Gundam: The wind blowing through the universe

The first round of material collection operations had to end hastily. No one could pretend that nothing happened and continue working under such huge pressure. After returning to the Archangel, Mu had to play the role of a psychomasseur again. It takes hard talking to get everyone to agree to continue working the next day.

As the last work boat to return to the ship, Siegfried stopped and was about to open the hatch. The three of them did not communicate with each other on the way back. Although it was caused by him, this was not a pleasant thing after all.

"I'm sorry." Just before the hatch opened, Bucky Lulu seized the last gap and finally said the three words Siegfried wanted to hear.

"You don't need to apologize to me now, Lieutenant. Maybe my views are a bit extreme. There is nothing wrong with the soldiers who carry out the orders. It's just that outside of the orders, first of all, you should be a living person, with feelings like us. The right talent.”

"I just"

"Anyone who only puts orders first, such a qualified and excellent soldier is just an emotionless killing machine. I will go back first."

Just when Bucky Lulu wanted to refute something, Siegfried turned his back to the two of them, stretched out the corners of his mouth as usual, did not look back, and simply said, "I forgive you, Second Lieutenant."

When passing by the restaurant, many civilians, including Kira, Sai, Miri, and most of the joint soldiers affiliated with the Archangel, were folding colorful paper flowers. Under Cagalli's puzzled eyes, Sieg Fei just took one look and left.

After returning to the room, Cagalli's eyes were a little evasive, and Siegfried lay back on the bed in silence, just like they did when they first boarded the Archangel.

"Hello, hello, embarrassing, embarrassing."

Harrow on the ground didn't know which line was faulty. He yelled a few words inexplicably and left the room almost jumping up and down. The two of them were still silent. In the end, Cagalli's character couldn't stand this kind of thing. The atmosphere once again chose to take the initiative.

"Why don't you go."

"Origami flowers? What's there to participate in! If those civilians can still be understood as human empathy, isn't it too hypocritical for those coalition soldiers to participate? They were the ones who dropped the nuclear bomb, and they are the ones who are pretending to mourn now. This kind of behavior is meaningless.”

"But those are not the same people."

"They are all United Soldiers."

"Siegfried!!!"

Cagalli, who was still a little depressed at first, was completely aroused. She knelt on one knee beside Siegfried's bed and grabbed the young man in front of her who always seemed a little strange for some reason.

"Why can't you look forward? Why do you stubbornly believe that the past was a tragedy and it will be a tragedy in the future? You are an adjuster and an MS pilot. Why don't you dare to fight for the future you want!!!"

Every word the girl said was like a heavy hammer that kept hitting Siegfried's heart. During this journey, as the relationship with Cagalli gets closer, Siegfried feels more and more despicable. Is Cagalli's sincerity wrong? Is there anything wrong with the naivety of the little hotel girl? Is it wrong for Archangel and his crew to want to live?

Maybe there is nothing wrong. From the beginning to the end, Siegfried kept telling himself, 'I have to wait for Hilde to come back to him. As long as Hilde comes back, everything will be fine. ’ He doesn’t want to accept these feelings that are unreal to him. No matter how good the relationship is, he will always leave.

"I can't change anything. I'm not like you. I don't want a damn future."

‘Can I really not save that escape boat? ’ After Artemis, many nights, Siegfried would be awakened by that familiar scene. Under the muzzle of the duel, the girl’s innocent smile finally disappeared into the atmosphere with a burst of fire. So why did he

"I'm scared. I'm scared of fighting."

Yes, in fact, from the moment he first got on GINN and almost died at the hands of Law, Siegfried had a shadow of the battle. The boy had always hidden it very well, and even deceived himself that he was used to it all. Even if he had the upper hand in the battle with G with more than three years of training and Harrow's help, there would still be countless battles in the future.

For example, in the battle to destroy the Eighth Fleet that is just around the corner, if he insists on saving the escape boat and fights so close to the gravity circle, once the GINN is dragged down by gravity, it will be just a GINN, not a Strike Gundam. Siegfried didn't even have to think about whether he had a chance to survive. Death was the inevitable outcome.

If Kira became more and more confused as the battle progressed, and finally understood what she could do and what she wanted to do under the guidance of Lux, then Hilde's promise seemed to have left a mark on Siegfried's mind. A gap. Whenever he tried to accumulate some courage and hope, he would lose them all in this gap. The word "go home" not only supports Siegfried to persevere, but also isolates him from the world.

Tears rolled down the bed drop by drop. This time, no matter how hard the boy tried, he could not lift the corners of his mouth with his fingers. Timid? He just wanted to go home, and he wanted to go home alive. Three years of training could not make him adapt to fighting in the first place. Rather than hating Bucky Lulu, it was actually more like an escape, but this kind of escape was shameful. But the thought of "what if it works", with Bucky Lulu's apology and Cagalli's questioning, can no longer be a reason to support Siegfried's fight.

"Don't look at me. Give me some respect."

The unspoken words were swallowed back by Siegfried along with the impact on his chest. Cagalli's style was always so straightforward and unthinking. She pressed Siegfried on her shoulder with one hand and put the other on her shoulder. A hand gently touched the boy's head.

"I'm so stupid. I'm afraid you'll tell me why I'm holding back all this time. I'm such a fool."

Along with Cagalli's strange 'comfort', Siegfried once again felt that he had touched the 'reality' of this world. As his mood gradually calmed down, the young man came up with an idea that he had never thought of for no reason, 'What if? , I'm not going back.'

The next day, with the "Flowers of Mourning" scattered all over the gravel belt, everyone on the Archangel calmed down and started the task of collecting supplies again. Siegfried continued to carry the card as if nothing had happened. Carrie and Bucky Lulu also began work as an independent search team.

"There's something different about you." Cutting a large piece of solid water was too easy for Siegfried, who could pilot a mobile suit. But during the process of constantly cooperating with the operation, Bucky Lulu suddenly appeared out of nowhere. A sentence that made the two of them a little confused.

"Is it different? Oh, by the way, I didn't take a shower last night. After all, we were still under material control."

"Hey, we're wearing spacesuits, we won't smell if you don't wash them for a month!!"

Watching the tacit quarrel between the boys and girls in front of her, Baji Lulu recalled a little of herself when she was young. At that time, she was proud to wear this military uniform. At that time, she firmly believed that the United Earth was the righteous party. Until Faced with the crime committed by the alliance yesterday, if it weren't for Siegfried's persecution, she might never have been able to think about whether what she firmly believed in was definitely just.

The progress of the work is constantly accelerating with the efforts of everyone. Not only daily supplies, but also military ammunition can be collected. In fact, it was everyone's hard work, but more realistically, everyone wanted to leave this hellish gravel belt as soon as possible.

Just when Siegfried returned to Gnaku with Bucky Lulu, whose relationship had greatly eased, and Cagalli, whose relationship had become increasingly unclear, he found that everyone had put down their work and was gathering around They were talking quietly about something in an escape cabin.

As the only person at the scene who knew what was inside, it wouldn't matter if he said he wasn't interested in taking a look. So when Bucky Lulu sighed, "You are really good at picking things up, Kira." Siegfried threw Harrow out and let it fly back to his hand, while taking the equally curious Cagalli with him. I plan to witness the woman who will stand at the 'top of the food chain' in this future world.

"Hello, hello, Lux."

Accompanied by a familiar electronic sound, a pink ball flew out of the escape capsule first. Seeing this scene, even the most casual Siegfried couldn't help but straighten up. After all, eating melons still requires a correct attitude.

"Thank you everyone for your hard work."

A voice that can be called 'the sound of nature' fell into everyone's hearts. A pink figure emerged from the escape cabin like an unfolding picture scroll, slowly passing through everyone's eyes. Seeing this scene, Siegfried could only think of why. It's also about floating. The one here can float so gracefully, while the one next to him can knock himself half to death every time.

But what he never expected was that before he could see the famous scene of Lux and Kira's first intimate contact, the first person in the audience to react was the Harrow in his hand.

"Hello, hello, trash, trash."

"Hello, hello, beaten, beaten."

The black Harrow pushed away the pink Harrow like a cannonball, and immediately showed no intention of letting go of the opponent. He chased behind him and never gave up until he knocked the opponent apart.

Siegfried covered his face in pain. At this time, he only had a sense of social death as if his own dog suddenly went to humiliate someone else's dog in the middle of a walk.

When everyone in Gnaku's attention was attracted by the war between the two spheres, only Kira noticed that the pink girl in front of her seemed to have a poor sense of balance, and couldn't help but reach out and give her a hand.

"Ala, ala, ala, isn't this ZAFT's ship?"

Having just struggled to grab hold of his 'wild dog', in front of so many people, Siegfried restrained the urge to take off and threw Harrow to Cagalli, signaling her not to do it again. After letting go, I turned around to find Lux ​​Klein holding her chin with one hand, uttering a series of onomatopoeia of unknown meaning, and that too cute question.