For The Rest of Our Life

Xiao Yuanqing was hung up again, anxious and annoyed, and angrily anxious, tears swirling in his eyes. She was too stunned. Her body reacted faster than her brain. She didn't want to change her pajamas. She just took a long coat and put it on. She grabbed the car key and stepped on the shoes placed on the porch. He ran out the door.

At three in the morning, the road was empty. Xiao Yunqing drove Wen Tong's car for a long time, and after taking his driver's license, he drove to the highest speed allowed on city roads for the first time, and roared on the deserted road at night.

Lin Xian hung up again after hanging up the phone, and then lay prostrately, letting Aunt Liu help her measure her body temperature, listening to Aunt Liu whispering in her ear: "What to do, 39.6 c, alcohol, I'll get alcohol to cool you down."

She felt like her body was falling apart, her muscles were sore, the pain was terrible, and her head was sinking. Her eyes were about to burst. However, consciousness is becoming more and more sober.

Using a body that seemed to be disconnected from her consciousness, she braced herself to sit up hard, and then moved her legs and lay on the floor, trying to stand up.

The next second, she was like stepping on cotton, shaking twice, kneeling down on the ground without weight.

Aunt Liu heard the sound and trotting in the medicine chest, and immediately threw down the medicine chest in shock, and ran to Lin Xian's side to support her: "What are you doing down here?! How are you a little kid! "

She thought that she was a good-tempered person, but, after all, Lin Xian's uneasy behavior for the past few days was upset, and the annoyance broke out for a long time, so she couldn't help but stress.

Lin Xian was not angry when she heard her rebuke. With the support of Aunt Liu, she stood up and found a sense of balance a little bit. She stood firm and was extremely gentle and obedient: "I'm sorry, I'm in trouble. I just want to go to the bathroom." She... I want to go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and gargle. In my mouth, it is too bitter. Moreover, she didn't want to see Aunt Xiao with all her taste.

Aunt Liu held her arm and sighed for a long time, helplessly: "Then I will help you go, your aunt should be coming soon." You said she was troublesome, she was quite troublesome, but sometimes, But you also can't bear to blame meekly and politely.

Lin Xian directed his disobedient lower limbs and moved to the bathroom with difficulty. After leaving her room and feeling the normal temperature outside, she became more and more aware of the heat. The eyelashes are sticky and wet, like sweating to slip off. She wiped her eyes, held out her hand, took a tooth cup to rinse her mouth, and her teeth came into contact with cold water. At once, she wanted to sigh comfortably, but she shuddered involuntarily.

The feeling of vomiting came up again.

She held on to the washbasin and vomited arduously for a long time before slowly stopping her discomfort, and then straightened her waist with little difficulty. Physiological tears wet her eyelashes again and slip from the corners of her eyes.

She was still moving out, and suddenly heard Aunt Liu's salvation that suddenly rose from the outside: "Oh, you can count it back, just measured it, 39.6 degrees, it can't be delayed..."

Lin Xian couldn't hear clearly the woman's soft answer.

She didn't know where the strength came from, raised her feet, hurried towards the door, raised her hand, and opened the door all at once. In the next moment, she finally saw that the woman she thought about day and night, awake, dreamed, and thought, stood in awkwardness at the door and looked straight at her.

Aunt Xiao lost her decent dignity in the past, and looked at her with a disheveled dress, messy hair, and red eyes. But in her eyes, in her heart, she is still that beautiful and charming.

With only one eye contact, Lin Xian clearly saw her distress, anxiety, worry, fear in her red eyes, and the inexplicable fragility and grievances brought about by the physical discomfort she had endured suddenly popped up. Heart.

Tears fell down drastically.

Lin Xian took a step forward, shed all the strength of his body, and fell in that tender arms. Her voice was hoarse, like a wandering puppy finally found her peace of mind, whispered: "I miss you so much."

On the way when he came, the annoyance of being panicked and afraid of being mad was dissipated as soon as he saw Lin Xian. Xiao Wanqing was clearly seeing Lin Xian, but after a few days he lost a lot of pale face, and his red-burned eyes and purple lips, his eyes were already red, and his heart was like a knife. Hearing Lin Xian's hoarse and nostalgic "I miss you so much", she couldn't help it anymore and she burst into tears.

How could she bear the blame for Lin Xian's mischief.

Lin Xian did not hurt Lin Xian herself, but her.

She obviously didn't want to hurt her, but it was her who hurt her little by little.

In the end, what should she do, what is right?

Lin Xian felt Xiao Wanqing Xiao Yunqing's hands as if they were hot, and tightened her a little bit, and there were wet drops of water that fell on her shoulders. It turns out that in this world, your favorite person feels the same with you, and it hurts what you feel. This is how it feels.

In fact, she is particularly afraid of pain and death. She was afraid if she would just lose her temperature in the cold and die, if she would have a high fever and become a fool, or if she would have pneumonia and myocarditis, and she would never have a healthy body again.

But what she was most afraid of was that Xiao Wanqing could not see her, and since then, she could never find her again.

She leaned in Xiao Wanqing's arms, feeling her true existence, crying and laughing.

At least at this moment, she felt that she died without regret.

Xiao Yunqing raised his hand and quickly wiped away his tears. While encircling Lin Xian, he coaxed her softly and softly: "Envy, obedient, I will take you to the hospital." "Aunt Liu, I'm sorry, can you help me get some antipyretics and water? Then can you trouble you to run again? When I drive, please ask her to wipe her hands and feet with alcohol."

Before Aunt Liu answered, Lin Xian raised her head and watched Xiao Wanqing shook her head. As soon as she shook her head, she felt vomiting again. But she pressed down hard, and weakly refused: "Let Aunt Liu take a good rest."

The girl's big eyes, red and watery like a rabbit, are full of stubborn perseverance.

Xiao Wanqing was anxious and distressed, but there was no way to get her. She asked Aunt Liu to take the antipyretic medicine. After watching Lin Xian take it, she asked Aunt Liu to take two twisted semi-dry towels for Lin Xian's road. Afterwards, she compromised and half-armed Lin Xian downstairs.

In the elevator, Lin Xian turned his head to look at Xiao Wanqing's pale and haggard face for a moment. She rested her chin on Xiao Wanqing's shoulder, rubbed her cheek gently with her head, buried it in her neck socket, and apologized guiltily: "I'm sorry, I worried you."

Xiao Wanqing looked down at the girl's dark hair and sucked her sour nose, her arms around Lin Xian's waist unconsciously tightened. With a nasal voice, she said tiredly: "Lin Xian, you are not sorry for me, you are sorry for yourself. The body is your own. How can you treat yourself like this?"

Lin Xian felt aggrieved and responded to her: "But only in this way, you are willing to see me, you came to see me."

Xiao Wanqing felt numb with pain. She didn’t dare to look at Lin Xian. She looked away and looked at the numbers of the falling floors. Word by word, it was difficult and calm: “Lin Xian, you are still small, and life is still long. One day, you will find, This world is very big, turning around, you can meet countless people who are more suitable and worthy of you. When you reach my age, you will find that everyone at this age is like me, and I There is nothing particularly surprising."

She said: "Lin Xian, you will know in the future that you are not indispensable to me." These words, I thought about it countless times in her heart, admitted these facts, and spoke to Lin Xian, it was not that painful. Too. Her tone did not fluctuate at all.

In this way, she easily underestimated and denied her feelings, and cherished her like that, as a love that would only happen once in a lifetime, it was regarded as such a casual matter. Lin Xian listened to her calm and cruel words, feeling that her heart had been pierced into a sieve, her chest was stuffy, and her head was buzzing.

She raised her head, staring at Xiao Wanqing in embarrassment and sorrow, just about to speak, and the elevator drove away.

Xiao Yuanqing stared at the front, choked his throat, stopped the unraveling girl, and in light of the urgent matter, jumped off the topic and said: "Okay, let's go."

Lin Xian, but unexpectedly reached out and grabbed the handrail behind the elevator, fixed his body and footsteps, motionless.

The antipyretic medicine seems not to be in effect yet. Xiao Wanqing looked at the flushing of her face, which became more and more visible, feeling the sticky sweat of Lin Xian touched by her arm, and she felt anxious. She kept suppressing her emotions and finally reached the critical point of collapse. For the first time, she raised the volume like this and reprimanded Lin Xian: "Lin Xian, don't make trouble!"

Lin Xian struggled to free her hand and left her arms, her strength relied on the railing, and asked her sadly: "Is it in your eyes, everything I do is unreasonable for the children ?"

Xiao Yuanqing bit his lip and clenched his fists, reluctantly reluctant to answer.

Lin Xian seemed to be anxious and began to tremble unconsciously.

Xiao Wanqing was terribly distressed. She reached out to La Linxian's hand and just wanted to take her to the hospital quickly. But Lin Xian gritted his teeth and ran away.

Xiao Yuanqing looked at Lin Xian's crumbling body and finally collapsed. She leaned back against the elevator, her tears falling down, her eyes full of pain and grievances, and complained to Lin Xian with a choked voice: "Why, Lin Xian, why do you have to embarrass me? Why, why do you have to force me like this? ..."

Lin Xian saw Xiao Wanqing in front of her for the first time, crying so wrongly, so collapsed, so sad. She was in pain all over, and she felt faint in the next second. But she still supported the wall, moved to Xiao Wanqing, pressed her hands to her sides, supported herself, and circled Xiao Wanqing in her arms. She leaned over and kissed Xiao Wanqing's tearful eyes with her hot lips, whispering like a grievance: "I just want to love you."

"Sorry."

"Don't cry, I'm sorry for you."

Her lips are full of bitter tears, I do not know whether it is Xiao Wanqing, or her own. "You said that the world is huge, and I will meet many people. After that, everyone will not be you."

"You said that my life is still very long, but I always think that maybe I will die tomorrow and tomorrow..." Before she finished, she was interrupted by Xiao Yuanqing's sad and urgent petition: "Lin Xian, don't be like this Say……"

Lin Xian looked at Xiao Wanqing, who made her distressed and hated softly in front of her eyes, and chuckled sorrowfully, and brought out a cough. She turned away quickly, afraid of facing Xiao Wanqing. When she stepped away, she was unsteady and staggered.

The next second, she fell into Xiao Wanqing's arms again. Xiao Wanqing, afraid of her falling, reached out in panic, pulled her, and fixed her in front of her.

Lin Xian thought, this is the last time.

She attached her face to Xiao Wanqing with nostalgia, feeling the temperature of her beloved, tears falling down on Xiao Wanqing's neck, all the way to wet Xiao Xiaoqing's chest, wet Xiao Xiaoqing's heart.

"When you didn't come, I lay in bed and kept thinking, if I die today, then the greatest regret in my life must be that the person I love doesn't dare to love me."

Word word Zhu heart. Xiao Wanqing burst into tears silently until he could not breathe.

Lin Xian apologized sadly: "I'm sorry, I like you." She pushed away Xiao Xiaoqing, walked slowly out of the elevator, pressed the door open key, and said one by one: "Don't be embarrassed. Go home. ,You win."

She stepped out of the elevator and heard the sound of the elevator doors sliding across the gap mercilessly. After a long absence of sound, she finally lost all her strength. She squatted down and slumped on the cold ground, holding her knees and crying.

She thought, so be it.

She has no energy.

Since then, bury this unwilling heart.

She was crying so deeply that she didn't know when the elevator door opened again.

There was a pair of slender arms, and from behind, the whole person was circled in her arms. Tightly, as if to melt her into the body.

The woman, with her warm tears on her cheeks, touched her same wet cheeks, crying dumbly, accusing in her ear: "Lin Xian, you started first."