Human Greed

That day, she went to find Xu Ruoxing, specially changed into her favorite long dress, wrote a confession letter, and went to find Xu Ruoxing with anxiety.

She wanted to tell Xu Ruoxing, I'm sorry, she lied to Xu Ruoxing, she was not Xu Ruoxing's schoolmate, she just saw the friend information in Xu Ruoxing's school magazine, and wrote to her with the mentality of giving it a try.

Unexpectedly, Xu Ruoxing would reply.

Xu Ruoxing really doesn't know how to restrain her personal affairs at all, except that she didn't tell her her name, she said everything big and small, what class, how she was studying, how she interacted with her classmates, when she was on duty, and when she took the exam. The ones I shared with myself, really thought of her as a friend, not a pen pal.

So she soon knew it was Xu Ruoxing.

Xu Ruoxing.

The pen name is the last letter of her name, which is really random.

But such a random little star accidentally landed in her world, hung high in the sky, and became the light she wanted to touch.

She became less decadent, started to study, and started to live a serious life. She pretended not to care about the strange eyes of her classmates, and began to try to make friends. It was so difficult at first, but Xu Ruoxing's words gave her infinite courage.

Later, she was confessed to by someone, and she was directly rejected. The person said in private, who is she, that she has such a weird temper, and confessing to her is because she thinks highly of her and pretends to be noble.

It has been a long time since she knew about these rumors, because she has no friends and no one told her about the strange tacit understanding among her classmates.

She is very sad, she is unhappy, she wants to see Xu Ruoxing.

As Xu Ruoxing said, if she is unhappy, she can go to her.

All fantasies are so good, she dressed herself carefully, as if she was going to confess her love, when she arrived at the school gate, she saw Xu Ruoxing from a distance, and there was a person standing beside Xu Ruoxing, whom she knew, Xu Ruoxing said her name was Zhou Yuanyuan, she was very Good friend.

A good friend can also be a girlfriend.

Su Yi squeezed the bag tightly and made a rattling sound. Being submerged in the noisy surroundings, Su Yi slightly raised her head and said, "You remember?"

Xu Ruoxing didn't know how to answer her for a while.

What if you can't remember? Is Su Yi planning to tell her nothing? Thinking about it this way, Xu Ruoxing was still a little sullen, and said, "Yeah."

Su Yi nodded: "It's good to think about it."

Xu Ruoxing asked her, "Why didn't you tell me?"

Su Yi lowered her eyes, saw the bag in her hand, pursed her lips, and said, "You have a girlfriend."

The statement that seemed to be many years late, Su Yi's eyes suddenly turned red after she finished speaking. The memories of that time flooded her like a flood. Su Yi still remembered that she ran away in despair. She was obviously a pen pal, but she was moved by Xu Ruoxing.

She fell in love with the little star.

Su Yi didn't dare to get closer, especially when she knew she had a girlfriend, she restrained herself, but on Xu Ruoxing's birthday, she still couldn't hold back and went to give a gift.

Xu Ruoxing couldn't laugh or cry: "When will I..."

Suddenly understanding, she was dumb, and a few seconds later she said, "Are you stupid?"

Su Yi looked up at her, Xu Ruoxing said: "I'm not—" She said: "Let's talk in the car."

The air conditioner in the car was on, Su Yi was sitting in the co-pilot, Xu Ruoxing was sitting beside her, and said, "Zhou Yuanyuan and I are not in the relationship you think."

Su Yi was slightly startled, turned her head to look at Xu Ruoxing, her eyelashes trembled, the lights in the car were not turned on, only the street lights outside the window, dim and opaque, Xu Ruoxing stared into her eyes to capture this change.

Xu Ruoxing explained: "In high school, I met a very extreme suitor, and she also met." Xu Ruoxing lowered his head: "Later we pretended..."

It was a very naive way, why didn't I think of other ways at that time, Xu Ruoxing regretted it, she said: "Su Yi, I'm sorry."

I don't know what I'm sorry for.

I'm sorry Su Yi used to like?

I'm still sorry for missing them for so many years.

Su Yi was stunned for a moment, and then she suddenly understood, she said: "But Zhou Yuanyuan said a lot about you." Su Yi said intermittently: "In foreign countries..."

Xu Ruoxing said: "She was talking nonsense." After speaking, he looked at Su Yi: "I only found out later, and then I lost contact with her."

turn out to be.

is that so?

It wasn't because the love was too deep that he didn't dare to mention the name, so he never mentioned it, but because Xu Ruoxing discovered it because of the wrong guidance, so he broke off the relationship?

Su Yi's throat was slightly choked, she was a little confused, Xu Ruoxing's words had a great impact on her, overturning her cognition for so many years, so Xu Ruoxing said at the beginning that she had never been in love.

It's also true.

Su Yi closed her eyes, her heart ached badly, her eye sockets were hot, she looked sideways out of the car window, no one was walking, and in a very quiet surrounding, only her wild thoughts remained.

There is also the desire and urge to cry.

Xu Ruoxing shouted: "Su Yi."

Su Yi didn't collapse, she turned her head and buried herself in Xu Ruoxing's arms. She was lying in her arms like a wronged child, weeping in embarrassment, her voice was heard in Xu Ruoxing's ears, like a knife piercing her heart, the pain was severe .

I wish she wouldn't cry, but Xu Ruoxing knew it was best to vent now. This memory weighed heavily on Su Yi. It turned out that the first time she brought Su Yi was not joy, but grief.

Xu Ruoxing hugged her, didn't speak, just listened to her crying like a little beast, Su Yi hugged her tightly, tears wet the shirt, sticking to Xu Ruoxing's clothes, it was cold, but Xu Ruoxing's heart was churning The blazing feelings are like fire, from a slight cluster to burning wildly.

She lowered her head and kissed Su Yi's head, but Su Yi didn't realize it. She had been in a predicament for many years. Someone gently pushed a door open and pulled her out. Su Yi stood outside and saw the predicament , she bound herself.

Regret flooded her like a tidal wave, Su Yi's crying eyes were slightly swollen and hurt, and it hurt even when she closed her eyes. She was stuffy in Xu Ruoxing's arms, and it took a long, long time to control her emotions.

Xu Ruoxing said, "Stop crying?"

Su Yi didn't answer her, but just lowered her head, she took out the tissue from the side, saw the black bag, Su Yi took it over, opened it, and there was an ice cream lying quietly inside.

It's the purple one, Xu Ruoxing's favorite food in high school, she said in the letter that Su Yi would buy it every time she went to a small supermarket, but once she didn't get it, she sat in front of the supermarket for a long time.

Later, I never ate it again.

Su Yi opened the packaging bag, Xu Ruoxing said: "It's already melted, I'll buy it for you again..."

Before I finished speaking, I saw that Su Yi wrapped the ice cream in a packaging bag. It did melt, but not completely. The wooden stick was more like a spoon. Su Yi picked some up from the packaging bag and held it on the tip of her tongue up, sweet.

She raised her head: "It can be eaten after melting."

The crying voice was hoarse and low, her eyes were red, her cheeks kept rubbing against her clothes, and they were also flushed. When she lowered her eyes, her eyelashes trembled, and Xu Ruoxing's whole heart trembled. She nodded and looked at Su Yi a little bit. Picking up the melted ice cream, the faint sweet smell of ice cream filled the carriage, Xu Ruoxing asked, "Is it delicious?"

Su Yi raised his eyes to look at her, and hummed lightly, Xu Ruoxing leaned over, picked up the wooden stick that Su Yi was eating, and picked up some, the tip of his tongue was icy sweet, Su Yi looked at her, his red eyes were swollen from crying, Xu Ruoxing said, "It's delicious."

Su Yi pursed her lips and looked at Xu Ruoxing. Xu Ruoxing stretched out his hand, as if to return the wooden stick to her. Just as Su Yi was about to stretch out his hand, Xu Ruoxing's hand went around her side face, resting on the back of her head, and gently pushed forward. Xu Ruoxing kissed Su Yi.

Their tongues were filled with the sweet taste of ice cream, they entangled and played with each other, the ice cream packaging bag in Su Yi's hand was put aside by Xu Ruoxing, her hand was empty, and she couldn't wait to grab something, she grabbed Xu Ruoxing's collar , the collar was loose in her hands, and the folds were deformed. Xu Ruoxing was afraid that she would not breathe, and wanted to loosen it a little, but was dragged back by Su Yi. Su Yi put his arms around her neck, letting Xu Ruoxing go Active to passive.

The fire in the car started to burn, and all the sounds around her became blurred. Su Yi bit Xu Ruoxing's lips, which were soft, and there were red marks from her bite. Su Yi's favorite place, as expected, she opened her mouth, the tip of her teeth was ground beside her collarbone, there were marks on her fair skin, it was as if she was sucking blood thinly.

Su Yi let go of Xu Ruoxing, stared at the hickey on the collarbone, and asked her, "Does it hurt?"

It seemed that it was the first time they met honestly. Su Yi left traces on her, and then lay on top of her, with a laughing voice: "Does it hurt?"

"pain."

"It's right that it hurts, I did it on purpose."

Xu Ruoxing suddenly missed such a playful Su Yi, she called, "Su Yi."

Su Yi raised her eyes, and the two were very close, so close that Su Yi could see her reflection in her eyes, reflected in her deep eyes, with dark emotions waiting to explode.

She was attracted, without blinking, Xu Ruoxing glanced from her to the huge sign outside the car window, and said, "Can we not go home tonight?"

Su Yi hesitated for a few seconds: "Aren't you going home?"

Xu Ruoxing said in a low voice, "Well, I won't go home."

Su Yi said, "Where are you going if you don't go home?"

Xu Ruoxing looked out the car window, Su Yi followed her gaze, the hotel's signboard was always on, her heart tightened, and she suddenly thought of those times when she slept with Xu Ruoxing but didn't dare to approach her.

Every time, she waited for Xu Ruoxing to fall asleep before going to bed.

The emotions at that time surged up again, including grievances, remorse, and extreme longing for Xu Ruoxing's body, all of which erupted at this moment.

Su Yi's eyes became hot, she put her arms around Xu Ruoxing's waist, her fingers penetrated through the thin shirt, and Xu Ruoxing's body trembled when her cold fingertips touched the warm skin.

She took Su Yi's hand and held it in the palm of her hand. The palms of the two were hot. Xu Ruoxing said, "Wait a minute." Her voice was unsteady, trying to suppress the fluctuations provoked by Su Yi, and said in a tense voice: " Wait for Su Yi, I'll open the room first."