Forced Marriage: Escaping Her Monster

"Sky diving?" Jerlina widened her eyes.

She knew for sure that he has booked a hotel in Venice and Paris.

So rather than a romantic gondola ride in the canals of Venice or a romantic candle-lit dinner in some amazing French restaurant, he's going to make me jump to my death?

Is he bored with me already?

"You don't want to?" he asked raising his eyebrows.

"No!" she sat. She now questioned his motives to bring her on this tour."You want to kill me, right?" She held her head. Maybe because she sat up too quickly, she felt her blood rushing to her head and she got light-headed.

"You little," Jeremy pulled her down with a chuckle. "Why would I bring you here if I want to kill you? Wouldn't the woods behind our house better to hide the body?" he pecked her lips.

"I am not going to go anywhere with you," she pushed his face away from her.

She tried to but she couldn't move him an inch. And that made her angrier.

"With whom will you go?" he leaned and kissed her once more. "I have your passport," he chuckled evily.

"Murder!" she shouted. "This guy is trying to-"

But her lips were covered by his lips and his hands started to knead on her chest.

"Stop kissing me! And don't touch me! It hurts!" she pushed him away.

Jeremy thought she was playing with him till then but it seemed like she was really trying to get him off of her and he let her go.

"Are you okay, Jeryl? Are you feeling sick?" he asked knitting his brows. She looked a little pale.

"I am fine!" she got down from the bed and walked to the bathroom. "I feel bloated and… I think my periods would arrive any moment…" she stopped walking.

Periods? So… she's not pregnant?

Jeremy felt a little sad and he watched her. His heart skipped a beat seeing her shaking. He got down from the bed and ran to her. She was crying. Saying nothing, he hugged her from behind.

"It's okay…" he kissed her cheek.

"It is not okay!" she shouted. "It's not regular these days and when I miss it even or a day or two I get excited and then this…"

Jeremy didn't know what to tell her and so he offered his chest to her. What else is he going to say when he is sad too?

But…

"Maybe I should stop expecting. I am never going to get pregnant and you are going to end up hating me. I am going to end up with no one! I am a miserable, unlucky-"

"No, you're not!" Jeremy spun her to face him and spoke in a loud voice. He felt like she is thinking too much.

"See…" she cried more seeing his face. "You're angry at me. You've started to hate me already…" she covered her face with her palm and started to shake.

"Oh my god!" Jeremy held her hand. "We were making love just five minutes ago. How would I hate you already?"

"You are hating me. Maybe you should hate me. I am an useless-"

"Stop talking," he hugged her close.

His wife is a saint most times and there is no one else who could work hard like her. But she gets extremely unreasonable around that time of the month but this time it is very severe. He didn't want to deal with it now.

I shouldn't have stupidly brought up sky diving now! It is all my fault! I was not even planning on it anyway! Why would I arrange an extreme sport for us when we are trying for a baby?

But… These mood swings… She could be pregnant.

"Come on, eat something…" he guided her to the table.

These few days he could feel that her libido got high. Could that be related to pregnancy too?

"I am not hungry. I don't deserve food…" she sniffed. "Maybe I should skydive alone. I bet my parachute would malfunction and I would splatter on the hardest surface like a pancake! Maybe I deserve that death…"

Jeremy waited for her to stop but she didn't. So he sucked a deep breath and decided to deal with it like a man. He searched and found a bar of chocolate and silently sat by her side, listening to all her unreasonable rantings.

As I said… It is hard being a man.

But it must be much harder for her…

When she fell asleep, he felt like a storm has passed. He kissed her forehead and made a call to his mom and talked about it. She suggested getting a pregnancy test if her periods did not come in a couple of days. By the excitement in her voice, he had hopes that it could be pregnancy too.

But all his hopes were burnt to ashes when she said she got her periods the next day. She didn't act up but she went extremely silent and that made him more scared than her acting up. At least he will know what she is thinking when she is ranting. But now, he knows nothing.

"It's okay… Maybe next month…" she smiled as she packed her bag.

Without depending on her, he packed his bag.

"Should I do some testing, honey?" he asked holding her hand as they were on their way to the next destination.

He had a lot of plans to make a lot of surprises for her. But now both of them felt empty and she was in no mood to enjoy the surprises and he was in no mood of having fun either.

He could sense that they are giving more importance to the baby issue. It is not what they talked. But heart is just fickle and greedy.  It just wants what it wants.

And he won't lie. Emma's pregnancy announcement put some stress on them. They wanted to be pregnant too.

"What are you saying?" Jerlina didn't think he would be thinking about it till now.

She was sad for the whole night but she got a clarity in the morning. She wasn't as sad as she thought she would be.

"We have a lot of time… Let's talk about testing and others later… Maybe after a year or…" She held his hand.

"I am sorry if I am being unreasonable, Joel… It's… I love you," she leaned on his shoulder.

She didn't know what else she should say to him. She knew the fault lies with her. She is making an issue out of something that is not in their control.

And it just has been two months! Why can't I be patient?