Infinite Life: Trapped in a lifetime

The last life, for Mo Dao, was like taking a long nap.

Although I haven't done anything since I woke up,

But there is nothing to regret.

After a lifetime like this,

The sense of futility and frustration accumulated previously,

And in the constant repetition, some people and things will inevitably begin to repeat themselves, bringing about a strong sense of resistance.

There are also various emotions superimposed, some indescribable irritability,

He even wanted to tear everything in front of him into pieces.

It seems that some of it has been worn away, and my mood is much calmer again.

The only thing that may not be alleviated may be some sadness.

He spent another life with Miss Qin Huaishi,

And he was separated once again from the girl Qin Huaishi who had spent his whole life with him.

"Susu..."

In a quiet classroom,

Mo Dao could hear some rustling sounds coming from behind him, from the row behind.

Maybe Miss Qin Huaishi is writing something,

Relying on his clear memory, Mo Dao almost never had to look back.

In his mind, he restored the movements and face of the girl Qin Huaishi behind him at this moment.

After a pause, Mo Dao turned his head and glanced at Qin Huaishi.

The young girl Qin Huaishi was a little dazed.

But she still cast a probing look. She wanted to know what happened to Mo Dao and if there was anything wrong?

Mo Dao smiled, not knowing why.

…

"It was too late, but it was so fast. I rushed over quickly and grabbed the last pit..."

"Awesome."

The senior high school classroom between classes,

Half noisy, half quiet.

People who feel sleepy feel as if their energy has been drained out of them after class. They lie down on the table and close their eyes to rest.

There was also a time when I was so energetic after class that I wanted to jump up to the roof.

Mo Daoan sat in his original position,

The deskmate next to him, Fu Hui, was talking about "stand-up comedy" with another classmate standing in front of him.

Qin Huaishi, a girl in the row behind Mo Dao, was concentrating on doing an exercise paper.

In this environment, Mo Dao was thinking about something.

After taking a lifetime to relax and calm down some of the accumulated emotions,

At this moment, I stand at the starting point of this life again,

There are some issues before us that we have to consider.

…

The voyage goal of the previous life was not realized in that life.

At this moment, should we regroup and once again spend countless lifetimes reaching this distant goal?

In fact, Mo Dao does not necessarily have to achieve the goal of a voyage to Proxima Centauri.

No one can ask anything from him.

This is simply his own choice.

The only driving force is actually wanting to see a world I have never seen before.

He can actually give it a try now and live a different life.

Be a warmonger, be a literary and artistic worker,

Be a more thorough explorer than in the first life and explore some more remote and dangerous places.

Even try to unify the entire world...

But the problems that had driven him crazy before came back again.

No matter what he does, no matter how many times he climbs to the top, and the countdown reaches zero, he will be slapped back to his original position instantly.

Everything he does is actually in vain.

In fact, he is trapped in this life,

Even if the seventy years from this life to the age of eighty-eight are long enough for ordinary people,

But with more and more rebirths, these seventy years will still become more and more like a cage in time.

I originally chose the goal of sailing because this goal cannot be achieved in one or two lifetimes.

He can spend one, two or more lives in the direction of this goal without being tormented by a sense of futility.

Besides, he had already enjoyed such moments of cheering for him too many times.

Although it seemed a little strange, he was indeed a little tired of it.

He will also be happy when he leads a successful battle for the first time as a general,

As a traveler, he will also be a little excited when others admire the photos he has taken and the scenery he has experienced.

As the spiritual leader of the Kelna youth, when the Kelna youth cheered for him, it was difficult to say that he did not have any emotion.

But now, let Mo Dao become a famous litterateur, famous composer, and famous explorer,

Accept the cheers from the same people again in almost the same era, even if the content of their cheers is different,

But it was hard for him to feel very excited.

To a certain extent, for Mo Dao, this is also a simple repetition.

As for the voyage to Proxima Centauri, it can be regarded as artificially created by Mo Dao himself, an obsession to look at the driving forces of different worlds.

But if you still want to try a long voyage.

There is also an unavoidable problem that needs to be faced.

…

This was a time when Mo Dao devoted himself to scientific research.

A problem has arisen.

——He wants to create an unprecedented world and era by developing productivity.

But within a lifetime, within seventy years, there is a limit to the development of productive forces.

After the life that created the Search Institute ended,

The problem becomes even more apparent.

It was like he was trapped in a closed room,

If you want to get more space for activities, you can only smash the surrounding walls.

But the problem is, whether he throws money with his bare hands first, or upgrades and improves the tools to break the wall, it will take time.

As soon as the time was up, he was locked back in the original room... In this case, at this specific time, breaking the wall was just equivalent to being trapped in a larger room with the same limits.

And this limit,

The performance of the lifetime after passing through the Research Institute may be closer than expected.

Even though Mo Dao possesses more advanced technologies from previous lives,

But technology is rising step by step.

Starting from the pinnacle creation of that life, the Star, we can work backwards.

Building it requires a helium-3 fusion reactor, a high-power electric propulsion engine, and intelligent machinery.

And these require the completion of the Suigu Project and the large-scale development of the moon and other planets in the solar system.

The large-scale development of these planetary satellites requires high productivity support.

High productivity needs to be based on the changes of the times brought about by deuterium-tritium fusion reactors.

Finally, deuterium-tritium fusion has gone from theoretical design to actual implementation.

It will take time for it to spread throughout China.

This time is directly affected by the productivity at this moment, at the beginning of a lifetime.

The basis of productivity at this time cannot be changed.

And even if the technology of long-distance spacecraft advances further, it will still be based on the Star.

By pushing forward the technology step by step,

Sooner or later, even if Mo Dao can complete the design of the next generation spacecraft,

In the seventy years that Mo Dao was alive, it could not be built.

That is to say,

I don’t know what kind of technology can be developed in the past seventy years or the limits of the changes of the times.

It is probably determined based on the productivity at the beginning of each life.

This is, besides the sense of futility, the second abyss-like problem that lies in front of Mo Dao...

And, can this technological limit support human long-distance spacecraft to reach Proxima Centauri?

This is something Mo Dao cannot be sure of at this moment.

Even more, coupled with the time required for the voyage itself, this technical limit will only get closer.

"...Hey, Brother Mo, what major are you going to major in? My dad asked me to study..."

Next to me, my deskmate Fu Hui was talking about ‘stand-up comedy’,

Another commonplace topic was mentioned.

When Mo Dao heard this, he raised his head and glanced at Fu Hui.

No answer was given for a while.