Infinite Life: Trapped in a lifetime

Early November 27.

After leaving the airport, Mo Dao followed Qin Huaishi's arrangement and had a meal first.

After dinner, the two of them walked along the somewhat busy streets without deliberately going anywhere.

Just walking forward and talking.

The time between this reunion was not very long for Mo Dao and the two of them.

The last time Mo Dao was invited to attend the National Day ceremony in October, two invitation letters were given to Mo Dao, and Qin Huaishi stood beside Mo Dao.

When they met again this time, the two were just as usual,

Qin Huaishi told Mo Dao in detail some things in his life and work over the past month.

Mo Dao talked about the details that have not been presented in public reports during interviews or reports and investigations over the past few months.

Although many of the contents were occasionally mentioned in previous online contacts, they still listened quietly.

A lot has happened in ten years, but Mo Dao and Qin Huaishi seem to be the same.

"What's wrong?"

Modao stopped and looked at Qin Huaishi.

Qin Huaishi turned his head, looked at Mo Dao, and asked.

Mo Dao just shook his head and said nothing.

Qin Huaishi looked at Mo Dao, then lowered his head, seeming to be thinking about something.

In these ten years,

Qin Huaishi graduated with a master's degree and a Ph.D. Because of his outstanding scientific research achievements, he currently stays at Capital University to teach and conduct scientific research.

When Mo Dao was gradually given the prefix of 'legend' as a war correspondent,

Qin Huaishi is also carrying out her studies and work.

The relationship between the two maintains a very special state.

Apart from each other, the two of them have no other close friends of the opposite sex.

When Mo Dao finishes a dangerous investigative report, he will inform Qin Huaishi.

When Mo Dao returns to China, Qin Huaishi will come to pick him up.

When Mo Dao leaves again, Qin Huaishi will also send Mo Dao to the airport.

While Mo Dao was in the country, Qin Huaishi would also take time out to walk around with Mo Dao.

Maybe it's a scenic spot, maybe it's like this, walking along the street, or finding a place to sit.

In the past ten years, Qin Huaishi never left, but he never asked Mo Dao to make any decision or choice.

Just standing with Mo Dao in this state.

Even the people around them acquiesced in the special state of Mo Dao and Qin Huaishi.

For example, two invitations to the National Day ceremony were sent to Mo Dao.

"Mo Dao."

"Um?"

Qin Huaishi raised his head again and looked at Mo Dao.

Mo Dao also looked at Qin Huaishi.

Qin Huaishi is over thirty-two years old this year. Although her appearance is still graceful,

But his eyebrows are still much more mature than before.

"Actually, I've always liked your...reporting."

Qin Huaishi looked into Mo Dao's eyes and said seriously,

Mo Dao also looked at Qin Huaishi.

"certainly……"

Qin Huaishi stood on tiptoe and came closer.

"Like you too."

Qin Huaishi whispered to Mo Dao.

Then, Qin Huaishi turned red from behind his ears to his neck,

But he still stared at Mo Dao closely, not avoiding Mo Dao's gaze because of shyness.

It really fits the style of Qin Huai's poetry.

Shy, but never lacking in courage.

Once the decision was made, it was a straight shot.

However, Qin Huaishi's words did not receive an immediate response from Mo Dao.

Qin Huaishi, on the other hand, was not angry or disappointed, but just waited quietly.

Not long ago, an elder sister in the laboratory suddenly heard that she and Mo Dao were still not together.

I can’t help but ask, why are you two making such slow progress?

Then I persuaded her that if it didn't work, she could just tell her the truth.

She just smiled at the elder sister and said nothing.

She never lacked courage.

However, she seemed to be able to feel that Mo Dao had a deep 'fear'.

but,

Soon, Qin Huaishi heard an answer that was completely beyond her expectation.

"...Can I just love you for the rest of my life?"

"ah?"

Qin Huaishi's originally serious face looked a little confused.

Mo Dao looked at Qin Huaishi's appearance and smiled, then stopped smiling and looked a little dazed.

Qin Huaishi felt that there was something right about it to some extent.

‘Legendary reporter’ Mo Dao does have a kind of ‘fear’.

Or rather than saying 'fear', it's more about instinctively escaping from a possibility.

He and Qin Huaishi seemed to be standing very close at the moment, but in fact, they were 'very far apart'.

To a certain extent, Qin Huaishi's life was just Mo Dao's 'day'.

There is another issue that sounds a bit unethical.

That is, if Mo Dao is with Qin Huaishi in this life, what about the next life?

If we continue to be together in the next life, what about the next life?

The reason for considering this issue is precisely because Mo Dao's morality has not yet collapsed, and his concept of time has not completely changed.

And most importantly,

That is, if Mo Dao is really together with Qin Huaishi, then Mo Dao really wants to still have this relationship in the next life.

but,

Mo Dao really had no confidence that he could be with Qin Huaishi for 'life after life'.

Even if he can make this decision now, what about him in the future?

Just say now, how similar is he now to him in the first life?

Even, continue to think about it,

You will find that this issue has nothing to do with morality and loyalty to feelings,

But an abyss - if Mo Dao and Qin Huaishi were together for a hundred lifetimes, what kind of state would Qin Huaishi be in Mo Dao's eyes?

All her thoughts, actions, and words were transparent to Mo Dao... like a complex machine repeating predetermined processes and results.

"This is the problem..."

Qin Huaishi recovered from his confusion.

Mo Dao's words were a response to her love.

Qin Huaishi smiled, but still thought seriously and answered Mo Dao's somewhat strange question.

"If we have another life, this isn't something you should worry about."

"In my next life, I will make you fall in love with me."

"What if I'm a bastard in my next life?"

"Hmm... have you heard of the male and female evil spirits?"

Qin Huaishi raised his eyebrows at Mo Dao and then replied.

Mo Dao couldn't help but laugh after hearing this.

In fact, this question...is meaningless.

Qin Huaishi made any answer for her in the next life.

But... Mo Dao still fell in love with her in the next life.

In fact, she has done it many times.

When ‘restarting’ and ‘reading files’ for the same life goal,

Mo Dao may have been suffering from this long process of 'reading files', but during the time he spent with Qin Huaishi, Mo Dao never got tired of it.

Mo Dao stretched out his hand and hugged Qin Huaishi.

Qin Huaishi just kept quiet and hugged Mo Dao,

"...If in the next life, there is a little girl who looks like you, has the same personality as you, and is also named Qin Huaishi, she says she likes me, but she is not you, what should I do?"

"Then she is me."

Qin Huaishi responded to Mo Dao's words, and then continued to embrace Mo Dao,

"Mo Dao... I feel like you are a little sad."

"Um."

In response, the two ended their embrace.

As if knowing that Mo Dao didn't want to say more, Qin Huaishi didn't ask any more questions.

The two just continued walking along the street and continued talking about some of the topics they had been talking about before.

Nothing seemed to change, except that the two put their hands together.

In the long cycle of time, Mo Dao will not miss anything in this world.

Life is like a river that flows repeatedly by his side.

What has flowed through will flow back upstream after a while, and whenever he wants, he can fish it out of the river.

But Mo Dao still chose to reach out at this time.

Because there is only this life of Qin Huaishi in this life.

…

The relationship between Mo Dao and Qin Huaishi has changed, but their relationship has not changed much.

There is no emotion like a raging flood,

There is only a trickle like a gurgling stream.

After spending some time as usual.

Mo Dao continued his journey as a war reporter in this life.

Qin Huaishi still went to the airport to see him off.

Then, time continued to pass.

One year, two years...