People like me are not qualified to be happy in this world."

He held the two ends of the scarf across the front of his neck, and the gentle expression on his face that was used to protect himself had disappeared.

“I have always kept the scarf I wore when I attended that national handshake meeting. It is of very good quality and very strong. The automatic clothes drying rack on the balcony was chosen by me and her together. It is of very good quality and very strong.

“The sunset on the last day was very beautiful, and the sunset was also beautiful. I was at home alone, so I took out the original planning notebook and read it again...

"Ade, you all know what happened next."

Liang De nodded almost imperceptibly.

"I didn't expect that I could live again after death. I didn't expect that there were other worlds outside that world, thousands of different worlds, a world without male virtue.

“I feel like I’m free.

"Ade, you know, I am actually a person who is very afraid of death. The school spirit is such that everyone is afraid of death, otherwise they would not survive.

"So I want to try again. I want to explore new possibilities for myself in a different world. I also want to help those who seem to have no other possibilities in life. I want to make the world a better place and make more people qualified. Live and give more people a chance to be born.

"So I tried my best to learn more things when I was in school. After graduation, I worked as a social worker in Kukai. I want to go to a few more worlds. When I know what to do, I will return to the original world and add a new dimension to it. new possibilities.

"Unfortunately, I thought too much."

Mu Yigui made a noose with the untied scarf, put it around his neck and tightened it, then held it in his hand and pulled it twice, making the scarf straight.

"Mr. Du told me that this dog chain has always been in his hands. After leaving the Zhoutian boundary of the Sword Immortal Ruins, I am still the second-class person, nothing is different.

"Ade, it's a bit funny, Sheng Wuxu didn't treat me as a human being, but in the end, he gave me a second life and protected me for two years. Principal Sheng is really... so gentle, I really..."

Mu Yigui wanted to say a few more words to Liang De to adjust the depressing atmosphere. He knew that this friend was very good at making trouble in misery. In this atmosphere, he needed him to play his specialty and say a few bad words to change the scene and continue the interview.

But at this time, Liang De had disappeared, leaving only a cigarette butt that had not been collected.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have..." Li Zhixian stammered on the other side of the screen.

Mu Yigui waved his hand and said:

"It doesn't matter, my affairs have nothing to do with you, Teacher Zhixian, and you don't know these things.

"Well... Ade may not be used to this atmosphere, and was scared away by my true confession. There is nothing I can do, that's how virgins are.

"Let's continue. According to your interview outline, I will tell you about my future plans."

"Okay."

Thank you everyone, see you tomorrow.