I am a Good Man

"Ahem."

Zhang Ruowan bent her body, her throat was dry and itchy, she continued to cough several times, her head was dizzy and painful. Feeling weakened all over.

She opened her eyelashes slowly, looking at the ceiling above, motionless, her eyes were empty.

Looking back on this year and a half carefully, it was like a nightmare for her.

Looking forward to marrying Ji Yang, encountering cold violence after marriage, derailment, miscarriage, being resented, divorced...

I don't know if it was to punish her for having a smooth life in the first two decades and encountering such misfortune in the second half of her life.

It hurt her parents and got a serious illness. She also lay on the bed and couldn't afford it.

It's not that she didn't think about her parents. It was too difficult to live. She couldn't cheer up and felt that she was sick. She was in the ice cellar all the time and was in a very numb state.

The doctor said that he has a tendency to depression and he should take medicine to control it.

Zhang Ruowan closed her eyes, and a tear slipped from the corner of her eyes.

Ji Yang, Ji Yang, why are you doing this to me?

I don't know how long I lay down, but there was a faint sound from outside the door, and then the door was opened and someone walked in.

The child's voice?

She felt that she had auditory hallucinations.

It must be Zhang's father and Zhang's mother coming back. They will hold their hands, their eyes will be red, and they will secretly wipe their tears from time to time.

Zhang Ruowan was so pressured that she couldn't breathe, she felt that she was a drag.

Bring down the whole family.

"I want a big plane, Dad, a car." Xiao Ji took off his quilted jacket and wore yellow short sleeves. There was a black salted egg superman painted on the front. The bag in his hand was filled with two loofahs, and he walked awkwardly to the kitchen. .

"I'll buy it next time. I can't get it today. I put the loofah on the table and ate the breakfast. Soy milk is in my father's hands." Ji Yang held his seven-month-old daughter in one hand and handed it over with the other.

Classmate Xiao Ji put down the bag, walked over, holding soy milk, saw only one cup, raised his head, "Where's mom?"

He is only four and a half years old, but he knows a lot.

"Mom doesn't drink this. Dad cooked porridge for mom." Ji Yang touched his head, put his daughter down, and carried the fish and meat to the kitchen. After washing his hands, he quickly went back into the bedroom, and the end was still in the living room. The two said, "Be quiet, don't wake up mom."

"Shhh." Xiao Ji put her little hand to her mouth and looked at her sitting sister, "Mom is sick, don't wake up mom."

"Beep." The kid Ji Xin crawled in the direction of Ji Yang.

At this time, Ji Yang had already walked into the room, the room was dark with the curtains closed and the lights turned off.

He went over and drew the curtains open.

Zhang Ruowan was uncomfortably tight, groggy, a little awake but did not open her eyes, she couldn't lift her fingers.

"@#%%..." Ji Xin pushed open the closed door and came in, laughing while climbing, seeing his father climbing faster.

"Can't be quiet for a while?" Ji Yang helplessly turned and walked over to pick her up, and whispered, "Mom is sick, don't make a noise."

At this time, it was on winter vacation, and the couple happened to be free, so Zhang's father and Zhang's mother were allowed to go to the South for a holiday for a few days. Who knew Zhang Ruowan was sick, and he was still uncomfortable looking at the two children alone.

Ji Xin twisted his body and wanted to go to bed.

Zhang Ruowan was still sick, and the child's resistance was weak. He didn't dare to let his daughter get too close and put her down. .

"Wow..." Ji Xin began to cry softly.

"Don't cry, Dad will make you milk powder soon." Ji Yang held his forehead and looked outside, "Hehe, come in and look at my sister."

Ji He walked in with a small body, he looked at his sister on the ground, comforted with milk, his hands hugged the other's arm from behind, and began to drag outside.

Ji Xin grows fleshy, not light, but he uses the energy of feeding, in exchange for Ji Xin's crying louder and louder.

Ji Yang walked to the bed and looked sideways at the siblings.

Classmate Xiao Ji flushed, and continued to hold Ji Xin, "Dad, I'll give my sister a toy gun to play with, and don't grab it with her."

After that, he coaxed his sister, "Mom is sick, and Xinxin will get sick if she doesn't obey, and she will get injections and medicine at that time."

Dad told him that illness can be contagious. Although he is worried about his mother, he should not touch his mother more.

Ji Yang was making milk powder, tested the water temperature, quickly added milk powder, and walked over with a bottle.

Zhang Ruowan felt very noisy.

She must be sick, otherwise why is she so auditory?

For a while, the voice of the child, the voice of Ji Yang, and a buzzing sound in my mind, kept ringing.

Ji Yang is a big badass, so she shouldn't think of him, don't dream of him, Zhang Ruowan thought, tears flowed again.

Her nose was a bit stuffy, and she took a breath.

Ji Yang gave the baby bottle to his son, turned his head to look at Zhang Ruowan, bent over to look at her, leaned over and pressed his cheek to her forehead, the fever subsided, and he was also relieved.

Reaching out to attach her head, he whispered, "Wanwan, is it still uncomfortable? Get up and drink some porridge, let's take some medicine."

"Mom, take medicine." Xiao Ji, holding his sister, also started talking, and Ji Xin, who was held by him, was holding a bottle and drinking milk.

She is hungry, so she doesn't make trouble.

Zhang Ruowan felt Ji Yang's voice in her ears, and she felt even more uncomfortable. There was a tearing pain from the heart valve.

I opened my eyes and saw Ji Yang's shadow dimly. My vision was blurred and I couldn't see clearly.

Not only auditory hallucinations, but also hallucinations.

She is afraid that she is getting sicker.

Seeing her crying, Ji Yang was also taken aback, "Isn't it better today? If it is really uncomfortable, I will take you to the hospital for an injection in the afternoon."

This kind of cold actually has to go through a process, taking medicine and rest for a week can be cured, and the effect of injections is not obvious.

But if it is really serious, it will be suppressed by injections.

Zhang Ruowan kept staring at him, her tears getting more fierce, she couldn't catch her breath. She understood that this was either in a dream or in an illusion.

It is impossible for Ji Yang to come to see her. Zhang's father and Zhang's mother didn't ask him to come, and it is impossible to coax her with such a gentle tone.

Everything changed completely after he was cold and violent and derailed. She couldn't imagine that a person would completely change his face, become completely unrecognizable, and she didn't know her at all.

When she cried, she not only scared Ji Yang, but also the two children. Ji Xin still didn't understand anything. He bit her pacifier and looked at Zhang Ruowan's direction pitifully. Xiao Ji understood a little bit, he Run over and lie on the bed, "Mom doesn't cry, just take medicine."

"What's the matter?" Ji Yang held her face in both hands, and wiped her tears with the thumb of her thumb. "Uncomfortable? Headache?"

"Mom, mom." Classmate Xiao Ji held Zhang Ruowan's hand softly, with a soft voice, "Mom doesn't cry or cry."

"Wow..." The child Ji Xin looked at his elder brother, then at his father, and listened to his mother's crying, crying louder by himself.

Just as Ji Yang was about to turn around, Zhang Ruowan suddenly reached out and hit him. Before he could react, the other party cried and hit him.

The strength is useless, and it doesn't hurt, but the other party's sudden out of control behavior blinded him.

"Give back my child, my child, child..." Zhang Ruowan became painful and repeatedly hammered him, "Child..."

It was her child who had miscarried and heard the child called her mother in her dreams countless times.

Her child.

Zhang Ruowan cried fiercely and fiercely, grabbing him and constantly questioning, "Why? Ji Yang why are you doing this? Why, why, why?"

Why do you treat her like this?

Almost desperate, life is better than death, destroying everything, so he will be happy? Why is it so cruel to her?

"Mom..." Classmate Xiao Ji was also scared to cry, "Wow..."

Mom and Dad were fighting.

Xiaofang from the kindergarten said that her father and mother would get divorced if they fight, and then stop living together, her father would marry another woman, and she would have no father.

"Wan Wan, calm down, don't scare the child." Ji Yang grabbed her hand and hugged her forcibly.

"There are no children, no children!" Zhang Ruowan cried and yelled at him, almost collapsed, "It's all you, all you!"

He knew clearly that she was pregnant, regardless of her feelings.

She was ready for divorce a long time ago, and she was afraid that she would compete for his demolition money, so she forced her to divorce and leave the house.

She thought that a man who didn't care about her had designed her a long time ago. She was like a fool, deceived by him.

Ji Yang's eyes sank, looking at her struggling in his arms, there was a trace of guessing in his heart.

"Ji Yang, you are so cruel, so cruel, why do you treat me like this?" Zhang Ruowan's eyes were full of tears, and her lips trembled with anger.

"Wan Wan." He held her face, "What's wrong, let's talk slowly, don't scare the baby."

The child is Zhang Ruowan's taboo. She has a lofty respect for life and full of expectations for this child.

So far I can’t accept that the child is gone.

She lost control of her emotions again, and the classmate Xiao Ji by the bed choked up, "Mom, don't be angry, mom, so good."

Zhang Ruowan looked at him and stopped. The little boy was like her dream, with big round eyes, like Ji Yang's eyebrows and nose, lovely and gratifying.

She fell down with tears and lost her sight.

"Hehe just said to let his mother take him to the amusement park. When you are done, we will take Hehe and Xinxin to the amusement park." Ji Yang continued to wipe her tears with a warm voice, "Is it a nightmare? I am here, not afraid."

Zhang Ruowan was a little dazed, and her dream was too real. She stretched out her hand to Xiaoji's classmate and said tremblingly, "Come on, come and hug your mother."

She hasn't been a mother yet, and she hasn't had a chance to see this child.

Classmate Xiao Ji looked up at his father.

"Mom missed you, go, let Mom hug." Ji Yang touched his head, picked him up and put him on the bed.

"Mom." Classmate Xiao Ji just yelled, Zhang Ruowan hugged him tightly and cried.

What should I do if my mother is too enthusiastic?

Today's mother was so wrong, he thought about it again, it seemed that her mother was sick, and she felt sick, so he wanted to comfort her.

Classmate Xiao Ji’s chubby little hand patted Zhang Ruowan’s head, pretending to be old-fashioned, “Mom obediently take medicine. Dad said, mother will be well after taking medicine. Go and play together.”

Go to the amusement park together.

Ji Yang looked at the mother and son without going up to bother him, his feet were hugged, and looking down, Ji Xin was holding him and stretched out his hand to hold him.

He picked it up, and the little dumpling bent over on the bed again.

It turned out that the goal was not to hold him, but to find Zhang Ruowan on the bed.

"You also want to comfort mother?" Ji Yang chuckled and put her on the bed, the little dumpling crawled quite fast.

He babbled and crawled towards Zhang Ruowan.

"Slow down, dad doesn't hug or coax if it hurts." Ji Yang said to her.

Zhang Ruowan was holding Jihe, and soon noticed the little dumplings crawling beside her. The other party was wearing a princess dress with a little red woolen hat on her head, a red string on her hand, and a small pendant. .

Pink makeup jade.

The little dumpling couldn't speak, and smiled at her. She was lying on her stomach, drooling down, and her little baby teeth grew out.

It's so cute.

This is not her child. I just heard Ji Yang say that he is a father, so... she is not a mother.

There is only one explanation, he and someone else gave birth to a child!

"Take it away!" Zhang Ruowan looked at him, with a trace of hatred in her eyes, and her head was dizzy. She could no longer distinguish between dreams and reality, and shouted at him, "Take your child away! Go!"

He had cheated after half a year of marriage, and she was stupidly looking for the reason from her, which was extremely ridiculous.

"Wow..." Ji Xin was scared and cried, helplessly looking at his father.

"Mom scared my sister." Xiao Ji said to Zhang Ruowan, feeling sorry for her sister.

Zhang Ruowan looked at the little girl, confused and stopped her emotions, five things about adults and children, and then looked at Xiaoji classmate, let go, dodge under her eyes, shook her head and nodded, her eyes were hollow, "Yes, she is you." Sister, my children are gone, I have no children anymore."

In the future, others will give Ji Yangsheng, but the doctor said that she should take good care of her, otherwise it will be difficult to conceive in the future.

"Mom..." Classmate Xiao Ji looked at Zhang Ruowan. He thought his mother was so strange today.

Ji Yang hugged Xiaoji classmates and hugged her daughter to coax her. Zhang Ruowan on the bed turned her back to them, lay down and hugged herself, crying.

He stared at her back for a while, and walked out with his daughter and son in his arms. For a while, another person walked in.

Zhang Ruowan cried silently.

With a "pop", he turned on the light and the room lit up, "I'll take you to the hospital for an injection, don't cry."

"My baby is making trouble in the morning. I'm afraid it will disturb you and take it out. Doesn't it worry you?"

As Ji Yang went to bed, he picked her up and held her in his arms, "I said, you are always the most important, really, the most important."

"I will take you to the hospital."

"I'm not going!" Zhang Ruowan shook him away, but was stunned when he looked at the room. The room was a bit dark just now, and she didn't look at it. At this time, I saw where this is.

Not a school dormitory, not Zhang's family.

The bedroom is spacious, with a large window in front, and a small balcony. There is a large cabinet on the side, a crib beside the bed, milk powder on the table, the curtains are her favorite light blue, and the chandelier is her favorite white.

She felt unfamiliar, but at the same time very familiar. Numerous times imagined that after she and Ji Yang had the money to buy a house, they wanted to decorate like this.

Where is this? Dream or hallucination?

She was clearly ill. She was taken home from the hospital by Zhang's father and Zhang's mother. She lost her job, her marriage, and her love, and she was devastated.

"Are you angry? Then don't go, your fever is gone, there should be no major problem, then get up, I cooked the porridge, we take medicine after eating." Ji Yang pulled her up and kissed her on the cheek , Said with a smile, "When did you have such a temper? He still beats people, Wan Wan, domestic violence is wrong."

Zhang Ruowan is a little at a loss. Ji Yang is warm, not like dreaming. Is she sick?

I am dying, so I have hallucinations.

She was taken to the living room in a daze by Ji Yang and sat at the dining table. He walked into the kitchen and said, "Hehe, look at my sister, don't knock your head down."

"Give my sister soy milk." Xiao Ji said.

"Don't give it, Dad will feed it later." Ji Yang stopped.

"Oh." He obediently.

Zhang Ruowan looked at the living room. The outside of the living room is also a large balcony, with sunlight coming in. The interior decoration is mainly simple and looks very large. There are many children's objects and it looks very warm.

So familiar.

Such a house is expensive, and she can't afford Ji Yang, nor can she afford it.

"Drink some porridge and take the medicine after drinking." Ji Yang put the bowl in front of her. There were some chopped meat in the bowl. He sat opposite her and looked at her, "You have a fever and a cold for four days, but I am tired. It’s hard enough. My parents are going to travel, watching the two children alone, but also taking care of you, neither of them can rest assured.”

"I'm going to the bathroom." Zhang Ruowan hurriedly got up and walked aside, and after going in, looked at the mirror above.

She suspected that she was not herself.

Where is it here, except for Ji Yang, who are the two children? Why call her mother?

The face on the mirror is still her, but it's a bit different. There are also many skin care products on the sink, all of which are brands she uses.

Zhang Ruowan was holding on to the sink, his mind was in a mess.

She is clearly divorced from Ji Yang and has no children. She has returned to Zhang's house and has been ill for a long time. She is very thin and thin, with heavy dark circles, and this face is well maintained and her skin is delicate and shiny.

"Wanwan?" Ji Yang yelled worriedly when she saw that she hadn't come out for so long.

"Here." Zhang Ruowan couldn't figure out the situation and decided to stop, went out and sat at the dining table.

She was indeed hungry, lowered her head to eat the porridge in front of her.

Ji Yang has long been not so gentle and considerate. He didn't return home at night and yelled at her with a bad temper.

At this time, he went to the living room and took the little baby over. He was so cute, with a round face.

"Mom is sick, Dad holds, Dad gives Xinxin apple puree." Ji Yang sat in front of her coaxing the little baby, and from time to time she looked at Zhang Ruowan, "Mom is not good, and if you are not good, you will get sick. ."

"Take medicine, it will be better if you take medicine." The little boy came over, "Dad, I want to eat apples too."

Ji Yang put down the baby and went to wash the apples for the two.

The apples were just bought today, and he said, "Fruit is too expensive this year. I bought three small apples for nearly 40 yuan, and a small box of imported big cherries has hundreds of them."

Zhang Ruowan didn't respond to him, and now she is still in the circle.

When he came over again, he gave the little boy a half of an apple, and he held the baby and fed the fruit puree, and put a small plate of starfruit in front of her, coaxing her like a child, "After eating, take medicine, then eat Fruit, I also bought dragon fruit."

"There is another big grapefruit." The little boy said loudly, "Hehe heard Auntie say that the big grapefruit is ninety-eight yuan."

Zhang Ruowan didn't believe it.

She has never eaten such expensive grapefruit.

"Last time he said it was delicious, so I bought one and peeled it to eat at night." Ji Yang lowered his head and gave the baby another bite.

After taking the medicine, she ate starfruit, which was very sweet.

Ji Yang made lunch. She was watching the baby in the living room. The baby was very sticky to her. The important person kept holding her. The boy played with the blocks, which was very worry-free.

The recipes are quite generous, all light.

Stewed chicken soup with fungus, fried potato shreds, fried sweet potato leaves, fried pork with steamed egg and loofah, and a plate of steamed fish.

The very small piece was placed in front of the little boy, as if it was specially prepared for him.

Zhang Ruowan was puzzled and pretended to say casually, "I want to eat fish too."

Why don't you give it to her? Ji Yang didn't eat it either.

"Do you want to eat?" Ji Yang raised his eyebrows, somewhat inexplicably, "Didn't you say not to eat? You don't like the taste, so you bought a small piece."

"Cod." She looked over.

"Well, cod, you said that cod has high nutritional value. You have to buy one piece for Hehe every week." After he said that, he looked at Ji He. The little boy had already pushed the small plate in front of her, "For mom to eat, Hehe eats tomorrow. "

"No, I'm just talking, don't eat." Zhang Ruowan pushed back.

She likes to eat cod. It is very fragrant when steamed. Looking at the little boy’s face, she already understands that if it really comes from her mouth, it is to save money. Cod here is very expensive, two hundred yuan a small piece, Zhang Fu Zhang Mothers seldom buy them very rarely.

Ji Yang picks vegetables for her, picks vegetables for his son, and eats himself.

The baby was sitting and drinking milk, and the whole family was happy, Zhang Ruowan also followed to eat, forbearing uncomfortable.

She doesn't believe in ghosts and gods, so she doesn't feel that she is traveling. The body is her body. Instead, she would rather believe that she has amnesia, but what's the matter with Ji Yang?

Vividly vivid and experienced.

After the meal, Ji Yang put the bowl in the dishwasher, and she looked at the fruit in the bag on the side, and there was a small ticket inside.

The number of big grapefruits is really 98, and the beautiful big cherries are more than a hundred dollars.

Even a big starfruit she ate cost more than twenty yuan.

All are imported fruits from supermarkets.

"It's expensive." She unconsciously said that Zhang's family is also a working family, which can make her worry about food and clothing, but can't let her spend such extravagantly.

Not long after she became a teacher, she didn't get much salary. Before, she wanted to save money and buy a house with Ji Yang, so she didn't want to spend that much.

"For the child and you, I have to buy a better one, no matter how expensive it is. I dare to buy the cheaper one?" Ji Yang stood up and squeezed her nose. Say me."

After being a parent, you must do your best to give them the best.

Zhang Ruowan is no longer used to being so intimate with him, and her eyes are a little bit swollen when she looks at his face.

They hadn't spoken for a long, long time. When they spoke, Ji Yang scolded her. The two quarreled, and finally he slammed the door and walked away.

Later, he didn't bother to care about her, and once told her to stay away from her, don't bother him.

"Take the medicine again, and I will be almost better when I wake up tomorrow." Ji Yang put his hand on her shoulder, pushed her to the bedroom, and sighed, "My parents will be back tomorrow, so I can breathe a sigh of relief. , I'm exhausted."

"Who's parents?" she asked.

"Did you forget your parents to travel? Did you have a fever?" Ji Yang laughed and teased her, "After retiring, my parents will travel to the south every year, and we can see it during the winter vacation. This is not to catch up with your illness. I'm in a hurry."

Zhang Ruowan knew it.

Her parents.

Ji Yang's mother is a farmer, and there is no such thing as retirement.

When she thinks of her parents, her eyes are a little swollen and she can't help crying again. In such a "dream", she is most sorry for her parents.

Han worked hard to raise her up, but was dragged down by her when it was time to enjoy the blessing. If she is sick, what will the two of them do?

But it’s so hard to survive, so why bother with others?

It's so tired to be alive, and it hurts to breathe.

"Xinxin is asleep. I'll go to help Hehe take a bath. If you are sleepy, go to bed first." Ji Yang kissed her, patted him on the shoulder, and walked to a room.

Zhang Ruowan held back her tears and walked into the bedroom. The baby was asleep on the cot beside the bed, and she walked inside.

There are skin care products on the dressing table, which are still her favorite brands, and some baby products on the other table, as well as a photo frame.

She walked over gently and picked it up.

On the photo frame is a sweet family of four. It should be shortly after the filming. The little baby was lying on the front and grinning with his head upright. Ji Yang hugged the little boy, and "she" leaned on Ji Yang, holding his arm. , Smiled and looked at the camera.

The happiness in her eyes pierced her eyes, and that feeling really couldn't be pretended.

She stretched out her hand and felt a little infatuated. If Ji Yang has always been so good to her and the two have always been so good, would they also be like this?

So happy.

I don’t know how long I’ve been standing, but Ji Yang walked in as soon as he put down his clothes, took the clothes and went into the bathroom again, “I’ll take a shower first.”

With a "bang", the door closed.

Her gaze fell on the phone beside the bed again, it was a black phone, it could not be hers.

That's Ji Yang's.

She understands him and sees him through things time and time again. She has never checked his mobile phone before, but indulges him too much.

I have been ambiguous with many people for a long time, and even the students can get rid of it. Cheating has become commonplace.

Pressing the phone and looking at the screen saver, she was in a daze for a while. It was the photo she had just seen.

Although he acted that Gu Jia loved her, didn't he also do it before?

The phone was unlocked with a fingerprint, and her heart sank. After pressing it, she unlocked it. It seemed that she really believed that she would not look at it.

She quickly opened the social software, scrolled down and searched to see if there were any chat records.

I saw the heads of a few girls and didn't delete the records. The chat was normal. Either the female teacher asked for information about work, or the female student asked about the class.

She saw herself and clicked on.

Most of the two people chatted by voice, but also by typing. She looked at the chat log and her pupils shrank suddenly.

With a small voice, click on one of them.

"Husband, come back this afternoon and buy me some apples. I want to eat them. I have to go to Chenghe Imported Supermarket to buy them. The one he ate last time."

"I also want a small box of blueberries, I want to eat it, the smallest boxed kind, thank you, love you."

"Baby makes trouble, when will you come back, husband, I will cry with you, and the two babies will cry together."

...

She clicked in one by one, indeed her voice, the latest ones were at six o'clock last night.

"Cough, cough, cough, my throat hurts, come back and buy me cough drops, I want to eat spicy crayfish."

"There is no cough water, nor crayfish." Ji Yang's voice was a bit fierce, she clicked on the next one, and his words were softened, "There is rock sugar stewed Sydney, and I will take you to eat it."

The conversation between the two is very everyday, "she" sometimes sends him some small videos of children.

"Whose cute baby is this?"

"Hehe drew a picture today and said that his father is the most handsome father."

...

The interaction is full of love, and Ji Yang's indulgence and pampering naturally goes without saying, that "she" is held in the palm of his hand.

Just like her who just got married.

The handle of the bathroom door moved, she hurriedly withdrew, put down the phone and turned to go to the closet to pick up clothes.

"I'm going to take a shower." She lowered her head and walked into the bathroom.

"Yeah." Ji Yang wiped her hair, looked at her back and said nothing, his eyes fell on the phone beside the bed again, and the next second he turned his eyes away and walked aside.