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"Does this count as a secret love for me?"

After returning to the vast white system space, Lu Ze recovered his memory and thought about what he had gained in each semester. He felt that university was really beautiful. Although he was poor, he was worry-free.

But he still remembered that girl's face very clearly, and his heart was still moved. This was a feeling he had never had in the past twenty-four years.

He has had a girlfriend, or rather not a girlfriend. There are many couples here in Hengdian who are not couples, they just live together.

Both men and women were lonely and needed companionship, so Lu Ze and a 19-year-old girl Heng Piao got together and ate from the same pot.

Do you like it? Actually, not really, it’s just that the people here have suffered a lot, and they are afraid of getting sick if they hold it in, so they find someone to talk to.

And that girl Hengpiao, after sleeping on the same bed with Lu Ze for more than three months, said she was with a big boss. After packing her luggage, she said goodbye to Lu Ze and left overnight, and she was never seen again.

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He has never experienced the feeling of liking each other, and he doesn't know what it feels like for a man and a woman to like each other and be together. After all, for a person who will starve to death if he doesn't work, love is a bit far away.

A big 3 appeared in the space again, and then a polyp-like sound came over.

"Enter the second stage of simulation. The second stage lasts for one academic year. Please prepare the host, 3...2...1..."

The space darkened...

"Son, give me a call when you get to school!"

Li Youmei waved and shouted on the train platform. Unfortunately, Lu Ze in the train was busy putting his luggage and didn't hear Li Youmei's words at all.

He had a very happy year. He found out his final grades through Xuexin.com, ranked first in the department, and received a scholarship of 6,000 yuan.

He bought a pair of nice shoes for his sister for 1,000 yuan, and a pair of shoes cost 1,000 yuan! But he never felt bad at all, because his sister only stopped studying in the third grade of junior high school so that her brother could go to school.

He owed his sister something that he could never forget in his life. This could not be compensated by money, because he killed the education path of a girl who was eager to study.

The younger sister didn't accept this fact at first, crying and shouting: "Why can't I go to school while my brother can go to school?"

Recalling this scene now feels like a knife stabbing my heart. The slightest touch makes tears of pain flow down.

So he had to get ahead, find a suitable job for his sister, and watch her find a husband so that she could live a happy life. This was Lu Ze's vow.

The train started moving. He looked at his mother who was waving constantly outside the window, and wanted to wave to her, but the train windows couldn't be opened in winter, and no one else would let Lu Ze open them, so he couldn't let his mother see this wave.

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As the train moved, my thoughts gradually drifted into the distance. I took out the architecture books I bought from the bookstore, flipped them gently, stirred the turbid air in the train, and then inhaled it into my lungs.

.......

On the second day after returning to school, he got up at five o'clock and went to the cafeteria at 5:30 to put on his work clothes. There was egg custard this morning, so he had to stir a large basin of egg liquid, add salt and oil, add warm water, and pour it in

Put them into small bowls one by one, and then put them into the steamer.

Then he started frying fried dough sticks and steaming steamed buns, and he was as skilled as a real breakfast shop helper. His roommate once joked that if he didn't like the construction industry in the future, he could jump to the catering industry and Lu Ze would not starve to death.

The cafeteria was deserted at six o'clock in the morning, and the sun had just risen.

The glass door of the cafeteria was opened by the cleaning staff, so even if there was a strong wind, it could still blow in. Lu Ze's fingers were so cold that he felt warm only when he was holding bowls of egg custard.

After rubbing the palms of his hands and exhaling a deep breath, the first student to get up to eat arrived, and then the number of students gradually increased.

"I want a bowl of egg custard, two mushroom buns and a cup of soy milk."

A soft voice came over. Lu Ze looked up and his thinking stopped for a moment, but he reacted immediately, quickly put it on the tray, and then pressed 7.5 yuan on the card machine.

Watching her and her classmates leave, Lu Ze felt hard to describe. He did have vanity, and it wasn't until this moment that he was sure that he had vanity.

He didn't want her to see him working in the cafeteria, which would make him feel embarrassed, but he was also a little disappointed because she didn't even remember the sneeze and the guy who was scared by her and ran away with his head in his arms.

But at this moment, he suddenly didn't want to work in the canteen honestly.

He felt that the monthly salary of 800 yuan was really not much. He wanted more. At least he wanted to get to know her on an equal footing. He could invite her to a movie or have dinner with her.

But what ability does he have to change all this?

Knowledge! But his current knowledge is completely insufficient, it is still far from enough!

He took the thousand-dollar scholarship he took with him when he left home and went to the bookstore to supplement his knowledge on various aspects of architecture so that he could improve faster.

He met a junior senior student through his roommate and learned about what he should learn in school in the future. It took him two months to fill his stomach with this knowledge and make it a part of himself.

I went to various major construction companies as free interns on Saturdays and Sundays, and then used the teaching materials of the software used by the construction companies to learn.

At the same time, I bought cheap paints and art teaching materials, looked for art teaching videos on the Internet, and started to teach myself sketching, structure and color.

Simple drawings, pen drawings, and marker drawings, until he picked up a pen and could draw an old European castle in twenty minutes.

Finally, before the end of the term, I resigned from my job as a designer assistant in a construction company with no salary at all, and began to go to the building materials market to learn more about the price, quality, and newly launched materials of each material.

It's just his rustic dress and youthful appearance that make the building materials bosses simply don't bother to talk to him.

He transformed himself again, growing a beard on his chin and a slicked back hair, and looked like a handsome guy in his twenties or eighties. Only in this way did the bosses have the slightest interest in talking to him.

He was very tired. He ran from morning to night without a day's rest. He was so tired that he almost vomited blood. But whenever he planned to take a day off, just one day! He would always tell himself silently in his heart: "It's close, it's close, it's close."

Closer!"

Until that day, when he returned to school exhausted and stinking of sweat, he used the only thirteen and a half yuan in his campus card to buy a bottle of mineral water.

In order to establish relations with the building materials bosses, he bought a pack of decent-quality cigarettes, so that he also learned to smoke.

There was also a pack of red plums that he usually smoked by himself. At this moment, he took out one and put it in his mouth. After taking a sip, he took a sip of mineral water. This was one of the few moments when he could rest.

Looking at the students playing football on the playground under the sunset and the classmates running at night with headphones on, the smiles on their faces made Lu Ze deeply envious.

Why...can they live so easily?

Until a couple came towards him, the girl smiled happily and hugged the boy's shoulders, Lu Ze froze...

Lu Ze looked directly at the girl, not hiding or covering up at all, and then he was discovered by the two of them. At first, the two of them saw a man about 27 or 27 years old looking at them, and they didn't feel embarrassed at all.

, after all, in college, is it illegal to fall in love?

But the boy felt more and more something was wrong. Why did this man keep looking at her? This naked look made the boy very unhappy. A hot-blooded young man had to teach a man with a beard a lesson.

"What are you looking at?"

Lu Ze didn't answer and still looked at the girl.

"What are you looking at? What are you looking at us doing?"

"See you breaking the law?"

In just a few months, Lu Ze has matured a lot. He entered society earlier than these classmates, even if he only entered half of it. He couldn't afford to fight because he was poor, but now he still doesn't fight.

Because he thinks those who fight are stupid.

But today, let’s have a fight...? Come on then.

When you are young, you should fight for a girl.

It doesn't just mean fighting, this kind of thing is not worth promoting.

Lu Ze's indifferent tone angered the boy even more, and he cursed: "You don't deserve a slap, don't you? Come here!"

The girl was startled by the boy, but she was afraid that the two would really fight, so she quickly dragged the boy away.

Only the yelling and cursing, which started from loud to small and finally dissipated in the air, was left.

Seeing the two people leaving, Lu Ze clenched his fists and then put them down feebly.

At this moment, his faith collapsed.

"...."