Global Movie Emperor

As a node of the Silk Road, Dunhuang, a desert fortress that people remember in the past, has become green again due to the government's efforts to improve it. The vegetation coverage rate has reached 70%. If you don't know the destination of your trip, It’s hard to imagine that the sky was once full of yellow sand, resisting the easy prying eyes of travelers.

However, there are still several ancient ruins in the desert that have not been rectified, preserving ancient historical features, such as Mingsha Mountain in Dunhuang where Chen Dongsheng lived at this time.

This is a deserted village in the desert, quite far away from the scenic spots. Most of the residents in the village have moved out. Only a few old people who are reluctant to leave their homeland are willing to accompany the village to its demise as it is gradually eaten away by the fine sand.

At seven o'clock in the morning, the wind started blowing in the desert, and the fine sand gently slapped the rotten door panels. It woke up Chen Dongsheng, who was still in a deep sleep. He tried to drag his tired body to sit up, but after struggling a few times, he felt the rapid loss of physical strength. , he finally gave up the idea of ​​getting up, and just lay on the bed, breathing heavily.

Among the four students, his living environment is the most difficult. If it were just a simple poverty, it would be okay. What makes him most painful is the long-term low fever and diarrhea caused by the acclimatization, which started on the second day after arriving here. , to this day, it has not recovered yet. After all, it has been almost a month.

No matter what kind of medicine he takes or what kind of infusion he takes, as long as he takes a sip of water here, he will have diarrhea. Even if he has been given infusion, his condition will rarely improve after he has been given the infusion.

At this time, his face was sallow, his lips were chapped, his eyes had lost all energy, and he was staring blankly at the ceiling. His hair had long been dreadlocked, and there was no chance that he could still catch a few lice in it.

His stomach began to growl again. He held on, gently rolled out of bed, pulled some rough straw paper, carefully picked out the straw stems in the paper, and staggered to the dry toilet. After a long time, he came out of the toilet with his hands He spread his legs widely and walked back to the room with eight-figure steps. Anyone could see from this picture that his anus was suffering.

Not long after, the middle-aged female PD who followed Chen Dongsheng to Dunhuang pushed open the door and walked in. The smell in the room was not very good, and the dust was obvious in the sun. She frowned slightly and walked towards the motionless man who looked like he was dead. Chen Dongsheng put his warm palm on his forehead and felt it carefully.

"You don't have much fever today. Do you still have a bad stomach?"

"Kind of."

"Take some medicine. The mineral water I brought. Have you eaten in the morning?"

"There is no food at home."

Helping Chen Dongsheng up and letting him lean against the wall at the head of the bed, she went to the window and read the instructions for the medicine with the help of sunlight. She turned her back to Chen Dongsheng and asked about trivial matters in life, squeezed out three pills and put them on his palm, PD He walked to the food tank, opened it and took a look. Sure enough, the food had reached the bottom. This was due to Chen Dongsheng's saving and the fact that he had a fever and couldn't eat. Otherwise, all the food prepared by the film crew should have been eaten a week ago.

"I'll take you to the county to buy some food, and eat some nutritious food to replenish your body. I told Teacher Lu yesterday and he approved the note for me."

She couldn't bear to see Chen Dongsheng, who was lifeless and sipping mineral water little by little. Chen Dongsheng was already a little thin, and now he was tortured to the point of being skinny. She didn't think about asking Chen Dongsheng to give up filming, so as not to If there was really something wrong with her body, the program team would share the blame with her. She really didn't want this young man with great acting talent to have his body ruined on this show.

Originally, she had communicated with Lu Ze that if he still had a fever in the next few days and the local hospital couldn't solve it, she would let him come back. Otherwise, it would be troublesome if the root cause of the disease was left behind. Lu Ze didn't want this to happen.

But this kid is still a bit stubborn, and he has to hold on here for life and death. No matter who tries to persuade him, it's useless. He repeatedly emphasizes that he can overcome all problems and complete the homework assigned to him by Lu Ze. This incomprehensible appearance really makes the program The crew had a headache, but it also made the middle-aged crew admire the young man's perseverance.

Hearing that the PD wanted to take him to the county, Chen Dongsheng was actually a little hesitant and didn't really want to go. He could clearly feel how heavy his body was, and it was very difficult for him to force his body to move now. , but this is something that he must do by himself when experiencing life here. In the end, he gritted his teeth and stood up holding on to the head of the bed. His head was a little dizzy and he did not dare to shake his head to clear his mind. He could only close his eyes and wait. The dizzy spell passed.

While Chen Dongsheng was getting out of bed and putting on his coat, PD was also helping him gather the items on the table. The square script was spread all over the manuscript paper. Her eyes swept over it, and there were no typos on the notebook. This was already the first time he had written here. Four short biographies have been published. Thinking of him dragging his sick body and writing furiously under the camera, I can't help but sigh again for his perseverance and hard work.

Not long after, the two went out, and the PD drove to the county. The bumpy road made Chen Dongsheng's face become paler and whiter. At the same time, he began to sweat and swallow his saliva. The PD who was concentrating on driving did not notice anything unusual about him at first, and just thought that something was wrong with him. He closed his eyes to rest and turned off the radio to let him rest more quietly. But gradually, the PD found that his breathing was getting heavier and heavier, which made her worried.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable? Do you want to vomit?"

Chen Dongsheng didn't dare to open his eyes and clenched his hands tightly. He squeezed out words from the roots of his teeth and answered: "It's okay."

"Don't be okay, tell me if you want to vomit."

"A bit...a little bit."

The moment he parked the car, Chen Dongsheng opened the door and jumped out, holding on to the trees on the roadside as he kept vomiting. The PD handed him a bottle of water and waited patiently until he rummaged through his empty stomach again. After completely eating nothing, this kind of The nauseating feeling slowly faded away, leaving Chen Dongsheng, who was even more weak and breathless, being helped back to the car by the PD.

The vehicle continued to drive and finally arrived at the county town, but the drive was intermittent and there would be some problems from time to time. The PD knew that it could not be delayed any longer, so while taking Chen Dongsheng to have breakfast, he quietly called Lu Ze and informed him Lu Ze also had no objection to Chen Dongsheng's current situation, but he failed to persuade Chen Dongsheng to give up last time. This time the PD had to notify his parents again, hoping that he would listen to their words.

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"Dongsheng, answer the phone, it's your mother."

He was drinking soup. When he heard PD's words, the hand holding the spoon trembled. He turned his head and stared into PD's eyes for a few seconds. He slowly placed the spoon next to the bowl. He didn't respond. He just took the phone and put it to his ear. .

"Hello."

"Son, what's wrong with you?"

"Nowhere is uncomfortable."

"I heard from the teacher on the program team that you have been sick for a long time. If you really can't do it, just come back. Your health is important. Listen to your mother. It just so happens that I still miss you."

"I'm fine."

"Be obedient and go home quickly. The teacher of the program team told me that if you go back now, you will not be eliminated. You can still go to the audition after you recover. You listen to me and go back now to pack your things and go back... "

"beep……"

Before his mother could say anything else, he hung up the phone and returned the phone to PD, but PD didn't answer it. Seeing that she wouldn't take it, Chen Dongsheng put the phone on the table and drank the clear soup without raising his head. Tang moved much faster.

"What did your mother say? After you finish drinking, come back with me to pack your things."

"I'm fine. I'll just get used to it in two days. The five-week experience period is coming soon. I don't want to leave now."

"You also said that the day is coming soon, just a few days in advance."

"Need not."

The phone call came again, playing soft piano music. Neither of them reached for the phone immediately. They looked at each other and looked at the familiar phone number. Chen Dongsheng finally made a move and hung up without answering. Got the phone.

Within thirty seconds, the call came again, and he hung up. Then it rang again, and he hung up again. Within the next few minutes, Chen Dongsheng hung up several calls. Even though the PD was on the side to dissuade him, he hung up the phone more and more. Determined.

The call came again, and he wanted to hang up again, but the PD stopped him and snatched the phone away. He didn't say anything after the call was answered. He just held it in his hand and held it up in front of Chen Dongsheng, but what she heard was not what she heard. The expected mother's consolation was instead an angry scolding that could be clearly heard even without turning on the speakerphone.

"I want you to come back! Come back now! Don't participate in the show anymore! Chen Dongsheng, do you hear me talking to you? I'm talking to you! If you don't do this again, don't go to college! Those who go to college are all bastards Book! Who taught you to hang up on me? Go home! Do you hear me? Go home!!"

The last sentence she shouted home was hoarse, as if anger was burning from her heart to her throat. The uncontrollable anger obviously made Chen's mother lose control. She also cursed all the curse words she used to say when losing her temper without any scruples. Her children were being filmed.

"You were the one who asked me to sign the contract, and now you are the one who asked me to go home. Why?"

"I am your mother! Isn't that enough? Go home!!"

Chen Dongsheng didn't say anything, but just glanced around. There were many people in the restaurant curiously watching him being filmed. Now they got into a quarrel, and more people couldn't help but slow down and look around curiously. The next second, the PD stood up and walked out. Outside the door, behind Chen Dongsheng's back, he started talking to Chen's mother.

After a long time, the PD returned to her seat, but her expression was not very good. She glanced at Chen Dongsheng's bowl and saw that the soup had bottomed out. She suppressed her emotions and smiled at Chen Dongsheng: "Are you full? Come again. bowl?"

"She also got mad at you, right?"

Chen Dongsheng kept his head down and did not answer the PD's words. Instead, he asked his question. In fact, he already knew the answer in his heart.

"It's okay, let me give you something else."

"She has always been like this. She never controls her emotions. Once she gets angry, she scolds everyone she sees, including outsiders."

"Your mother is just impatient, but it's also for your own good. Your physical condition is really bad. Just listen to your mother this time. Go back and pack your things later, and I'll take you home."

"She always does things that make me very embarrassed. Is this for my own good? It doesn't matter if she scolds me, I'm used to it, but she always scolds even my friends, and then everyone stays away from me. Yes, will I be fine?"

He seems to have hidden a lot of worries. His mother was responsible for many of the things that made him embarrassed and even troubled when he was young. However, many elders, including the PD at this time, said that his mother was very spoiled by him, which made him very sad. Confused, and to this day he still can't figure out how his mother spoiled him.

He has a strong, irritable and reckless mother, which causes his cowardice and resistance to coexist, with the two constantly intertwined. In the end, cowardice will win out with the help of filial piety, defeating his instinctive spirit of resistance.

Every time he experiences this kind of involuntary pain, his spirit and self-esteem will be tortured. Just like his father who always emphasizes that men should have backbone but is always silent and scolded, he will be shadowed by this woman who is always full of foul words for the rest of his life. shadow.

In the end, he chose to accept it and began to flee mentally again. He even wanted to escape from the PD because when his mother was angry, she also lost her temper at the aunt who had always taken good care of him. This kind of This is not the first time he has felt the feeling of being shameless in front of others, but no matter how many times he has experienced it, he will always feel the shame of being shameless, and it is getting stronger and stronger.

He didn't take another bite of rice, but got on the car on the way back with a depressed expression. There was no words spoken along the way. Maybe it was the bowl of tonic soup that worked, or maybe the medicine he just took was particularly effective, so he went back. He didn't vomit on the way until he returned to the room alone and gathered all his few luggage.

Four biographies were held in his hand, the pages flowed, and the neat and beautiful text was displayed. He stared at the manuscript paper in silence for a while, and finally, he put all his efforts during this period into a woven bag.

When he went out again, the heroic spirit of the young man who had awakened under Lu Ze in the imperial capital was like a bacterium, being killed by the sun.

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"Flight XX123 to Tianfu is about to start boarding. Passengers taking flight XX123 are asked to board at gate six."

This time he was leaving in a hurry, and the program team had to deal with the scene, so they only sent one cameraman to go back with him. Chen Dongsheng was not in good health. The cameraman helped him carry his bag. The confiscated mobile phone was back in his hands. Chen Dongsheng With your headphones on, take a window seat and look out to see the busy ground crew.

It was fifteen minutes before takeoff and a few songs. Compared with other passengers who were in a hurry, Chen Dongsheng wished that time would go slower, or even stop here forever.

But suddenly, the music stopped, the screen lit up, and after looking at the caller, he answered the call.

"Teacher Lu."

"Have you boarded the plane?"

"Um."

"It's not late, it's good. How are you?"

"I?"

"Yes, I heard PD Gao talk about what happened this morning. I called. I just hope you won't be depressed. You just missed a few days of life. It's not a big deal. People's time is limited. You can't pick up one. The script is to find a place suitable for inspiration and live for a year and a half. The most important thing is what you can experience in a limited time. The so-called experience of life requires quality, not time, and your own personality. You are more sensitive. I believe your feelings will be stronger than those of the other three students. I heard from PD Gao that you have written four short biographies. You will send them to me by express mail when you get home. As for you, take a good rest when you get home and recuperate. You’re in good spirits, why try the mirror if your body is broken?”

"I understand, teacher."

"In addition, I want to talk to you about your mother. I don't want to defend her. Your mother just did something wrong today. But you also need to know that human thinking has limitations, and all extreme personalities have their limitations. It is caused by the stress reaction after being injured. If you understand your mother's life, you will actually find that the violent mother in your eyes is actually a victim of life. Although her stress reaction will also cause Give you trauma, but you have to believe that she definitely didn't mean it. Just like the person who caused her trauma has a hard time realizing how much harm he has caused to others, and her desire to control must come from you. Absolute love. I am not defending your mother with these words. I just hope you can understand. When you understand the reasons for a person's emotional changes, you can prevent his or her emotional changes in advance. As your mother gets older, she may have changed. No more, but you can help her, you are her son, she needs you to save her, her inner wounds can only be healed by you, no one else can, and why is she so impatient? It's nothing more than life. She has been wronged too much and hurt her self-esteem. Just like when she hurts you, you will also have the kind of anger that you can't resist and want to find other people to vent. I hope you can understand what I say. You must stand out. You and your mother are both holding your breath, come on, I'll wait for you in the Imperial Capital."

Lu Ze hung up the phone, leaving behind Chen Dongsheng who had not yet regained consciousness. His mind gradually returned to himself and his eyesight recovered again. The ground crew left at some point and had disappeared. The flight attendant reminded him to turn on flight mode.

Maybe big data eavesdropped on his conversation with Lu Ze, or maybe it was just a coincidence that before turning on airplane mode, the song in the headphones came to an end, and the next song loaded was a song about his mother.

The plane began to accelerate and flew into the sky. He watched the desert that he could overlook from the village change from what he thought was endless to the size of a fingernail. For some reason, a tear suddenly fell down.

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"Whether you see me or not, I am right there, neither sad nor happy."

"You love me or you don't love me, the love is there, neither increasing nor decreasing."

"Come into my arms, or let me live in your heart."

"Silently, in love."

"Silence, joy."

After hanging up the phone, Lu Ze walked out of the corridor and looked towards the playground. Wu Chun stood on the stage and softly read the poem "Banzaguru Pema's Silence" that appeared in "If You Are the One 2".

When Li Xiangshan was about to pass away, the appearance of this poem was paired with the slightly melancholic light music. The unsubtle sadness made the children in the audience gradually shed tears. It was another movie, another school, Wu Chun and several other TV hosts stood on the stage. After accepting the children's heartfelt applause, they slowly stepped off the stage, held the children's hands, and led them back to the classroom.

"Hiss...hoo."

Before the show was about to end, Lu Ze didn't let the cameraman follow him. He walked to the car he drove over, leaned his back against the car door, stepped on the pedal with his left heel, lit a tobacco, took a deep breath, looked up at the blue sky, and slowly exhaled the smoke. , the sound of footsteps sounded in my ears.

"Teacher, although you are very handsome, you are acting cool."

"Stop talking nonsense and get in the car. Your performance today was pretty good."

"Really? Thank you teacher!"

Wu Chun grinned slightly, and jumped into the passenger seat with a small schoolbag on his back. Lu Ze put out the cigarette, started the vehicle, and drove towards the hotel where Wu Chun was.

The little girl was praised today, and she was obviously very happy. She was sitting in the passenger seat, with her head against the window and her head down playing with her mobile phone. She laughed from time to time, and didn't know what she was looking at. Lu Ze glanced at her and asked.

"Have you got a boyfriend?"

"Please, teacher, you asked me about it last time, and I said yes~~ I have decided on a script for the next time with Brother Chen. They said they would let me read a character with more lines next time."

"You're not nervous anymore? You dare to take on big jobs."

"I'm nervous, so I have to seize all the time to rehearse. So I think it's better to put aside the matter of finding a boyfriend first. There's no rush. There's no rush."

"Didn't you say you wanted to find a boyfriend before? Why are you not in a hurry now?"

"Because I have thought carefully about what you said to me last time in the past few days, and I also feel that now I can help more people. I feel... I can make these children happy and moved by me. It is indeed more fulfilling than finding a boyfriend to take care of me. I want to do more meaningful things like this when I have the opportunity. As for my boyfriend, I’d better step aside for now.”

Her vocabulary summary was a bit general, but it was understandable. Seeing her saying this with a serious face, Lu Ze looked at her with admiration. The corners of his mouth curled up. Under his sunglasses, his eyes looked pleased as he drove by. After the ramp, the speed increases.

"..."