I Pushed Through The Weird World

I'm Still Here, I Just Need To Slow Down

I'm still here, I just need to slow down

I know my updates these days have made many readers uncomfortable.

I'm sorry everyone.

sorry.

I'm so grateful for everyone's support.

I don’t have the face to keep posting single chapters about my situation.

I don't even dare to read the readership news.

I feel guilty.

It’s just that I feel really uncomfortable.

I am very sad.

When typing, I feel mentally and physically exhausted and my thoughts are confused.

Memories keep popping up from nowhere in my mind, making me unable to write anymore.

If you are a reader of old books, you should know how the author got there.

I stood in the electronics factory for more than ten hours a day, coding on my mobile phone, and I never stopped updating it.

April this year.

My grandpa is gone.

After I returned from the vigil, I didn’t stop updating it.

I had urinary stones, but I still gritted my teeth and went to the hospital only after the update was completed.

Why did a cyclist fall into a ditch and his feet were swollen and his hand was missing a piece of flesh? I just mentioned it casually in the group, but it didn't stop.

I don't know what's wrong with God.

Do you like playing tricks on poor people so much?

Originally November was a happy month for me.

With the support of the big brothers and editors, the book has achieved a little success, and the hard work that wasted my youth for several years has been completely relieved. I even think about how to pursue a new life in the future.

Is it just that life is so fucked up!

I just like to give you a stick when you look up.

I know that everyone has to leave this world.

But I didn't expect it to be now.

I thought I could be free and easy after experiencing so much.

But in the dead of night, I secretly cried more than once.

I'm a waste.

He is about to turn thirty.

If you can't do it with words, you can't do it with force.

My grandparents wanted to see me start a family but they couldn't do it.

I regret not joining the army after graduating from college. I regret that I had a good career and started a business when I was very successful. I regret it very much.

There are so many things to regret.

Every decision is a different fate.

My fate was obviously not very good.

Time is gone.

I'm getting older too.

I don't know if you can understand how I feel now.

When I was five or six years old, my parents divorced and started their own families. I was raised by my grandparents.

I haven't wanted to go back to my hometown for many years.

Because I don’t know where else I can go except my grandparents.

Now I have become a wandering soul.

I'm completely homeless.

He cried a lot and his eyes were swollen.