I’ll Quit Being a God

It has been almost exactly one year since I uploaded the first chapter of "I'm Not a God Anymore" on May 15, 2020, to today, May 10, 2021.

In a year, I stumbled and finished writing a story that I had high hopes for. But when I wrote it, this story was completely different from what I had originally expected, and it could even be said to be completely unrecognizable. It was no longer what I expected.

Naturally, it was not what everyone expected.

I could never have imagined the situation today a year ago.

The past year was probably the most difficult time in my life.

My newborn son, cute and pitiful, broke into my life without scruples, broke all my original plans, and reshaped me into another person from the inside out.

My once smart and virtuous wife, tortured by postpartum depression, turned into a sharp hedgehog, stabbing both me and her.

Most of the time, I am always in a state of mania, pain and despair. I tried to change everything, tried to get my life back on track, to make my life as beautiful and stable as before, but postpartum depression is something that cannot be reversed by human power.

Every time I tried hard to change, I always found myself desperately unable to do anything, just like running on a dark night road, but never seeing where the light was.

So, exhausted, this story gradually deviated from my conception.

For a long time, I always stayed up late to write and update, and I could only write a few pitiful words at three or four in the morning, because I couldn't get into the writing state during the day.

The energetic, crying or laughing, always noisy son; the sharp hedgehog-like wife, even she didn't know when she would hurt me; and the many trivialities and social events in life... All these made me exhausted.

At first, I just tried to write the story a little simpler and less complicated, so that I could spend less energy on writing, so that I could spend more time with my family. But later, even this simple, uncomplicated, and not so exquisite story, I was almost unable to write it.

My updates began to be erratic and intermittent, and finally I became a real pigeon, a monthly update player, with only 20,000 to 30,000 words a month...

So, everything was irreversible.

The story I had imagined was a wild, primitive, full of bizarre imaginations, confrontations between different races, mythical beasts, and gods, a mysterious world similar to "Classic of Mountains and Seas". There were no fights between sects and factions, and not so many intrigues. I just wanted to write a fresh story that was light and not too worldly, and silently spread out a vast world of bizarre and dazzling.

But in the end, all this was never really realized.

I am naturally a sinner, and I am sorry for all the readers who paid to subscribe and wanted to see an interesting story.

Of course, I am even more sorry for Hedgehog Cat.

Because my previous stupid behavior had brought a great negative impact on Hedgehog Cat.

But all this finally ended with the completion of this book.

I finished writing this story with great difficulty, trying to come up with an ending that was as reasonable as possible on the twisted framework that had gone completely astray, just to put a final end to it all.

A bad ending is better than a eunuch.

Now that I have finished writing the last chapter, I have finally gotten rid of the heavy shackles of this book and can breathe a sigh of relief.

The name of July Wine Fairy can finally die.

There will be no July Wine Fairy in the future.

I can spend more time with my family and help my wife, who has recovered, take care of the children and let her rest. In the past year, not only did I suffer, but she also suffered. The adjustment of postpartum husband and wife life has worn us all over.

I hope that now that the adjustment is over and the married life has gradually begun to be better, it can heal all the wounds in her heart and make our children grow up healthily.

Finally, I wish you all good morning, good afternoon, and good night (laughing).

And don't get married!!!