Indescribable cyberpunk

Last night I read the thoughts mentioned in a chapter posted by one of my favorite authors, Eunuch Shi, and I felt a lot of emotion.

I have been sitting in front of the computer today, writing and deleting, but I always feel that I can't write what I want to write. This feeling of depression really makes me extremely uncomfortable, but in the end I still have no idea of ​​​​writing two chapters.

Fox's updates have always been a problem. Sometimes there are two updates, sometimes one update, and occasionally three updates. It doesn't mean that I can't write. As a writer of online articles, the number of words is a basic skill. I don't say it's great, but it's not bad. Where to go.

But recently, I always feel that I seem to have fallen into a bottleneck.

This state is very strange. Sometimes I write very smoothly and in one go, and I can finish a few thousand words very quickly.

Sometimes it is extremely difficult, and I am never satisfied with what I write, so that after writing hundreds of words and reading them over and over again, I can only silently delete them all.

The fox is tortured every time like this, because what he spends so much time writing can only turn into a bunch of meaningless data.

Many people think that I am relaxed, but at this time, the fox dares to say that he is under great pressure like them.

I began to review what I had written and considered more and more things. The divergence and progression of the plot made me tired and anxious.

This is not a complaint, the fox even thinks it is a good thing!

To be honest, this is the first time the fox has felt this way (in the previous books, the fox can say without hesitation that the plots collapsed in the middle period, but the indescribable storyline is still self-consistent so far. Yes, the possible subsequent development also has a clear context in the fox's mind, at least in the fox's personal view.)

In a sense, this book is the first time I have truly entered the development of a novel in the middle and late stages. Although I am a little ashamed, this is a fact.

Perhaps it was my previous experiences that made me extremely afraid of the ending and the collapse of the plot, so that all I thought about every day was the outline, plot, and foreshadowing.

I know that my level may be very limited. I am an ordinary person who has not read enough books or watched enough movies. My literary foundation is limited to some things that everyone has seen.

There is not enough ink in my stomach.

What's funny is that I've never felt this way before.

In fact, this makes me feel more embarrassed and panicked than the decline in subscriptions or collections, but as mentioned above, I can vaguely feel that this state of affairs should be a good thing.

This is a process that anyone who writes novels should and must go through.

Of course, I mean authors like me.

No matter how I imagine my level, shortcomings are shortcomings. Even though I have been writing for several years, I still think that my level is average. Maybe I can make up for it with some whims, but if I am satisfied with my current level, then I'm a complete idiot.

I'm trying to make amends, I want to make changes.

Please give me, an ordinary author, some time and patience.

Thanks.

Another note: After saying so much, Fox actually doesn’t know what he said, so I just treat it as my personal complaint. If it makes everyone feel that the sanity level has dropped, Fox would like to apologize in advance.

Another 2: There is a recent cold wave, please keep warm.