Infinite Bloodcore

The latest website: When "Gu Zhenren" was banned, I had a hard time.

During that time, I had severe insomnia, bad mood, and too much stress. Daily exposure to the evening sun increases the secretion of melanin. Usually, I move a small bench and sit in front of the window.

"The Little Prince", "The Ordinary World", "The Kite Runner", "The Moon and Sixpence"... These books are almost all read during this time period.

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Sometimes I hide my scrolls and meditate, and sometimes I am moved to tears.

One day, I looked up and suddenly found that my life has always been full of sunshine and beauty. Darkness and pain are more from the self-exile of the soul.

It's like the avatar boy who has the ears of a manta monkey, suddenly feels the sound of nature, and appreciates the beauty of nature.

All difficulties are no longer difficulties.

This experience prompted me to think: where is the value of literary works?

No one's life can be smooth sailing. Life is not easy, there are many trials and tribulations. I was lucky enough to see these works, they were like lights in the dark when I was in pain, giving me the strength to break through my mental barriers.

Come to think of it, this is actually a very romantic thing.

I don't know how many years ago, in a place far away from where I live now, there is such a person, he (she) weaved a lantern with his own efforts, and put his spirit and soul into it as a lamp. Then put it into the long river of human history and float on the river.

People who are fortunate enough to see such lights, whether he (she) is in the upper stream, lower stream or middle stream, whether it is a stormy sea or a beautiful moon. This light can bring him (her) heart touch and feel the beauty in it. Or love, or the pursuit of dreams, or the thinking of life, or the search for truth.

Humans are lonely, their lifespans are limited, they are very small, and the entire human race is actually very fragile. We have always lived on the earth. One virus has the potential to disrupt the entire human society. Race, culture, and geography separate people from each other, even with the Internet so developed today. Such lights, however, cross these barriers.

Those who make the lights, across the borders of race, religion, geography, and time, tell others: I have lived, I have thought,

I have been so moved. This is my light, and I especially hope that I can use this insignificant light to help others as much as possible. Even if it is just a touch of emotion, it is the greatest consolation in life.

Perhaps this is where the value of literary works is reflected.

In fact, when I wrote "Gu Zhenren", I had this feeling. When I communicate with the readers, the happiest time is not when the readers say which chapters they are happy with, nor when they discuss the settings of Gu insects. But I remember some classmates said that I hope to learn from Fang Yuan's spirit of never giving up. I drew strength from "Gu Zhenren" and achieved good results in the final exam. My family was struggling and my parents were divorced. I used to feel that my life was terrible, but I found new hope in Fang Yuan's perseverance.

The old ancestors have a word, which is very subtle - it is called seeing the wise and thinking about it.

These past creative experiences and life experiences triggered my impulse to create "Infinite Blood Core".

Rather than writing a book, it is better to want to light a lamp.

Even if the light of this lamp is extremely weak, I would like to do my best to help some friends who may experience a moment of darkness and pain like me. Give them some strength.

What I hope is that when we encounter difficulties in life, when we are misunderstood, spurned, hated, when we are deceived by life, when we are tormented by our own dreams, and even when we commit ourselves, it is difficult for us to forgive ourselves. When I was wrong, I recalled the roar of the substitute boy——

"I'm not needle gold."

"I'm not a genius either."

"I have no noble blood in me."

"I'm not a Templar."

...

"My original memory has been erased, and my current memory has been instilled by others, and it is still incomplete."

"You all know your names."

"I'm not as good as you, because I don't even know my own name."

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"We were born ordinary."

"We are ostracized and hated."

"We were betrayed by our loved ones."

"We don't always get fair treatment."

"We've also sinned, and we can't forgive ourselves."

"We were spurned, exiled, wanted, mocked. So what?"

"Shouldn't we think about it?"

"Shouldn't we do it?"

"The reality has made us so miserable, life is so unbearable that we can only get better if we think about it."

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No matter what, you should pursue the beauty in life.

The sun is always there.

Just do we look up?

This creative concept began to sprout in the late stage of "Gu Zhenren", and the writing of "Ancestors of People" brought me a lot of inspiration in my life. When "Gu Zhenren" was banned, he clearly realized this. When it came to "Infinite Blood Core", it was my official attempt and development.

Only in this way can we live up to this life.

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August 30, 2020.