Infinite Bloodcore

Chapter 77: Life still has to go on

"ah--!"

"Don't come here, don't come here!"

Zidi ran away in embarrassment.

And Zhenjin chased the girl closely.

"I'm so hungry, I'm so hungry!" Zhen Jin completely transformed into a silver spear scorpion. He was defeated by hunger and his mind was filled with thoughts of eating.

Zidi was finally forced to the bottom of the cave and tripped over a stone and fell to the ground.

Zhen Jin pounced hard on her body, launching his huge claws and sharp scorpion tail fiercely.

Poof.

Zidi was dismembered in an instant, blood spattered, dyeing the bottom of the cave red, and dyeing Zhen Jin's entire field of vision red.

The next moment, Zhen Jin suddenly opened his eyes.

He saw the dark night sky.

He gasped for breath, and the cool air filled his chest and lungs. His pupils gradually expanded to normal size, and his mood gradually calmed down.

Nightmare.

He had a nightmare.

In this nightmare, he turned into a gun scorpion, attacked Zidi, and used the girl as food to satisfy his hunger and survive.

Zhen Jin quietly sat up.

He broke out in a cold sweat.

Looking around, Zidi was sleeping peacefully beside him, while Bai Ya and Lan Zao were lying not far away.

After hearing what Cang Xu said, Zhenjin knocked out the blue algae and placed it.

As for Cang Xu, he was responsible for keeping watch until half the night.

The bonfire was still burning quietly, and the flame was half smaller than before, but it still provided a steady stream of warmth.

The firelight reflected on Zhen Jin's face, and the young knight's expression looked uncertain.

"Why do I have such nightmares?"

"Is it because I have been worried and afraid of this magic crystal in my heart?"

This is a very normal psychological reaction.

Imagine that a normal person suddenly grows horns or a tail, or has tumors all over his body. Can he not be worried and afraid?

No one has a magic core, but Zhenjin happened to grow one.

Moreover, this magic core is very mysterious, weird and powerful. It can turn Zhenjin into a monster and absorb the blood of living creatures.

"I can't use my fighting spirit. I can only use it when I'm in danger."

"Sigh... If you can't use it in the future, I'd better try not to use it."

"Who knows what the serious consequences could be?"

Zhen Jin subconsciously touched his heart.

He was afraid that if he abused the magic core, he would one day turn into a beast and monster, never to be human again.

Zhen Jin felt that this magic crystal had begun to seduce him, tempting him to slaughter people and sacrifice innocent people to gain more strength and power.

"On the other hand, I'm also afraid of becoming a cyanobacteria." Zhenjin glanced at the cyanobacteria in the distance.

To be honest, he can understand blue algae.

And this understanding is very profound.

Because acupuncture once faced the same choice as cyanobacteria.

Hunger can drive people crazy, it can make Acupuncture turn into a gun scorpion to steal gold and stone, it can make Zidi feel that the cooling lava is like burnt chocolate bread, and it can make Cangxu grab a handful of sand and want to eat it. It makes them not miss anything they can eat, and they feel that jerboa meat and lizard meat are supremely delicious.

In addition to understanding, Zhen Jin also had fear and fear in his heart.

"If I had chosen to eat white buds as food, would the blue algae look like now be my fate?"

"Although Bai Ya is not my biological brother, I will always be tortured and tortured by my good thoughts, morality, and knightly glory."

"I will live like a blue-green algae!"

Zhen Jin felt very heavy.

Because he naturally thought: "Will I become such a person in the future?"

When returning to the volcano cave and carrying Bai Ya on his back, the young knight told himself - I have not fallen.

However, he was very clear: he had many ideas. The selfishness, evil, shamelessness, and despicability of those thoughts made it almost impossible for Zhen Jin to face himself afterwards.

In addition to understanding, fear, and heaviness, Zhenjin also has a spontaneous compassion for cyanobacteria.

"In order to survive, he became a beast."

"He killed his own brother."

"Afterwards, he came to this oasis again. This arrangement is simply a trick and mockery of fate."

"The blue algae regretted it. Maybe they found the oasis earlier, and maybe if they persisted a little longer, the blue algae would not die."

"The extreme remorse made him unable to believe Huang Zao's death, and he desperately rejected the fact that he killed his own brother."

"Even if his vision is normal, he still firmly believes that the yellow algae is still alive and there is hope of being saved."

"He lied to himself and tried his best to lie to himself. He fell into his own fantasy. Only in this way could he escape the condemnation of conscience and the torture of morality."

"The oasis was real, but he was trapped in his own mirage."

"But everything is just a fantasy after all."

"Our appearance and attitude burst the bubble of fantasy, and the ruthless reality and truth were once again placed before Cyanobacteria's eyes."

"And this time, he has no way to avoid it, no way to lie to himself."

"As Cang Xu said before, people who survive in the desert will collapse due to mirages. This is exactly the case with cyanobacteria, and the situation is even worse."

Frankly speaking, if Zhen Jin had not experienced life and death, he would have despised, disgusted, and hated the current blue algae, and would probably adopt Zidi's suggestion.

However, after experiencing so much personally, the young knight's body and mind have undergone tremendous changes.

"He is our companion. I once said that I will do my best to save everyone, so I will help him." This was after Zhenjin faced two completely different suggestions from Cang Xu and Zidi at the bonfire before. decision made.

Then, he stood up and brought half a bowl of coconut water and barbecued meat to Lan Zhao.

Blue Algae didn't react at all, still staring blankly at Yellow Algae's body.

In the end, the needle gold could only knock out the blue-green algae.

Why did you make this decision to help cyanobacteria?

Zhen Jin also felt strange at the time.

But now, he understands a little bit: "Maybe it's because of a desire in my heart. I hope that if one day I fall into the situation of blue algae, I also hope that outsiders can help me."

But Zhen Jin knew very well that he couldn't really help Cyanobacteria.

Cyanobacteria's problem is not external, but internal.

Zhen Jin was even doubting and asking himself whether people like Lan Zhao should help.

Human society has ethics and morals, so the ethics and morals of the Templars must be higher than the standards of the public. Such behavior by cyanobacteria is undoubtedly anti-moral and anti-ethical.

"Am I right to save people like Lan Zhao?"

"Did I save him because I saw myself in him?"

“Am I making excuses for my possible depravity?”

At this moment, looking at the swaying flames, Zhen Jin felt that he was hesitant and wavering.

He initially took control of the magic crystal in his heart and became very powerful. He had enough food and water to escape the crisis.

But the young knight felt weak.

he asked himself in his heart.

"What kind of person am I?"

"I'm very afraid of death. Can I continue to uphold the spirit of chivalry and shoulder the responsibilities of my family?"

"Am I a selfish person?"

“What would I choose if I were in the same situation that I was in before Cyanobacteria?”

"If I choose not to eat, then I will lose my life and cannot reach the oasis. If I choose to eat, then I will live a life worse than death."

"Which choice is right?"

Zhenjin faced himself bravely, and he did not use his core as an excuse to avoid his true self.

Zhenjin couldn't answer his own question.

Every time he thinks about it, every time he faces these problems, every time he is mentally tortured, part of the strong self-confidence he had before will be lost, and then part of it will be lost again.

Zhen Jin knew very well: when he rescued Bai Ya, he told himself that he had not fallen. This is actually just a subconscious denial. Who doesn’t want to be brave? Who doesn't want light? Who doesn’t want to be upright and free from any moral debt?

"However, Cang Xu's words...are indeed not unreasonable."

Zhenjin is really thinking.

This kind of thinking forces oneself to face the deepest ugliness and darkness of one's own humanity, which is undoubtedly very painful.

She lost confidence in herself and fell into deep self-doubt.

Beside the bonfire late at night, the knight boy quietly stood up and half-knelt on the ground.

He lowered his head, covered his heart with his hand, faced the direction of Shengming Continent, and began to repent.

"O God, Holy Emperor, my great Lord. Under your gaze, the world is bright, and the shadows flee in panic. Now, your believers, your knights repent to you, just because I have fallen into the mire of my soul. Please Your Spirit illuminates me and makes the shadow of my corruption, ugliness, filth and filth disappear. I beg you to forgive my sins in my thoughts and thoughts..."

The long confession is over.

The gentle night wind blew in the young knight's ears.

Everything was as expected by Zhen Jin - the god did not respond.

The young man sighed sadly.

Zi Di slept soundly.

Bai Ya lay flat in the grass, while Blue Alga curled up and lay on its side on the ground, like a shrimp.

Both men had frowns and expressions of pain—both of them were struggling.

Time passes, the night fades, and the sun rises, casting a scorching light.

Just like countless days and nights before, nature is still operating according to its unchanging laws.

Any distress, sadness, pain, confusion, etc., seem to be pretentious in this vast nature.

The world is big and the world is the biggest.

Before wealth, power, beauty and honor, there must be food and water.