Giant: I, Ayanokouji Kiyotaka, have no feelings

Under the clear moonlight, the quiet hills, simple and cozy cabins, the lights are very warm.

Two wooden tables were put together

, and the originally empty room seemed a little crowded after the children returned with their friends, but it also eliminated the coldness of only Karula and Grandpa Armin, full of human touch.

Reiner, Bertot, Armin and Armin's grandfather got together to play chess, and from time to time listened to Armin's grandfather talk about the shortcomings of parents, and the three children would interject a few words, which was extremely harmonious.

Ani held a piece of sugar, held his face sideways, and silently stared at the burning kerosene lamp in the center of the table, and he was fascinated for a long time.

Ellie leaned next to Arnie and kept harassing the iceberg beauty in front of her.

When Arnie's brows wrinkled slightly and his face was full of helplessness, Ellie's mouth couldn't control a smile.

Sitting next to Karula, Allen excitedly talked about the partners he met in training, and reported good news rather than bad news.

Mikasa sat beside Allen and froze.

Far away from Mikasa, Ayakoji sat on the other side of Kalura, quietly watching everything in the house.

Everyone in the know tacitly did not mention the question of why Ayakoji was alive.

Eren and Mikasa don't know how to explain, so Eren uncharacteristically keeps pulling his mother to talk, hoping she won't notice it.

Reiner and Bertot did not take the initiative to provoke this topic at all.

Arnie, Ellie, and Armin are insiders and subconsciously ignore this problem.

Everyone is enjoying it.

As a training soldier, Alan enjoys the comfort of the holiday time, and Armin's grandfather enjoys the joy of family.

Karula enjoyed, enjoying the fullness of the room that had changed from empty silence to beauty.

No one mentioned the point of why Ayakoji was alive, not really.

Only in Karula's hand, holding the new pair of red cotton gloves that I don't know how long they had been knitting, aimed at Mikasa and Ayakoji, who were far apart, with a little complicated feelings.

......

Warmth is always short-lived, and the children who have been on the road for a long time can not resist the exhaustion of their bodies and go to sleep one after another.

Only in the room that Ayakoji asked for alone, there was a little glimmer of light, and there was a rustle of writing.

He's preparing for the next training session.

Suddenly, the movement outside the cabin attracted Ayakoji's attention.

He gently put down the pen in his hand and looked tentatively out the window.

The weather outside the chalet was very cold, with a little cold breeze.

The sky is cloudless, and the whole land is bright and cold with bright stars and clear moonlight.

Karula sat quietly on the edge of the hillock, holding the hand-knitted cotton gloves in her hands, silently fascinating.

Suddenly, a breeze blew through the ends of her hair, and she gently looked up at the bright moon in the sky, sighed slowly, and muttered

, "Qinglong..."

"Mother Karula?"

Suddenly, the beautiful picture was broken by the same cold voice.

Mikasa did not fall asleep either, and also ran outside the house.

"Mother Karula... Don't you want to spend more time with him?"

Mikasa stared into Kalura's gentle eyes looking back, then tilted her head and asked, her tone a little awkward.

"Is it... Mikasa, is that so

?" Karula ruffled her hair and said sadly

, "Can you think it's

Kiyotaka yourself?" Mikasa was silent

, yes, of course she didn't think it was Kiyotaka, otherwise, why would she subconsciously not call him by name?"

"

No one can fail to mention the question of why Ayakoji is still alive.

But why did Karula, who should have asked about it the most, not mention it at all?

"Perhaps,"

Karula responded unnaturally, in fact, she wanted to believe it, and even believed it when she felt that hug at the beginning.

How could she believe that the child who had been eaten in half by a giant in front of her was back to her today?

Karula suddenly smiled wryly, meaningfully

, "Because, Mikasa, I think the same way as you."

You want to comfort me through someone who looks exactly like Kiyotaka, don't you?

I think Eren must be very happy now, right?"

Mikasa was speechless for a long time, silently sat down next to Karula, gently leaned on her shoulder, and did not say a word.

"But,"

said Suddenly, Karula silently hugged Mikasa's shoulder and said sadly

, "but, Mikasa, a fake is a fake." Although Armin and Ellie play as if Ayakoji is really alive.

But if you think Ayakoji is still alive. Why did Eren keep trying to grab my attention?"

then teased

, "Besides, if Kiyotaka does come back." Mikasa must have been haunting him all the time, right, how could you be so far away from him?" "

I wouldn't be pestering him..."

Mikasa buried her face deep in her scarf and retorted unwillingly, her pretty face in the moonlight full of stubbornness.

The cold wind suddenly blew, and Mikasa's scarf danced in the wind, and at the same time, there was Karula's long black hair, and the crystal light in the eyes of the two people.

.......

There was silence for a long time, only the sound of the wind remained

, "But, actually, that's it

, Mikasa," Karula suddenly stared at Mikasa, not wiping her tears, but gently wiping the tears from the corners of Mikasa's eyes

, "Then treat him as Kiyotaka, I will do it." "

She'll come out with this opportunity.

Thinking so, Karula looked at Mikasa distressedly, and spoke softly, "But, Mikasa, what about you? Can you also take this opportunity to hug him again?" Looking

at Mikasa, who was about to speak, Karula said distressedly

, "Whether you can or not in your heart, but, Mikasa, just like me, just like just now..."

Mikasa looked at Kalura puzzled and shook her head slightly

, "Fake, it's fake!" "

Because..."

Kalura gently took Mikasa into her arms and patted Mikasa's back like a child

, "Because I want you to get a good night's sleep too, Mikasa!"

How long has it been since you lost Ayakoji to get a good night's sleep?

If a false sustenance can make you stop crying in my arms like now, but you don't even dare to cry out of the voice.

So fake, just fake.

She can and can take all this as true.

Mikasa clutched Karula's clothes tightly and murmured in her arms, tears running down her cheeks, slowly wetting her mother's dress, the girl's words were resolute and stubborn,

"I don't want to... "

Qinglong will always be Qinglong, not someone else

! Her family, no one can replace it!

... "Sure enough,"

Ayakoji withdrew his perception of the outside world, silently sat back on the stool, and wrote hard, and couldn't help but muttered helplessly

, "I really can't understand it..." He

already understood anger, understood pampering and respect, knew what worry was, knew what regret tasted, and even vaguely understood what family affection was.

His tone can already be filled with emotion, and there is no such pure indifference in his actions.

Although he could discard that without hesitation when necessary, he felt that he should have already understood what feelings were.

He thinks that in the study of feelings, he has already started.

But, sure enough....

He still couldn't understand the pure emotion in the conversation between Karula and Mikasa just now.

Perhaps it was precisely because he didn't understand that he was able to control Mikasa's hand without hesitation and force it through Alan's throat.

But it is precisely for this reason that he ignores the purity of Mikasa's emotions, and almost makes the collapsed Mikasa fall into death.

If Hrista hadn't detected Mikasa's abnormality, the outcome would have been unimaginable.

Lying on the desk a little tiredly, Ayakoji's eyes slowly closed, only feeling that his spirit was more tired than ever.

That feeling is like solving a mathematical problem that takes a lifetime to solve, powerless.

"Did I misunderstand before, could it be that the kind of thing just now is the real family affection?" Without

an answer, Ayakoji lay on the table and fell into a deep sleep.

But at least at home, he Ayakoji can finally sleep peacefully.