Infinite reincarnation of glory

Zheng Zha felt very sad.

He thought that even if he was not the strongest in the team, he could at least secure his second position. And given time, he and Jiang Yu couldn't tell who had higher combat power.

However, now, all the companions who are one level behind him have activated the second level. The distance between two and three is greater than expected - after learning that the Lord God divides the levels of reincarnators based on whether the gene lock is turned on or not. The importance of strengthening the exchange level is naturally placed below the gene lock opening level. But at this time, I was stuck in this key position!

Gan!

Gene locks do not require rounding, and two point nine nine nine nine nine cannot be regarded as three!

——Why am I stuck here?

He secretly gritted his teeth. The previous techniques derived from gravity bombs that could use blood energy more effectively could not make him feel better. He saw Jiang Yu sharing his third-level gene with others. Lock experience. And a word mixed in the exchange suddenly floated to his ears along the wind, and its presence was very powerful.

"...The key may be to follow your heart. When I jumped, I finally realized that my heart just didn't want to settle for the status quo..."

It seems to make some sense. Indeed, Jiang Yu seems to be a guy who is really uneasy with the status quo. Otherwise, it would have been impossible for him to distribute the T-Virus to everyone and take the lead in the return journey, so that "returning to the previous world to mine resources" has become a traditional practice for the Central Continent team. And...he has indeed felt a little timid recently.

That feeling seems to have started when he was regarded as the hidden captain by default. After gaining recognition, Jiang Yu still rushed to the first one when encountering problems as usual. But when it comes to considering the team as a whole, he is much more cautious - he will take into account everyone's role when making plans, and will check everyone's status one by one when speaking, voting, and taking action to ensure No one should feel left out. The most obvious manifestation is his awkward-sounding college student speaking skills.

——This is normal... Jiang Yu is only nineteen years old. His blood is still cold, no matter whether it is a crisis or a responsibility, he dares to bear it head on.

——The responsibilities and obligations of the team leader really constrain his nature. The opportunity for him to unlock the third-level gene lock was to face his own nature and follow his heart.

——So... what is my nature, my true intention?

The sadness faded away silently, replaced by confusion. Zheng Zha felt as if he had returned to the state of confusion before arriving in the world of reincarnation. Self-indulgence, dissoluteness... Every day is the same as the day before, boring and decadent. The borderline of decay and depravity was right under my feet, and I had even taken half a step out of it.

So...what changed all this?

Is it because of a life and death crisis? ——No, I didn’t encounter much fear during the few hours I spent in Biohazard. Even the shock caused by the laser channel that almost killed him was quickly calmed down.

Is it because I met a new companion? ——No, Jiang Yu, Zhan Lan, Mou Gang... and Zhang Jie, although they are all very good people. But I have been soaked in society’s dye vat for too long. To become a confidant, at least you have to wait until the battlefield underground in Umbrella.

so……

——It’s Luo Li.

——Or to be more precise...it's the Luo Li in my heart.

Zheng Zha pursed his lips. He knew that the Sun Golden Sutra could resurrect the fresh dead. The Black Book of the Dead can resurrect the dead who have been dead for a long time. One of these two books can be reached by yourself. As for the other one, you only need to say hello to get it. And if you want to, then the possibility of returning to the real world and bringing back the real Luo Li with these two books and the corresponding ritual materials... is not small.

Maybe he can't do it, but he should want to do it - if the one he truly loves is really the Luo Li who died of cancer many years ago.

——But I have never thought about this... Even if I have thought about it, I have no intention of doing it.

——Ha... There is no point in deceiving yourself. If I really loved the Luo Li from the past. So, when the Lord God extracted her from my memory, what I saw should be her who lost all her hair due to chemotherapy, looked pale and weak, and was as thin as a stick of wood.

The answer is no.

The Luo Li she created was the Luo Li who never suffered from cancer from the beginning. It was Luo Li who perfectly matched all of her fantasies about her first love, and who loved her as deeply as she had expected - for ten years! I have changed from sixteen years old to twenty-six years old, and my body shape, appearance, and temperament have changed, and I look like the same two people as before. If she was really the original Luo Li, how could she let a stranger who only had a basic resemblance to her childhood sweetheart get into bed without any resistance?

There is only one answer, and that is that she was not her from the beginning, but was set up by her own subconscious to love the perfect creation she is now. The person I miss so much is just a phantom in my dream, and the childhood sweetheart who died ten years ago...only looks the same.

Going deep into one's heart is not an easy and pleasant thing. The most difficult thing for people to do is to admit their mistakes and inferiority - when Zheng Zha clearly recognized this. He felt as if a stone was pressing on his heart, and there were bursts of pain as if being pricked by many fine needles.

It felt like something was being betrayed...and something was being torn apart. The old smile had long been blurred in his memory, but when he went deep into his heart, he reached the bottom of his memory. He was shocked to find that the Luo Li who was still alive ten years ago and the Luo Li next to him were even different in appearance.

The legs are shorter, the chest is flatter, the curves are not so soft, the skin is slightly rougher and the tone is not as bright as the one next to me - there is no doubt that after ten years of dreaming, I have to complete it. , many additional parameters have been added that are different from the real Luo Li, but are in line with my own aesthetics and preferences. Perhaps, if we take this Luo Li back to ten years ago, there won't even be a twin-level confrontation between her and the genuine product.

Zheng Zha realized that he had done the right thing - the right thing was that he did not take Luo Li with him when he returned to reality.

In his original plan, in addition to introducing Luo Li to his parents, he also took Luo Li to visit the old couple whose daughter died of illness ten years ago - he felt that this might give those two Family friendships brought some comfort. It’s fine to find any reason, at least it can help them alleviate the pain of losing their daughter a little bit.

Fortunately he didn't do that.

Fortunately, because of the operations of Chu Xuan and Cheng Xiao, he did not treat that return as a honeymoon vacation. Instead, it was regarded as a difficult business trip that needed to be handled with caution - he didn't take Luo Li with him, and he didn't say much. He just quickly completed the predetermined transaction, and then withdrew and returned to the world of reincarnation.

——I almost sprinkled a pinch of salt on the wounds of a pair of parents who might have barely recovered from the pain of losing their daughter.

——What will they think? I was so nervous that I found a replacement for Luo Li after all the hard work. And then force them to admit that it was their dead daughter and let them re-experience the grief in their memories?

-Will they hate me?

Zheng Zha's thoughts turned, and then he shook his head silently in his heart.

——No, Uncle Luo and the others won’t hate me. They would just pity me. In their eyes, I have gone crazy for Luo Li. And they will pity Luo Li next to me even more, because in their eyes, she will be a sad person who loves me so much that she is willing to give up everything in her past, and even undergo plastic surgery, just to become my first love in my imagination. .

——They will not expose it...they will only hold the mentality of compensation and guilt. Take care of Luo Li as your own daughter. However, the longer we stay together, the more painful it becomes. All I bring to them is torture.

His heart beat violently, and more pain overflowed. The negative emotions of self-hatred and disgust gather like an ocean, turning into a dark whirlpool deep in the soul.

——So...it's not because of Luo Li's arrival that I regained my fighting spirit.

——What makes me despair is my disgust and gradual integration into the mud-like corrupt life. What gave me the courage was the redemption brought about by the realization of the dream in my heart.

——I... long for that ray of light that pours into the depths of hell.

--or……

The dark whirlpool is right in front of you, and what makes up the whirlpool is the endless sea of ​​hatred. It is accumulated in a person's heart. Its quantity is very small but it may also be extremely large.

Then, take a step forward.

——Or, the fire that burns up hell!

Zheng Zha's will fell into a dark whirlpool.

And the next moment, the entire black ocean was burning with dark fire!

……………………

Zheng Zha's vision returned from divergence to concentration. The change in the mind does not last for a few seconds in reality.

Jiang Yu has finished talking about his experience and is now discussing the next step.

"Set is undoubtedly the last opponent we have to face." Jiang Yu said, and then the topic changed. "Then, Geb, the God of Earth, and Nut, the God of Sky. They are the targets we must deal with next... Considering the effectiveness of nuclear bomb blasts, it won't be a big problem to follow the same pattern. However, I think maybe we can take some more radical measures.”

He turned his head and looked at Zheng Zha.

"Zheng Zha, do you have any ideas?"

He just used his vocal cords to make sounds and speak in an ordinary way.

However, in Zheng Zha's field of vision, "not long after" Jiang Yu had already given the corresponding reply.

——If I were Jiang Yu...what would I say now?

The voice of reply became clear. And then, just simply repeat it.

"They are two, and we are two."

Zheng Zha pointed at Jiang Yu and then at himself.

"It's a one-on-one battle between the two of us."

As expected, he saw the shock in Jiang Yu's eyes - even though Jiang Yu's helmet obscured his face.