Incurable Pain

[Nanke Yimeng in the Parallel World: If the lie will never be discovered]

The reason why Bai Xunyin has longing for the north is actually because he has read a poem by Liu Changqing before--

‘At sunset, the mountains are far away, and the sky is cold and white houses are poor.

Chaimen heard the dog bark, and returned home on a snowy night. ’

It sounded bleak and cold, as if the mood of ice and snow was blowing on the face.

But sometimes the less you see, the more you desire what happens.

Bai Xunyin grew up in the south of his childhood, and he has his own brains for Bingxue's pride, and of course he wants to see it, but he is not very persistent.

Especially after Yu Luoyin made this ‘wish’.

She was stunned, her heart pounding unconsciously, and after a while she asked dumbly: [Where do you want to take the exam? ]

"Lan University is pretty good." Yu Luoyin smiled, "Or do you have a school you want to go to?"

Lan Da? It's not bad indeed. It is convenient to take care of mom and dad if you stay in Lin Lan.

Bai Xunyin thought for a while and nodded: [I also think Lan Da is pretty good. ]

It is the existence of TOP3 in the country, so the score is naturally very high. If you want to be admitted to the ideal physics department, it will be even higher. I don't know if she can be admitted.

After the start of school, learning this matter is even more ranked first and the most important thing.

Therefore, occasionally, Yu Luoyin is unavoidably ignored.

Teenagers often annoyingly poked the girl’s thin backbone with a pen, and muttered: "Why have you ignored me lately?"

Bai Xunyin turned around and simply wrote: [Learning. ]

...

Yu Luoyin murmured: "Do you need to race against time like this?"

For Bai Xunyin's achievements.

The little girl smiled and wrote a sentence to him with a gulf in her chest: [I don't want to do things that are uncertain. ]

In other words, it is a risky matter. She is only willing to raise the possibility of her being able to pass the exam to ‘100%’.

Yu Luoyin's eyes flickered, and suddenly he felt like a salted fish.

[Moreover. ] Especially Bai Xunyin glanced at him and wrote: [Didn’t you say that you want to test Lan Da? ]

...

Yu Luoyin immediately felt even more embarrassed.

"All right." He chuckled, took the pen casually, and replied with a playful writing: [Starting today, as long as you study, as long as I study. ]

On the contrary, I want to compare this strength.

The most famous scene in the next class is the picture of the class sitting in the corner of the school grass school flower double learning tyrants looking down and studying day and night.

Almost all of the close friends know that they want to study Landa together.

Just listen

It's a godlike couple, many girls are envious to death.

But it's okay to be busy studying during the day. When people can't sleep in the middle of the night, Bai Xunyin will unconsciously think about some very realistic questions.

For example, if your own voice is changed to a new environment, will you still be subject to weird gaze and discrimination?

For example, even if they were admitted to a university... Will Yu Luoyin always like her?

The thoughts sounded a bit unfounded, but these worries are real.

Bai Xunyin was far less indifferent than she showed externally.

But she had no one to talk about these distresses except Amo, and even the closest mother could not talk about the feelings of these girls. I had to suffocate so hard, and while I was alone with Amo, I typed her on the phone ‘whispering is still to rest’ on the phone.

Her thoughts were messy and the narrative was not heady, but Amo knew her and could understand it.

After slightly understanding what Bai Xunyin was worried about, Amo froze for a moment and couldn't help but laughed out: "Yinyin, you are thinking too far, right now, if you and Yu Luoyin are like glue, then you can fall in love. That's it-are you still thinking about what will happen after many years?"

...

Shouldn't it be like this?

Bai Xunyin blinked a little unclearly.

"Yinyin, you just think too much and too far, well, this may be a common problem with your rigorous thinking." Amo pretended to be exaggerated and solemn, and said solemnly: "What I think is, I have wine now and I am drunk now."

It is a day to be able to live happily, so why do you think about it?

Bai Xunyin was stunned for a while, couldn't help but laugh, couldn't help feeling that what Amo said was reasonable.

Anyway, she went to university to study, and her relationship with Yu Luoyin was the adjustment. They liked each other and stayed together day after day. If they liked each other for more years, it might be a matter of course.

And if they don’t like each other in the end, it’s okay to separate.

Amo was right, she didn't need to worry about those things.

The two people did not meet for the two days in the scorching heat of the college entrance examination, as if they were deliberately asking each other to clean up their minds.

Until the end of the day, Bai Xunyin walked out of the school gate and saw Yu Luoyin waiting not far away under the tree.

The teenager did not wear a school uniform, a gray shirt and jeans, and his slightly long hair was messy.

He was obviously a little anxious, he had promised to quit smoking before, but now he was biting a cigarette at the corner of his lips.

Bai Xunyin took a long sigh of relief, and ran in three steps in two steps.

go with.

Yu Luoyin raised his head to see her slender and butterfly-like figure, and unconsciously walked forward two steps: "How was your exam?"

He is rarely nervous, and at a loss what to do with this strange feeling.

Yu Luoyin was relieved until he saw the girl in front of him smiled and nodded to him—because he knew that Bai Xunyin didn't lie, and since he said it well, it must have played well.

"It takes about half a month to get points." Yu Luoyin settled, and naturally took the schoolbag on Bai Xunyin's back and carried it on his own.

Both of them felt a feeling of'no debt and lightness' all over, and he couldn't help asking: "Should you go out and play around this time?"

Bai Xunyin was taken aback, and found that he hadn't really thought about what he wanted to do after the exam.

It seems that everything is over after the exam in my mind.

But go out and play...

Bai Xunyin hesitated for a while, typing and asking him: [Where to go? ]

"I haven't planned yet." Yu Luoyin smiled and raised an eyebrow at her slightly: "But if you agree to go out with me, I can plan right away."

...

Forget it.

Bai Xunyin's face turned red unconsciously, and he shook his head.

"What are you doing?" Yu Luoyin blinked pretentiously, "Is this rejecting me?"

[Lonely, lonely man and widow. Bai Xunyin pursed his lips and typed it to him like a stale: [It's not good to go out alone. ]

Yu Luoyin couldn't help laughing.

Bai Xunyin was even more embarrassed, and asked dryly: [What are you laughing at? ]

"Laughing at you...it's quite smart." Yu Luoyin's big slender hand patted her head, and he sighed with emotion: "I know the truth about the indispensability of a defensive heart, but it's a pity that I want to take advantage now, and I don't have this chance. Up."

It was obvious that he was deliberately acting like a disciple, and Bai Xunyin couldn't help but smile after hearing it for a while.

Two people stood under the big tree, and a few rays of sunlight came in through the layers of leaves, which happened to be spilled on the girl's body, with long eyelashes and lip corners, as if she was plated with a sacred gold border.

It happened that she was cleverly dressed in school uniform, which was even more inviolable.

Yu Luoyin suddenly felt a little itchy in his heart.

No other reason, just because today may be the last time the little girl wears school uniform... It seems a pity not to kiss her once.

The teenager licked the corners of his lower lips unconsciously, and his voice became a little dumb: "Yinyin."

Bai Xunyin was looking down at his phone. He didn't see the dangerous look in his wolves, tigers and leopards. He only raised his head in surprise--but what caught the eye was Yu Luoyin's magnified sword eyebrows and star eyes, dark eyes.

Eyelashes, close at hand.

And the most thrilling thing was the kiss he printed on the corner of his lips.

The taste is the same as that on him, the freshness of lemon mint.

Bai Xunyin unconsciously grasped the phone for a moment, his joints turned white, and he felt that the heart was about to stop suddenly.

Do girls feel this way when they experience the first kiss? It seems nervous...and reluctant to push him away.

And the boy who didn't say hello and acted arbitrarily tasted something new, and while raising his head slightly, he pursed his lips with inexplicable meaning.

"Good student." Yu Luoyin looked at Bai Xunyin's clear eyes and couldn't help but smile: "You don't know when a girl should close her eyes when kissing?"

Only then can there be the legendary ‘ambience’.

Bai Xunyin stared at him blankly for two seconds. Just when Yu Luoyin thought she would be ashamed and pushed him away, the little girl closed her eyes.

Very well-behaved, her pink face looks like a puppet cat.

Yu Luoyin was startled, then chuckled lightly and lowered his head again.

Intimate contact with this thing will make people know the taste.

Even if Bai Xunyin can't speak, she can express it with action-that is, she also wants to have Yu Luoyin.

By the time the university starts in September, the two people have become more and more natural in holding hands, hugging, kissing and other small gestures.

It turned out that there was no surprise. Both of them were successfully admitted to Lan University, and they were able to become "classmates" for four years if they got their wish.

It seems that adding a layer of other identities to the relationship can always be exciting.

And all the rest of life seemed to be calm and peaceful.

Yu Luoyin's Department of Astronomy and Bai Xunyin's Department of Physics are all majors with a lot of elective courses. Usually there is not much time to gather together, so I can eat together at night or on weekends.

I am very busy, but it is precisely the relationship with the ‘distance’ that can last longer.

In the summer vacation after the freshman year, Bai Xunyin was taken to a psychology clinic by Yu Luoyin. The female doctor named Lu Ying smiled and warned: "I will use hypnosis to bring you back..."

Bai Xunyin looked at her suspiciously.

"Hypnotherapy may be able to heal your trauma." Lu Ying paused and asked: "It's just that you may need to review the trauma--do you want to restore your voice?"

Bai Xunyin realized the purpose of Yu Luoyin's purpose, and he couldn't help but feel a little complicated and joyful for a while.

Although I have actually adapted to the days when I can’t talk, if I can return to a normal state, it’s not a good one.

Dumb, of course it is better.

So Bai Xunyin nodded.

During the process, Lu Ying's soft-sound guidance and the help of the instrument made Bai Xunyin quickly drowsy.

Before closing her eyes, she seemed to vaguely see her immature and thin self that summer after the end of the high school entrance examination many years ago.

Lu Ying "coaxed" Bai Xunyin to fall asleep, and then left the consulting room lightly. When she went out, she saw Yu Luoyin sitting on the bench waiting.

She raised her eyebrows: "Luo Yin, your girlfriend can't wake up for a while, you can go to the lounge and wait."

"Sister Lu, it's okay." Yu Luoyin smiled indifferently, and asked after thinking about it: "Is it possible for her to recover her voice?"

"I told you about the probability before. It's not that big." Lu Ying also smiled and answered honestly: "We need to look at opportunities, but..."

Yu Luoyin looked at her wanting to speak but stopped, and squinted, "What do you want to ask?"

"If she can't recover her voice, she can't talk all the time?" Lu Ying sighed, staring at him sharply, "Don't you like her?"

"Of course not." Yu Luoyin didn't even think about it, and said with confidence: "I will only like her alone."

"That's fine." Lu Ying sighed slightly, thinking of the past that Yu Luoyin had investigated and told her about the girl Bai Xunyin, she couldn't help but feel a little distressed: "This girl is very pitiful. Yes, I have encountered those things before."

"I don't like her because she is pitiful." Yu Luoyin smiled: "It's because she is worthy of liking."

And the past that he knew accidentally could only increase his pity.

In fact, these are quite coincidental.

During the period before the college entrance examination, he was used to sending Bai Xunyin home after school. One night he happened to meet a few sneaky men looking out the window of Bai Xunyin's house.

Yu Luoyin has a good memory, and immediately remembered that they came to look for Bai Xunyin during the Spring Festival, the few wretched men they met.

Yu Luoyin immediately became a little angry, and he called the police without hesitation.

In fact, it wasn't a big deal, but he deliberately exaggerated that it was these people who deliberately followed for the purpose of robbery.

Even if he finally said that he had disturbed the public security and lied to Yu Luoyin, he would admit it.

It's just that Yu Luoyin never expected that he actually helped the police to solve the case by accident.

These sneaky men are actually scammers who have let us off loan sharks before. The man in the lead also has the name "Liu Yi Scar", and the hideous scar on his long face is indeed terrifying.

Yu Luoyin pieced together a past about Bai Xunyin from the curses of these loan sharks and police investigations.

It turns out that these guys... are the culprits who forced Bai Hongsheng to jump off the building, and Bai Xun's loss of voice.

And this time, the adventure was squatting near Bai Xunyin's house, just to block Ji Huiying, and to take advantage of this special time before the college entrance examination to get a sum of money.

Fortunately, it was intercepted by Yu Luoyin by mistake.

It's just that the policeman in charge of the investigation was very happy and said the result to Yu Luoyin, but unexpectedly discovered that the boy was expressionless.

No, it should be said that the young boy's delicate and sharp face is somewhat taut, and the jaw line is harder.

The police asked with some confusion: "Classmate, what's the matter with you?"

...

"It's okay." After a long while, Yu Luoyin answered slowly, his face a little pale.

He just regretted calling the police too early and didn't **** beat the willow with his own hands.

After that, he unconsciously felt sorry for the little girl even more, and only after Yu Luoyin realized what was going on with his previous mentality.

It might be ‘guilt’, he shouldn’t be lying.

*

Hypnotherapy has been going on for many years.

Until Bai Xunyin's undergraduate, postgraduate and master's degree, he still continued his PhD.

She felt that she would definitely not be able to cure her in this life, but in fact she accepted this fact and did not feel sad as she imagined.

Because I have already got a lot, such as Yu Luoyin.

Bai Xunyin didn't know how Yu Luoyin persuaded his parents to accept her mute. In short, the two got married when she just graduated with a master's degree last summer.

A natural feeling that comes naturally.

Before receiving the certificate, Bai Xunyin once asked him seriously: [I am a dumb, don't you mind that the people next to your pillow will be so quiet in the next few decades? ]

When the love is strong, even if the person you love has thousands of shortcomings, you can ignore it. But getting married together is a matter of firewood, rice, oil and salt. It will take decades to come. Bai Xunyin doesn't want him to regret it in the future.

Yu Luoyin smiled when he heard the words, and looked like he didn't mind.

He just said: "Bai Xunyin, do you know that compared to your strengths, not being able to speak is not a problem at all-anyway, I can talk by myself, you don't have to be too noisy."

He said, grabbing the girl's ID card and household registration book.

Bai Xunyin looked at his thin and tall back and was dragged by him to follow him. She couldn't speak, but the smile on her lips couldn't stop.

That's a kind of rushing to the truth

Love is enthusiasm, regardless of recklessness and regret.

No matter what happens in the future, she will not regret it.

In fact, for a boy like Yu Luoyin, Bai Xunyin initially only thought he was a dream he had when he was young, a mirage, a mirror image...

But I didn't expect them to pass so many years without any surprises.

Perhaps one day, her own voice will be good, and Yu Luoyin will hear her voice.

After all, Benham once said that a miracle is a miracle in the eyes of those who believe in it.

Hope is always the most passionate word.

...

Yu Luoyin suddenly woke up from his dream, feeling severe chest tightness and a thin layer of sweat on his forehead.

He breathed a little fast and heavy, and took a few heavy breaths, until Bai Xunyin in his arms fell into his arms half-wake and half-dreamed. He was dissatisfied and murmured: "Why does my heart beat so fast in the middle of the night?"

Her sleepy voice whispered, obviously not awake.

Bai Xunyin murmured, then found a comfortable place in the man's arms and fell asleep.

So she didn't even notice that Yu Luoyin was going through a ‘cold sweat fight’.

He didn't wake up until the whole person withdrew from the dream just now.

It was already early in the morning, and the white light came in through the dark gray curtains, faintly bright.

Yu Luoyin stared at the ceiling blankly for a long time. The dream just now was still fresh in his memory, not at all like the state he used to forget when he woke up from a dream.

He knew that it should have been a nightmare caused by his ‘regrets’ for so many years.

In Nan Ke Yimeng, he and Bai Xunyin have been together forever. They have learned about the girl's past in another way, but they have never cured her pain.

They live a sweet and regretful life, but in fact they may not be better than they are now.

It seems that every change in life is a complement to each other.

After a long while, Yu Luoyin's eyes fell on the woman in his arms.

The dark environment couldn't be seen clearly, but he found it by instinct, bowed his head and kissed the sound-seeking lips of his kiss.

Fortunately, they lived well together.

*Don't give up what you were originally determined to achieve-Shakespeare, just because of one setback.

Nanke Yimeng in the Parallel World. End.

The author has something to say: return to reality and raise a cub