From the Esoteric Cult Family to the Kingdom of God

2012-2018, ignorant period.

The first time I uploaded a novel, the sentences were not divided into paragraphs, and there were places where the sentences were not smooth, but writing novels made me, a high school student, full of joy.

I wrote two books in a row with tens of thousands of words, but they were cut off because no one read them and the collection was in the single digit. The third book was called "The First Demon King Chef in History", and I was finally signed.

The editor at that time said a lot to me, such as asking me to update steadily.

"I am a student, I can't be stable!"

"Okay."

The high school studies were busy, and the book was soon discontinued. In my freshman year, I started to pursue a real-life life, but I felt it was meaningless and completely out of place.

So I started to rewrite the old book, and the editor became a new one. It was not easy to collect back to 1,000, but I never had the chance to put it on the shelf.

Then, the book was blocked in the first big wave.

A few months later, I went to the next door, and my skills increased greatly. When I wrote, even the sentences could be smooth!

After writing the beginnings of several books, I finally got a contract for one of them. I was so happy that I even had more than 3,000 collections waiting for the book to be put on the shelves!

Damn, invincible!

I swore that I would write a million words as long as I had 200 first orders!

Unfortunately, there were only more than 60 first orders, so I cried and wrote an apology chapter and cut the book.

I finally realized the most terrible thing.

Compared with those geniuses who rose rapidly with two or three books,

I don’t have even a trace of writing talent!

Later, I wrote another book and decided to pursue the explosive point at the beginning. The protagonist punched Gaia at the beginning and began to evolve mythological civilization. The first order was 550.

Because it is really difficult to write the protagonist in an invincible style, I began to subconsciously try to write group portraits.

The prototype of the world view of all subsequent novels was thus determined. At that time, I really felt that more than 1,000 average orders were also very satisfactory.

Until later, when I was studying books in the author group, I was suddenly hit on by a big guy. He kept asking me how many average orders I had. I dared to study how to write novels. I was stupid!

I felt really angry at that time, but I didn't dare to talk back, because he had many fans and many author friends.

I was a student, afraid of cyber violence, so I did what I wanted.

After two years of hard work, this book was finally finished, which was a cause for celebration. Then I saw a book called Low-Dimensional Games, and I felt that the ideas and framework were similar to my own book.

Hey, at that time I suddenly felt that it might not be impossible for me to go back to Qidian.

2018-2020, learning period.

I wanted to write a new book, and at this time a 10,000-subscription author who was a good teacher appeared in the author group. I shamelessly showed him the beginning of the new book several times, and after the big boss revised it, it was published.

Unexpectedly, the new book quickly received more than 10,000 collections!

Damn, invincible!

As a result, the collection stopped increasing here, the first subscription was 1,200, and the subsequent subscriptions dropped madly after it was put on the shelves. I could only endure and write until the book was finished, with an average subscription of 1,500.

Why?

What is the reason? The novel started well, but then it got worse and worse.

I began to think carefully about the root cause of the good and bad grades.

I plan to write a new book about the fourth disaster, because I found that this kind of book has good grades, but not many people write it.

Let's write a lighthearted and funny book!

This time I learned from my mistakes and I must polish the beginning and the early ideas enough before publishing the book, so I shamelessly pestered the author with thousands of subscriptions to revise it for me.

"It's too rough", "It doesn't bring out the emotions", "It's not good"...

Rewrite, ask for corrections, rewrite, ask for corrections, rewrite, ask for corrections, rewrite, ask for corrections, rewrite, ask for corrections, rewrite, ask for corrections,...

Rewrite, rewrite, rewrite, rewrite, rewrite, rewrite, rewrite...

Ten times!

For a whole month, I repeatedly conceived and reconstructed, constantly transformed my thinking and cognition of online articles, and finally got the answer I wanted after rewriting ten times.

"Okay, it's okay."

I'm on it!

Publish the book.

Wait for signing.

Successfully signed.

Wait for recommendation.

Just barely passed the test to test the waters.

Waiting for the top rankings...

Top rankings.

…

First place on the seven rankings! 8,700 first orders! 9,000 follow-up readings!

Damn, invincible!

However, the follow-up readings began to decline continuously, and I couldn't stop it. I simply gave up and wrote for a month until I looked at the follow-up readings again.

It had dropped to 3,000.

The average subscription continued to decline, from 10,000 subscriptions to more than 8,000. Fortunately, it was slowly saved by recommendations. Because I received negative feedback every day, funny novels became no longer easy, and I was depressed every day when I wrote.

Sitting for a long time, not seeing the sun, lacking friends, not being paid attention, living frugally, every day I accepted a new decline...

My mental state also showed a downward trend.

Finally, the 1.5 million words were completed, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

I began to try to start a new book with joy and expectations.

2020-2023, transformation period

30,000 manuscripts saved, published a book.

Flop.

50,000 manuscripts saved, published a book again.

Flop again.

Almost zero social interaction, a monthly mortgage of more than 8,000 yuan, sick family members, myself unemployed for half a year, confused about the future, all kinds of thoughts in my mind, sleepless nights.

I started to get angry and even yelled at people around me, especially when they advised me to go out and find a job, and said that I was just playing games.

Anxiety disorder, a common mental illness among full-time writers, quietly came to me.

Finally, I found the feeling again.

This time I plan to write another invincible book. I saw a book about a little girl being sacrificed to an evil god, so I will write a book where the protagonist is summoned by the little girl as an evil god.

Will I succeed again?

"Flash in the pan", "good luck", "accidental", "newcomer wall", "running out of ideas"... Authors who only wrote once with 10,000 subscriptions account for the vast majority of authors with 10,000 subscriptions.

The so-called 10,000 subscriptions,

is just the beginning.

The second on the new book list, the trend at the beginning is very good, but unfortunately the plot began to drag after more than 20 chapters, and the protagonist also lacked subjective initiative, and the follow-up reading began to decline.

Four thousand first subscriptions.

Damn, no... no invincible, no invincible.

I began to study data feedback, and according to the rules provided by the background, I carefully thought about and experimented with various new plots, and finally stabilized the follow-up reading, and the average subscription began to gradually increase.

Ten thousand subscriptions again.

Then, comic adaptation.

The subscription results improved again.

Unfortunately, the framework of the invincible flow is really not long enough to be written, and the results in the later period cannot be stabilized. The anxiety disorder became more and more serious, and I could only barely finish the book.

One night, I was bleeding when I brushed my teeth. I knelt on the ground and cried. I felt that I had a terminal illness.

From then on, I began a hypochondriacal journey of 40 visits to the hospital in a year.

I knew I couldn't hold on any longer.

I went to see a psychiatrist.

It improved.

"If you take medicine, you will be drowsy and can't write a novel."

I see.

Then I refuse to take medicine!

I want to try to lower the starting point of the protagonist and reduce the explosive points in the new book, but the results were very poor. Later, I wanted to write a group portrait.

How about the protagonist playing games on his mobile phone, controlling the superpowers to keep adding points and saving the world again and again?

As long as the struggles of the superpowers are written well, it will be interesting to create information gaps.

Okay, let's get started!

The new book started well, until a certain part of the plot began to drag, and then the follow-up reading declined, just like the previous book.

To be honest, I basically have no sense of language. I have to read it several times after publishing it to see whether the text is good or not, and I can't judge whether the plot is good or not. I can only know it clearly when the data comes out.

If the plot is not dragged, I don't know what a good rhythm is. If the plot is not bland, I don't know what intense is.

I realized it late.

Compared with those geniuses who know it before they are born, my writing is almost like a blind man dancing with a sword and a slow bird flying slowly.

There is no way. Now that things have come to this, I can only accept the defects.

The first order is 7,000.

Very good, in line with expectations.

Now I have gradually transformed. Through a lot of note-taking and repeated thinking and deliberation, I gradually understand what is the sense of expectation and what is the beginning, development, turning point and ending. The subsequent results will never collapse.

Hey, my eyes seem to have some problems. Is it a hypochondriasis?

Go check it out.

Retinal tear, laser repair, follow the doctor's advice to rest for half a month, and listen to crosstalk in bed for half a month.

After returning, readers left and scattered, and the average subscription was only more than 3,000.

After the update was restored, the average subscription quickly rose to more than 5,000. Now I am the tenth in the essay contest. The bonus for the fourth to tenth place is not high, and the bonus for the third and starting is very high.

I said in the author group that I wanted to compete for the third place.

Everyone laughed.

Because the ranking is sorted by average subscription, the average subscription of the third place at that time was 13,000.

I said that the framework of that book was not good, the hot spots and expectations were all at the beginning, and the subsequent works were just dead bones in the tomb, and it was difficult to achieve anything.

As for me, now I can observe the background data in real time, constantly reflect on the new plot, and there are more expectations and hot spots in the later stage of the framework, and the results will gradually improve.

Of course they didn't believe it.

There is a word count requirement for the essay review. Because of the half-month break, I must update frequently to have a chance, so I started to update frequently, think, and devote my heart and soul to it as never before.

A few months later, my average subscription increased to 11,000, while the average subscription of that book dropped to 10,000.

Take the essay prize.

The final average subscription was 16,000.

...

Then, I had a mental breakdown due to excessive pressure, palpitations every day, and stopped updating for several months to adjust my body until I recovered and finished the book normally.

That year, the anti-theft effect of Qidian was very good, the income limit was increased several times, and people around me came to Qidian and achieved results one after another.

"Prove the truth."

I want to become a great god of Qidian.

2023-now, future, reshaping period

Failed.

I deeply understood and studied Qidian's popular books, tried to deconstruct the mysteries, and then failed.

More than once.

For a whole year, I cut several books and couldn't find the direction to write.

Why?

I began to reflect.

Even if I complained about being born at the wrong time and social injustice, nothing would change.

People should understand the current situation and analyze it, and take action after fully understanding the reasons.

While reflecting, I was also doing another thing.

No longer let my life only write books.

Exercise, go out to travel, return to school to give lectures, control diet, and actively socialize.

I fully realize that I need a good spirit and body to ensure continuous work output.

I began to learn to please myself, and no longer pua myself. When I feel anxious, I eat, drink and have fun immediately, so as not to cause backlogs.

It took me half a year to successfully reduce my weight from 178 to 137, getting rid of the obesity I had been suffering from for more than 20 years.

Get rid of insomnia and palpitations!

For more than ten years, I have generously answered questions for those who asked for advice, and I am full of gratitude to those who have been kind. Even though my grades plummeted after I fell ill, I still finished every book I put on the shelves for a fee.

Unknowingly, I am surrounded by many old readers, author friends, editor friends, and other friends...

Everyone has given me encouragement and support.

Finally, by controlling variables, I understood why my books were successful.

Whether it is the Fourth Natural Disaster or the Salvation Organization, it is actually the framework of "transcendent protagonist plus a group of protagonists". This is the kind of subject matter that I am best at writing.

Why didn’t you write about this kind of subject when you first came to Qidian?

Because, group portraits are books that are difficult to reach and have a limited audience.

Then it will be difficult to become a great god and climb the highest mountain.

A lifelong dream is likely to die prematurely, which is tantamount to abandoning the great road and studying small skills in the world of immortality.

Most people are just like the red turtle, growing slowly and failing to become a goldfish. They will even give up and choose easier things when they encounter setbacks at the beginning.

The remaining people also realized that their talents were limited and destined to live in obscurity for a lifetime, so they no longer had the will to fight.

I don't want to admit that I am a red fish. I have already known that I lack a sense of language, am not sensitive to rhythm, and have no writing talent at all.

A blind man wielding a sword cannot predict the situation in advance and can only reflect upon it after each injury. How can he reach the highest state?

Until I saw a sentence in my speech when I finished this book a few years ago.

I was finally relieved.

"The redfish is destined not to become a goldfish, but it doesn't matter even if it never becomes a goldfish, as long as it is the best redfish!"

So I poured all my experience, inspiration, and passion over the past ten years into the new story outline, hoping to deliver it 100% of the time.

Group portraits, sacrifice, inheritance, epic, crying, laughter, change, the fate of blood...

The character designs of each generation have been written in the outline, with each generation alternating and succeeding one another.

good.

After being unemployed again for more than ten months, walking in the darkness, I seemed to have grasped the sword in my heart.

Draw your sword! Send a book!

The results at the beginning were pretty good, and the editor even commented with high emotional intelligence that it has the potential to be a hit.

However, the plot has been delayed in the past half month, and the old problem of "plot problems before release" has occurred again. Because there is no real-time follow-up before release, I can only finish writing and wait a few days before adjusting the follow-up. .

Gradually I realized that the "old problem" was partly due to the ability to be late-minded, and partly due to the fact that the beginning and the framework were well done, but the plot from the beginning to the time it was released was not polished enough.

I felt that this book was slow to gain traction at the beginning, and it was the slowest to gain traction among all my books. In fact, I was already prepared to order hundreds of copies from the beginning and then make a comeback later.

Only by breaking away from the original framework can we break through to a new realm.

The early results of this book are already much better than expected.

I can’t say that I will definitely write better and better after it is put on the shelves. I can only say that I will do my best.

I’ll just write my acceptance speech here.

Thanks to "Yang Yan who lives in the dream", the leader of "Fei Wen", thanks to the editor Canaan, thanks to the operation officer, thanks to the head of the kindergarten, don't pray for ten strings, poor Xixi, the vegetables are green, and the chapter that doesn't fall into the fish push.

Thanks to my family and friends who have always supported me.

Thanks to myself.

Finally, thank you all for your continued support and wish you all a Happy New Year in advance.

I hope you will start here and continue to the final remarks of this book.

My life is like walking on thin ice,

Do you think I can make it to the end?