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"If I die, will you miss me?"

"dad!!"

He sat up from the kang, put on his shoes and walked around the room, but he still didn't see that familiar figure. In fact, Lu Ze knew that his father would never come back, never come back again...

.

The glass on the window was cracked, and the plastic sheeting nailed on the outside was already rotten. When the wind blew, it was lifted up, making a rattling sound.

The temperature in the room is very low, so I take a gentle breath, just a big breath.

I went back to the room and got back into bed. The quilt was already dirty. The original pink sheets were left by Lu Nan, but now the color could no longer be seen.

With the only remaining warmth in the quilt, he curled up into a ball, his head retracted into this quilt that was too dirty for ordinary people to even take a breath, and fell asleep again.

Lu Ze woke up after not sleeping for a long time. The clock at home was broken a long time ago and has never been repaired. He didn't need anything to tell him what time it was now, because he wanted time to stand still.

This time he was no longer sleepy. He rubbed his hair, which was oily enough to stir-fry dishes. He got up, put on the military coat left by his father, put on his dog-skin hat and went out. The door was not locked because the mouse had entered.

Even his family had to cry.

"The big devil is here, run!"

On the street, the children in the village are afraid of Lu Ze, because he is indeed not mentally normal. Most people in the village have seen him talking to himself. How can he look like a normal person?

Lu Ze's mother had taken him to the hospital for a check-up before. The doctor told her that he had paranoid schizophrenia caused by witnessing his father's death. It is a severe mental illness and also caused Lu Ze's auditory hallucinations.

With Vision, you can often see your father coming home covered in blood.

None of the people left in the village have a high level of education, and they don’t understand schizophrenia or paranoia. They are hard to pronounce, so everyone calls Lu Ze...

Fool.

Every month during the seventh market, a group of vendors would sell their goods at the bridge. Lu Ze wanted to buy a pair of socks, but his socks already had four holes exposed, two on the left and two on the right, which always made his toes feel a little pinched.

Yes, he lives on a pair of socks.

"Come to the market, Daze? Do you have any money in your pocket?"

"Yes, why not? I want to buy socks, Daqiang, let me go, don't touch me..."

The little ruffian in the village who didn't go out to work teased Lu Ze by saying, "This kind of people are cheap scoundrels. They spend their days stealing chickens and dogs, chasing crazy people and teasing fools, and they have done all kinds of damage."

But it was a good day. Going to the market gave them other things to do. They no longer teased Lu Ze. They just kicked Lu Ze's butt and left with a smile.

After buying two pairs of socks for a total of five yuan, Lu Ze put the socks in his pocket and put them away. Lu Ze suddenly saw Lu Nan walking towards him, which made him very nervous.

After looking around, he ran to a stall selling loose candy, threw down a dollar, grabbed a few pieces of candy, and left. The stall owner knew Lu Ze, and he saw Lu Ze grabbing a handful of the most expensive candy without stopping him.

Just pay some compensation.

"Xiaonan..."

Today was a high school holiday, just in time to catch up with the market. Lu Nan made an appointment with two classmates to hang out. When she saw Lu Ze, her eyes were a little tangled. Everyone knew that her brother was a lunatic, but she still couldn't face him.

She couldn't figure it out, and she had a meal at both ends of the three days, but she also hurt her brother who was in the bones suddenly crazy?

"Well, what's your shortcoming? I'll buy it for you."

Lu Nan knew that Lu Ze had no income, wandered around the village all day long, and went crazy from time to time. Now that he had some pocket money in his pocket, he should buy it for him if he lacked anything.

"I don't want anything... I'll give you candy. You can share it with your classmates."

"No, I won't eat it, you keep it for yourself..."

"Here! Take it! Brother is leaving..."

Lu Ze pretended not to care, with a smile on his face, grabbed Lu Nan's arm, put the candy in her palm, turned around and ran away.

Does he look like a madman? He is afraid that Lu Nan will be embarrassed in front of his classmates by looking like this. Can he be a madman like this?

Lu Nan felt uncomfortable. She hadn't seen her brother for a long time. After her father died, Li Youmei took her to remarry. Because the man couldn't accept anything he said and had to raise a madman, so Lu Ze took the initiative to live at home.

Not going either.

When she was a child, Lu Nan couldn't stand her sister who suddenly appeared and treated her badly, so she always ran back to Lu Ze's house to cry and complain. But as her sister remarried, she got used to the new family and only went there during the holidays.

Give Lu Ze something to stutter.

She began to run away from the fact that she had a crazy brother. She couldn't stand the glares others gave her, but suddenly she saw Lu Ze. He still remembered buying a few pieces of candy for her when he went to the market, and she still felt very uncomfortable.

"Do you eat candy?"

Passing it to two classmates, they shook their heads and refused. Lu Nan already knew this was the result, so he tore one open and ate it in. The taste didn't change, it was still as sweet as before.

...

When he got home, he picked up a bundle of firewood from the firewood pile and heated the kang. He could watch the fire burn until it went out. This has become a necessary part of life, and it happens every winter.

There are a few acres of land left in the family. When my mother remarried, she took over the land with Lu Nan's name. Lu Ze also had two acres of land left. He usually made a living by farming.

He ate the winter cabbage with vermicelli and took a simple bite. The sun had already gone to the west. He picked up the pickaxe and left home again. He planted sweet potatoes and should harvest them today, otherwise Daqiang and the others would steal them.

He didn't have any gloves, so he just started digging in the ground with his hands. Regardless of the size, whatever he could eat would be put into a basket to prevent others from destroying his land.

When he finished harvesting them all, it was already dark. After he finished harvesting the sweet potatoes, he separated out a bag, picked it up and walked towards Li Youmei's current home. He wanted to give some sweet potatoes to Li Youmei and Lu Nan.

"Take your hand away from me! Did you take the money to that devil again? I'm asking you a question! You prodigal bitch, take my money! What's the seed of raising that damn devil?

no!"

"Don't hit my mom, I beg you. Uncle, please don't hit my mom, I beg you!"

From a long distance away, Lu Ze heard the sound of beatings and scolding coming from the house, as well as Lu Nan's crying. This made Lu Ze panic and rushed into the house.

Li Youmei fell to the ground, and Lu Nan did the same. Li Youmei's eyes were empty, while Lu Nan's face was full of tears.

"Don't touch my mother! Get out! Otherwise I will kill you! I am mentally ill and it is not illegal for me to kill someone!"

Lu Ze became angry. There was a small shovel in the room. Lu Ze picked it up and shouted at the man in front of him.

This man obviously drank too much, and without any fear, he pointed at his face, grabbed the shovel, and spoke in a much higher tone.

"Come! Come here and fight! Come on! I'm afraid of you? You little bastard! Come and try to hit me! You spent my money and you are so awesome? Fight!"

"I didn't spend your money! I spent not a penny!"

Since Lu Ze got sick, he has become much less courageous. The man could see at a glance that Lu Ze was a middle-aged man and a foreign man, so he gave Lu Ze a slap in the face.

"Don't hit him! Don't you know who took your money? You know your daughter likes to gamble. If you don't want to take money from you, just drink some wine and let me vent my anger. Why did you hit him?

?Did he ever spend a penny on you?"

Li Youmei told the truth, which made the man furious. He kicked Li Youmei down who was protecting Lu Ze, and then gave Lu Ze a big slap in the face.

The blow was so severe that Lu Ze fell to the ground with blood dripping from his nose. The man was also startled. He thought Lu Ze could escape, but he didn't expect that Lu Ze would be so strong.

He also understood that a dog would jump over the wall when he was anxious, let alone a mentally ill person? If he really wanted to kill him, Lu Ze was indeed not breaking the law.

Lu Ze wiped his nosebleed and was about to stand up and kill the man, otherwise Li Youmei would be beaten by him, but suddenly a bloody hand grabbed his palm.

Lu Weiguo was lying on the ground, covered in blood, his left eye had become a hole, and his right eye was staring at Lu Ze.

"If I die, will you miss me..."

Lu Ze was so frightened that he pushed his legs on the ground to get away from Lu Weiguo, but he just held Lu Ze's hand tightly and stared at Lu Ze without even blinking.

"ah!!!!"

Lu Ze got up, ran out of the house like crazy, and disappeared into the night with blood-curdling screams.