I will not die!

I often think about the meaning of my life.

In this world, some people are born slaves, some are born with disabilities, some are born in broken homes, and some are born under the abuse of psychopaths. Compared with these people, I don’t know how happy my life is. You can even have enough food and clothing, and you don’t have to worry about tomorrow.

But why should I compare with them.

I am not rich, but there are billions of people in the world who are not as good as me. I am not poor, but there are billions of people in the world who are better off than me. I neither work hard nor am I lazy. I just complete what I need to do mechanically and what others can do. However, this is not particularly hard work and it is more than some people make in a year. And the money I can earn in my lifetime is not as much as some people earn in a day. There is nothing special about me, but I casually live a life that billions of people dream of, and a life that hundreds of millions of people disdain.

What is the meaning of such a life? family? cause? ideal?

It doesn't matter to me at all.

Life is meaning, meaning is life?

Boring as hell.

Whether it is my life or its meaning.

The strange thing is that every time at this time, I actually think of God again. If everything can be done, then what is the meaning of God’s pursuit?

Existence even the greatest meaning?

Wouldn't it be as boring as a human being?

……

"Run quickly, it’s a knife, such a fast knife!"

"If you run, you can avoid it."

"Can't hide!"

"Ah, dead."

Looking at the big red GAMEOVER displayed on the screen, we put down the controllers at the same time to rest. Two months have passed since the first time we came to my house. During this period, we went out together several times. In the meantime, because of me I made a lot of jokes and troubles because I wasn't familiar with the rules of the outside world, but she helped me deal with it well every time. Now, I'm basically used to her coming to my house, and we even play games together. , of course, this is also her suggestion

"Alas, this BOSS is so difficult and there are too many stages. How long does it take to defeat him before he dies?"

"We just injected almost a third of the blood"

"Ah, only one-third? It took so long to only get a third of it!"

"Generally speaking, if you are skilled, it will take about ten minutes to finish, and if you are an expert, it will take about three minutes."

"How long did we just fight?"

"eight minutes"

"Okay, let’s set a small goal first and kill it! By the way, are you hungry? Do you want to eat something?"

"casual"

"Let's have some ice cream, the one I just bought"

"good."

After eating ice cream, we started to attack the BOSS again. In fact, I can defeat this BOSS by myself. She can be killed as long as she keeps hiding from me and I fight slowly, but she never hides and insists on being with me. It’s a BOSS fight, so I’ve been having trouble getting through it.

But, I don’t care

"Next week, would you like to come to my house? There is something I really want to show you."While playing the game, she suddenly said.

I glanced at her from the corner of my eye and asked,"Can't you take it out?"

"Well, it's a bit inconvenient"

"good……"

"Then we agreed, remember to send me a message to remind you when you come."

"Um"

"Be sure to tell me first before coming over!"

"Um……"

"Ah, dead again!"

In the end, we still haven't fought that BOSS together.

After she left, I tidied up the room, and when I was sorting out the snacks, I found a mobile phone under a snack bag. My mobile phone was with me at the moment. I had it on myself, so there was no doubt that it belonged to her.

I picked up my phone and put on my shoes and was about to chase her. I looked at the balcony and found that she had just arrived downstairs. She was within a hearing distance of just shouting, but I I couldn't shout, so I had to raise my feet and chase after her. By the time I went downstairs, she had already turned the nearest intersection, and when I caught up with her again, she had already passed a traffic light and reached the intersection where I passed. At that moment, the green light just turned red, and she was far away from me.

While waiting for the green light, she turned another intersection and disappeared. The red light turned green, and I hurriedly chased her, but I didn't see her anywhere. I forgot about the direction of the station and looked carefully, but I still didn't see it. Judging from her speed, it should be right in front. Could it be that she originally planned to go somewhere else? Where could it be? Did she want to make a call? No, The phone is in my hand. What should I do? What should I do? If only I could call her out before. I just need to call her to stop. Damn it, is this the time to regret? What should I be thinking about now? How do I return the phone to her? Do I have to wait at the station or go home first? If she finds that the phone is not with her, she will probably go back to look for me.

"Guangyuan?"

I followed the sound and saw her standing in front of the checkout counter of the convenience store next to her. I also looked at the convenience store just now, but I didn't see it. It was probably blocked by the shelves.

I walked into the convenience store and returned my phone. gave it to her

"Ah, I'm sorry, could you please bring it to me?"

"nothing."

I left the convenience store first, and she continued to pay with her mobile phone. When she came out, she brought me another ice cream.

"Thank you very much this time. Did you come here?"

"Ran a little bit. Thanks."Is the breathing rate still exposed? I tore open the packaging bag and took a bite on the ice cream.

"I just realized that my phone was not there, and I saw you looking around. Did you see me walking in this direction?"

"Um"

"Wouldn't you just call me and stop me?"

"Because it's very close……"

"……"

"If there's nothing else to do, I'll go back first."

I just turned around, but she suddenly grabbed my hand and said,"Can you call me by my name?"

"now?"

"uh-huh"

"Alley……"

"Can you call me a few more times?"

"Alley, Alley, Alley……"

"You have to take the initiative to call me when we meet next time. Let’s make a deal first."She let go and called my name,"Guangyuan""

"good."

You have to go to her house to see things... When I got home, my mind inevitably thought of some things that I shouldn't have thought of, but according to her tone, it seemed impossible, no, it seemed impossible to tell... …I have never been able to accurately understand what others are thinking, so I’ll just wait and see what happens…

By the way, when did I start being able to go to other people’s homes?

……

"roll!"

Seeing Alley showing an angry expression that he had never seen before, I froze on the spot.

"Get away from me! I don't want to see you anymore!"

"I had just mopped the floor, and when I turned around, it was so dirty again! roll!"

"Don't step there!"

"ah! Today, I, today, I will make the hair on your head bald!"

""Meow~"

I arrived at Ai Li's house as promised, and as soon as I entered the door, I saw the scene just now. In front of me at this moment, Ai Li was holding a black and white striped cat and rubbing its head vigorously, making the cat howl..

She turned around and looked at me, making eye contact with me,"What are you doing standing there? Come sit here.""

"Um."

Her home is larger than mine, and there are a lot of things. It is surrounded by all kinds of things that I have never seen before. Compared with this place, my home can indeed be called minimalist.

"You sit down first and I'll get you some water."

She put down the cat and patted the sofa twice, but the cat immediately stepped on the place where she patted it. She picked up the cat and threw it aside, and barked"get out." After I sat down, the cat was far away. Half of the head peeked out from the corner of the table to look at me. I looked at it too and felt that it looked familiar. However, striped cats like this are everywhere, so it’s normal to see them everywhere.

"Did you forget something?"

"Alley……"

She smiled, put the cup filled with water on the low table in front of me, and then sat down next to me.

"Do you want to guess what I'm going to show you? If you guess correctly, I'll give you a mysterious reward"

"I can't guess"

"Just take a guess. It doesn't matter if you guess wrong."

"This house?"

She patted the sofa three times in a pretentious manner. The cat that was watching just now suddenly came to her and looked at her longingly. However, she hugged her and held it up to my eyes.

"Wrong, that’s it!"

Because I was too close to the cat, I subconsciously leaned back a little. She put the cat on her lap and asked me:"Have you forgotten it? You've saved it before."

Rescue a cat? There seems to be no such thing in my memory. The closest thing to rescuing this behavior seems to be just putting down a cat that ran into a tree a long time ago. Wait, that one was The cat I put down seemed to have the same coat color?

I took a closer look, but now I can’t remember what the cat looked like back then.

"Have it?"I asked

"You forgot, about a year ago, it ran up a tree and couldn't get down. It was meowing there, and it was you who climbed up.It saved you. At that time, it scratched you out of fear."

Is it really that cat? But why does she remember it so clearly, even knowing that I was scratched?

"Did you originally raise it?"

"No, I met it a few more times when I was passing by, and then I used a few cat strips to turn it back."

"oh"

"Get off the tree, get off the tree, your savior won’t even remember you"

"Is it called a tree?"

"Um. Sometimes I also call it Ashu or Shu, but it doesn't understand it. It understands that if you pat it three times in a row, there is something to eat. It took me a lot of cat strips to make it understand."

She rubbed her hands on the cat's head again, but this time the cat didn't say a word.

"Do you want to give it a try?"After that, she handed the cat to me, and I caught it subconsciously.

When I held it, its tail kept swaying from side to side, and its eyes looked straight at me, and it was like The moment I touched the silky soft and smooth hair, I understood why Alley liked to rub its head so much.

In fact, I kind of wanted to give it a try.

Since when have I been able to do it? I touched this softness.

That day, I stayed at her house for a long time without realizing it. I originally planned to go back after watching what she wanted me to see, but in the end, I just picked up the cat and hugged her. Time just slipped away for several hours.

"I'm going back"

"Then let's go have a meal together"

"good"

"If I see my house in a mess again when I come back, don’t even think about the cat strips in the next few days!"

Before leaving, Alley did not forget to train the cat again.

When he went out, the night was already very dark, and the snow on the road was very thick. After October passed, it will be the two coldest days of the year again. It’s 1 month.

We sat down in a noodle shop. While we were waiting, I looked boredly at the falling snow outside the window.

"Are you wearing a little less today? Isn't it cold?"

"not cold."I said.

Alley also looked out the window. After looking for a while, he suddenly asked:"If these snow and ice cream had the same flavor, would you secretly grab a handful and throw it into your mouth when you are free?"

"No, this is unhygienic"

"What if it's clean?"

"maybe"

"I can do it too"

"Speaking of ice cream, I know a place that sells delicious ice cream cakes. Would you like to try them out sometime?"

"good"

"My birthday is a long time away, when is your birthday?"

"September 21"

"September 21st? Wasn't that last month? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I forgot……"

She was speechless, and then suddenly remembered something and asked:"Hey, so you are 43 now?"

"It should be considered officially 42"

"Oh... Then in order to avoid you forgetting again, it’s better to choose a different day. Let’s go eat later."

"Don’t we still need to eat noodles?"

"You can buy a small portion and use it as dessert after a meal. Okay?"

"good."

Wait until we finish eatingWhen Tiao went to that cake shop again, he happened to have the last two pieces to sell, so he gave us a 30% discount, which was an unexpected surprise.

"Happy birthday to you! Although a month late……"She smiled awkwardly.

Since when did I never hear other people’s blessings to me?

"Thanks."Aware that I was absent-minded, I hurriedly replied

"Do you want to light more candles? It just so happens that there is no one in the store right now. You might as well ask the boss if he can turn off the lights."

"No need, that's fine"

"What about the birthday song? Do you want to sing it?"

"No need, that's fine……"

"Then just eat the cake"

"Um."

As she said, it is indeed a very delicious cake. The texture melts in your mouth, as if even I am about to melt with it."

"Let’s go have something to eat on your next birthday. You must not forget it then."On the way back after eating the cake, Alley told me

"Um"

"It doesn't matter if you forget, I will help you remember it"

"……"

"So, can you also help write down mine?"

"good"

"March 27th, don’t forget it."She looked at me happily, her eyes seemed to be filled with stars

"Um."

Since when have I been able to look directly into other people's eyes?

A few months later, one night when we were having dinner together, Alley suddenly said to me:"Well, Guangyuan... let me ask you, If you find it inconvenient to answer, you don't have to answer. You see, although we are not in the same department, we are in the same company. We usually walk together some of the way to and from work. Recently, some colleagues have seen us walking together often and are suspicious of us. , in this case, should we just live together?"

"……good."

Since when has there been one more person by your side?

Guangyuan.