Hidden Assassin

"Tao Tao looks so cute..."

In the breakfast shop in the early morning, Lingjing and Yahan sat down. They used to be good friends like sisters, but at this time their mood was really complicated. Yahan knew that she should chase her out, but she had been thinking about what to say after she chased her out for four years, but she had no idea at all. In the end, it was Lingjing who spoke first.

"I also thought that you came back recently." Yahan forced a smile. She ran fast just now, and the stockings on her feet were torn. ... Jia Ming he..."

She said it several times in a row, but couldn't continue, Lingjing nodded: "Is it Jiaming's child?"

Yahan was silent for a moment: "The year you and Shasha left... I wanted him to leave me a child. At that time... I didn't know what to do, I couldn't do anything..."

After her twenty-ninth birthday, she already had a child, and Yahan, who has maintained the attitude of a strong woman in the company for the past few years, recalled those events again, but her eyes still couldn't help but shed tears. The peace of mind for several years is because of Taotao, which does not mean that the sadness in my heart can be forgotten. During the talking time, the waiter had already brought it up earlier, Ling Jing tried hard to make her voice normal: "What's wrong with him..."

"I should have read his medical record..."

"I don't believe it..." Lingjing pursed her lips, "It's like a soap opera, how...how could there be a brain tumor..." "But it's really a brain tumor..." Yahan said softly, "I I took him to the hospital several times, and the diagnosis was the same every time. He didn't want to be hospitalized. In the last few months, he was in pain, so painful that he couldn't stand it. I saw... I saw I wish I could die..."

Lingjing sat there, opened her mouth a few times, but couldn't make a sound: "Sister Yahan, are you... are you looking at him..."

"No...he left in February." Yahan stretched out his hand to support his forehead, "The Chinese New Year just ended. It was the beginning of spring on February 4th, and it was still snowing the next night. I don't know when he left. But there were probably signs a few days ago, he didn't want me to see...he's in too much pain..."

"I don't feel it when the knife is cut on my hand. It's just pain. He has been trying to bear it so that no one can see it... No hospital, no painkillers, you know his character... I even asked a friend to buy it Heroin, but he doesn't want it...I always feel sorry for you and Sasha..."

"I asked him to at least write a letter to you, telling you about these things, but he couldn't write... Sometimes when I got up at night, I saw him sitting by the window writing. After writing a few words, I threw them away. Later I I secretly picked it up and looked at it. At the beginning, I said sorry to you, but I couldn’t write a few words to explain to you later. He probably felt that... he had no position to apologize, and he probably felt that no matter how much he apologized, he couldn’t make up for your reasons... "

"But I hope you can forgive him..."

"How can you forgive him..." Ling Jing lowered her head and struggled, "I don't even know where he is, come to me and speak clearly..."

People come and go outside the gate. There are not many people in this store. But Lingjing and Yahan's temperament and appearance are too outstanding, if you look carefully, you can still see many glances towards this side intentionally or unintentionally. Yahan held Lingjing's palm, and before she could speak, a man in a suit who seemed to be an employee of a large company approached her: "Do you two need help...I have no malicious intentions..."

There were still tears in Yahan's eyes, so she raised her eyes to look at the man, and said lightly: "Thank you." After a few seconds of silence, the man was defeated by Yahan's gaze. He waved his hand: "Sorry..." He quickly backed away.

"Sister Yahan..."

"Actually, I have always been sorry for you and Shasha. He likes you the most, and he loves you the most..."

"But he gave birth to Taotao with you."

"I begged him. He agreed..." Yahan was silent for a moment, "His view of the world is very different from ordinary people. He regards me as a friend. I like him, so he agreed. He values ​​people who treat him well. He is reluctant to hurt...but he cares most about you..."

"I know, too. I don't even know why he behaves like this, but I do know. After four years in Vienna, I gradually figured it out... But so what, I'm just an ordinary woman..." Lingjing began to cry, "I just want to be with him, and I just want to be with him at all times, even if I'm terminally ill, I at least want to watch him, and I want to give birth to him, instead of being ostracized by everything. In the dark, I was thrown to Vienna and hated him for four years. When I came back, I wanted him to make up for me, but I could only look at his grave and cry...I don't want to cry...but I'm not that strong..."

"He's afraid you'll see him helpless..."

"Yeah, he's a coward..." Lingjing wiped away her tears, her voice was soft and inaudible, "Sister Yahan, can you tell me... the last time you were with him... tell me? "

"Yeah." Yahan nodded, with a slight smile on his face, "It's actually not much, he came to see me on the night of November 4th, and it's been just three months since February 5th, 2001... …In just three months, in the villa, he went out seven times, and I dragged him to the hospital three times. Just like before, he watched movies and comics every day, and occasionally used the computer to surf the Internet. Your news. When he sent you away, he arranged for someone to take care of you, and then he was able to find some information. Some things you did in Vienna at the beginning were photographed..."

Lingjing clenched her fists tightly, and Yahan patted her hand: "Do you still remember the day you celebrated the New Year in Vienna in the first year? You didn't go home, some boys came to ask you out and you didn't go, he asked someone to see you off I gave you a bouquet of roses, but you confiscated them and left them at the door... He couldn't help it. When he called to order flowers, his head was already hurting. It started to hurt, and he cut his finger with a knife, but he didn't even notice..."

She opened her mouth, and it took a long while before she let out a breath: "That person... has always looked very weak since he was a child, but he never let others see it when he was in real pain. He suddenly frowned when he was reading, or when he was physically weak. It was a sudden tremor to find out a little bit. It was often painful in November, and it became more frequent in December. I dare not say, so I had to drag him to the hospital desperately, but the results of the hospital examination were the same. He looked at those Shi Shi was very angry, and although he was still smiling, I could tell...he refused to be hospitalized, and I couldn't force him...I don't know how to force him, the doctor said there was no hope...'.

"Sometimes he wakes up with pain at night and can't sleep, so he just looks at the previous photos... I found out several times, but he pretended to be asleep, and I don't know if he noticed...I was probably pregnant with Taotao in early January, check Deqin, I knew about it in mid-January, and he was still holding on at that time. It snowed during the Chinese New Year, and I didn’t go home to celebrate the New Year. Heh, I had a fight with my dad about this matter. It's amazing, who knows that he left within a few days... He really couldn't hold it anymore, he didn't want others to see..."

"I didn't go to him, there is no way... I still have to take good care of the baby in my stomach. The doctor said that this is the first baby, and I am sick again. I am in poor health and prone to miscarriage. I do some exercise to exercise my body, and I can't even cry. I don't dare to cry, because it will affect the child's prenatal education..." Until then, tears finally flowed down Yahan's cheeks, "It was like this until 2002, when Dongfanglu came over and said Ming died, and a tomb was built for him, just outside the city...have you visited it?"

"I don't believe it..."

"I don't believe he can find Jia Ming..." Yahan said, "You know him, if he really wants to leave, no one will find him, but as long as he can come back, he will definitely find him ..."

Yahan shook her hand, she knew it was comfort in disguise.

"Wait for him, okay?"

Lingjing nodded: "Sister Yahan...I'm sorry..."

"I've always been sorry for you and Shasha... I should have treated you as younger sisters, but this matter..." She shook her head, "How did it become like this, I'm sorry..."

The two were originally good friends who were like sisters. They went through hardships together when they were young, and later experienced many things together. Although the relationship has been sealed up for a few years, when I saw Taotao just now, I also felt sad and sad in my heart. But by this time, these things have gradually been diluted. During those three months, she watched Jiaming suffer such pain, step by step until he couldn't bear it but was powerless, until he left, she could only keep these things in her heart silently, she couldn't even cry, she The pain in my heart may not be lighter than myself.

In a sense, when Jiaming is gone, everything becomes less important. The knot in their hearts is temporarily untied, and the two of them turn the topic to another direction. Lingjing's life in Vienna these past few years, the hard work of the past four years Ah, and recently joined companies and such. Some things may not be easy to say in front of her parents, and only in front of Yahan can she say trivial things, probably talk about Yahan's side, things about Taotao, things that she has already worked in the family company , the two barely ate some breakfast and were ready to go out.

"Can I visit Taotao when I'm free?"

"As long as you give her wave lollipops..."

Ling Jing smiled, and suddenly hugged Yahan: "Sister Yahan, thank you for being by his side during those three months..."

"I didn't take care of him for anyone..." Yahan's tears fell again, "Those are the best three in my life."

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